I see friends breaking up, I hear people telling me about their break ups, I read random people's blogs about breaking up. It's saddening. & yet here I am just grateful the boy and I are still going on after 2.5 years.

Last time, it was me. I was the one who was in break ups. I was the one typing all the emotional ramblings and crying my eyes out. I was the one cuddling in bed, knees brought up to my chest and crying with my heart hurting literally. I was the one who's listless in school, trying to fight back the tears that just keeps welling up in my eyes.

Memories of everything we shared just replays in my head non-stop. And each time I so desperately struggle to remember every single tiny detail I can about our time together, about you, your every action and expression, your voice, your touch.

Everyone falls out of love, unless you're lucky to have your childhood sweetheart with you till the end of time. But from what I know, falling out of love is never simple.

I've spent nights crying myself to sleep, doing stupid things like slashing myself (fyi don't follow me please even though I admit it does help lessen the emotional pain but I'm a bit sadistic cause I like to see blood and have wounds and scars. Okay main point is, DON'T SLASH), desperately clinging on to whatever I have.

Now looking back at the pictures I have of the many different guys, of course there is a pang of sadness that will flow through me, of course there's a memory or two (or even a flood of memories) that will come to me and of course at times, a tear or two (or also, even a flood). Humans are born with emotions. Actually I don't know if that's true cause they say emotions and just created by the brain. But still, break up is never pretty. It's the ugly truth.

Well to all those people who've lost someone recently, take comfort and know that you aren't alone. I just know that I'll cry, I'll be in pain and all the other things but they are normal reactions.

My advice? Go ahead and cry, go ahead and scream in frustration. Because when finally one day you're able to look back, you'd realise that that person was a part of your life no matter what and he/she made a difference in it. Be glad you were with that person at least once in your life and that you will be with someone better soon.

Anyway I was thinking about blogging about my past love life. I mean it's my blog I should get to spill everything out in writing I guess.