S.H! I don't have to wait till Monday to get to a decision le :D I've decided that it'll end. AND YOU! Don't let go of your dearest lah. He still loves you aye (: See? Things between you to are so lovey dovey now. AWW. I'll talk to you real soon okay! Loves.

I'm doing stupid MI journals now. Damn, have no idea what to write. Breakfast delivery is coming soon :D I can't really move my left palm and wrist at all now? Typing this is killing me man. But the pain from my hand is worse): Exams start tomorrow. No way I'm going to screw it up.

I've thought through my thoughts, I've decided on what to let go and what to hold on to. It's a hard to make this decision but it's going to be harder to move forward. I will try and I will succeed (: One day, you'll realise you've lost someone who really cared. Haha, not my loss anyway so why should I care?

It ends tonight< / 3
Time: 8:38 AM

WOOHOO! I'm NEARLY done with BIO :D

Plant reproduction
Human reproduction
Meiosis and Mitosis (half way done)
DNA replication (half way done)

After bio, I'm moving on to Math and Human Geog and Foundational History :D
I'm so tired ): Bleh. Okay, time to go bathe le.
Going to meet Jazzie then making a trip down to the police station AGAIN -.-

I need my beauty sleep and full concentration for this exams man.
Dammit, still must shuffle in and out of police stations.
And I promised Rayne I'd go with her to the police station on Tuesday after my paper.
IM SO NICE RIGHT? haha, nevermind. I'm mad.

OKAY THIS TIME I ONLY SPEND 1HOUR AT THE POLICE STATION!
haha, compared to....thursday. Where I spent close to 3hours? z_Z
And I sprained my left wrist during gym training yesterday. I can't move it.
So my way of typing now is damn weird. My whole wrist is straight -.-

I'm missing you badly ): I hope that the lil message I left for you could cheer you up. Even if it just cheers you up a lil bit.
Time: 1:48 PM

Still struggling with my Bio. I can remember all the processes but I can't remember the names ):
Sigh, went to gym to de-stress. Damn tired from studying the whole day. And yeah, Jianming was there so as usual, he disturb me and I disturb him :D fun fun.

When You're Gone lyrics

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus]


Ohwells, it's midnight now. Time to start the next session of studying ):
Tide was saying he misses me a lot. -.-
Haha, I still think he's drunk. Shrugs.
ONCE EXAMS ARE OVER I'M SO GOING TO GO DRINKING (shawn promised), CLUBBING (bobin promised), and all the other wild stuff. Damn exams.
Time: 11:49 PM

Would you believe me if I told you I have no confidence in doing well for this exam?

I need you someone to give me the strength to carry on, and to make me believe in myself. I'm really scared now, so much that I'm breaking down. Exams stress kills me. The fear of not doing well, the fear of letting all those who had faith in me, disappointed. The thing I fear most, is letting myself down.

You told me not to study for your sake but for myself. Did you know, because you told me not to give up for Chem, I managed to do my best for it and even though I still failed, I was happy cause I knew I did my best and I never gave up trying the Chem paper? You were my motivation, somehow.

I know I shouldn't be blogging during the exam period but I'm feeling really really scared. I wanna do my best and score well. I really want to )': At least one motivation I have left in me (which is slowly dying away as time passes) is to show you my good results and hope that at least, you would be proud of me.

Useless I know. Sigh.
Back to studying again I guess.
Time: 11:46 AM

Hmm, woke up in a pretty bad mood today ): And nearly ended up late for school.
Anyway today and tomorrow I don't have to go to school cause it's study day.
But we had IH combined lecture of THREE HOURS -.-
Geog, hist and econs.
After school, went to have lunch with Clement and went to make a police report.
Making a police report can be so tedious and troublesome. Damn it.

Zzz, I'm freaking not in a good mood now.
A good advice for you: The more you try to contact me, the more irritated I become.
FOR HELL'S SAKE! I'm having my freaking exams so can you like just leave me alone?

Off to mug math and physics now. CALCULUS. You're a pain in the brain.
I need to score well. But I'm really scared I can't make it ):
Time: 9:15 PM

Everybody in my class thinks I've been working hard :/
OHMAN. Wrong thinking -.-

HAHA, nevermind. I'm feeling damn happy now.
HEEEEE x)

Okay, one thing I must say. I hate people who come and leave my life like it's some kinda of automatic door. Take for example Alex. Yes, he's my ex boyfriend years ago. Though I'm still here for him as a friend, all he does is show me attitude. Every time he would pester me about getting back together. When I refuse, he ignores me for months. After that, he comes finding me again and blah blah. It goes on. Every time he doesn't get his way, he ignores me -.-

Like last night, he called after like a month or two of ignoring me. Reason he ignored me? I refused to get back together with him. So we talked and I got kinda sian cause I was studying and it's frustrating when I'm trying to do something serious and someone is just talking cock.

Me: Hey, I talk to you after my exams can? Kinda studying now.
Him: It's not like you're going to pass like that. Makes no difference one lah.
Me: Eh, can you like try to understand? I really can't fail this time.
Him: Already told you that you will fail. Study what shit.
Me: Listen, don't make me scream at you okay? I've already scolded another friend just now for refusing to hang up.
Him: You dare scold me then say lah.
Me:(damn pissed) Okay, look. Call me after my exams okay? I really can't talk now. I just hope you can understand that this exams is damn bloody important and I CAN'T FAIL IT!
Him: Knn lah. Don't want talk say lah. Still say what after exams. -hangs up.

That pissed me off really badly. And just before that, MT pissed me off too by refusing to hang up the phone and I kinda flared up at him. Sheesh. Irritating.

And AO came sms-ing me to ask me go over find him. Told him no and that I had enough of him coming to me only when he needs me. Scolded him and he told me to fuck off. Zzz.

I'm bored, pissed and everything else.
Damn it. Need to study. Byebye.
Time: 7:22 PM

I'm freaking pissed man. SCAMMED. Gosh, pissing pissed. I am so pissed I think my IH Econs Evaluation is crap. Dammit. My language is going all the way and it's going to hit rock bottom soon. I need to buck up in my English if I wanna be a lawyer and get into law school. Damn.

Slept pretty early last night. Before midnight. Come come, applaud for me (:
Wanted to wake up at 4am to study but apparently 4 alarms couldn't wake me up -.- So I nearly overslept but luckily I woke up at the last alarm which was at 5.45am. zz.

Left the house only to realise my Ipod was outta batt :/ Even though I just charged it last night. Sheesh. And I couldn't use my hp much cause the batt was running also. So yeah, stoned on the way to school. School was seriously OMG.

