It feels so weird talking to him now. I don't know? I just want things to go back the way it was before we ever quarreled over such stupid stuff but I think it's impossible lah. Ohwells.

SUNDAY WAS PERRRRRFECT (:
Went to Causeway Pt to repair my phone. Stupid M1 shop. Gave me a faulty phone and said they don't give a new phone even though it's less than 7days since I bought it. They will only repair it. Wth? So had to go all the way down to Woodlands. Sian. Met ShuMing and we had lunch there. Then headed down to town, walked a bit. HAHA, we walked in the rain and it was oh so fun. Okay nevermind.

Got bored and went to Funan IT Mall. Go disturb YH a bit cause he was working there :D Nahahaha then had lunch and seriously it's damn fun to go out with ShuMing cause we talk about all sorts of stuff and do stupid stuff. Like sitting in the middle of nowhere in the mall and eating our food. He went to cut his hair and it was oh so damn funny but I swear that hair cutter was super bu shuang but whateverrrr. Went home then Clement came over half an hour after I reached home -.- And finally like after soooo long, he can put me to bed again.

-grins. I'm happy. Nahahah, no we are not back together. I love singlehood though yeah I get emo and all but what the heck. I get to go out with anyone I like and I don't have to like keep entertaining a boyf? FREEEEDOM. Haha, this period of time is like when couples break up and get tgt? During this past week or so, I've seen loads of couples close to me breaking up or having huge fights while on the other hand, I've seen couples getting together and it's so cute. Haha.

Today was a perfect day I guess. Cause there was training! -jumps around.
Coach was funny and damn random I swear.

Coach: My son says you're pretty.

DAMN RANDOM RIGHT? DURING TRAINING SOME MORE. Haha.
I think coach's like super cute and so lovaaaaable. Aww.

And I think I'm finally getting my life back on track (:
Study mood kicking in already. Whee. Going to do my PW PI now. Sian.
Anyway, I'd appreciate it if no one mentions Jason's name anymore.
I don't wanna think about the past and the sweet times I had with him.
So yeah, give my heart a break it deserves:D

Don't ask me how's he after his operation or what.
I don't know anything and I guess I won't know anything, so yea.

PLUS IM DONE WITH SHUMING'S PRESENT AND HE SAID HE LIKES IT! HAHA.
And no, I don't like ShuMing as in boyf that kind. He's like my sister brother kinda thing :D


SHU2 FAMILY ROCKS YO?




Time: 10:54 PM

Can't you just look around and see who has been by your side all along? Your tantrums, your bad moods due to the quarrels you had with your girlfriend, the cold treatment I got cause priority went to your gf. I knew your whole world was your gf but come on, please think before you act k?

Hey, I'm not complaining about your gf here. In fact I'm really happy for you that you love your gf so much. I never expected you to spend time with me as a friend whatsoever. Think about it lah. Since I've known you, was the even ONE time I said, 'Eh, can you don't talk to your gf for awhile and talk to me instead?' No. All along I've always been saying, 'Hey, go spend more time with your girlfriend and try to sort things out. I'm sure things will work out fine so just don't let this relationship go just like that k? We can always talk some other day.' I've done the best I can as a friend, being there for you when you needed help, needed someone to talk to. Most of the times, I was just left by one corner and I didn't even loathe you for doing so. I just know that as a friend, I have to be there for you. Especially when things between you and your gf are so unsettled.

Yes, you don't tell me your secrets, you don't tell me much. Have I ever forced it out from you? Nope. On the other hand, you kept telling me to tell you stuff. About my past especially. You say I don't trust you and I don't treat you as a friend. Think about it. If I don't treat you as a friend, why am I still staying by your side after so long? For fun? For boredom? Cause I treat you as a friend dammit! When I finally told you about my past and secrets, things still remained the same. You never shared stuff with me. I kept quiet and respect your decision. Still, I shared stuff with you willingly.

But what did you do? You went on to tell the things I told you to your gf. Yeah, true I don't know her personally and vice versa but don't you think that you're taking things too far? To tell her everything that I told you. She's your gf and you don't keep things from your gf. I accept that. BUT BLOODY HELL. YOU DON'T FUCKING GO AND TELL YOUR FRIEND'S STUFF AND SECRETS TO YOUR GF. All I wanted was to trust you and hope you'd just keep mum about it. Was that too much to ask for? Oh yeah, maybe it was. As a friend, I can't even ask for a little trust from you right? It's impossible hor?

