Mum: What happened to you? You look very haggard.
Me: Obviously I am. Damn shagged la.

Whatever happened today I shall post tomorrow cause I'm REALLY shagged now.
What's more most of the pictures are in Quan's camera not mine. He will only be sending to me at like..... 2am or 3am? o.O
Hope that boyboy calls which I think most probably not :/ Shall just set my phone to loud mode anyway in case he really does.

Talking shit to Zac on MSN now -.- (MY msn nick is '/Excuse me mister, have you seen my boyfriend?'

Zac: I think I've seen him. Is he purple and does he look like a dinosaur?
Me: Uhh, I don't think so. Purple is so gay and my boyfriend is hot :D



Shit, damn psycho now. Blog tomorrow. I need sleep and exercise more.
Tell me what can I do when I:

1) Am walking with a limp cause I over stretched my thigh muscles when doing gymnastics.
2) Have blisters all over my right palm SOMEHOW.
3) Have a sprained left wrist since today's 'accident' with my bowling ball.
4) Over-strained my right arm muscle so much it hurts when I move it and it trembles like mad o.O
5) Am still sick and coughing.

WHATEVER. These are excuses. I ought to wake up and learn not to give excuses. Yes, I shall do that. I shall torture myself physically to numb this emotional pain.

Ying and I bought a new shirt :D Same design but different color. AWWWW <3
Time: 11:50 PM

[Edited]

Rah, I'm really really bored now ):
Early morning I called loads of people but either they never pick up, handphones are off, or cannot go out.

Ying: She's going out with Quan later and I don't want to tag along. And I don't get to watch NDP preview ):
Tian: Not picking up her phone.
Justina: She's staying home to finish her homework.
Jiayi: Handphone is off.
Shirley: Never pick up.
ZhangLi: Going to buy her OBS stuff.
WeiYu: Going out with her mum.
Sam: Going out with her mum.
Grace: Got homework to complete.
Charlyn: Going to do her GS essay with her group.

Asked 10 girls and the results are NIL. I should start asking guys out. HMM.
Oh man, you know last night I was HOPING someone would call but he din so nevermind.
At freaking 12.40am, this private number called. Was sleeping at that time but picked up in case it was him.

Me: Hello?
Him: Hi, how are you?
Me: (although half sleeping, i'm positively sure the voice wasn't his) Uhh, who are you?
Him: Oh, I'm Joseph.
Me: ......(hangs up)

FUCK LAH. BLOODY KNN CCB PEDOPHILE. CAN YOU LIKE BLOODY WELL STOP HARASSING ME EVEN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAMN EARLY MORNING! KNN. If I bloody well am ignoring you and hanging up on you means I freaking bastardly don't want to know who the hell you are and YOU TURN ME OFF. YOU NO LANJIAO FREAKY SHIT HEAD GAY. Seriously, I'm damn damn going to make sure you SUFFER. IF I even find out who you are and where you live and how you look like, you better be REAL careful. I won't be that stupid to let you see who I am, BUT you better beware everytime you go out. You're going to get bashed up damn badly I swear. If I find out who you are. Going to make police report most probably on Monday. Will get Ying to come along with me. AND if he continues harassing me after police warning, hoho, you will be in for a good gang fight. FUCK.

This sucks. Sigh, I don't even know who I can turn to? Yesterday I was so emotion-less I think I made bestf upset ): Sorry love, but you know why I was so emotion-less (I seriously was heck care) and I'm also damn sick now. I want roses. Shit, shall go buy some for myself later and put into my room to cheer me up :D


[EDIT]

OKAY (: I just came back from bowling with daddy. OMG, today's bowling was so so bad. Bowled 6 games as usual and daddy was giving me pressure! :/ He doesn't bowl but the first 3 games he still got higher than me.

First 3 games were shit and I was on the verge of screaming cause I couldn't figure out what was wrong with my bowling technique. Average was only 75!!!! I was really pissed until I figured out why I was bowling so badly :D Things started to get better after I changed my style :D:D:D:D

Then my average for the next three games were better. Got 120,111,120. Average was 118. 7 points increase :D So I'm aiming for average for 120 the next time round. I do know it's very little but you can't blame me. I don't bowl as well as I play bball so that's why I'm training hard :/ Must jia you. I so want to get and average of 150 and above and break my high score SOON. (:

Sprained my left wrist during the last game ): RAH. Oh, yesterday I was bowling alone and there was this uncle who was damn good but I hated him. Why? He doesn't have manners on the lanes. As in, rules are such that bowlers are to give way to the bowler on the right and not stand on the lane while others are bowling. HE, though he can bowl damn well, has no manners at all. Sigh, good bowlers does not mean they have manners. Bleh.

I'm bored at home. Want to go swimming but shall wait till Monday when I go with ying. I do want to go out with him too but nevermind. Guess he's all tied down with his other friends and doesn't really care about me so yeah. Life's like that.

OH! READ THIS. HAHA, GOT IT OFF J's BLOG. ROAR.

anybody have experienced going out with mad people?? jumping around, running around..sing cheers.. if you don't.. thank God for not having k..

i went out with madwoman today!!! I didnt know she's mad, she looks normal to me at first!!! while walking on the street, she relapsed!!! looks can be deceiving ar.. so cannot judge a book by it cover..haha
Time: 9:28 AM

LAST PAPER IS OVER! Cheers :D
Only came to realised that I needed to study Term One physics last night -.-
Read through the first page and I was like... stunned.

Was on the phone with Clement,

Me: Eh, shit lah, I can't remember anything from Term1.
Him: Relax and slowly read through. Can one.
Me: ....I still don't understand. AIYAH, FORGET IT. Term1 I give up liao lah.
Him: Okay lor, Then go sleep lah.
Me: Zzz. There goes my A1 for physics lah.

HOHO, so I went to sleep, Giving up on equilibrium of forces and Term1 stuff. Had a bad night somehow and woke up damn early. Bad hair day, everything bad and I went to school. I think physics really rocks. I went to school and when Eugene and CS asked me Physics stuff, I could answer without any notes (except Term1 lah).

Then Physics paper and I slept the last 5mins. Was damn tired like I said, I had a bad night. But Physics paper was okay I guess. I just pray that my brain was working when I did the sums cause I didn't check. After I did all the questions, I slept ): So after Physics paper I slacked about in school. Two people asked if I was alright. First was Zhangli and she said I looked damn weak and sick and she checked if I had a fever. Second was ChoonFah who asked if I was alright cause I looked damn pale and shagged:/

Thanks Sam dear for walking out the main gate with me all the way to the bus stop. It meant a lot to me. Took bus went home for less than 5mins, changed into OBS polo tee and FBT, grabbed my handphone, wallet and ipod, dragged my bowling bag and I was out of the house again. Went to Cdans to bowl after like 2 months without training.

Bowled 6 games and I thought that I was so so going to flunk as in every game get 70 plus or even 60. Instead I got an average of 111 per game :D Not THAT good but without 2 months of training, the scores I got today was even better than those I get when I train.

MORALE OF THE STORY: ShuJun should not train cause she performs better without training. HAHA. What nonsense.

But screwed up machine ate away one of my frames and if it didn't, I could have beaten my personal high score and get 130 and above. Damn.
So the scores were like highest 121 and lowest 96 (screwed up cause clement called to tell me he wasn't going out with me and I was pissed).

Then met J after my bowling. HAHA, he came all the way to CDANS to find me. AWW. Then he accompanied me home to put my stuff, and I was out of the house again after taking more money from my mum -.- Then headed down to Westmall to eat :D HAHA, thanks for the treat leh x) Shopped for his socks and stayed at coffee bean drinking stuff and talking. Waited for ying to come then all of us headed down to town. WE BOUGHT A CARTON OF MILK EACH TO DRINK! I didn't finish mine though cause it's so much! Went to Far East Plaza and shopped about.

I was hyper lah. Jumping and running up and down and singing songs. J was so so ashamed he tried to run away from me. Imagine a girl, with unkempt hair, wearing an oversized polo tee with FBT and slippers, jumping up and down orchard road like some siao keena. HAHA, I'm sorry but lack of sleep causes me to be hyper and you were the one who said I should talk more. So yeah, hyper all the way (: Shopped for ying's clothes and at the same time J was trying to make me keep quiet. -.-

Me: Soooo, are you bored?
J: Told you I don't like shopping with girls.
Me: Okay! So I shall entertain you okay!
J: Uhh, no no. You just stand here can already. Your presence is appreciated.
Me: Cannot lah. Must make you smile so must entertain you.
J: I tell you something seriously okay?
Me: Ya what?
J: You look most beautiful when you are quiet.
Me:...........HAHA, REVERSE PSYCHOLOGY DOESN'T WORK ON ME! I will still be high.
J: It's not reverse psychology lah. It's true.
Me: Haha, I don't care. High people don't care what others say de. And don't try to lie to me. TSKK.