Guess what? I fell asleep during Math and Chem. Couldn't stay awake. Surprisingly Mr.Eng didn't catch me sleeping. Maybe because P&C is one of my stronger math topics or he thought I was doing my work cause I slept while holding my pen upright :/ Chem is gone case ): Sigh.


After school, I stayed in class doing my revision. That's when MT called me and he freaking didn't wanna hang up which ended up leaving me with a dead phone. Which made me pissed. Slept in class and overslept -.- Woke up only at 4.30pm and quickly rushed over to the gym and meet Ying. It's not that I have so much time to keep going to the gym. But I need a break. That's the only break I get since I can't talk over the phone much anymore ):

I'm still freaking pissed. Sorry Mt for like kinda scolding you over the phone but I'm really pissed. Especially when someone calls to talk cock to me while I'm doing my homework. And when you refused to hang up, it made me flare up cause I hate it when people refuses to hang up. Yeah.

I'm so damn inflexible now. I can't do splits anymore ): Freak. Dance and gymnastics stretching ONCE MY FINALS END!
Zz. Will someone please remind me to go repair my laptop? The button's freaking irritating.
Okay, I'm in a bad mood.








I'm no longer flexible ): Damn I need dance.
Time: 10:42 PM

Don't know what's wrong but my body is so rahrah these days. I've been sleeping in classes like damn a lot. I don't normally SLEEP. I doze off for a few seconds then wake up. These days, I literally put my head on the table and sleep :/ That's bad.

Today was of no exception. Fell asleep during double period LA and GS lecture. Sigh. I'm so lagging behind in revision. Better buck up man.

Gym training tomorrow with Ying. Yup.
All right, going to revise my Physics now so that I can teach Rachel tomorrow and also finish up my homework and maybe, just MAYBE, finish Econs.
Time: 7:48 PM

It's been a long day for me.
Slept at around 4plus in the morning. Sorry JD for disturbing your sleep. Haha, saw your missed call that's why I called you back :D Sweet of you to call just to say goodnight (: Oh yes, Shawn and I had the most ridiculous conversation yesterday about... stupid stuff. Was super funny. Also, all of a sudden Ah Chuan was asking me to be his gf last night -.- He said something like he really liked me and he just realised that no matter what happened, I was always there for him. Like obviously I will be there for him, I'm there for others too! My conclusion is that he was drunk last night :D

Nearly overslept. I seriously have no idea how I managed to wake up at 8am when I didn't hear both my alarm clock and handphone alarm. So yeah, managed to wake up and went over to the gym. The woman at the counter was damn funny lah. She was falling asleep while issuing out the receipts to me -.-

Me: (pass her $5) 1 adult 1 student.
Her: (takes it, then falls asleep holding the money)
Me: (Wait and look at her)
Her: (jerks awake and open the cash register and falls asleep again)
Me: (stares)
Her: (takes out $4.50 change and gives it to me half sleeping)
Me: Uhh, 1 adult 1 student.
Her: Oh okay. (gives me the correct change plus the receipt and doze off again.

Gosh, it's super funny lah. Anyway, ran 2.4km, cycled 1km, did weights and all. My ankle ain't getting better. It hurts like shit when I walk and especially when I was running :/ Rah. No good. After gym, we (Ying, Clem and I) headed down to get breakfast then Ying went to her ahma's house to have breakfast while Clem came over to my house. After breakfast, Ying came over and we had mass study session together in my lil nice small cosy room -.- My room is seriously small. Sorry YongJie I can't teach you today. Jie's own work is also not good and I really don't have time to teach you. Sorry!

Went out to buy lunch. Helped AO buy his lunch too cause apparently that's the only thing he wants when he calls me -.- I think he's got a new girlfriend now. Tsk, not really my problem anyway. Bought lunch and went home to eat. Ying isn't in a good mood so yeah:/ Cheer up babe!

Clement's still at my house now. I'm kinda happy cause I managed to accomplish some revision today. Yes, I fell asleep halfway cause my body and brain really couldn't take it anymore. All the late night revisions and early mornings are killing me. Just one more week till final exams. ONE MORE WEEK!


P.S. Aku Cintakan Mu.
(Will we ever talk to each other again?):)
Time: 9:10 PM

This is the 555th post.

Stop for awhile and think about it.
What happens if that someone you need so badly is no longer there for you?
What if, everything was game over and there was no replay?
This time it's for real and no matter what, it can't be avoided.

There were many times I felt so lost when Ying couldn't be there for me.
Nor could my other close friends.
Had no one to turn to and I felt so alone. I never wanna take my friends for granted.
No matter who they are, they have made a difference in my life.
Some things are really hard to predict.
The feeling of being loved especially but your loved one is always the best feeling in the world I guess.
I won't know, I haven't been loved by someone I truly love for a long long time.

Dang, I'm emo-ing. 1.30am in the morning. Okay, nevermind. Shawn's like getting horny over MSN -.- Crap maaaaaan. I shall MSN till 2am then go revise till 8am then go bathe and change and go do the gym to work out. Mugging engine has to start right now. I need to stop being emo. Can't let it affect my exams the way it made me fail my Higher Chinese Prelims. Just less than 2 weeks.


The girl looked at his picture one last time.
As he slept, she cried silently as tears rolled down her cheeks.
Having so much to say, but never knowing where or how to start.
All she could do was kiss his picture one last time before she threw it away.
Then she whispered, 'Goodbye.' She knew deep inside she was so going to regret it.
She knew that when she wakes up the next day, she would wanna take his photo out from the trash bin.
No, she can't. She can't do that. That's what's killing her right now.
If only, if only he knew...

Time: 1:13 AM

I'm so dead beat ): Wanted to leave the house this morning when I realised Daddy bought breakfast for me so I had to finish it up before leaving. Met Clement and we headed down to Bugis. Both of us slept and nearly missed our stop. ALL THANKS TO ME WHO SAVED THE DAY AND WOKE HIM UP TO GET OFF THE TRAIN :D He was sleeping like a pig -.-

Got off at Bugis and headed to National Library. Eugene came after awhile and we decided to move to KFC to do our work. Not exactly fruitful but... had a great time talking to Eugene. Clement left after awhile and then Ying and Daniel came to find me after that. Eugene taught me the very basics of Bio DNA and it helped (: Thanks!

After that, Eugene left too so left Dan, Ying and me. I got bored so tagged along with them. Then Dan's gf, ShuHui came and I started talking to her. It's the first time I've met her and we don't know each other but we hit off real well! We have so much in common -nudge. HAHA.