Still, after I found out you told your gf about my stuff, I kept quiet. You said you'll call back later cause you needed to call your girlfriend to quarrel again and sort things out. So, I waited for you till 2am in the morning to call back, hoping that things would at least be alright between you two. You never called back so I'm totally fine with it. Till this morning when I just said, 'You know, I have a reason to hate you now but nevermind', you just flared up at me. You said that you're sick of me bringing up the old stuff again. EH FUCK LAH. Have I ever said I hated you before? Bloody well get your facts right okay?

True that we quarrelled the night before. A stupid quarrel with cursing and all But you called me after that and everything was well and we talked through the night. But during that whole quarrel, have I said I hated you or such stuff? No. I've had enough lah. You told me to damn well leave you. Fine.

One year trying to be there for you whenever you needed someone to talk to and I just can't have a little trust placed in you. I see no point lah. Yes, I'll still be here for you when you need me but other than that, I won't be there anymore. I'm sick and tired of you showing bad mood every time you argue with your gf and I have to cheer you up. You know how bloody painful it is to see my close friend being so upset and I'm not able to cheer him/her up when in the first place I don't even know what went wrong cause that person won't share with me?
It's over. Even if you were to call me to make things right (like hell you will), it's too much lah.

All I can hope for you now, is that you really get things solved between you and your girlfriend so that you'll be happy again. That's all.
____________________________________________________________

Rah, feeling so so fucked up. I don't know. AO called me just now. Asked how was I and all. Well, maybe I'll meet him tomorrow or something to talk for awhile before I go out with ShuShu Bird. Alex called me last night also out of the blue. I didn't pick up though cause for once, I had enough of his attitude of 'if you don't patch back with me, i'll just hate you and leave you alone and you can't come and talk to me.' Like why the fuck are my ex-boyf so random these days? M text me a few days ago asking random questions.

Come on lah, want to be friends then be friends. Don't come and give me the crap like few months later contact you once then disappear for a few months again. Zz. Dream on about getting back together. I don't believe in second chances. And Clement's the same too. I doubt we will get back together and all. Sigh.

Okay, I'm going to do my work and finish up Shushu's present. Gosh, it's like so long overdue ):
I'm listening to the 7 dwarfs song now. We dig dig dig dig....Hi Ho!!!! hi ho hi ho it's home from work we go! hi ho hi ho hi ho hi ho! It's home from work we go! HI HO HI HO HI HO HI HO HI HO HI HO HI HO HI!
Time: 4:50 PM

/I guess it's over.
But I don't know, I suddenly miss you so badly?
Something's wrong with me but it's just that, this little teeny weeny bit of my heart,
hidden somewhere, is just missing you so badly.


Fine, no more vulgarities. Sheesh. But I'm still pissed. Guess what? My phone's software is screwed. How smart hor. Like what the HELMET! -.- I'm so so so pissed.

Tuesday left school halfway to see the B'div Team comps. Rah, After that headed down to Funan IT Mall to get my memory card. Then went to SP to see orientation. HAHA. Damn crap.

Wednesday I left school at 10.30am? Sick so never go for the swimming carnival. WHO THE HELMET DID I GET THIS DAMN FLU FROM?

Today, went to see the last comps for B'div. Had lunch with Jonas and Eugene before heading back to school for like 50mins of PW only? -.- Waste time. Rah.


Someone made me promise to be honest to be myself. Haha, if I were to be honest with myself, we won't be as close as we are now. I think sometimes lying to yourself ain't a bad thing afterall (:
Time: 9:58 PM

Because I have you by my side. Bestf forever (:

RAHHH I FREAKING HATE MY BLACK HAIR CAN!!
$%#$^%^%#&%$&%&$
Screwed up system and all. zzz.

Ah Chuan called me like bloody early in the morning?!
5.30am and he's calling alr. Said he wanted to fetch me to school.

Me: Hello?

C: EH, where you now?

Me: Sleeping lah. Siao call so early.

C: got school not?

Me: got, but also not so early wake up.

C: Today want me fetch you to school mah? Everytime kaobei kaobu say never fetch you. Now I nearby your house can go fetch you.