And I continued to irritate him :D

Then he treated Ying to Subway to eat. Unfair! He makes me treat him! I owe him 35bucks. HAHA. That's today's lunch. I didn't eat dinner cause I didn't feel like eating. Then he left for church with his friends while Ying and I went to walk about Orchard for awhile before going home.

Walked in the rain where it felt so good. One thing I should remember is never to walk in the rain and listen to emo songs. HAHA, I walked damn slowly and was kinda drenched :/ Thought that today was going to be a screwed up day but it seemed okay.

Sometimes, the best solution to problems is to keep quiet. I'm trying my best to be neutral now. RAH. Gosh, damn sick now ): Worse than before. Think it's cause I walked in the rain. And korkor is in Hong Kong now. Shopping -.-




He-who-must-not-be-seen :D J said he will kill me if I post his picture up here :/


Erased the f. couple behind who purposely posed behind. And when I saw the picture and was damn angry, they moved away. Grr.


Our two cartons of milk :D


Me with an over-sized tee, FBT, slippers, a BreadTalk plastic bag and a milk carton walking down Orchard Road. HAHA.


At least I've got your hand to hold.


Dearest Ying (:










Milk is good for you :D


This is the LOVE best friends have <3
Time: 8:50 PM

SHIT! Now then I know that Term1 stuff for Physics are tested too!

HOHOHO, there goes my A1 for physics. PIA lah.
Don't feel like sleeping tonight.
Excited about tomorrow.
End paper at 9.15am.
If I'm not going out, I will go home straight.
Change, go for a run, come home, get my bball and play!
Play till 7pm. I don't care if I turn black or what.
Cause I know that if I'm not going out tomorrow, I will be in a foul mood.
HAHA.
Time: 9:27 PM

MATH IS FINALLY DOWN! -POM!-

K.O :D

Math seriously makes me cranky. Why?

Reason 1: Yesterday when I was memorizing formulas, I started singing Baa Baa Black Sheep and screaming out the formulas when Clement was testing me :/

Reason 2: I had weird SUPER weird but damn REALISTIC dreams last night. It felt damn real okay? It was about both friends and love and I dreamt XinTian sms me good luck but when I woke up and check my phone, she didn't ):

Reason 3: I was talking so much cock after assembly.

Reason 4: I wasn't worried at all.


CRANNKYYYYY! MA 2103 (Mr.Eng's module) is damn great. Guess what? I finished 20 mins before the time. THIS IS LIKE FIRST TIME IN 593482030459357593029 YEARS! Seriously, I never had the time to finish doing ALL the questions before. Unless I don't know how to do and that's a different story.

Thank God I left Question 2 for the last. Cause Mr.Eng kept making changes to the question and everyone was frustrated except me cause I haven't done it yet! :D

MA2104 was shitty. You can tell from me and Eugene's reaction.

(straight after the paper was collected)
Me: Eugene, Cool or not?
Him: -shows sign-
Me: Haha, on lah. Confirm fail liao.
Him: Ya lah me too. Fail lah.
Me: Question 5 you know how to do or not? I just did dy dx then no more le.
Him: I don't even understand the question lah!
Me: Hi-5 lah! (hi-5) We fail suan le lah.

HAHAHAHA. That's crap seriously. MA2104 byebye :D
NOW I'M LEFT WITH PHYSICS. Gosh, I'm so so happy (:
AIMING FOR A1 FOR PHYSICS. RAH.








All these were taken on......MONDAY :D (I think:/)

Tomorrow can be a happy day for me and also can be a sad day. Haha, it depends on -.
But nevermind! I know what his reply will be already. Yup :D Shall just accept it and life still goes on and on and on and on till I die. HAHA.
Time: 12:33 PM

SUBJECTS TESTED IN THIS MID YEARS
I'm crossing them out as I finish :D

1) Language Arts
2) Geography
3) Chemistry
4) Higher Chinese Paper 1 and 2
5) Two Math paper
6) Physics


5 4 3 TWO DAYS LEFT TO FREEDOM (:

I so wanted to sms you today but I know you're enjoying yourself so I won't distrub you. Just happy that at least I know you are smiling all the way and you're happy there (: I know I can't be the one making you smile but as long as you're happy, I'm happy too. I miss you.

CHINESE PAPER WAS WOOHOO! Seriously, during lesson time, all my compos never reached 800 words and above. Except today cause it's EXAMS! :D Haha, wrote quite alot and OH! I nearly wrote my compo out of point. Luckily I realised it halfway and managed to bring the compo back to point :D Yup.

After Chinese paper I went straight to find Mr. Eng for math session. He got the two new teachers to teach Sam and I. I got Ms. Chan and Sam got Mr.- (I don't know his name but I know he's taking over BOB this sem. YAY! Ooops =x) They were really nice. Teaching us and everything (: And suddenly, Calculus seem to be my friend. Hi friend! :D

Yup, after that grueling but fruitful 3 and a half hours of math, I headed home STRAIGHT to meet Clement. Now he's at my house sleeping -.- Going to do a bit more math then move on to physics cause he can't come out of army tomorrow to teach me. Yup.

I really want to sms YOU. To ask how you are and just to hear from you. RAH. Even thought of calling you but NEVERMIND (: I just know you're happy there and I know you really are.

As long as boyboy's happy, girlgirl will be happy too.
Time: 5:12 PM

SUBJECTS TESTED IN THIS MID YEARS
I'm crossing them out as I finish :D

1) Language Arts
2) Geography
3) Chemistry
4) Higher Chinese Paper 1 and 2
5) Two Math paper
6) Physics


5 4 3 DAYS LEFT TO FREEDOM (:

I'm not emo today. Though I did stone for quite long by myself thinking about stuff but yeah, I'm happy happy happy :D Just three more days.

Lots of people think I'm mad, like 3 more days is a lot and so many more papers to go. HAHA, who cares? Look on the bright side. I can play and everything. Must get this over and done with. YAY! Like I always say, life is stressful enough already, why stress yourself somemore by giving yourself so much pressure?

Went to Jurong East library yesterday and today to mug mug (: Not going tomorrow. Got last-minute-hug-Buddha's-leg session with Mr.Eng. HAHA. For math. I just told him straight that I had NO confidence in passing Bob's math so yeah. I really don't!

I guess it's no use me being emo cause it doesn't change anything at all! You will still be my world and I will still be the dirt under your feet. Haha, I just gotta learn to accept things as they come. If I really mean that much to you, your actions will show (: Yes, it hurts but I'm learning to cope. I really am!

I shall be who I was last time, like what Tian said, before I changed so much.
I shall be my dearest Ying's kai xin guo again, just like in primary school.
It's hard but I will try. For the sake of my two PRECIOUS best friends, I will be happy.

More photos up after exams :D
But for now....




BIAN BIAN IS SAYING JIAYOU TO EVERYONE AND THAT IF A TOY WITHOUT A BODY CAN DO A SPLIT, YOU CAN ALSO PERFORM A MIRACLE IN THE EXAMS :D
Time: 6:53 PM

SUBJECTS TESTED IN THIS MID YEARS
I'm crossing them out as I finish :D

1) Language Arts
2) Geography
3) Chemistry
4) Higher Chinese Paper 1 and 2
5) Two Math paper
6) Physics


5 4 3 DAYS LEFT TO FREEDOM (:

After my LA paper, Eugene, Anh, Huy, Sam and I went to library mug mug mug for Geography :D Then after Geog paper, Sam and I went to JE, have lunch and studied at the library there. Though she was sleeping most of the time -.- I was damn tired too but I kept pushing myself on, to keep myself awake and not give up halfway cause of many people I promised to hang in there(: And J---- says that as long as I managed to pass FOUR subjects, I get to have a treat :D YAY! :D:D

MAD THINGS I DO AT HOME WHEN I'M ULTRA BORED LIKE YESTERDAY WHEN CLEMENT WAS AT MY HOUSE TEACHING ME MATH. I nearly ended up crying towards the end cause I felt so sad about math ):


I seriously know my flexibility has dropped ):


He wants to zi lian but is too shy to say, so he drags me into the picture.


See how irritating he gets? -.-




P.S. I wish I could tell you everything.

P.S.S I wish school term never started. Cause I know I hardly talk to you in school or even say Hi, like today. But girl, I still love you kay? Just that you do know the reason why I don't like talking to you or hanging out with you in school. Many things I want to tell you but never in school cause.... Yeah. Realised we only get closer during the holidays but never in school?