MT came down to find me halfway through. Apparently he tried taking my bag and disappearing with it -.- Poor him, he was my punching bag the whole day :/ I think he's gone home with loads of pretty bruises on his arms and stomach. x]

Took bus down with SH and alighted at Bt.Timah to meet mummy and daddy for dinner and now I'm home. Met HuiXian and her bf on my way home and we talked on the bus about our primary school life and all (: Then alighted and saw JiaMing.

(Conv in chinese. I shall translate it to Eng)
JM: EH, AH LIAN.
Me: AH BENG.
JM: (laughs)
Me: You never see me just now meh?
JM: No. Eh, isit you grow shorter or I grow taller ah?
Me: -stares at him- WALAUUUU! I don't want to talk to you already lah.
JM: (laughs) HAHA, NO BUT SERIOUSLY! I grow taller or you grow shorter? Primary school I shorter than you leh!
Me: You now got taller than me meh? You how tall?
JM: (comes stand super close beside me to prove he is taller -.-)

Crap man, so many pri school guys are taller than me:/

Gym training at 8.30am tomorrow with Ying and Clement. Damn, I need to drink more water. Just realised my body's super dehydrated ): So tired. But I'm going to mug. Can't sleep today. No, I can't.
Time: 9:14 PM

YAWNS. Good morning everyone :D
No I'm no longer going to the National Library to study.
Anh has to go fix his lappy and Eugene never replied last night.
So instead, I'll be meeting Clem in the morning then either go find Denise or Ying.
Most prob Denise cause Ying will be out with Daniel :/ And I don't know and don't wanna know him.

Rah, I've caught a cold again. Shucks. It's 8.20am now.
Need to go bathe and leave the house.
Sigh, I'm broke ): 15cents left in my wallet and I don't have money to eat AGAIN.
Stupid.


Really can't wait for exams to be over. Got loads of dates coming up once exams are over!
-Date with AL :D
-Date with Denise and go get her prom dress and dance lessons together!
-Loads of dates with Ying and job hunting together!
-Date with SHAWN to go drinking! (My vodka :D)
-Date with Clement to go out and play!
-Dinner dates with J shall resume :D
-Shopping dates with Rachel!
-Catching up dates with my laopo(:
-Bestf dates!
and many other more dates lah. Only I can't remember :/

Btw, I might be going to Australia summer schoooooool! Wheeeee. MIGHT be.

To SX: You lied to me and I tried my very best not to think about it and be angry with you. Then you turn the tables on me and said I'm only not angry with you because of your money? Like hello? Number 1: You're not rich. Number 2: Have I ever asked you to pay for EVERYTHING whenever I go out with you? The only time I remember was my Old Chang Kee food and $5 belt cause I had ZERO DOLLARS ZERO CENTS IN MY WALLET AT THAT TIME.
Think about it lah, I always treated you as my korkor and once you bu shuang or something then come and kb me. Like puh-lease? You lied to me and I'm not angry. What more do you want? Don't wait for me outside my school to apologise or something. I don't like guys waiting for me outside my school unless he's my boyfriend.

So this is my last goodbye...
Time: 8:15 AM

I'm lost...And no, I'm not going to try to find my way to you this time.
I'll let you choose your own path and maybe, you would come and find me.
Just maybe...

Freaking tired these days, I don't know why ): Been falling asleep in class everyday. Today was during Econs and I totally K.O. Sigh, dammit man. AND I SLEPT DAMN EARLY LAST NIGHT! Like 12.30am? :/ My Windows Live Messenger is screwing up on me again. Yes, I just re-downloaded it cause I hate using the old windows messenger. Damn irritating. Now my MSN keeps hanging. ROARS.

Last period we had PE where we played captain's ball. Fun fun :D
Then headed back to Gombak to meet Ying to go to the gym.
JIANMING NEVER WASH HIS SHIRT LAH :D
Heh, he was wearing the SAME shirt he wore on Wed. Aiyohhh.
I kept disturbing him and he disturbed me too when we did our different exercises -.-
Somehow, I strained my leg muscles. Don't ask me how, cause I'm thinking about that too.
I ran, did weights, cycled, and stuff. I have this bad feeling I won't be able to walk or move properly tomorrow :/

Today's the first time Ying and I have a romantic walk down Xiao GuiLin together at night okay? :D HAHA, after gym, we wanted to head to Westmall so instead of taking bus, we decided to walk. We need to meet a seller anyway. But halfway, seller said she couldn't make it so we walked home again -.-

Studied together before we left at 9pm. She went to take bus and I walked home. Yawns. So tired man. Tomorrow I'm studying at National Library at 10am. Anyone wanna come too? Eugene still doesn't wanna reply my sms -.-
Oh yes, we played Captain's ball today and as usual, both of us were damn rough....you get the idea. I accidentally scratched Eug while trying to snatch the ball away from him :/ SORRY!

Alright, photos :D Most of them are EMO by the way:/ Can't help it lah. I've been emo-ing for the past few months. Zzz.


Anh is emo too ):


The background is actually damn pretty but unfortunately my phone has no flash and stuff but it's still pretty nice (:


THE 'MOUNTAIN' AT THE BACK WAS REALLY NICE! But it can't be seen here):


This time, I will just wait and see.


Pretty lights right? :D:D:D:D
Time: 9:51 PM

It's not that I don't care. I really do care.
But I can't care about you the same way I did last time.
I'm worried for you right now, wondering if everything is going on well for you.
But I can't sms you or call you to see if you're all right.
I'm being torn apart now from what I want to do and what I can't do.
I do care about you. Please don't get it all wrong ):
So that you know, you're still in my heart <3

Ohman, I've been falling asleep in lessons these days. Today, I slept for nearly the whole Chem period. Firstly, I don't understand a single shit that was taught and revised in Chem, secondly I'm so damn tired from staying up late and studying. Caught some blissful sleep during lunch. Not really THAT blissful cause I was blasting rock music and couldn't even hear when Rachel called my name -.-

THIS IS THE FIRST THURSDAY IN DON'T KNOW HOW MANY WEEKS THAT I'M NOT LATE :D Phone was dead the whole day. Forgot to charge -.- Went home straight after school (good girl okay! don't play play). Ying came over to find me after school and my mum PMS at me -.- Cause I was using lappy downstairs and she was in the kitchen. So I was just playing music and my mum told me to shut it cause it's irritating. Sheesh.