Me: Eh? Fetch me? (thinks of taking bus and squeezing with the crowd) Ahh, not today lah.

C: WALAU, everytime KBKB now hao xin want fetch you you don't want. next time don't say I never ask hor.

Me: Hanna, k lah. next time don't kbkb le la. don't need fetch.

C: Kao. People want drive you to school you don't want lor.

Me: EHHH!!! DRIVE AH?!

C: THEN YOU THINK WHAT? KNN THINK TAKE BUS SIAO AH.

Me: Walau, say so lah. I really think taking bus lah. okay lah, what time?


-and the conv continues-

So yeah, Ah Chuan came to fetch me with his friend. By the time we reached Bt.Timah road it was only like 6.52am? =.= So we headed to KAP have breakfast first before he sent me to school. Wah, I tell you if I hang out with Ah Chuan more, I think my vocabulary of vulgarities will increase like hell lot.

Went to school with black hair and all couldn't recognise me _|_
COME ON LAH I DON'T EVEN BLOODY RECOGNISE MYSELF!
NEVER HAD BLACK HAIR IN MY LIFE AND WHICH PART OF THIS DO YOU PEOPLE NOT UNDERSTAND?!
FUCK, keep making me dye black over and over again just to prove myself.
I don't bloody well need to prove myself but I have to stay in the damn school till A levels.
$^%^$%^$%&
If only Mr.Chu was still in Singapore, I'll get him to call you and tell you tat my hair has been like this since PRIMARY SCHOOL! HE WAS MY DM WHO WAS THE FIRST PERSON TO CATCH ME FOR MY SO CALLED 'DYED' HAIR OKAY!


Anyway, today was bowling enrichment. Boring and I can't even bowl with house ball like what the hell? Went to have lunch with bestf and talked. Headed down to CityHall to meet YongHe to go FUNAN IT MALL. Got my ph mem card finally! (: Then went down to SP to do shit? Rot there I suppose.

Thanks YH for paying for my SD card and your DEBIT card is still with me and I swear I'll just spend all the money inside lah. Like fuck? The thing you shouldn't give to me most is your ATM card and password. If I go on shopping spree, I think you'll be bankrupt :/

I totally dread school tmr? I have no 'bonds' between the school and teachers there. If you get what I mean. So irritating.
AHHHH! Should I go back to Chinese Dance? Damn, the temptation is there can? ROAR.
I miss Chinese Dance like hell lot. Plus gym):

HECK, I'm SICK.
Screw it.
Time: 9:53 PM

Yesterday I got a newwwww phone :D
NOKIA 6500 Slide.

Rah, happy happy me know (: Finally after 2 years I get to change my phone!
Haha, yeah, my parents don't change my phone every year and such. It's only when I renew my phone plan then they get me a new phone so yeah.


My phone is black though.

And Clement as usual just slept whole day then went with me to Westmall to get my new phone. Raaaahh such a pig.
OKAY JUST DONT LAUGH AT MY BLACK HAIR! I KNOW IT LOOKS QUEER AND I THINK SO TOO OKAY! ):


Clement's 'perfect' photography skills makes it look as though there is a long worm woving in and out of my stomach -.-









And here's me looking at my Dad shoo-ing the bird out of the window.

Taken by of course the nevertheless so bored Clement.

Last night we went out as a family to have an early celebration for Daddy's birthday.
Went to Crystal Jade @ Causeway but my mood was so dowwwwwn plus my stomach was feeling queasy all over so I didn't eat much ):






Well, M and YH are still not on good terms which I think is super stupid but M was really sweet yesterday somehow (: And we had a hell good time talking to each other last night and it's like the first time since we had a PROPER talk ya? Happy happy. Spent time talking to YH too of course and things got better.

Well things got better between M and I and YH and I but not between M and YH -.- Rah, just hope that I can try to make peace between them.

I'm just happy cause M told me over the phone out of the blue some really sweet stuff. Haha, but what the heck. That guy's got a gf so yeah (: I'm just haaaappppppy :D
KA was being pig also. Haha, aiyah whatever. I'm just high knowwww!