P.S.S.S Clement, I'm sorry I was damn rude over the phone. Hope you understand that I'm already freaking out because of the formulas, am in one of my worst moods ever, was trying to stop myself from crying cause I can't seem to understand what you were talking about, damn pissed cause you kept hinting to me when I never wanted hints but think of them myself and everything. I was already on the verge of screaming at you over the ph but I controlled and hung up. Sorry.
Time: 12:03 AM

ALRIGHT (:

GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE WHO HAS PAPERS TOMORROW! NOT FROM NJ ALSO GOOD LUCK!
ESP TO IP2s, JIAYOU FOR ENG AND GEOG :D


I nearly cried just now cause the fear of exams suddenly BOOOM appeared in my heart. But nevermind, I'm okay now. Looking on the bright side that after this torturous FIVE days, I can get to go out without any worries and of course it would be a bonus if I could meet boyboy after my last paper. But if you're too tired,it's okay (:


Hard work pays off I hope. I REALLY HOPE IT DOES :/
Subjects I intend to score remains the same - English, Physics and Eng's Math.
Subjects I know I will fail but will still try to pass - Bob's math and Chem.
Subjects which are neutral - Geog and Chinese.

Promised someone I would at least go through my Chem notes no matter how hard they seem and how much they make me cry. I'll keep to my promise then. MUST KEEP MY MOTIVATIONS IN MIND. Just FIVE days, I can survive this :/


But gosh, I'm still sick. GRR.


P.S. Told you I would call you before I sleep but you never pick up so yeah:/ Nevermind, see if you can call me after my paper tomorrow (: Will sms you and see if you can call. NAHAHAHAHA. But I think you will still be sleeping ):
Time: 9:34 PM

If only you knew the truth...





It feels so good. Running on court. Doing layups. Shooting. Catching rebounds. Sprinting. Man to man defense. DAMN! It felt really good.

Saw WeiZhen and Yuhao on the other court. Then 4 ah bengs walked to court. Recognised two immediately. Jing Sheng and Alvin. Never say hi cause firstly, I haven't talked to them in years. Secondly, Alvin is my ex and it's damn weird if I said hi. Only recognised the third one when I was about to leave. He was Jerrold. I was like OMG, he changed alot till I almost couldn't recognise him. WELL WELL, weird thing though, he shouted my name when I was crossing the road. DAMN IT. -.- They were trying to li siao me. zzzzzz. HOW ON EARTH DOES JERROLD KNOW ALEX? F*ck. Same gang? I don't think so but it's possible. NO wait. HMMM. NEVERMIND :D

It just felt so good to be on court again. I'm wondering when can I ever be on the dance floor again ):



P.s. It's just so hard for me to say. But I love you still <3
Time: 2:09 PM

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you wanna go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
if it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile.
But more than anything, more than anything...

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but you never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more than you take.
But More than anything, yeah, more than anything...

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish. Yeah.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
Time: 9:34 PM

BAD THINGS
-I'm down with flu since yesterday.
-I haven't finished Geog revision.
-I vomited out my breakfast.
-I can't do the simple Math questions.
-My eyes keep tearing and closing cause of the flu.
-I'm nearly finishing the whole box of tissues.
-My dustbin is full of tissues.
-I'm in a super irritated mood. (means if you come and disturb me a TEENY WEENY BIT, I will scream at you)
-I don't think I'm doing my crunches correctly.
-My splits are getting worse needless to say my flexibility.
-I seriously and desperately need someone to sponsor me to go back to dance lessons.
-Mum pulled me out of the house at 12.45am to search for something which dropped downstairs
-I am missing him badly:/
-Knocked into a door and there's a bruise on my leg now.
-Dropped a PLASTIC bowl and it cracked ):
-Will be alone at home till late night so I have to cook my own dinner.
-I owe a lot of people shopping trips, dates, meet ups, etc. Sigh. But once I'm free, they've got either N levels or O levels prelims ):
-I just slammed the drawer shut with my fingers there ):
-The lappy is somehow screwed up :/ I don't know what happened.

GOOD THINGS
-I just need to RECAP (say out loud to myself) the biomes and vegetation successions and I'm done with Geog (: Cause I've already finished revising :D:D
-I've got new songs in my Ipod
-I web-cam with Denise yesterday and thank God I didn't have to see Sean's face. HAHA. Cause she was at his house last night.
-Tide called me to tell me he's got a girlfriend, Joyce(: AWW.
-I cooked my favourite omelette
-I FOUND CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM IN THE FREEZER AND I'M GOING TO EAT IT TONIGHT :D

THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TO
(THIS IS MY MOTIVATION OKAY! SO I NEED TO RE-POST THIS EVERYDAY!)
-Finally get to go out with my boyboy <3
-Take neos with KELVIN :D
-Go out with Ben Ben.
-LAST outing with Ying to sentosa (I think)
-Shopping with girlfriends
-PLAY BASKETBALL!
-Meet up with DENISE DANIELLE LEE
-Study with Bobin :D
-Pass JunWei and JieKai their birthday presents as well as get mine from them :D
-MOVIE TIME
-Get a treat from J----, YongYi and Kenneth each(:
-Try and meet up with ADELINE jie cause it's been a long time since I last saw her
-Actually I can't really disturb the O level and N level people ):
-REDECORATE MY WHOLE ROOM. Something I've been wanting to do for a LONG time.

and the list goes on :D

RANDOM THOUGHT OF THE DAY:
I really wonder, was I really such a bad girlfriend that all the guys I really loved will always end up with another girl? Haven't I sacrificed enough for them? Weird. Haha. Nevermind,I shan't think so much into that.

When I say I love you, I really mean it.
So therefore,

I love you<3
Time: 7:01 AM

Clement came over at like 3plus, when I thought he would be here only at 6plus.
He's sick so first thing he did was sleep -.- and since I was tired I slept too.
Woke up at 4.3opm, gave him medicine to eat then we studied.

After that had dinner. Daddy bought us satays but by the time we finished our dinner proper, we were too full to eat it. Studied awhile more before mummy insisted that she must bring Clement to see the sinseh for his cough. zz.

Clement WAS my boyfriend but now he is only my good friend. A lot of people have been saying that I'm giving him the wrong idea that I still like him but NO. I've told him straight everything. Don't make me sound like the bad girl. I know Clement's nice and everything, but I'd rather truly love someone then to force myself to accept a guy I know who is damn nice and a good catch.

Talked to <3 on the phone just now. YALAH. I'm hyper cause I finally can talk to you lah 0.0
And no matter what, I still think you're shuai okay! Of course lah, you're my boyboy (: But you're a himbo and I'm so NOT a bimbo -.-

i love talking to you and i miss going out with you and yes, i'm happy when i'm out with you (:
Time: 10:08 PM

[edited]

I AM BACK FROM TOWN AND I THINK I STUDIED MORE DURING THE JOURNEY TO AND FRO THEN STUDYING IN TOWN! x)

The journey to and fro takes around 2hours.
I stayed there for 1hour?
Ate for like half and hour.
Studied plus talk crap plus look at small cute kids (we are NOT pedophiles) for half an hour.
Haha, it's damn crap.

Okay, I reached town on the dot at 11.30am but bestf just got on the bus -.-
So I sat there and waited for her, and this was what happened...

(I was sitting on a bench stoning at my handphone when this guy came and sat beside me)
*I shall type in English cause I'm too lazy to translate*

Him: Hello miss.
Me: (got a shock and turn and stare at him) Huh?
Him: No no no, Im not a 'wolf' preying on girls.
Me: Oh okay. -Continues staring at my handphone.
Him: Miss, I'm here to talk to you about charity... (and he goes on and on and on)
Me: (I just nodded my head but in actual fact I was listening to my ipod not him)
Him: ...So can you just make a donation of 10bucks?
Me: (thinking to myself wtf?) Uhh, I never bring much money out. In fact I don't know if I have money.
Him: Okay, how about this, just two bucks will be enough.
Me: (I will just give him two bucks to go away). I see if got money or not. Like really don't have leh.
Him: Come on miss, it's not every day that someone asks you to donate. By the way, who are you waiting for?
Me: My friend. (found two bucks finally)
Him: Oh it's your friend. I thought you waiting for me.
Me: HUH? I WAIT FOR YOU FOR WHAT. I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU! (Puts money into that donation thing)
Him: Well, now you know me already what. Okay, thanks alot. Byebye.

Sheesh. Weird people on the streets. Maybe it's just cause today I'm in a dao mood. Cause normally if these people come and talk cock to me, I will talk cock today. But definitely not TODAY. So met up with bestf who refused to jay walk over when even an old ah ma was crossing the road -.- Went to taka to eat and studied at KFC there. Talked crap, look at small kids. OHMY. There were this 2 kids who just arrived and sat at the table on my left. Then the little boy put his head on the table and stared at me. Then his elder sister followed. I was like, 'Uhh, Gerooooo.' I looked at the kids and they looked at me like I was an alien species or something. Gosh. Scary.