I'm going out till late night tmr. So anything just call me phone. Let's see.
Long day tmr ending off with PE. Then Bio remedial. Then rush down to gym and train.
Then go have dinner and mug.
Then come home and mug some more.
And go without sleep. It's friday tomorrow!

Crap MSN conv with Ying (she left her shoe bag in my house) -.-

kns ™ cying emotionless =| says:
anyway if you dont mind can you bring my shoe bag to sch tml so that i can meet you straight at the gym and dont have to make a trip to your hse to collect

/You made this decision, you chose our division. [dancinginprogress.blogspot.com] says:
orhhh

/You made this decision, you chose our division. [dancinginprogress.blogspot.com] says:
one person with three bags

/You made this decision, you chose our division. [dancinginprogress.blogspot.com] says:
HAHA

kns ™ cying emotionless =| says:
i'm so sry,

kns ™ cying emotionless =| says:
i know you're the most wonderful friend aka sister in the whole wide world that will help her best pal to carry shoe bag to sch right?

/You made this decision, you chose our division. [dancinginprogress.blogspot.com] says:
-.-

/You made this decision, you chose our division. [dancinginprogress.blogspot.com] says:
now then come praise me ah

/You made this decision, you chose our division. [dancinginprogress.blogspot.com] says:
not bad hor

kns ™ cying emotionless =| says:
haha

kns ™ cying emotionless =| says:
you should know me well =)



DAMN, I should stop shopping online. Should start saving for my Australia Summer School(:
Yay-ness. No Korea No Tian Jin at least there's Australia Summer School to look forward to :D
Time: 9:10 PM

The cruelty of life made me drop a tear in school today.
(Okay, actually many more drops of tears. Only that they were absorbed by the sleeve of my uniform)

I'm so damn shagged today. I actually fell asleep during math lessons. Normally I don't 100% fall asleep in lessons unless it's exams or tests. I will still be able to hear what the teacher is saying. Today, I just POM! and fell asleep -.- Gosh. That's bad. I still got 2 more weeks to PIA for exams :/

Two weeks with lesser rest and sleep time. I can do it!


After school went straight home to have lunch. Then went to take a quick nap while waiting for Ying to end school and find me. I only slept for half an hour and it seemed like a few hours to me lah. I was like WOAH. Damn shiok.

Ying came over and we headed down to the gym. I did a lot of arm and legs training today:D Abs can be trained at home. Ran on treadmill, pulled (?), lifted weights, and many more. Ying hardly did anything that has gotta do with weights I don't know why. So I was left alone to do weights training while she went to do the cycling machine. Oh yes, saw JianMing there -.- Haha, damn funny. He kept talking cock to me.

Clement came over to the gym to find me. He has night's out today. So all 3 of us bought dinner and went home. After dinner we studied. Basically Clement just kept playing his PSP -.- Yeahh, they've left already and I'm going to continue studying. Gosh, I'm like so damn tired. I bet Jer's has forgotten he's supposed to stay in school with me tomorrow to study. Shall call him to remind him later. If I actually bother :/
Time: 9:42 PM

I don't know what the hell went wrong but I woke up freaking early today.
After that I was just tossing and turning on bed till it was time for me to wake up.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELISSA!

Was sleeping in the car then when I woke up before we reached school, Mel was like staring at me 0.O

Me: Eh, damn scary lah. Just now in the car when I wake up first thing I see is you staring at me.
Mel: Very rare I get to see you sleep what.
Me: Yeah, of course la! Every day is you sleep and I wake you up.

Eugenia wasn't feeling well, she vomited at the stairs on the way up to the canteen. Hope she's feeling better now :/ I'm so in love with Aly & AJ songs all of a sudden. Yeah, they are emo songs xD Clement.Y (Mel's boyfriend) bought her this super huge dog stuff toy. Haha, no I'm not jealous. I never really liked stuff toys. But if my boyfriend were to ever give me something sweet and precious on my birthday or anniversaries, I will just.... HAHA, nevermind. I'm daydreaming again.

Chinese was crap, followed by Math where Mr.Eng (I don't know why) refused to teach our class saying we got bad attitude and walked out of the door after scolding us -.- So it was free period. During lunch, we had the most retarded conversation.



Me: [reading a chinese joke sms (you know those super lame kind that makes you laugh) outloud] Da ji BYE (big chicken bye!) ! Xiao ji BYE (small chicken bye!) ! All ji BYE (all chickens bye!) ! etc...etc..

Anh: [looks up] AHEM.

Me: [turns and look at him and laughs]

Anh: Did I just hear you say something ah?

Me: No no no. Nothing. You never hear anything.

Sam: What's chee bye ah? Ass ah?

Me: NOOOOO! -laughs like mad- ANH! SAM DOESNT KNOW THE MEANING OF THE WORD!

Anh: [stares incredulously as Sam and thinks of a way to say it in a less crude way]: You know Kotex?

Sam: Yeah.

Anh: Uhh, the place where you put it.

Sam: OHHH!

-pause-

Sam: SO IT'S THE VAGINA LAH!

Anh, Huy and I start laughing our heads off.



After school went with Rachel to town to buy some stuff. I got quiet halfway. REALLY quiet. And Rachel was kinda like shocked why I suddenly got quiet. I don't know why either, it's just that I suddenly didn't feel like talking. After buying the stuff we needed, sat at BK to revise for an hour or so. Then she headed back to school while I headed to WM. Mum called asking me to wait for her there to have dinner.

Dinner was a quiet affair too. I somehow refused to talk nor say a word. ):
Even when MT called just now, I din really had the mood to like joke around or 'quarrel' or even insult him :/
I'm going to study now. Sigh. A few more days. I can get through this.
Come on ShuJun. Always believe you can.



I'm so tired. Can you tow me?
Time: 8:40 PM

How great can it be?
I failed HCL prelims. Damn.
No way am I going to fail O levels HCL man.
I guess I was too 'distracted' on the day of my paper ):
Had some matters of the heart blahblah, you get the idea.


And like wth? Mt just sms-ed me to go over to TM now.
LIKE HELLO?!!! I LIVE IN THE WEST AND I'M GOING TO HAVE EXAMS!
Sometimes I swear I can kill him for being such an idiot.
I just replied him, 'SIAO!'

:D Mugging sucks.

By the way, did I mention how much I HATE boyfriends who can't spare time for their girlfriends? Or rather not even bother to try and make time for their girlfriends?
Oh yes I hate those guys. Never once have I ever left my (ex)boyfriends alone for more than an hour (in terms of talking to them over the phone or sms-ing them) nor reject a date out.
I'd reply/pick up immediately UNLESS I never felt the vibration or ringtone.
And I'd cancel all other meetings or appointments I have just to go out with my (ex)boyfriend.

