The person I saw while going to the toilet at work was really Ris Low. She's in the TNP today so yea. She seems pretty weird/friendly depending on how you wanna view it.
I walked past her 'photoshoot' while going to the toilet and she turned at me and smiled at me for a few seconds until I turned a corner. Weird to me somehow =/


And my dad wants me to take the highway code TOMORROW. Okay, not take it but sign up. Damn. He says since I'm not working now, I should go take it instead of watching shows.

Hey! Glee is a damn good show okay? Makes me wanna fall in love with a singer-cum-dancer guy again. Damn, it makes me miss dancing so much and at the same time, makes me think that dancer guys are damn hot all over again. Hoo boy.
Time: 7:39 PM

Haven't been blogging much cause the past week has been really tough on me.
But now everything's pretty okay now.

Thanks to a ton of people who made it work out.
Jeffrey who was there to take all my rubbish (especially me insisting on one stick).
Kenneth who treated me to meals the whole day and was even willing to sit with me on a 1 hour train journey from nearly one end to the other on the red line.
My boss who finally made me realise what a fucking idiot I was to be willing to work under such an asshole and being miserable EVERY SINGLE DAY just for the sake of money.
ZJ who made an informal agreement with me to drive me round Singapore one day just for a whole day of shooting.

And of course my dear baby boy who never gave up on me despite our huge fight that lasted for days and still love me all the same (:

So I'm going to blog again! :D

My party was a blast. Thanks to every single one who came down just for the party even though I knew it was going to be a bad mix but still it meant a lot to me!
Baby couldn't book out on the day of my birthday but he was uber sweet cause he sent a whole bouquet of flowers to my house and it was the first gift I got on my birthday.





Party was great with all my friends gathered and catching up. I'm sorry guys if I couldn't talk much to you all but it's really good to see all of you all again.












Time: 1:24 PM

I finally quit my job already. Finally.
After hearing him nag/scold/insult me for more than an hour yesterday, I told him at the end, 'Okay, today is my last day of work.'
Fucking irritating.
One of the most rubbish things he said was, 'You don't think that just because it's your birthday so you can take leave as and when you like it.'

You stupid no balls hypocrite. Before I started this job, when I was on the phone with him, I told him beforehand that I had to take quite a number of leaves. His answer? Sure no problem, cause you're a temp and you're paid for each day's work so it's okay.

Hell yeah, when I asked him where he was on the 4th of May ON HIS BIRTHDAY and whether he took leave (he took leave on BOTH 3rd and 4th May), he got oh-so-defensive and said he was the head of the division and he gets to decide when he himself can take leave and he ALSO decides when I can take leave and I have no say in it. Yeah right, go to hell you stupid blind man.

I mean, how interested to you want me to be reading your damn emails and buying lunch for you EVERY DAY? And when you dictate to us what you want to reply, half your hand is covering your mouth and you're just mumbling to yourself. But every time we ask you to repeat, you lose your 'patience' (if you even had it to begin with). Screw you, haven't you learn how to articulate PROPERLY when you were young?! Useless piece of shit.
_|_ Hurry up and be 100% blind la.

Well, I'm finally out of the job and I finally have time for myself again and to do the things I've always wanted to do.

And yesterday I've finally talk through things with the boy and yea, now every thing's pretty much okay. Seems like this week ain't the best week for couples somehow? ZJ and his gf also having a pretty big fight, something similar to mine =/ Hope all goes well for him somehow.
Time: 12:37 PM

The week's been rough. Really rough.

But somehow thank goodness there's Kenneth Poh Poh who brought me out for dinner.
There's Jeff who was there listening to my nonsense and also going out with me for dinner later :D
There's my big sister who texted me last night asking if I was all right despite he being tired from his job.