Left at 1pm and accompanied bestf to take her bus then I went to lucky plaza. Bestf wanted the bag I have but when I went there the auntie said that there was no more stock ): Next time I buy a bag, I'll make sure I buy two (: Wanted to get something for boyboy but with 10bucks. AHEM, abit the difficult hor. HAHA. After my exams okay (:

Went home and then someone kept calling me from behind.
I THINK it was yong chye.
Cause I heard someone calling me and I turn and the person was like 'LOOK BEHIND LAH'
So I looked but can't see the face properly. Sounded like ah chye anyway so I just waved hi :D

I just realised that I've got LOADS of things I want to get buy money's tight now esp since daddy's paying for a maid for grandma and the hospital bills too (freaking few thousands already) and also just renovated the essential parts of the house.

I know this is damn random but I miss you and I love you <3

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Dammit. After so long I still can't finish my geog! Sheesh.
Going to town to meet bestf to study. zzz.
For one and a half hours. HMM.

Shall try to finish the WHOLE geog when I'm there.
So that when I get home, I can start on math (FINALLY!)
Don't know if ying is coming over to study with me:/

RAH! Feels so sucky when exams are just 3 days away.

Only thing I'm looking forward to is going out with YOU after exams (:
That's my motivation.
And of course my motivations of doing well includes J---- treating me, a date with my gong gong YongYi and loads more. RAH. I can't pass all my subjects okay! Maybe overall for Chem can, but def not my paper. SIGH.


SPOT ME :D HAHAHA!
Time: 8:32 AM

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLLY POLLY MONOPOLY :D
It's a pity every time I go back to Nanyang to wait for Jiayi, I don't see you!
HAHA, still HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOOOVE<3

I just came back from running. Yes, it's been damn long since I ran due to the many excuses I will give for example the most common one : The weather is damn freaking hot. But today, I think that after so many days of emo-ing here and there, crying, being stressed up etc, I should go breathe some 'fresh air' outside. Not exactly FRESH unless you consider carbon monoxide from all the vehicles fresh. Bleh. I'm still glad I ran. I always will run no matter what when I'm feeling so so down and everything.

Sweating it out, pushing myself over the limit (something you will never find me doing during PE) and best of all, I did sprinting today. Sad to say my speed has gone all the way DOOOOWN ):
I think I should stop training long distance running but my sprinting. I hate running anyway. Tsk. ShuJun you're a pig -.-

Met Gordon on the way back home and he cheated me about NBA stuff. I know I haven't been playing basketball and like been in contact with the basketball world but still! I got cheated by him -.- and still the same old Gordon I know. Trying to matchmake me and Jeff (my primary school good buddy) together after so many years. zZz.


I've got a really really weird feeling about you right now. It makes me want to... hate you? Dammit. What on earth is wrong with me? Sheesh.


mug mug mug.


I just realised I've got really bad eye bags already ):
Time: 3:31 PM

No, I'm not okay. My girlfriends have been trying their very best to help me tide through this and I think I'm really letting them down. The tons of conversations you guys gave me kinda helped me alot but after awhile, I will break down all over again.

Alright, I shall attempt to cry less than 8 times today and just hope that one day, I can stop crying all together. I've already cried once so yeah, I only can cry another 7 times more. Sigh, I can't go out anywhere. Not that my mummy doesn't allow, but that my skin is damn horrible. I don't know why it became like that straight after I bathed yesterday. It's damn bad now, worse than yesterday. Damn lah, it really looks like I got skin disease): Suppose to study with bestf at milk's house but nevermind. It feels weird lah, and it hurts, looking at a couple right in front of you. Shit, I must stop emo-ing. Alright, after I uploaded all the pics, I'm going to mug.

There's no more reason for me to hog the com anymore, since you are no longer here. All my smiles feels so fake now. Last time, you were the one to cheer me up and make me laugh, now... Damn, I'm crying again. Six more times to cry today. Even photos no longer cheer me up now. Not even roses nor chocolates. Not even dancing can take this pain away. I just want to dance till I drop dead on the floor.




Even the hand I want to hold has left me.







Rah, I'm sick of looking at photos right now. Will upload them next time. I'm really in a bad mood.
Time: 10:33 AM

I'm just done with mopping the floor upstairs, mopping the staircase, washing my bro's toilet and bathing. Gosh, and I was home for less than 10mins and my mum starts screaming at me to get these jobs done. If I had known, I shouldn't have came home so early -.-

So yes, went over to yew tee to fetch Clement. Didn't go to his house lah, was too lazy to. Met him at the mrt station then headed down to kembangan. WALKED to ECP. I know it's madness and I know how far it was, but that's the whole point! Walked down the almost 2km route talking to Clement, avoiding stepping on ALOT of gross but cute and colourful and looks super fake 'worms' (?), taking retarded photos, running about, etc.

Finally reached ECP and we just YAY! Haha. Sat our groundsheet and just sat there looking at the sea. Then he slept while I drew on the sand a message for him. HAHA. Then I just lay there listening to the waves, looking at the sea, thinking about... NEVERMIND.

After that we packed up (we didn't cycle cause number1: I was too lazy to walk to the bicycle shop. number 2: we wouldn't have much time to cycle) and took cab to JE. Clement slept on the way while I kinda teared (?). Only three people knows why so yeah. Reached JE and met up with milk. Ate KFC (I was damn hungry having gone to meet Clement without breakfast) while waiting for bestf to come from training. Sam came along then left to go study first.

Bestf came then all four of us went to coffeeshop to see milk and her eat. Headed to the library to read comics while I did physics. Then bestf and milk left while Sam came up to find me. Did phy, read comics, slacked, eat, drink. RAH. Then sam left and after awhile Clement and I left for westmall.

Ate at DeliFrance then went to buy my eyeliner (I don't know where mine disappear to) and took bus home. Was suppose to come into my house for awhile but it's like, mummy and daddy were cleaning the whole house so he had to go home ): sorry clement! I wasn't even home for 10mins and mum came shouting at me to mop the floor upstairs and everyth.

Yes, I admit I was and am emo today. Nearly cried in front of Clement alot of times but I held my tears back. Didn't want to spoil his day. But somehow on the taxi, I couldn't control cause every time I tried to close my eyes to sleep, memories just come flashing in front of my eyes and I just broke down. I don't know what to do, I don't know how to solve it. I just wish for so many things, wish to turn time back.

Photos up tomorrow. I'm tired and emo now. Sigh, I know I'm going to regret doing this.

Going ECP was not my choice and I realised I'm still not as strong as I thought I would be. Tears welled up in my eyes as memories we had together kept playing back in front of me. I could see your smile and hear your laughter. I was damn shattered. Sitting by the beach, looking at the sea, it nearly made me cry. If you REALLY care, you will know what to do, I guess.
Time: 8:57 PM

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY CLEMENT! (:
yawns, that pig sms me at 7am and now i think he went back to sleep.zz.

damn shagged. will someone please tell me as to why i'm so stupid to agree to meet him at 8am?!
yawns. fine, it's his day. i bet he woke up and fell asleep again and FINE! I shall go over to his house and fetch him. since that's what he wants. gosh, i'm damn damn tired. going to pack my stuff now and go bathe and everything. till tonight then (:
Time: 7:27 AM

Ph conv between me and ying just now...

Me: Eh, I very sad lah.
Ying: Huh? You called just to tell me that?
Me: HUH! WHY CANNOT! I really very sad what.
Ying: Aiyoh, as if I not fat like that. I also gained weight mah.
Me: Huh? I never say I very fat lah! I said I very SAD!
Ying: Yalah, fat what.
Me: NOOO! S-A-D not F-A-T. I'm very SAD.
Ying: Oh CHEY. I thought you called to say you very fat.
Me: What the hell? Siao ah you.

Then later on...

Ying: Hey, relax lah. Don't so ji dong. Calm down. I don't want you to burst out crying.
Me: I'm already crying can?
Ying: Huh? REALLY! Ohman, eh don't cry leh. You cry very scary leh. (cause I hardly cry over the ph).
Me: Cry already lah.

And even later on...

Me: Ying ah.
Ying: Ya?
Me: Can you make me high now?
Ying: MAKE YOU HIGH? HOW!
Me: I don't know. You must find a way to make me high so I won't be emo.
Ying: You got wine at home?
Me: No, I don't even drink wine!
Ying: Sure or not? Then you always drink alcoholic drinks......(she continues talking)
Me: YING AH! MAKE ME HIGH LAH!!!!! I don't want emo emo.
Ying: Then you self high lah.
Me: How on earth to zi high? Siao ah? People emo cannot self high de lah.