Guys just don't do the same.
Everybody's so busy in this generation. Not a good generation to date eh? x)

The girl wished for that last taxi ride they had would last forever.
That she never had to let go of his hand.

Time: 7:40 PM

I'm in school now having lessons.
Everybody is writing their essays except me -.-
Cause I've finished writing mine in class last week. Yawns.

SLEEEEEEEPY): Didn't have a good sleep last night cause I stayed up till damn late trying to finish my Chinese compre which obviously I haven't finished:/ Today's a long day.

And I stress again, I'm broke. Kor owes me 50bucks cause he went clubbing and I've yet to get it back from him. Okay, he supposed to bring me to go clubbing after my exams:D yay!
I've go so many friends in army/navy/police and all of them are too busy to like meet up and chat and play :(

Especially all those really close to me in school last year. roar. I don't care.
I'm waiting for gong gong to get back from his Taiwan training. He's coming back after my exams if I'm not wrong. Then he can show me more magic tricks :D Then I'm going for YunJie's police POP x) That is if he remembers to get an invitation for me.

Okay, for those who want to talk to me or something, I'd rather you call my handphone. Cause I'm too lazy to type on MSN anymore unless you're HIM someone close to me or I always talk to online. Damn, I'm emo.

Clement said he dreamt that I died. LOL x] That's cute.

the boy held her hand, telling her everything would remain the same.
looking back, they are just strangers now. if only the girl never admitted that she loved the boy. things would have been different.
Time: 10:08 AM

I cried.
Both because I feared and because I rejoiced.
The girl told the guy, 'You're the one who can make me smile with happiness and at the same time make me cry with sorrow.' The guy kept quiet and walked away. Not once did he looked back.

I'm feeling so screwed for exams. Really screwed. Dammit.
And due to Rachel relentlessly begging me to upload all the photos, here they are.

Click here to view photos

Time to do my homework I guess. Shit school. Seriously man.
And SX thinks I hate him cause I don't reply his sms-es now.
I will only reply if it's super important (Not those like 'what are you doing now?') unless it's from my close friends or HIM. Yeah.
Otherwise I'm too lazy to reply or I'm busy mugging my ass off here.

I'm going to watch tv. Byebye.
Time: 11:12 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEMIE! (for yesterday!)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SI MIN! (for today!)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAIKIT! (for tomorrow!)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELISSA! (for 18th Sept!)


I'm damn freaking tired man.
Been out since this morning 10plus all the way till 10.30pm?

Really tired this morning and I had a hard time waking up.
Then a few hiccups in meeting Rachel here and there but after that everything was settled.
Just left my house when AO called me saying he got drunk (as usual) so headed over to his house to see how he is first.

Will someone like just stop me from going over to his house anymore? Dammit. I'm so freaking pissed. After I left his house, headed to BPP (Bt. Panjang Plaza) to find Rachel. Was day dreaming on the bus and nearly missed my stop -.-

We talked and drank hot chocolate at Delifrance till Ying came. Then studied before we went for lunch. Cam whored a whole lot of Rachel but photos up tomorrow. I'm seriously too tired now.
Left with Ying early. Supposed to meet a seller but apparently she last minute said she didn't have the goods so yeah. Headed down to town after that.

Dozed off on the bus cause I'm really shagged. Ying saw how tired I was and lent me her shoulder to sleep on (: I really slept okay! Walked about Herren and all looking at clothes till I got so frustrated and said we should go study. That's because right now I'm like really broke? Still need to get back 50 bucks from my brother soon cause I bought new clothes online :D

Headed down to plaza sing but everywhere was full so in the end we just sat at the mrt station doing our homework. Then my OG (Orientation Group) members came and so on so forth. Went to Fish and Co but I didn't have dinner cause I was pressed for time.

Stayed for awhile with them then rushed down to Kovan at 8pm to do project. After that, rushed back to DB to find Melissa to cab home together. And here I am, with a super big blister on my toe that hurts like shit. Yawns, going to sleep soon. It's 12.30am now. Clement's coming over at 9am tomorrow. Gotta give him morning call at 8am. Anyone wanna give me morning call?

Just putting up two photos. I'm too sleepy to upload the rest. Zzz.












And the girl whispered to the guy, 'I've always loved you.'
But when the guy finally understood what she meant, she was no longer there beside him.
Time: 11:58 PM

I've decided not to sleep and do my homework even though I'm having a splitting headache now ):
Today was pretty boring in school. I'm feeling damn bad :/
Because of me, Mel and Clem (her boyf) ain't going to OBK anymore. Cause mum doesn't allow me to go so when they found out that I wasn't going, they said that they won't go too cause it won't be of anymore fun if only the both of them went ): Gosh, I feel so damn bad seriously.

First period was Chinese and we got back our prelims Paper1. Damn, I just merely passed it. My compo was out of point and as usual, minus 5marks for wrong words :/ Total marks deducted for both letter writing and compo were 8 marks. Roar. Later was IH where I was kinda stoning. One thing about Econs is that I do understand the links and all but the problem is once you use specific cheem terms on me (like Real National Income or Monetary Policy, etc.) I will go huh? I always know the links but I never know the names of stuff. Same goes for my bio -.- I'm never good at remembering names.

LA was crap, we just wrote essay. I finished typing out mine yesterday but Dr.Lim said I can't hand in a typed out copy cause she wants us to practice writing so I spent the whole period sitting there, listening to my Ipod and writing out my essay again word for word from the printed essay. Math was okay (: Had a lot of careless mistakes in Permutation and Combinations though :/ Need more practice. After lunch was triple science which I had completely no idea what was going on. Bleh.

After school, I had to go over to Bukit Timah Shopping Centre to find Clement. Apparently he and his company people were down there playing dota. Oh yes, Clement made me pissed last night cause I kept asking him to come into school to find me but he refused. Well, guess what? When I went over to meet him (I was seriously pissed cause he had no idea where he was and I had to figure it out myself), he had a bouquet of roses for me :D NO WONDER HE DIDN'T WANT TO GO INTO SCHOOL AND FIND ME! x)

I was super shocked. Okay, not really THAT shocked cause I was pissed with him still. But the flowers were OMG so damn pretty! Roses you know! Awww. I simply loved it. So we went to have lunch there and went to find his friends at the coffeeshops near the bus stop. We were standing quite far from them (I didn't wanna go over to say hi) and I was trying to figure out who were SY and PJ when suddenly the WHOLE group of them (around 10 people?) turned at the same time and stared at me. I was like WOAH, and quickly looked away. THEY ARE SCARY MAN! Haha, after that I didn't dared to look back anymore and quickly hailed a cab to get away. HAHA.