I know la, it's all guys but I talk better to guys somehow. Plus sammy dear is having exams now so I can't really disturb her ):

I still got 5/6 of a bottle of Absolut Vodka (original) and 1 full bottle of Absolut Vodka (orange).
Anyone?
Time: 12:12 PM

Wrong decisions never are good.
But at least the decision to meet Kenneth the whole of yesterday was good.
Breakfast was empty literally. We didn't eat cause he had no appetite -.-

Dinner was great. Finally got to taste that XO Ba chor mee at Newton Food Centre.
And I think I'm awesome cause I opened a bottle with a (cheapskate plastic)bottle opener by myself and Kenneth couldn't xD
Long train ride home was spent just talking and talking and talking.

Tons of emotions, memories, thoughts flowing in me but I'm not posting it here.


The girl is still a girl but the boy is now a man.

But still, I want to be your best friend.
Someone who's always caring for you, someone you can share secrets with and someone who will just always be there for you.
I wasn't be the best girlfriend you could have, but now I'll be the best friend you'll ever have (:
Time: 11:25 AM

Spent the 2 hours crying my eyes out, 1 hr 15mins talking rubbish to Kenneth and I still feel equally horrible.

I'm not entirely sure how I'm supposed to feel.
Should copy Kenneth's PM - mixed feelings.

Idiot Kenneth made me skip breakfast. If he makes me miss dinner, I'm going to scream at him and chop of all his hair.
Time: 12:49 PM

Under this mask, what I really feel inside is unbearable.

A mixture of disappointment, hurt, pain, sadness, bad memories and everything else negative.
Not from a source but many sources.

I'm taking a break...for awhile.
Time: 9:56 PM

I just snapped at my boss.

Applaud me please, I know, like finally I snap at him.
I mean, yesterday was bad enough already. Took all of my self-control/restrain to focus on my work and not tell him to 'SHUT THE HELL UP LA'.
I nearly did a few times.

It's so irritating when I'm trying to do my work, he makes me do his personal stuff (ie. reading his emails and replying them) and when I'm really seriously doing my work (trying to finish filing all the notes for the next day's course - 2 sets with 100 over pages each and having 25 files to file ALONE) he comes irritating the hell out of me by chit chatting on the phone and laughing loudly and whispering when talking to his GIRLFRIEND.

Fuck. He still dare to say to me (with a hint of sarcasm),

"Oh you have to finish the notes right? Since Media Laws is tomorrow and there's so much more to file."

You think you so smart I give you everything to file la. Since you sit there do nothing except irritate me, talk on the phone and read newspapers under the magnifier.

Today, still wanna irritate me by chiding me for not being able to complete such a simple task. If it's THAT simple, DO IT YOUR FUCKING SELF. Since it's just reading the name list and ticking off names, you do it la. You can still read under the visualiser what.

Cb. Bad mood now. VERY bad mood now. He comes disturbing me again today I'm going to curse at him and go home early. I don't care if I get fired la. Make me pissed the whole day.
Time: 1:24 PM

Have you ever felt the way that when someone says a certain sentence or tells you a certain thing, it suddenly just makes you feel that the person seems so foreign and like a total stranger to you? Even if the person is like the closest to you?

I've always felt this way. Somehow.

I mean most of the time it's no big deal but after being hurt time and time again, it's just a normal reflex for me to be away from you as far as I can while I 'cool down'.

I stress again, it's no big deal cause most of my ex-es I've been with are the same. But to hear it coming from you is a different thing altogether.
I kinda always thought of you as 'perfect' (minus the insensitive, irritating, etc.)
Hmm, ohwells. Time for bed.
Time: 9:26 PM

Lots of photos I haven't put up yet.
Long overdue ones from the pasar malam baby and I went to like nearly a month ago xD

P.S. Some photos may seem suggestive. HAHA. And for the first dew photos, if you zoom in it can be really gross. Heh. And because I tried to take these shots, my back killed me for the whole night and the next day.
















Btw, I did another photo shoot with baby yesterday. Daddy bought me a new backdrop so I was playing around with it. Studio lightings are really hard to manage, honestly. I need to read up more about it and practice more. But it's really fun playing about the lights and just figuring by trial and error.

Pictures of the photo shoot will be up some time soon cause I'm really sleepy now. Yawns.
Time: 11:30 AM

I wonder why some people are sooo irritating.
Every single day I go to work or come home from work, I meet irritating people.