Oh plus, after the bird flew into my bro's room yesterday, I was like OH THANK GOODNESS I DON'T HAVE THE HABIT OF OPENING MY ROOM WINDOWS! (yeah, my room is pretty stuffy but heck). CAUSE WHEN I WAS WATCHING ANIME, 1 bird flew and sat outside my window. AND IN TOTAL THERE WERE 5 BIRDS PERCHED JUST OUTSIDE MY WINDOW. Gah. Luckily the windows were closed otherwise my room would have been a BIG bird playground for them.

I only managed to get a picture of ONE bird.

Time: 5:31 PM

Wednesday I went to school. Had the Glass Mosaic Workshop plus Nail Art. Rahhh.
It was fun but so tiring. Gah.

Thursday didn't go to school. Headed down to OCC to see the B'div bowling comps - Doubles. Some did pretty well while others did a bit below their singles but it's okay (: After that cabbed down to Tampines to meet YH and M for lunchhhh. SHY OKAY! -.- Aiyah, but it was super crap. Ohwells.
Met them for lunch then cabbed home. Tampines to Gombak. GOSH!
Totally cab fare from Yishun to Tampines and Tampines to Gombak.
Uhh, at least 38 bucks? o.O
My back's hurting so badly I couldn't walk properly. Rahhh.

At night was crap cause I've no idea what to do nor say to some people. As in...

Yeah, I love him since I've known him but so what? He's got a gf that's why all along I don't really think about it and I could even get another boyf. Cause I don't wanna think about. He and his gf is so loving and all. Hell no I'm going to like be so selfish? I didn't wanna think about it then you had to keep asking me if I loved him and go think about it. He knows I love him and he loves me too. But if he's going to break up with his girlfriend just cause I love him, I'm just going to kick him out of my life. So don't try to make that happen. I treasure friendships more than anything else.

Anyway, to those who sms me or have been trying to call my hp, just call my house straight.
Yeah.
Ah wells. I'm bored. That's why I hate the 'I love you you love me' kinda stuf.
The story is basically so stupid. Gosh. Might as well be friends and everything will be okaaay what.
Haha, KA was kinda cute abt it when I told him what happened.
He text me this, 'Like that also can? Aiyah, tell them you're mine.'
Cute hor. Haha, so funnyyyy. Ohwells, I'm going to do my work. Byebye.

I need cash ): Sigh. Miss dancing like #@%#$^$%.
OHHHH, THERE'S A BIRD THAT FLEW INTO MY BRO'S ROOM :D
And it shitted on the floor and his blanket.
HAHAH, that's why I don't open my room windows. Omg, funny.

OHYES! MY HAIR IS BLOODY FUCKING IDK WHAT WORD TO USE, BLACK.
It's not dark brown or what shit. It's black _|_
Never in my life I had black hair. I told Ying and she was like obviously lah.
You never had black hair even when u were young.
ZZ PURE BLACK.
Screw the school seriously. I don't understand what's their bloody problem.
FUCK.










My Glass product :D
Time: 11:17 AM

My back pain is getting so much worse:/ So bad that it's affecting my leg muscles now. Bowling training today was so horrible cause my back hurts and I couldn't even swing the ball properly because once I swing it, my leg hurts. It hurt till my left leg nearly gave way because it wasn't strong enough to support my swing. Ahh, whatever. I shall just rest a day or two. See how it goes. Been to the doctor for infra-red and laser treatment plus acupuncture -.-

Today was almost a stupid day.
Woke up damn bloody early in the morning, go school.
Pon assembly and went to the toilet to sleep. I wasn't feeling well anyway so yeah.
Went for my activity for just 30mins and I'm dismissed.
Seriously what the hell lah. If I know, I'd just not go school today.

After the activity, met Kenneth Pohpoh for breaaaakfast at Bt.Batok. Yumyum.
Won't be seeing him till maybe next week cause he's currently in KL. Bleh.
After breakfast, headed down to BPP to meet Ying. Like finally after so long omg.
I'm sorry dear I didn't really pei you much. So sorry):

Took a cab down to uhh, Pioneer Mall? Find KA.
Wah, I tell you damnnnnnn weird. He and I talked less than 10 sentences lah. And maybe less than 20 words. Rah. Anw, went over to his house to get some sleep before training. During the whole time he was gaming. When I woke up and wanted to leave for training, I didn't even dare to talk to him to ask him to open the door for me -.- Took me 20mins before I dared to interrupt his game and ask him-.-

So stupid. Anw, I don't know but somehow things ain't falling in place. So weird.
Maybe I'm thinking too much? Ohwells.
I think I'm finally getting back to study mode. I THINK.