Headed down to JP where we caught Evan Almighty. Not exactly a nice show as compared to Bruce Almighty. Well, after the show, we couldn't catch Ratatouille cause mum and dad didn't allow me to stay out till so late. So we had dinner and headed home.

Damn, I love the roses man. No I don't love Clement. I love the roses. Gosh.
Clem knew that this few months I've been in an emo state esp these days so he bought them(:
FIRST time he's given me such pretty ones!
Clement thinks I'm lying when I say roses can really cheer me up -.-

(Thru sms)
Me: Thank you for the flowers today.

Him: Heh, now i know what u meant by u like flowers very very much. It's worth it.

Me: u think all this while im joking abt how flowers can reali cheer me up and make me smile meh?zz.

Him: I tot a bit only. Never expected it to be so much.

That's the power of flowers man! Buy me roses and I will be smiling the whole day at you. Literally!



















The rest of the photos I'm too lazy to edit so yeah. Goodnight (:
Time: 9:46 PM

/You made my heart skip a beat today.

Okay, school was okay. And as usual (EVERY thursday) I would either end up late for school or JUST ON THE DOT :/ Today was no exception. Hey! I woke up really early okay! Just that I was scrambling about trying to find my Physics tutorial which mysteriously disappeared. Yeah.

After school I went for Math tuition where I completed 3 questions :D Heh, I know that' s not much but to me, to be able to do ONE SIMPLE (note the word simple) differenciation problem is a miracle. Had filming for MI project after that which didn't turn out THAT well :/ So yeah.

There's OG outing this Sat to celebrate two of my friends' birthdays but I think I've gotta skip it again ): Bah, so saddening. Cause they are only meeting at 6.30pm and my project starts at 7pm. Rah. I miss my OG members alright! ):):):

And I want to go for Outward Bound Korea! Dammit. I really wanna go!
Sigh, alright, I'm going to study now. Tide just called me.
Talked cock all the way. HAHA, he tio guard duty.
SUAY MAN! And I have a very bad feeling he put me on loud speaker:/
Stupid korkor who claims that I'm top of his list even above his girlfriend.
Bullshit man. I bet he says that to every girl.
Nevermind, he's calling again tonight. Shall go mug now.


I NEED MOTIVATIONS LIKE HELLO?
Time: 7:41 PM

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY MISTER SHERWIN!(:
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY MY GOOD FRIEND MALCOM (:



P.S. Pass you two your presents when I meet up with you. HAHA.
Have a great birthday you two hot hunks :D

To Sherwin: Stay hothothot okay :D Not like you will read this but yeah. Won't bully you for 24hours. HEH. Jiayou for your project for this 3 months and I hope you don't oversleep tomorrow:/ MEET YOU SOOOOON MISTER PIG! (:

To Malcom: Hey dear friend! Though we don't really talk much to each other now cause you're also down with your project but I wish you all the best. Remember that if there's anything, I'm here for you! Just give me a buzz anytime (: Yup, and all the best to you and your darling. You told me to be strong, you have to be strong too! AND ALSO, mugging sessions are like going byebye. HAHA.
Time: 12:00 AM

Pretty sky.


Pretty hair yes? (:
Time: 9:37 PM

Last night was oh so bad man. I actually cried myself to sleep o.O
Went to school in a daze. Mum only allowed me out of the house after I applied mosquito repellent cause every morning I have to wait before Mel's dad comes to fetch me so yeah. My area has hit 88 cases I think. Or maybe more.

Chi paper 1 is BAH. I forgot to write the 'xin jia po gong he guo' sentence for letter writing. Roar. Compo was okay:/ I wrote 1150 words I think. HAHA. Chi paper 2 was crap. Serious crap. Damn my prelims ):

I'm still having my stupid flu. DAMMIT. I'm so tired.
Emotionally drained - Yes
Mentally drained - Yes
Physically drained -No

Thanks SX for the belt and food (: Haha. I'm super super super ULTRA broke. Guess what? I've got 5cents to last me this whole week! :/ HMM and guess what? In 10 days, I've spent up to $310 bucks on shopping. Am I pro or what? Sam was asking me today where the hell I get all the money from. Hmm, good question. I'm wondering too xD

Alright, going to study now. This whole week study sessions after school most probably with Ying and Bobin. Anymore wanna join in? Haha, only applicable to those living in my neighbourhood and are from Dazhong :D Because maybe I'll be having those study sessions at my house.
Time: 8:38 PM

MY HIGHER CHINESE O LEVEL PRELIMS ARE TOMORROW!
Dammmn. How on earth do you study for languages?
Better hope I'm in a good mood tomorrow and don't feel sleepy.
Cause when I'm alert, I can write and think LOGICALLY. HAHA.

I'm still feeling high. Damn, I think I really drank too much coke.
Last night it was like, I talked to Jer till past midnight?
We only have good talks together when we go out or on the phone.
You see the both of us in school ah, haha, people think we are enemies xD

So yeah, had a good talk with him and bastard-ing people we know (SHH! Cannot say who.)
It was crap but nice though.
Then Ying called and we talked over the phone AND on MSN. I think we're mad. Haha.
Oh yes, and online shopping together too. Fun fun.
Did I mention, SX gave me 25 bucks yesterday to buy the dress I really like.
He's sponsering me 150 (minus the 25 yesterday) so it's 125 bucks for me to spend after my exams (:
MT too! He said if I passed ALL subjects (a bit hard ah:/) I'll get 350 bucks.

Damn, nice motivations but I'm still feeling too lazy to study. SERIOUS!
Even Ying says she's given up on trying to make me study :D

So yeah, then Ying went to sleep at 2plus. So with nothing to do, just chatted online then make JD call me. HAHA, poor him but poor ME more! I was trying to entertain myself more than he was talking to me :/ Still, we talked till like close to 5am then hung up. And then I watched videos online till like 6.15am before I went to sleep for 4hours.

Okay, I'm seriously still damn high and happy (:
Going to call Ying later to talk cock and all. Wheeeeeee.
You know, I can never study alone unless it's the week before exams then I will pia like mad.
If not, I can only study with people studying together with me.
BAH.

PRELIIIIIIIIIIIIMS!
DAMN.
Time: 1:39 PM

HEY SERIOUSLY,
forget it man.