I always found it hard to cry over the phone. I only cry over the phone when I just had break ups with my boyf or having quarrels with them. Otherwise I won't lah.Sheesh, why the hell am I crying so much these days? And why the hell am I re-opening old wounds and like playing back the memories which caused me so much scars in my life? I'm such a dumbass. HEH.

Okay, I'm high now :D HEHEHEHEHEHEHEE.
Going to meet Clem at a freaking 8am. Oooops. I forgot to say meet where. NEVERMIND!
We are going to ECP to celebrate his b'day. See if I can change it to Pasir Ris, cause you know.. ecp is the place where I hate and everything. HMM. But it's his bday and he wants to go there.

FINE, see how. We are going there to build sandcastles, cycle, eat everything then go over to JE and study. HAHA. Poor Clement. On his birthday still need to teach me. Gosh, I feel so bad. NEVERMIND! After my exams I pei you one day :D
Time: 10:27 PM

Korkor's bed gave me inspiration. HAHA.

Love is like a seed while the heart is like the soil.
Plant the seed and nurture it and it grows into a small plant and slowly into a tree.
The soil provides it with nutrients and love and other minerals to help it grow.

But what if one day, you find the tree is ugly and you want to remove it, how to?
The roots are deep in the ground. The more you pull, the harder it is.
Even if you managed to uproot it, there will be holes everywhere.
If you chop of the top leaving only the stump, the roots will still continue to grow deeper into the soil.

This is how love works. The more you love, the deeper you are falling.
Till one day, no matter how hard you try to forget, you can't.
Cause the roots are holding firmly to your heart.
Even if you managed to forget, you have to endure the pain and the scars left in your heart.
This is what love is about.

Was thinking about certain stuff the whole day. Ended up emo-ing AS USUAL and thank god Rachel called me cause if she hadn't, I would have owed her a whole year supply of papayas and fresh marks on my arm.

Everything seems cold now. So very cold. I tried to be nice, I tried to be everything. I won't bother anymore. Seriously. Cause from what I see now, is an EXACT replica (if there's such a word) of what happened to baby and I. Because of this, my mood has been at rock bottom these days. I just hoped that if I took ONE step back, you would take TWO steps forward. I just wished. I guess I should stop day-dreaming.

AAAHH, whatever shujun. Stop daydreaming. It won't happen lah.
zz.

Tomorrow I will be out with Clement the whole day. It's his birthday tomorrow. Mummy took initiative to say I am to go out with him to celebrate so go lor. Fake a smile, fake a laugh and make his day:/ I'm sorry Clement but I will try my best to make your day a happy one tomorrow without getting emo. After all, you don't turn 19 everyday. Wishing you a happy birthday in advance (:

I've actually typed alot of my inner feelings but in the end I just deleted them away. I guess it's no point lah. It's seriously no point. I just hope that somehow, my dreams will come true.
Time: 7:20 PM

Yawns. Slept 'early' last night. At 1am. Kinda early lah. Compared to other days where I will sleep at 3am.

Yesterday was disastrous. Moving boxes up and down the stairs, shuttling to and fro rooms with heavy stuff. Gosh, this is called in-house exercise. HAHA. Had to sleep with the paint smell in the room. Best part is that last night it rained so I couldn't open the windows and the temperature was cold so I couldn't on the fan. Woke up quite a few times because of the smell. Yup. My room is seriously damn crammed now. Have all my boxes of items strewn all over the floor, my mum's bedside table in my room, foot massager and alot of other stuff. Even korkor was LAUGHING at the state of my room. ROAR. He still say my room still can put more stuff then might as well put the things belonging to my mum in his room INTO MY ROOM.

GRR, told him that if he did that, I will scream and kill him :D

For once boyboy woke up :D Haha, not bad and he DID eat his med (: Yay! I'm suppose to re-write my essay now. Sian.

Me: Mummy, later can I go out for around 4 hours?
Her: No.
Me: Why? Just four hours only.
Her: No. What for?
Me: MY friends having chalet and...
Her: No. You better study.
Me: Please? It's just four hours. I'm just going over to see them. I don't even get to see them everyday! They are all in different schools now;.
Her: NO. If you fail your exams and get kicked out, then you take O levels and die lah.
Me: Please? I really want to see them ):
Her: NO.

That's how my mum is. Sigh.

To 07S20: I'm so sorry I can't go. Not that I don't want to but my mum really doesn't allow. It really makes me happy seeing you all so united even you all are in different schools :D Means we OGLs did out part by making you people so bonded :D Jenn jie - Really want to talk to you after like so long. Still remember we all stupid stupid take bus to bedok. HAHA. I'm so glad to have you jie. Hearts.

So many things I want to do.
So little time. Sigh.

Things I want to do after exams
1) Go watch F4 with *
2) Spend more time with * before he leaves for -
3) Go shopping for my stuff and presents for the bday babies (:
4) Talk to my dearest friends and catch up w them
5) Re-arrange ALL the stuff in my room
6) Sit by the beach alone to relax
7) Play bball and bowling
8) Do art and craft
9) Go out on lots and lots of long overdue dates
10) Just spend precious time w my friends

Why I don't have much time
1) 18-24 June : Studying
2) 25-29 June: Exams
3) 30-1 July: Free time but most prob I want to go out with *
4) 2-6 July: Enrichment Week - Will try to squeeze time here and there to go out:/
5) 7-8 July: Going out w J_____ on the 8th. Pack for OBS.
6) 9-15 July: OBS - 7D6N
7) School term starts = start studying.

Anyway, photos :D
Ps. I'm glad that these few days I have my besties being there for me whenever I'm feeling so down and everything. You all have given me the support to try and smile and everything, listening to me talk even though you all have heard the stories a thousand times. Thankyou so much loves (:


MUUUUUG! :S


My 'room straight after painting :D


You can never see such a clean table ever again.


The mess starts pouring in :/


And the boxes queue-ing up to be packed till the door. That's how full my room was x)

Missing you right now :D
Time: 10:31 AM

I'm so glad I've been going to camp since young. HAHA.
Cause the heater in my house has been spoilt since I got back from YLTC.
Also, this week or so, I've been bathing rather late at night.
So it means that the water is damn freaking cold, yah.

Kinda used to cold water :/
OKAY! My room is now purple (: YAY!
Almost the same color as my blogskin background.
Daddy says that I will be getting new furniture soon. Though I don't know how soon.
And my room's in a mess because all my stuff was moved back and my mum's stuff is moved over.
Cause tmr they are going to paint her room I think.

Looked through many stuff while unpacking.
Sweet memories, horrible ones etc.
RAH, shit them. TO HELL WITH THE BAD ONES :D

Still haven't finished packing my room. Will upload photos of my room some other day.
Yup.

All I want is to see you smile (:
When I first met you, I was scared to hold your hand.
When I first held your hand, I was scared to hug you.
When I first hugged you, I was scared to kiss you.
When I first kissed you, I was scared to love you.
Now that I love you, I'm scared of losing you.

It's been super long since I used this 'poem'. Maybe 2 years? HAHA.
nevermind. my mind is not working properly now :D
I'm psycho right nooooow (:
Time: 10:43 PM

Not being able to be emo on this blog. Guess this few days I will be using quite alot of my private blog. Changed the link alr so if you want to read, ask me for the link. Yeah, bestf, I changed it again due to some reasons. Will tell you when I see you online.

Just took out dada from the plastic bags. Dada was the panda Jeff gave to me for my birthday. Last time when I see dada, I will just cry. So much that my mum just kept it away from me so that I wouldn't be that heartbroken. Everything's okay now. I'm over him and over everything.

Been hurt so badly these few years that I really don't feel much emotions. Like what I told Rachel lah, the normal things a guy does for me these days hardly affect me. Simplest example, when a guy I love holds my hand a few years ago, I will feel like the luckiest girl alive and etc etc the usual crap.

But now, I hardly feel a thing. Until.... well yeah. You made me feel so different. SOMEHOW.
shit, dammit. not suppose to emo here.

Hmm, listening to rock music to keep my feelings up. no emo songs. uhuh.
And I can't hear what my mum is talking to me about. I just know she is talking to me cause she is staring at me o.O
The upstairs of my house is under renovation, painting, etc.
yawns. i dont get to study and sleep. sigh.
So want to rant down here about how i feel but forget it. sigh.
Time: 11:00 AM

Damn shagged. Very tired. Zz.
Been sleeping a max of 4hours these few days. Sigh.