But hey, the next time you try to contact me, I'm sorry. I ain't gonna entertain you anymore.
Time: 8:44 PM

'Pig, I miss you. Will you me another chance? I know you won't believe me anymore. Nevermind.'

That's what you said and that's what is true. No matter how much I miss you and how much I want you back, it's no point because I no longer trust you. You're now walking with a limp and it hurts seeing you limp but I can't be by your side taking care of you. You've told me countless of lies, from the very simple lie such as the shirt you lent me was yours but in the end, it turned out to be your friend's shirt. You lied all the way to you've never lied a single lie to me before. I'm sorry, I know I'll regret and hate myself for not getting back together with you but no matter what it is, I never believed in second chances, especially when you've hurt me so badly.

But baby, I'm missing you so much.

Clement stayed over on Wed night and I went downstairs where he was sleeping on the sofa and scared him at 2am. NAHAHA. Super funny. I went to put my face directly above his and knocked his pillow. So when he opened his eyes, my face was hanging there above him. HAHA.
Aiyah, next day, we went out to study at Westmall before meeting Rachel at JE. That blur pok wanted to go JP but ended up saying Jurong East -.- So we had lunch at JE then took train down to JP.

Saw Andrew and Ah Chuan. Walked about, bought a really nice top :D Cut my hair too and it's omg damn not nice :/ RAH DON'T KNOW.

Friday headed down to his house to see him. Seeing him walking with a limp just hurts. Went for training with coach at 3pm. Ah wells. After training YH sent me home. Plus he bought me titbits to munch on and drinks too. Thanks (:

Saturday Clement came over, and I overslept during my afternoon nap. 4 alarms set and I never wake up. Cause after the first alarm rang, I woke up, and switched off the other 3 alarms too. Rushed like shit an chiong for training. Made it there only just on time. My muscles are aching badly and I think my throws today are like shittttt. Coach still wants more trainings with me so yeah.

I told myself that this holidays will be spent trying to get my emotions in place but apparently it's not working. I don't know what else to do.
Plus, I don't know why but YH's liking me now. I don't wanna hurt anyone.
Not when I can't let go. I seriously might just turn les or something. Rah.

One good thing though, I got ShiYun addicted to One Piece :D


MUGGGGG!






CUPCAKE CUPCAKE CUPCAKE!








FOOD FOR LUNCH:D










I don't know why I cut this:/


Walking in the rain.


Time: 12:10 PM

NAHAHAHA.
Totally in love with training (:
Minus the fact my back pain is back :/ This time on the left side of the spine.


Let's see what did I do on tue?
Uhh, oh, I stoned at home and then went for training.
Then went to have dinner with Rakesh, Bryan and ChoonFah.
Haha, talked loads of crap I tell you.

EVERYDAY RAIN RAIN RAIN.
Then I have to go to training with wet slippers, wet legs, and wet shorts -.-
Stupid. And it just POURS after I go into the toilet to bathe and WASH MY HAIR.

Roar. And this #$#%#$%$ woman on the shuttle bus made me so pissed.
Like fuck? She just pushed me away to get down the bus first and her bloody fucking GOLF CLUBS just WHAM! onto my head. I tell you I nearly said, OIE FUCK YOU LAH! WATCH WHERE YOUR STUPID GOLF THINGS ARE GOING CAN?! You just hit my head!'
And I was so tempted to just push her down the steps and go,'Oops sorry, I slipped.'

_|_ Ya lah, rich lah, go play golf. Tai tai hor. Tai tai then take taxi or hire chauffeur lah! Idiot.
Whack people's head still pretend nothing happen. FUCK.

Coach didn't care about the A'div for training today. He was concentrating on the B'div. Their comps are next week. JIAYOU :D
Ahwells.
Plus, Jason called me. Out of the blue.
With a different hp number.

Me: Hello?
Him: Where are you now?
Me: Huh?
Him: Where are you now?
Me: Umm, who are you? (Though I knew who he was at the start already)
Him: Jason.
Me: Oh, umm. I just finished training. At Yishun.
Him: Okay, you go home call me okay?
Me: Uhh, yea okay.