Today I didn't expect myself to wake up so late. Maybe cause I was emo-ing last night so I slept for a VERY long time. Woke up at 11.30am. SORRY SX that I didn't pick up your call when u called after you ended work at like 3plus in the morning? z_z My handphone was on silent so yeah. And I'm still sick dammit but feeling loads better. At least I don't need MUCH tissues now.

Woke up at 11.30 to find 6missed calls and 9sms-es o.O dammmnn. Jumped out of bed and SX called me to ask him to meet him cause he was out alone and damn bored. So went to bathe and rushed out of the house. Zzz. Met him and we walked about while waiting for DDL to like, come? She was late for 1hour plus mind you. HAHA. So SX and I just walked about doing nuts. I can't shop with guys unless I'm like really really close to them like Clement. Otherwise I will just go into a shop and walk out :/

SX and I went to play arcade and it was oh so funny. Especially when I went to play the drums. That's my weakest. I can never hit perfect rhythm nor have good coordination. You hear me play piano, all my timings are my own, never according to the score. HAHA. Then we played the basketball thing and it was oh so hilarious.

DDL came and we ate lunch, walked about, studied, ate dinner, walked about, played more arcade.
And yeah, I'm home.

Gosh, it's been damn long since I stepped into an arcade man. Dammit. Actually it's been damn long since I stepped out of the house to PLAY :/ Most of the time I'm at home doing shit.

OHYES! This uncle was like being over friendly to me at the food court at Causeway pt.

(the conversation is supposed to be in Chinese though)

Me: Uncle, fried hokkien mee. No sotong please. Thanks.
Him: No sotong ah? Prawns want?
Me: Umm, yeah.
Him: Okay, why you eat prawn then don't like sotong?
Me: Uhh, cause...just don't like eating sotongs?
Him: Oh okay.

-pause-

Him: Xiao mei (little girl), how old are you this year?
Me: 16.
Him: Ok.

-pause-
Him: What's that on your leg? Tattoo ah?
I just kinda pretended not to hear cause he had another customer ordering.
(Btw, it's not tattoo. It's DDL's drawing on my thigh -.-)

-pause-
Him: What's your name ah?
Me: Umm, I'm ShuJun.
Him: Where you live? Around here?
Me: ......uhh, not really near here. Yah.

(and I can't remember the rest of the conversation.)
I was being super friendly to everyone today cause of sugar rush from all the Coke I drank today. SX was saying the uncle was trying to flirt with me. -.- Not the first time I had this kind of experience though.

Okay, photos damn long ago. I just got it out from my phone.


I didn't know the back of my hair was so long already o.O


Someone took this I can't remember who.


It's mister wormie! I was playing with it in school :D


Uhh?


Anh's drawing of me being emo. HAHA.
Time: 8:21 PM

Long over due photos. Here they are, those taken at AOH. Only a few cause I'm too lazy and sick to edit the rest. Most were unglam shots. Bah.



ARMY OPEN HOUSE 07


Mosquitoes are getting more creative, they can now make patterns when feeding -.-




First he points to my butt.


Then he tries to kill me. See that evil grin on his face?




We jump together, we fall together. HAHA.


Best friends (:


CLEMENT IS A RETARD :D

Time: 9:45 AM

Weird thing was that on Monday, I had zero dollars and don't know how many cents in my wallet but when I opened my wallet yesterday, I had 15bucks o.O
No it wasn't Clement who put the money in. Then who?
Not my parents cause they haven't been in my room ever since I fell sick.
THEN WHO? :/
I'm sick sick sick.
I'm sick sick sick.
Here I go again, cannot taste food, cannot talk properly.
Cannot leave the house without a few packets of tissues.

DID I MENTION! My area is considered the most dangerous area in Singapore for dengue with 74 cases till date.
and not to mention, I've got like 7 mosquito bites? o.O
Damn stupid construction all over Bukit Batok. The don't know what people (MP i think) says the mozzies come from household which I think is seriously bullshit. It comes from construction sites like hello? I even see rats running about the area lah and if it's household, why only up till now then they say is household? Damn pushing the blame onto residents instead of themselves.

Okay, nevermind. I shall go rest now and I don't know, study later?
SO WHO PUT 15 BUCKS INTO MY WALLET?!
Time: 10:54 AM

Thanks to yesterday's rain, and my playfulness, I'm sick):

Walking about in both heavy rain and drizzle, getting wet and maybe not so drenched, sliding in and out of freezing air-conditioned places, here I am, sick.
Hate it, been sneezing since last night till now. Feeling damn URGH ):

Sorry to my MI group that I couldn't go for the meeting cause I had slight fever.
I'm going to school later (not that I want to but I have no choice) for consultations then after that I can meet you guys, if you all are still there:/ Sorry!

Damn, of all times I need to be sick now): Sick + emo = GG.

hurhur.
Time: 11:20 AM

Last night I had a so super retarded funny dream (for the FIRST time in don't know how many weeks or even months) that I nearly overslept. My alarm rang, I woke up, switch it off and went back to continue the dream. Then Ying gave me wake up call at 8am, I woke up, talked awhile, hung up and went back to continue the dream again. HAHA.

Ohwells, even though I woke up pretty early, I still ended up late for consultations -.- I always end up late. Rah. So yeah, two hours consultations with Mr.Lee, then went with Sam to buy her lunch, headed down to Westmall to meet Ying. Oh, saw ShaoYu on the bus too and we were talking crap. I'm nice and gave him my apple lollipop while I ate the orange. Heh, he promised that we will go shopping together after both our exams. x) And he owes my 5 years of birthday presents. Some kind of korkor. Tsk.

Was raining damn heavily so Ying and I decided to wait for the rain to get smaller before heading down to the AOH (Army Open House). Looked about the shops and all. Hmm. When the rain got smaller, we went to the place where there was the shuttle bus service and they had this security check thing.

Guy: (stares at me)
Me: (wondering where to put my bag)
Guy: (stares some more)
Me: Uhh.. (points to my bag and then to the table)
Guy: Yeah.
Me: Oh okay (puts bag down and gets ready to go through the sensor thing)
Him: Do you have any metal objects? (points to bag)
Me: (confused) Umm, you mean metal objects in my bag (points to bag) or on me (points to myself)?
Him: Oh, on you.
Me: (looks up and down my body) Hmm, nope.
Him: Okay, walk through here then.

My gosh, some times some people can make me do and say the retard-est things.
So we headed down to the army camp and went to find Clement. He's selling ice creams.
HAHA, got coupons from him and went to act act in front of his other partners who are selling ice creams.