Thanks J---- for talking to me thru the night and sacrificing your hp bills =x HEH. But yeah, will think about what you said and I'm really glad you called despite being so tired after coming back from camp and everything.

Thanks Bestf for being there for me even though I refused to tell you what's happening in my life due to some reasons and made you feel all so lousy. I love you girl.

Thanks Rach for calling me and listening to me rant and rant and rant and endure my stupid nonsense when I was moving boxes up and down the house. We both have our dilemmas. I've decided on mine. Will tell you tomorrow (:

Thanks Aiman for asking what's wrong with me. Abang, you're the best :D I'm so sorry I couldn't tell you what's wrong but yeah, feel loved by you :D Ooops. Later my sis-in-law jealous.Heh.

Thanks Clement for understanding why I didn't sms you the whole day. Basically because I was damn tired and my ph is outta batt (I forgot to tell you this over the ph just now). AND shit! I forgot to ask my mum if you can come over tmr to teach me. But I think can't ):

Gosh, I'm so damn tired. Going to sleep all the way till morning, for once :D Before the renovating people come :/ G'night world :D

PS. This song is super super sweet but at the same time sad :/

I'll remember you - No Secrets

It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go separate ways

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
You stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

If the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let there
be a doubt in your mind
'cause I'll remember you

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your going through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

Forever
Time: 8:38 PM

In the end, boyboy din wake up lah -.- Gave him 23 missed calls (I think).
Being too tired I fell asleep after revising awhile and woke up when he called.
Web-cam conference awhile then I went to bathe to go West Coast Park to meet my group for project.

Crapped at macs and did our project. After which on the bus Huiting and Rachel fell asleep. Eugene and I (as usual the cranky people), got off our seats and ran to the back of the bus to hide. You should have seen Rachel's face when she woke up. Cause she thought Eugene and I alighted already, leaving her, since Huiting is going interchange.

Went WM with Rach to go cut her hair. Next time I cut, I'm going ProTrim. Talked with her about stuff and yeah, cam-whored :/ Came home and saw Justin and Paul talking under my block -.- Stupid pigheads. Haha, well didn't really talked much cause they kept insisting that I went to pak tor instead of doing project. Grr.

Justin: Hey, where did you go?
Me: -blur- uhh...
Justin: Aiyah. expected lah. You always cannot remember one.
Me: OH, I went to do project at West Coast Park.
Justin: Project?! -looks at Paul and both laughed- I think more of go west coast park and pak tor lah.
Paul: Ya lah. Must be lah.
Me: Siao lah. Three girls one guy how to pak tor?

Left the void deck and they walked me home (it was just less than 30 steps away). Hugged Justin goodbye and then we started debating on where I live -.- Justin claims that I live on the extreme left of the block where in actual fact it's the extreme right and he just didn't want to believe me.

Came home totally beat and fell asleep. Mummy left me alone at home lah -.-
OH, and I just realised that I haven't eaten breakfast and lunch today as usual.
Dinner was 7 mouthfuls of chicken rice + 3 mouthfuls of hokkien mee which korkor bought back from Geylang + 6 cups of water? o.O
Water makes you full. That's the good thing.

Just went down to meet Clement and pass him my book. Sian. I need help with my physics and he only can come and teach me during the weekends. Ohwells.

Tomorrow's going to be a looooooong day:/And people are coming over to paint the house. Stinky pok. Luckily I won't be home :D


Rachel thinking that she is a model -.-


One dustbin in West Coast Park.


Squirrel on the tree :D


Let's tow Eugene away x)


Pooor Eugene :/ Don't cry. HEH.


Where's ZHANGLI!


Our stupid fringes):


Same earrings. Hearts :D
Time: 8:02 PM

Sometimes the feeling of not being able to make the person you care the most smile, really sucks://
Rah, felt that way last night but I felt super loved too :D
BOYBOY WAKE UP LAH! TIME TO EAT MED. ZZ,


Got a sms from rach saying meet at2.30pm pasir ris for project. isit today or tmr? zz.
Don't really care. Going to study now (:
(After I managed to get boyboy to wake up.)
Time: 6:08 AM

I AM TRAUMATIZED ):):):

It happened that mummy and I argued about going out so in the end she say don't go out at all and I was like fine. I didn't really mind cause I trimmed my hair not too long ago and I was really sleepy. So I crawled to bed and slept..... for half an hour. Then she came barging into my room saying we are going to go out and told me I've got appoinment at Jean Yip salon at 1pm. zzz.

Made loads of funny and loud noises on bed cause I was trying to make my mind wake up ): Went to bathe and left with her. Dropped by St Luke's hospital to pass grandma something then went down to IMM. GOSH. I don't like my new hairstyle lah. Thank goodness it's not bangs =X

I really have something against bangs :/ Nevermind. NO, I'm not going to post any picture of my haircut. Maybe I will when I feel better about my hair. Sheesh, and I don't like the auntie lah. Her fingernails were like omg damn long and sharp ): I pity my poor scalp and ears through the whole hair cut. Bah.

I wanted to earn 20 bucks from mummy lah. It's like I'm her personalized maid today.
Hold the umbrella for her, carry her hand bag and groceries, carry the basket while shopping at Giant. Unfortunately she doesn't appreciate my help so nevermind. I don't get money ):

Went home and the first thing was try to style my hair :D It's fun lah. The only other time I styled my hair was last year when I had butch hairstyle.

YES KENNETH I KNOW HOW TO STYLE MY OWN HAIR. GRR.
I showed mummy and she said I look like a siao zha bor ):
BUT IF I DONT STYLE, I LOOK DAMN EWWW ):):):
It's byebye to my long fringe ): RAH, shujun isn't happy.grr.
Time: 5:56 PM

I'm up an awake (: Studying math now.
Woke up at 5.55am to give boyboy wake up call.
I think I make a great alarm clock. Got snooze one.
Called him back 5mins later to wake him up again.
That pig :D At least he ate his med le.

Yawns. Time for math le :D

I am so so going to FINISH inequalites, partial fractions, binomial theorem and series and the whole of PHYSICS today!

Last night I was eeeeeemmooooooo (:
Emo emo emo emo emo emo all the way.
It's just that I thought about some stuff.
Memories I tried so hard to repress all these years just surfaced in my mind.
Made me sad and all but I'm okay now!
ShuJun is a stong girl right right? :D

Should this be an emo post? I've got so much to type about.
HMM. Nevermind. No emo :D
Heh. Shall go back to studying.
OH! Mummy say she's going to bring me out and get a haircut!
Yay! (suddenly she is so nice. HMMM.)
Time: 6:23 AM

YAY! I'm finally done with this stupid @!%$$%#@#$ blogskin.
RAH, It took me like 3 freaking hours to change it. Cause somehow, somewhere screwed up and I couldn't find the problem.

So I practically had to rewrite the WHOLE HTML again.

I'm feeling hungry): Didn't had lunch and there's a stinky papaya beside me now. Waiting to be eaten. Can I just throw it out of the window instead? Going to eat dinner now. Will post later.

Okay, I'm back from dinner. There IS something wrong with me. I can't figure out what. Skipping lunch and eating 6 mouthfuls of dinner and I'm full :/ HMM.

Note: The content below is full of vulgarities. If you do not wish to read them, just skip this whole part (: It's not THAT vulgar though. It's been a long time since I scolded VERY vulgar words.

I'm getting sick and tired of fu*cking bloody bastards who are so despos to think that every girl they know must be their girlfriends. bloody hell. I can't remember what is your name and I don't plan on knowing it again either. But look here you knn asshole, stop sms-ing me and go get a life. Even a person with the lowest IQ on this earth will hell know that if someone ignores you for a damn 10 MONTHS means that you are not liked. So can you bloody well go away and go suck ur own dickhead or something. PLEASE LAH. Look at yourself! Bloody despo thinking you are all hot and everything when your voice give me the creeps and I think you don't look human at all (even tho I've never seen you). Can't you just stop being a damn pedophile. For hell's sake! I'm half your age you knn chee ko pek. I bet you don't have a lan jiao that's why you are so gay. Go get a make over or something or if you're that bored, why don't you cut off ur dick (if you have one) instead? Stop terrorizing me you ta ma de. I'm bloody pissed with you. Pray that I will never meet you in my whole life. If I really do, MY actions speak louder than what I'm ranting here and I swear I'm going to inflict pain so much on you, you wished you never caused me so much IRRITATION. YOU WILL SEE BLOOD AND YOU CAN FUCKING DIE. bastard son of a bitch.

I'm done with ranting. RAH. If you want to know what happened, that bloody knn ta ma de fucking no dick etc etc pedophile sms-ed me again. You get the idea. After my exams, I'm going straight to the police post near my house. I SWEAR I WILL.