Rah, I didn't call him, but yeah, still text him lah.
As expected he didn't reply so....
But when I heard his voice over the phone, my heart skipped a beat.
I don't know what to do. Being soft-hearted ain't good.
Yeah sure I act tough in front of others, saying heck lah, I don't really care.
But at home, I just cry in my room.

I don't know but my policy is, no matter how screwed up my life is, I'm not telling anyone cause I just wanna see the people around me happy. So no matter how sad I am, I'll still put on a smile so that others will smile too. I don't know. I just don't like seeing people sad I guess. I'm not even opening up to Ying, Tian or Clement anymore. Ah well.


Ah shit shit shit. Why these days I'm so emo?
I don't know if it's good that someone else admitted that he likes me.
Good or bad? Ah nevermind. Screwed up.
Time: 11:51 PM

I SERIOUSLY NEED TO STOP SLACKING AND GET SOME WORK DOWN.
My study mode is totally shut off and I can't restart it ): BAH!

Slacked the whole day, literally.
Rain and rain and rain. Zz. Nice weather to sleep in but can't.
Had to go for training. Training was omg.
I can't slide for nuts cause it's so damn scary can? ):
Gah. Scary scary.

After training met Jeff at WM. Idiot guy. Haha.
Took so damn long for him to leave the house that by the time he reached, I've already finished doing what I needed to do. So we walked home. In the rain.
Romantic right! HAHA. By the time we reached the coffeeshop, we were pretty much drenched.
But who cares? The things shujun suggests doing is just so fun right!
Nahahahah.

I'm totally in love with my new camera. -whistles.
Oh yeah, I've been wondering, should I get back together with Clement?
It's been a question that's been bugging me for really long :/
Ah wells, another thing is (it's meant for someone specific)
'Am I thinking too much or do you have time for every one else but me?'

Oh yes, I was so freaking pissed with this $#^%&$&$%&# b*tch okay?
Like hell fuck, she came into the train with her boyfriend(?).
Sat down beside me and literally just WHAM onto my shoulders.
I was like WTFH! And she glared at me as though trying to say, 'OIE MAKE SPACE FOR ME LAH.'
Come on lah bitch, you so bloody fat then don't sit lah.
Stand up also can make you thinner lor.
Want zam ppl go zam ur guy friend lah. Show him ur fats power.
And I've no freaking idea why but she kept turning around to glare at me.
Which made me so du lan diao that when she turned again, I totally gave her a super dao look.
Come on lah, you want fight fight lah. I also not wearing school uni.
Stare what stare sia. Choy Ah Lian (no offences to other ah lians here) wear until so ugly somemore still so fat.
CB can? You jealous I pretty right? Must keep looking at me.
Then don't know what she was hanky panky-ing with her guy friend (pity the guy yo?)
Then her whole blubber of fats arm came resting on my shoulder.
I nearly said 'FUCK' out loud and just elbowed her hand away.

CBBKNNLJ LAH.
One thing I can't stand most are these kind of people.
Think they so big. Come on lah, you big only in fats lah.
_|_


I need to clear some photos from my ph so here they are. Photos ages ago.

Flowers Dad gave to Mum out of the blue.





Clement at my house I don't know when.


One of the more glam shots of Brendon sleeping on the way to training.


XinTian's birthday shoes design. Credits to Anh for helping me. (:






And last of all, please don't ask me why I dressed in this fashion (typical 'ah lian' style?).
I have no idea and I was just too lazy to dress up.
On the day we went to IT fair.


Time: 10:16 PM

MORNIN BF WITH KENNETH POHPOH :D
That nice 'gentleman' was late again as usual. This time for nearly half an hour. Zzz.
Headed down to Holland V to have bf. NEVER LET HIM DECIDE HOW TO TRAVEL THERE.
Gosh, we had to talk like 15mins? If we took bus, we just needed 5mins. But bf with him was greeeeat. HAHA, can't wait till our next session! Should be somewhere next week. Wheee.

I screwed up my camera's screen protector and I've gotta buy a new one T_T BOOHOO.
Training tomorrow and I can't wait (: Happy happy me. Going to start studying at midnight.
I've been slacking all DAY. Literally.