Me: (hands them the coupon)
Guy at the stall: You sure got army friend one right!
Me: Heh, don't know.
Guy: Sure got one lor. If not why you got coupon. (hands me ice cream)
Me: Haha, dont know laaaaaaaah.

So Clement couldn't leave his booth so Ying and I walked about in the rain. Everyone else around us were either wearing raincoats or carrying umbrellas except we two idiots walking in the rain. HAHA. After that Clement could escape for 2omins so we walked about and I spotted his classmate amidst the crowd lor!

Me: CLEMENT! your friend your friend. there!
Him: Huh? who?
Me: norrrr your classmate... i think... I can't see the face properly. AIYAH your friend lah!
Him: which one? where?
Me: THAT ONE LAH!!!! the one wearing specs. UH UH UH. second last row. 1-2-3-4-5 FIFTH person.
Him: sure or not?
me: you go see the face!!

Sometimes, Clement ought to be killed for being so slow. After that, Ying and I headed back to Jurong point where we walked a bit then she had to go home. So i had to window shop for like an hour before my parents came to meet me for dinner. Window shopping is not fun. I went to try on this pants I really like and I saw nice belts and bags but I had no money.

Did I mention? I went out of my house this morning with ZERO dollars and ZERO cents in my wallet :/

Sigh, had dinner with parents at JP's Swensens. I bet the staff working down there were thinking of us as the 'Mad Family' x) Then we walked about and daddy say he will only get me a new cam at the end of the year when the sales come ): Bah, have to make do with my antique camera for now:/ After that, daddy and mummy left first leaving me alone cause I was waiting for Clement to come and meet me. Sent me home and here I am, nearly sick ):

Bah, no good no good. I'm too tired to do photos.
Sorry Ying, maybe tomorrow when I'm not too tired.
Am I meeting you tomorrow? o.O

I miss you badly deep inside though I don't show it on the outside.
Why did I ever fall so deep? So much I don't know how to let go?
Because I love you, I'm willing to do so much.
I just hope you understand, I do things on my own accord.
Not expecting any thing from you (:
Just being close friends would be great :D
Time: 9:37 PM

Yesterday night was shit night.
Apologies to the many people I showed attitude to.
And thanks to them who at the same time understood my plight.
Friends (like what Malcom told me) will not leave in the darkest hour.
Yeah, so ah xiong called me at 12am EXACTLY -.-
I don't really like talking to him cause half of the time he doesn't understand what I'm talking about and the OTHER half of the time I don't understand what he is talking about.
Not my fault that he's never completed primary school education and that I don't know how to speak dialect :/
But still, all went well I guess. He said that once my exams are over, he will bring me out to shop (:

Today is just a super boring day. Oh yes I'm still being anti-social):
RAH. I'm suppose to go over to Ying's house to study but nevermind. Some other time bah.
Just slumbered around the whole house the whole day and guess what?
I haven't went upstairs since I came down at 8am o.O
Normally I will climb up and down and walk about the whole house but today I haven't been upstairs since I came down. Kinda interesting. Haha.

Gotta go to school for consultations tomorrow. SIANZXZXZXZXZXZX.
ESPECIALLY Chem. 2 hours. And I don't know a shit about Chem.
WOOHOO. How am I going to survive? In lessons I can still fake a bit and nod my head say I understand. But in consultation, MrLoh will be sitting right in front of me :/
OH YES! Does anyone wanna teach me how to revise for Higer Chinese?
My O level prelims are next monday :/ and I never knew how to study languages.

Alright, I wanna go cook my chilli bee hoon.
That will cheer me up.

P.S. Don't oversleep and be late for book in hor (:
Time: 4:57 PM

So much I want to say but somehow, I know I can't...
One day, I just hope one day, you will know everything that I want to say...

Did I mention I was damn pissed off in school yesterday by two people who were SUPPOSEDLY close to me? Oh yeah, I was damn fucking pissed, if you two haven't realised. One said stuff without thinking I nearly screamed at you (really it was that bad) and another did things which disappointed me greatly. Ah, fuck. Nevermind.

For once, I K.O rather early last night cause I knew that I won't be having any phone calls on Fri nights because it's book out day :D Haha, actually I woke up at 7am but you know, having weird dreams of horribly disgusting toilets (I told Ying and she was grossed out) and shopping for weird clothes without money. Got woken up when Ying called me to tell me she just woke up and she would come over in an hour's time or so. Dragged myself out of bed, went to bathe and waited.

Mum accused me of taking 10bucks from her wallet again I just screamed at her. Dammit. It's not the first time she's been saying this kind of stuff alright? And like if I had 10bucks, I wouldn't be officially broke! Wth. I'm left with ZERO dollars and TWENTY cents now. Happy? Zz. It's like early in the morning you are accused of being a thief. After that she still thinks I stole it and whatever man. SERIOUSLY whatever.

If she put it this way, I wouldn't have screamed.
'DID YOU take 10bucks out of my wallet some time this week?'

But no, she said THIS.
'WHY did you STEAL 10 dollars from my wallet?'

See the difference? That's why my mum's a pain in the ass to talk to. She never gives you chances to explain nor even bothers to listen to what you wanna say unless I tell her, 'Can you shut up and let me finish talking/listen to what I want to say?' I'd talk to Daddy any other time.

Enough about that. So yes, met Ying downstairs to go for lunch. Guess what? We spent 40 mins walking about the WHOLE neighbourhood looking for places to eat and when we finally settled down, we took another 40mins or so to eat. Crap man. After that, headed down to WM to find my dad. He needed my NIRC to buy some student plan thing and buy a new phone but guess what? Bloody hell, it wasn't for me. It was for my bro. I was so damn damn pissed off I walked away and gave them (my parents) a black face.

Firstly, today's my study day and you make me go out. Secondly, if that ##@$% is not for me but my bro, why can't he fu*king well bring the NIRC down HIMSELF instead of me! While he's at home sleeping/playing games to his heart's content?! Pissed off twice in a day.

Daddy was nice however, he came down to coffee bean to find me to get my card (cause I walked off) and gave me 10bucks to get something to drink. But I was still pissed. Studied with Ying there till 5plus. Then walked about WM looking for clothes and stuff before heading home. Ohwells.

Can't wait for exams to be over. Can work out in the gym and get a part time job. Catch up with friends and go out to shop. This is my pre-exams mood. I always day dream about what I wanna do AFTER my exams and never think about what I NEED to do BEFORE my exams. HAHA. But still, I'm broke. Damn broke. Help ):
Time: 8:11 PM