Yesterday's highlight was one fat guy oozing a foul odour. Fuck. He's already sitting at the corner seat, with the glass panel on his right for him to lean on when he dozed off and he can still doze off all the way to my side. Not once, not twice, not even three times.
He seriously has too much blubber. Even when I elbowed him, he didn't even twitch. Ass.

I've been really tired this whole week. Exhausted cause after work, I shower, eat dinner and can't wait to go to bed but I have to stay up to wait for the boy to return to his bunk, shower and call me. Which may very well end up close to midnight. Ohwells, can't be helped. This whole week he's having outfield thingo. Well, the proper outfield is today till tomorrow. Sucks cause he can't book out on Friday plus the fact that he has confinement till Sat. Pfft.

If he gets confinement for my birthday (which happens to also be ON my actual birthday), I'm so not going to talk to him.

Still don't like my boss. Pfft. Irritating like hell. I like the job of being an admin assistant but I hate to be someone's PERSONAL assistant. I mean, it's seriously not in my job scope to 'wait' on him and be at his beck and call _|_ Stupid shit.

6.30pm hurry come. I wanna go homeeeee.
Time: 4:43 PM

Anyway, here are some studio shots that I took. First time trying it out. Haven't even studied about taking studio shots yet, just browsed through some books here and there.
The photos (to me) are still not up to standard yet. Still way far off. But I guess if I practice every weekend (that's the only free time I have), I should be able to improve.

FYI: The photos seen on other computers (other than mine) makes the photo seem extremely reddish =/ Idk why but when it's on my com, it looks perfectly fine to me. So if you think the photos are extremely reddish, it really ain't my fault!


Setting up the studio/dismantling the studio takes me about 2 hours in total. But the fun I had taking the photos is worth it. Heh.

I don't even have time to read ): Stupid work. Think I might just as well quit before my contract ends cause it's like I don't even have much time for myself anymore. Weekends are always spent with the boy. Pfft.
And it sucks when uni letter hasn't come yet. Sucks big time. And to face a stupid boss the whole day without being able to text baby cause he's at field camp.

Damn, life sucks to the max.










































Mummy said I was bullying the boy by making him my model. Haha, my daddy was game enough to let me take a few shots of him :D
Baby got so lazy of standing up for all the shorts that he decided to sit down and pose and even to lie down -.-
Nevertheless, I'm happy with my studio equipments and a great big thank you to baby and daddy who chipped in to make it possible for me to buy the necessary studio equipments :D:D:D:D
Time: 9:23 AM

Baby fixed my computer! :D
After I installed AVG (to clear away the 60+ viruses I have in my computer), it somehow screwed up my driver systems so much that it can no longer detect wireless nor dongles.
But it's okay now and internet is finally back to my baby lappy!

The boss at work is pissy S.O.A.B. Sometimes at work I'll just give him the finger in front of him (not as though he can see anyway). He can be really nice sometimes (only once actually) and an asshole most of the other times (practically everyday).

I mean, come on, I'm being paid to do admin work, not to do his own personal things like buy him lunch, buy him dinner, read his emails, reply his emails, copy and paste news articles into word document and then upload it into his stupid machine so that he gets to hear stories during the weekends, which he dared to mention to me '...all these are just for my leisure reading'.

I'm so not his bloody personal assistant. My job scope clearly is admin assistant. NOT his personal cum admin assistant. Irritating shit, really. I've half my mind made up that one of these days I'll say, 'No I'm not going to do this work for you. If you want me to do it, pay me the salary of BOTH an admin and personal assistant.'

I mean, come on. All he does is talk and gossip on the phone all day (fk-ing irritating when my colleague and I are rushing like mad doing work), make our lives miserable with his PMS and hello, he comes in for work 12pm and after (definitely before 1pm cause he wants us to buy his lunch).


He can tell I can't really be bothered about him. Sore thumb. Pfft.