My legs has been itching like mad since I don't know when. Kor says it's because I'm sun burnt. But I think I am infected by some alien virus which is not happy with me. zz. It's really VERY itchy. Thing is, no matter how much calamine lotion I apply, it still itches. RAH. I can't wait for the heater to come lah. My house's heater is spoilt and I've been bathing damn late these few days with damn freezing cold water. I literally have to jump about and bathe :/

COOOOLD LAH.

Bestf : It's really not that I don't want to tell you but I really can't. You sounded pissed when I called you yesterday ): Sorry but it's rahrah. I hope you do understand.

Time: 7:03 PM

I overslept ): My plan of not sleeping and studying till 8am failed:D
In the end I fell asleep and my stupid alarm clock which is spoilt, failed to wake me up.
Was supposed to meet clement at 8.45am at the interchange but I only woke up at 9am.
Clever him knew that if I didn't reply him means I was still sleeping and clever him did not leave the house yet.
Don't ask why I woke up exactly at 9am but I was like, eh? what day is today?
then...... SHIT! die die die. what time am I suppose to meet clement?
Just chiong and bathed and rushed to print out my essays.

Stoned in school alone ): cause Clement had to return to army. BAH.
Played the games on my ph till my ph was dead :/
If I knew that Ken wanted to watch the 4.15pm show, I wouldn't have left chem lessons halfway):
Rushed down to plaza sing to meet him.
First thing he said, 'OMG, ni zhen de hen hei leh (you are really very black leh).
ZZZZ.
Then he treated me a 3bucks lunch. AHEM -.-

Caught Shrek3 and it's like halfway thru the movie he high tide. Just when I was about to sleep.
Smart hor? Then when he came back, he forgot which row he was sitting and just walked past me o.O

Yawns, I'm tired. Sigh.
I was thinking about this certain someone. How he treated me and everything. Makes me feel so much like crying my heart out and just screaming. But like friend said, it's part and parcel of life.

I still remember someone telling me, 'You've had so many boyfriends and heartbreaks. By now you should have gotten used to it and became more stronger.'
My reply, 'No. It has made me weaker and fear is building up in me after each heartbreak. I'm too scared to love someone and give the relationship my al in fear of getting hurt in the end.. At the same time, I do want to do all these things. No one can get used to heartbreaks. If they do, what's the point of loving in the first place?'

RANTING AGAIN): I just feel so lost here. Sigh.
Anyway, photos from last night :D

click HERE to view them.
sorry but photobucket is screwed up now.yeah.
ohwells.

Photos always cheer me up(: Someone knew this. I can't remember who but I do remember there was someone who I loved alot and he knew everything I loved. I can't remember who. It's not that I love too many people that I forgot who but all I remembered was that this guy hurt me so badly I had to put my whole heart into hating him and forgetting him. Shrugs.
Time: 8:19 PM

LOOK AT THE TIME NOW :D

I think I rock lah. To be rushing through an essay which I thought need to be handed in tmr.
Only to realise it's by Wednesday -.- Rushed till like 1am? ZZZ.

Heck, still going to hand it in tomorrow. Stupid Kenneth cheat my feelings. Told me that I go slowly do my essay while he sleeps. When I'm done, I call him and he will entertain me.
I CALLED MORE THAN 10 TIMES AND HE REJECTED MY CALLS. Roar.

So in the end I'm being entertained by Justin online :/HAHA. Nevermind.
Then my friend called me and we were like talking halfway and my ph ran out of batt ):
STUPID LAH. I still think I'm high on Vodka.

Let's talk about just now.
Met Clement at the mrt station and we headed down to town. Ate dinner at Lucky Plaza.
Then went over to the bar in Marriott Hotel and secured a place to sit. Only those above 18 could get Happy Hour.
WHO CARES? Clement was nice enough to let me drink (:
Ordered Vodka with strawberry. I think I drank 1 and a half cups.
Poor Clement only drank around half :/ SORRY!
But Vodka is he only alcoholic drink I can drink. Others I will puke ):

Listened to the rock bands (I've got pictures and recordings, upload them tmr) and they rocked.
Clement got deaf. He isn't used to such stuff lah. HEH x) He was getting deaf.
Left the place at around 8.30pm then just walked about orchard road.
He sent me home and so there (:
It was a happy happy time.

I asked him today, 'If you were to die (choy!), what would be your one and only regret?'
and he said, 'Not being able to get back together with you.'

RAH. No I'm not going to get into any relationships. Nowhere in the near future.
Alrighty, I'm going to study now. Study till 8am then bathe and go school :D
Time: 4:33 AM

Lack of sleep. Cause I was on the phone till 4am.
I need to finish my LA essay like by tonight.
After I get home from party-ing. Someone please help me cause I know that it will turn out to be some crap essay.

Slacked around the whole day. Reading Harry Potter all of a sudden again. Trust me, when the new book comes out, korkor is going to get to read it first. AS USUAL ):
ROAR. It is 3.30pm now. Meeting Clement at 4pm? I think I'm like suppose to be bathing now.
Heck lah, let him wait.

Going down to paaaaarty. Come home chiong homework.
Wake up early go school with clement to hand in homework while he collect his cert.
Then meet jiayi in town till around 2plus. Meet Kenneth to watch Shrek then travel home together :D

I don't seem to have the mood to study. HELP! Seriously, I need to stop procrastinating and get my lazy ass off to work.
WELL, pictures when I get back later. Most probably will only upload them tomorrow. Going to get ready now. YAWNS. I'm sleepy.
Time: 3:23 PM

I really feel so piggy. Bah, it's like I've been sleeping the whole day ):
MY FACE HAS STARTED TO PEEL :/ I THINK I NEED TO WEAR A MASK OR SOMETHING.
Jiayi says I look damn black -.-

RAH, tomorrow I'm meeting clement before we go to the charity thing. Then we'll be going to school together on Monday. He needs to collect his A level cert and I need to hand in my LA. Meeting Jiayi for lunch after that in town cause she says that she hasn't been in town for 14852547329854857398 years. Yah, so there.

It's great being single I guess. As in, you don't have to worry here worry there.
AHH, whatever. I'm happy with my life now and that's all that matters.
Time: 11:20 PM

Last night was so so funny. Was talking to kenneth over the phone and I was feeling groggy and everything and VERY sleepy. Another thing was that I only have abit of voice left in me so he kept teasing me about it ): During the conv at around 12plus, I was zoning in and out of dream land. My brain was damn lag and I knew it. Until Kenneth got worse then me.

Me: (trying to keep awake) Eh kenneth.
Him: Ya? (you can tell he is damn sleepy)
Me: Are you awake?
Him: Ya. I'm awake.
Me: Okay, what's one plus one?
Him: Two.
Me: Kenneth ah.
Him: -silence-
Me: Kenneth? Keeeeeneeth? KENNNETH? K-E-N-N-E-T-H!
Him: -silence-
Me: (kept quiet)
Him: (could hear him sleeping over the phone)

HAHA, so in the end I hung up. Just now Kenneth said he din remember saying one plus one equals two at all. -.- and said that I must have used the chance to have scolded him over the phone when he was sleeping. I'm not that evil okay!

RAH, korkor saw me this morning when he came home to change his contact lens and he was like damn shocked. He said I looked like an alien ): And he's happy I'm darker than him cause it looks completely horrible. WALAU ):

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(this photo was edited cause the background was too dark and I look dumb in this lah.)

it's not THAT bad okay! I used to be this dark last time what. Sigh.
I want to go do a new blog skin already and change EVERYTHING in this blog :D
then go sleep some more. BYEBYE.
Time: 11:56 AM

YES (: I'm back from YLTC.

First day
Went to the camp site and played ice breakers and team bonding games.
HEARTS POOH BEAR! I think my group really rocks!

Justin: The most ultimate joker and entertainer. Never fails to cheer people up and be enthu about stuff. It's great to have you in the group!

JieYing: Always talking to me about stuff and being there for me. YAY! Heart heart. I'm really really glad I met you!

JunWei: THANKYOU FOR RUBBING MY ANKLE :D haha, AND MY DEAREST KAYAKING PARTNER. Luckily I had you pushing me on in the sea. Otherwise I would really have gotten sea sick and gave up on myself.

Cass: My sleeping partner and a friend who was always with me (: OGLS rock our asses off! :D I bet I'm going to like miss our night talks ):

Michele: Thanks for always taking my cutlery and not complaining once. I'm sure we can find a way to do something to improve the situation Ignis is in now. JIAYOU!

Eliza: Always trying to help in a way or another. SLEEP MORE ELIZA!