Totally love my new camera.
Minus the fact I'm still trying to get over the point that it's kinda big but what the heck.
Love it to bits. Don't dare to take it out and use it properly cause it has to screen protector ):

Bah, back to watching one piece.
Byebye.
Time: 10:51 PM

RAH, today Clement came over and when we were suppose to go out with Denise and Jiayi (to celebrate that dear girl's birthday), my mum didn't allow! ROAR. She was like 'you're going to have lunch with us then we are watching movie after that.' I'm like WTHHHHHHHH!

It's been a gazillion years since I've seen my two hottest babes and this had to happen ): So no choice, had to go for lunch with my parents. AND THEY SUPER SMART LAH. Whole family left without me and Clement cause I was still bathing and Clement was waiting for me. WHEN I LEFT THE HOUSE I HAD NO FREAKING IDEA WHERE I WAS SUPPOSE TO GO -.-

I just remembered vaguely that someone mentioned Lot1 so I just went there. If they weren't there then I'll just have lunch there and go out and find DL and JY. But they were lah, so had lunch at the SIAM restaurant :/ We were so bloated Clement said he didn't feel like he could walk anymore. NAHAHAHA. And like what the hell lah. My soft shell crab had CHICKEN in it o.O So in the end they gave me almost a whole new crab. Ohmyyyy.

After lunch, daddy suddenly was so nice and decided to go to IT show to get me my camera :D
Clement was like WOAH when he saw the crowd there. And come on lah, I had to elbow my way through. AND OMG, there was this stupid old man who thinks he could get close to me by like PRESSING is whole body plus his hand on my BUTT! I was like fuck you old man and elbowed him. He still pressed on. So I decided to give him some pain. Every step I took, I elbowed him DAMN hard and pushed him at the same time. I'm not being mean here but it WASN'T THAT crowded at the area he kept pressing onto me. You don't fucking think you can come to crowded places and touch touch okay?! _|_

Okay, and I didn't buy my dream camera but something better :D Daddy said not to buy the T300 because SONY stuff are hard to find if I needed replacement. Didn't buy my COOLPIX S210 because I don't know! ): Maybe cause I figured if I wanna cam whore, I can always use my old camera though it's big and bulky and a tad slow but I still love it to bits :D Minus the fact that I always wanted a slim camera and all, but still, I bought this pretty babe (: (fuck, I'm thinking and missing Jason. Kinda remembered he bought me a camera but I've never seen it. I need to stop thinking about him.)

MY NEW CAMERA :D

COOLPIX P50











Anyway, everything's over between J and I already.
I made everything end just with one sms with the word, 'goodbye'.
The word I hated most in relationships.
I was dumb to think we could get back together and start afresh.
I was dumb to think that I could trust him again.
I was dumb to believe every of his damn lies.
I don't even wanna hold on to the memories we shared.
Yeah yeah, it's simple to just say it out.
And yes, I'm still struggling to let go.
But I thought of him again today and it totally made me feel so down)':
Gah, I wanna be alooone. Just once, for once.
I wish I had a shoulder to cry on. But I have nobody.
Not even Ying. Just me, myself and I.

Christina Milian - Until I Get Over You
Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I’m with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain ­ every time I hear your name

Chorus:
The sun won’t shine since you went away
Seems like the rain’s falling every day
There’s just one heart, where there once was two
But that’s the way it’s gotta be,
‘til I get over you…

Verse 2:
Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can’t escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

Bridge:
When will this river of tears stop fallin’
Where can I run so I won’t feel alone
Can’t walk away when the pain keeps callin’
I’ve just gotta take it from here on my own
But it’s so hard to let go
Time: 10:17 PM

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!
I'm so crazily obsessed with getting this camera!

T300 Cybershot



But it's bloody ex at like $649!!!! OMGGGGGG.
So I decided to go for other SONY cameras but they are still damn ex.







So in the end, I saw this Nikon CoolPix camera and it's totally love also :D And affordable.
PLEASE LET DADDY BE NICE AND LET ME BUY THIS CAMERA IF NOT -stabs myself.

and plus they've got pretty colours too!

Presenting to you, COOLPIX S210














OMG I'M SO FREAKING OBSESSED WITH IT.
ROAR. IT'S $449 if I'm not wrong. Either that or $349.
I think it's $449. ROARROARROAR.
Time: 10:06 PM