Anyway, this weekend was really fun. Well, Saturday was fun. Went to see baby's camp at SCS, toured about, see his (certain) guy friends he told me about. Come to think of it, I didn't see his partner. Damn. Well, he's friendly for sure. Said 'Hi!' to me over the phone last night (in the background strictly speaking).

Then we went over to Aunty Sandy's to pass her the wedding photos that I took on her daughter's birthday. After that headed home for a quick lunch then headed out. It was scary. Having 3 bolts of lighting striking near the same place (we were at Commonwealth MRT Station) one after another.

Going to update later with photos. I'm in a really pissy mood right now cause baby is having outfield (sucks cause I have no one to sms to when I need to rant) and my boss is being an ass.

Think I'm going to quit this job soon. Don't wanna see his damn ego attitude anymore.
Time: 10:59 AM

It's amazing how I walk past FH this morning (that idiot just walked straight past me), and still remember his number after so many years of not contacting him (I don't have his number in my phone). But yeah, quite surprised to see him early in the morning while walking to the train station.

Some times it's really good to hear from old friends again, while other times it's not. Well, that's just life I guess. Sometimes the people you THOUGHT who understands you the most (and may very well in fact be the one who understands you the most) turns out to be the one who hurts you the most.

Well, HAPPY (belated) 21ST MONTHSARY BABY!
The 1st monthsary that I never got to talk with the boy for the whole 24hours. & pretty much the 2nd monthsary (I think) that I don't get to see him. Sucky. Esp when yesterday I was in one hell of a bad mood. I was so pissed I ended up ranting at this other friend of mine (I only knew him for like 2-3months max?) on MSN and thank goodness he was willing to listen.

So many people going overseas.
My two retards Clement Yap and Shi Hao going to Taiwan for NS (they should be on the plane right now).
My mei Anying going to Australia soon for holiday.
My best friend Aks going to Australia 2 days after my birthday for TWO FRIGGING MONTHS ):
Rachel's going to Germany (I think).

Ahwells. Nevermind, it just means they have to get me presents. HAHAH. Though I had this huge argument with Shi Hao over the phone on what presents he SHOULD NOT get me when he called me to say he was going Australia. Geez, every single time I talk to that guy on the phone we always come up with some random shit thing. HAHA. & we always say, drinking session after __(name of event)___. And it never did. Hopefully this time there WILL BE a drinking session when they get back.

And my studio equipments arrived already. Damn cool I tell you. Going to play with it this weekend when baby comes over. Heh, fun fun! (:
Time: 4:30 PM

Fucking buyer made me so damn fucking pissed off on Friday.

The whole story is up on a forum but I won't say where.

Baby knew how much I wanted to slap him when he actually asked me if he could have more discounts.
My mum said I should have just slapped him cause she hate these kind of people also after she asked why I was home so late STILL without dinner and found out I waited 1 bloody hour for that idiot. I was seriously cursing and swearing when I left the station.

I was half shouting half saying, 'Fuck, that fucking idiot asshole make me wait 1 fucking hour and cheebye still want to ask for a fucking discount. Bloody hell wanna slap him.' and walked past this whole group of guys and they were like staring at me with eyes wide opened. Rather funny sight though. Cause like I was still in my office attire, make up and all, wearing slippers and cursing loudly. Seriously, this is the first time someone's made me so damn pissed off I curse out loud.

He totally doesn't sound Singaporean that idiot mthrfkr.

Geez, I'm so so pissed off. Baby was too. Can you imagine, that level-headed sweet dear boy of mine who always heck care about anything was cursing also and said he so badly wanted to whack him even BEFORE we met him. Thank goodness he didn't listen to what the conversation I had with that idiot (he was sitting behind) otherwise... I think I'll whack him myself if baby wasn't there to act as a deterrent.

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Ohwells, on the bright side. I'm happy with the spoils I got this week. My Sekonic L-358 Flash Master (costs near to $400 brand new, I got mine for $220 second hand), Crumpler Keystone (Out of stock in Singapore but costs $282 brand new, I got mine for $150 second hand), and of course, I've ordered my studio equipments! :D Frigging $700 though but I think it's worth it.

Ciao.
Time: 11:03 AM