Syamil: Luckily you brought twine and penknive and your beatboxing rocks! Always entertaining the group! Don't think so much about stuff. Why not enjoy life? Haha.

Jing Ho: HELLO FELLOW AHEM SAME AGE AHEM SCOUT! Ging gang gooli gooli watcha ging gang goo! Haha, it was nice sitting at the open area watching stars with you and talking. AND YOU STILL HAVE THE WEIRD ACCENT! x)

Puey Yee: Always there supporting the group and being enthu. Nice to talk crap to and everything. Rest well and don't get anymore darker! Heh.

Estella: You took care of me when my ankle hurt like shit. Take care of your lips alright! And it's nice being in the same group as you. Except that you couldn't join in to our night convs cause you were sleeping on the other side and when we were talking, you were already sound asleep!


Alright, I'm back with an insect bite I got today which made my third finger hard and numb):
Sun burnt from kayaking cause I couldn't be bothered to put sun block:/
Sprained left ankle on Tue and right ankle on Thur (I think).
Alot of bruises, cuts and abrasions on my arms and legs becasue of kayaking.
Alot of mozzie bites ):

Monday started off with reaching the camp site, had ice breakers and team building games. First day was kinda slack with not much activities to do. Slept for only an hour plus cause I was talking with ama, cass and char and later on when they were sleeping, I was attacked by mozzies in the night and that irritated me. Yup. Won't go into details. Too lazy.

Tuesday we did improvised rafting. But I don't know why the inverted the raft lah. Initially was suppose to raft all the way to bedok jetty (we were at pasir ris) but after an hour plus, we were only 100m away from shore and around 200m away from where we started off -.- stupid tide. So in the end we did not raft and just dismantle it and learned cheers from the instructors while the other half of the group went kayaking. Night walk for around 2hours plus 3 hours? With a sprained ankle it was no fun but still pia lah. Talked to Jing Ho on the way on what they do in scouts in M'sia and what we do in S'pore. It was great overall.

Wednesday, we did kayaking. Kayak-ed all the way from pasir ris (or isit changi?) to The lagoon at ECP. Took around 2 hour plus 3 hours? The tide was against us so yeah. Kelvin (our main camp instructor) said, 'Miss Bai Kah (crippled) come and lead the rest in warm up before we head back to camp. WALAU. Bully me lah. Going back was easier because the tide is in our favour. Took around 1hour. That's when I got 'sea-sick' and frustrated because the wind was strong and the waves became VERY choppy and big. No matter how much I kayak-ed, it looked as if I'm still stuck at the same place and not moving. Fire drill at 11plus pm. ZZZ.

Thursday: We did the outdoor activites. Which I missed out alot because of my stupid ankle ):
I missed the high element activities and the flying fox, rock climbing and abseiling:/ I was really sad about it okay! So I just sat there and talked cock to the instructors there :D Now kelvin calls me bai kah sotong cause everytime he asked me something I will go Huh? But I told him I will only answer him if he calls me chio bu.HAHA. Nevermind. Partied with SRJC through the night because it was the last day. Did not sleep.

Friday: Talked to char the whole time until fire drill at 3.30am. Then we were given 2mins to change into our YLTC shirts and sport shoes. That's when Mr.Sham said we were going to have a competition of a 10km run.

Mind you, it was 3.30am in the morning. So they refilled water bottles and off they went. I helped them time and yeah, fastest group was 1 hour 4mins. My group got 1 hour 20mins I think. Which was really good already (: Slept on the road pavement while waiting for the groups to come back and that's when a stupid insect bit me and made my finger swollen ):

Poohbear and Menon got toilets to clean during area cleaning and as usual, Kelvin come and bully me again. He needed four people to follow him during inspection and he made sure he picked me -.- Making me climb stairs up and down with my ankle in such a bad shape. Sigh. This kind of people hor -shakes head. Headed back to school and cabbed home with ama.

Ate, bathed, slept.
Gosh, I'm shagged.

And throughout my stay in camp, I thought about ______ and I realised how stupid I was. There was not even a single sms from him or anything. I'm growing up already (: and I will say byebye to _______. Wanted to sms him saying I'm back but heck.
Time: 8:14 PM

Alright, this will be my last post before I leave for camp. Finished packing my stuff already. Halfway packing my room. Here is a photo album to keep you people occupied.
Click here:
GERO AND ME

Thankyou Jeremy for your not so constructive advice but least you were there for me.
Thankyou Jiayi for talking to me despite suffering from seriousy jetlag still.
Thankyou Sam.T for listening to me and being there when I was so happy.
Thankyou Sam for listening to me when I am feeling so down (like now)
Thankyou Ying for listening to me when i was both happy and sad, taking care of me from the simplest thing like leading me away from smoke when you know how much I hate second-hand smoke.
Thankyou Gero for being there for me and even though you keep silent, you just being by my side makes me feel so loved.
Thankyou Rach for waking me up early in the morning (sacarsm) and talking to me with an ice cream for my birthday present and trusting me.

Thankyou to the rest who helped me in one way or another. Being there for me when I'm happy or upset.


WTH? I sound as though I'm going to die or something. Which I may cause it seems more like a fitness training camp more than a youth LEADERSHIP training camp. As in seriously! What leadership skills can you learn by kayaking or rafting? Or having PT? Or cooking your own food? Gosh, it's more like a survival camp.

WELL THIS IS MY 12TH CAMP WHICH I HAVE TO STAY OVERNIGHT. It's like practically one per each year of my life since i started kindergarten. NEVERMIND. Random.
No wonder I bathe so fast lah. Training to bathe fast these few years.

P2: Brownies camp.
P4: Leadership camp (?)
P6: Brownies and scouts camp
Sec1: Guides camp, Sec1 camp
Sec2: Guides camp (1), Guides camp (2), Sec2 camp
Sec3: Basketball camp (1), Basketball camp (2), OBS
Sec4: YLTC camp (the one I'm going tmr), OBS (July)


I'm ranting and I know I'm going to cry in camp. Like I did in OBS. Okay, that's stupid.
ShuJun BE STRONG LAH! Wth. I'm so emotionally weak now. DAMMNNN.
Time: 5:32 PM

I had a dream about you. I never knew you meant so much to me.
In my dream, everything between us were so.... perfect.
Coming back to reality, you hardly talk to me.
I wish I had never let go of your hand when I had it.

Sigh, I'm going to camp in like less than 24 hours. Someone please tell me how am I able to survive this camp without my handphone (I am super dependent on it) and my Ipod. What's more, I wil be away from civilisation. The only plus point in this camp is that I get to lose weight and get a nice tann (:

2D1N I will be out in the sea. PT every morning except for the first and last day. Controlled meals that are not nice but sufficient. Woohoo! If I don't get to lose weight or something, I will screaaaaaam. Okay, nevermind. Point is, I'm going in less than 24hours ): And I will only be back 120hours later. Yawns.

Dead beat now. Waited for some pig to like go home, bathe and eat from 12am till 1.50am. Talked till 3.15am. Gosh, tireeeed. I misssss _______________. I really really do miss him. I don't know how to like talk to him right now! ): ): ):

Rahhh. I just wish I can meet _____ before I go to camp but he is out. Sigh. I really don't want to let go of him. Not after two years ):
Time: 11:40 AM

Thankyou deeearie for this pair of shoes (:



And thankyou clement for this pair :D


Time: 10:16 PM

Okay, I just received this from my jie - lynn, who apparently remembers me only because she saw my friendster -.-

PLEASE NOTE THAT WHATEVER IS BELOW IS STRICTLY FOR CHARITY.
Story starts with a group of people doing a project for charity in which they are launching a CD with 14 tracks sung by --------- (I have short term memory) into stores. They are planning to hit a 3000 sales. Right now, they will have a party to launch this CD.

Details are below:


Event : PLAYTIME
Date: 10/06/2007 (Sunday)
Time: 7pm -10.30pm (Doors will be open at around 6pm)
Price of tickets: $10
Place: Barnone (located at the basement of Marriott Hotel)

Purpose for this party: To raise funds for charity and at the same time celebrate the launching of the CD.

There will be a free flow of coke and sprite. Famous local bands will be playing. I forgot which bands but I remember one of them is the band Daphne Khoo used to be/is in. Happy hour for those 18 and above also.

Please do try to go as it is in the name of charity. I will be going I guess. As long as I'm not too shagged after camp.

Those interested, leave a comment on my guestbook, email me or sms me (:
contact me by 8th June LATEST!

Time: 6:45 PM

alright. photos here (: I'm too lazy to put them into an album. Maybe after I come back from camp.
TO VIEW IT BIGGER, JUST RIGHT CLICK ON THE PICTURE AND SELECT VIEW IMAGE :D
















that's all :D
Time: 10:11 AM