ohwells. din start out good in the morning. and i wont talk about it.
wondering how come bestf and i are getting further apart):
do want to spend time with her but she is busy with her own stuff.

ying babe, don't feel so sad okay? i know these few years we have our own lives and everything but don't worry, i love you(: no matter what, remember that even if the whole world hates you, i still love you and will be here for you. we will catch up with each other after your o levels okay? jiayou and study hard. don't let me down. even if you can't come into njc, at least go to a good jc. and once o levels are over, we spent more time together okay? to make up for the times we missed. and about me not wanting to tell you about certain stuff, it's cause too many things have happened and you know it's very difficult to sum up everything and tell you at one go. so many things to tell you, so many things you need to know. but one day, i will tell you everything. even if it takes days or weeks. but it's whether you want to listen for so long x)

exams are next week.hoho.how good is that? (:
Time: 11:14 AM

I SO WANT TO GO BACK TO DANCING!
but daddy doesn't approve of it cause im having three ccas currently):
which means that if i want to take up dancing again, i have to drop at least one of my cca.
or two.
damnn.i dont even have enought money to pay for the dance school's fees lah.

SHAR! i want to be ur dance mate (:
and denise babe, i will be okay(: don't worry.
it won't be like last time those hay wire relationships that i had.
with me going crazy over break ups and everything :D

okaay. clement is in field camp now. so he doesnt have his ph with him):
heh, ppl maybe wondering how come i still talk to him?
who says people who break up cannot talk to each other anymore?
furthermore, i'm giving him one last chance to prove himself.
but we agreed that we still can have our own partners (:

oh, so last night i was in a bad mood.
which ended up me screaming at my mum cause she just won't keep quiet.
and i called clem to talk to him and he was comforting me as usual.
and i stopped crying. then i cried again.
why?
he said something which he would never have done or said when i was with him.

'can you wait for half a year?wait till my pay increases. then i will pay your dance lessons for you.'

and i cried. it's actually the FIRST time clement ever said something that touched my heart and even better to make me CRY. and i just cried over the ph and asked him why must he still treat me so nice.

'you are always my gf to me'

sweet huh? yes i know. and i just sat there wondering, was i wrong to break up with him?
but still, i think both of us need a break from each other. i think we are really fine now(:
haha, patch up? naaaah. maybe next time, yes. but definately not now.
clement's getting a levels back this fri. really really hope he did well.
least i know that last time i was with him, the little contact with each other was worth it.
though it really ruined our relationship.yeahh.

and PLEASEPLEASE let his mummy be nice and let him come over on fri, sat and sun.
i need his help in phy and math lah!:/
Time: 11:19 AM

yes, it's ended.
my relationship with clement has ended.
i've gotta learn to stop crying.

won't be updating anymore.
unless i use someone's laptop in school.
till march hols then.
Time: 11:01 AM

thursday wasn't a good day either.
or rather, wed night.

quarrelled with clement. in which i think he is at fault.
and he thinks that im at fault.
and so on so on.
luckily baby called me. and we talked crap.
which kinda cheered me up.

then on thur was stone.
at least i had drama. which kinda cheered me up too.

night time was bad again.
for some reason he had to scold me or smth.
and thus the blame is on me again? wth.

went to school in a pretty bad mood.
and he msg me saying that he vomitted after his run.
he had fitness test today but i cant really be bothered.
so many things i want to make it clear to him.
so many times i just want to scream at him.
but i just shut up.bah.

today was kinda okay lah.
no pe. which rocks big time.
ohwells. i dont know what to blog.
ASS week is next next week.
need to mug mug mug!
Time: 5:49 PM

i don't know what to say of you and i won't say much.
just that my impression of you changed alot ever since ______.
and that made me super super upset and everything.
and for once, bowling din even cheer me up.

to another someone.
i may seem cruel to have used that method.
but if i din, i never will find out how you really felt.
it's been almost 1 year and 2 months.
you keep denying it all the way. till today.
i found out the truth. and it hurts so badly.
i can't force the tears out of my eyes. ironic huh?

go ahead and leave, i dont give a damn.
seriously. don't come talking to me anymore.
i mean it this time, i can no longer trust what you say.
HOWEVER YOU PAMEPER ME OR WHAT SHIT, NO!

yes, today is emo day.
actually it wasn't. i was still kinda happy going to school.
except that i was really really tired.
but then things have to happen, and ta-da.
emo shit creeps into me AS USUAL.

couldnt smile after school. i TRIED. but couldn't.
everybody asked if i was tired and i just said ya.
there's nobody for me to turn to now.
ying and tian are busy studying for tests and o's.
bestf is busy with her own stuff.
and jiayi and lynette are preparing for exams too.
i shan't be one cry baby who needs to depend on others anymore.

shall learn to shut up.
sit there.
and stone.
i dont want emotions anymore.they suck.
mug shujun! mug! it takes away everything!
Time: 9:25 PM

yawns.holidays are3 over and it's back to mugging already.zzz.
i really feel like sleeping already.

came back from 8pin bowl. and it's like ZZZZZZZ.
seriously, i was really really tired.
cause i went home kinda late last night.

went to pass my proj to amanda, then catch ghost rider at ps with jo.
rushed down to kovan to go jennifer's house to bai nian.
stayed there and stone. as in seriously stone.
and i made up my mind not to _________________.
fill in the blanks urself. so yeah. elaine knows though.ohwells.

so because of that i went home late.cause elain and i took the wrong direction and we only realised when we reached punggol. however u spell that, how smart isit?
yeah. reached home like 10.40pm and was FREAKING tired.
what's more my ph ran out of batt AGAIN. damn.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST JUNWEI KORKOR (: with lots of love okay?

today's bowling was much much better.though highest was only 135.
but im improving SLOWLY but im sure im improving(:
jinnie's treat to swensens! :D ahah, she is paying ten bucks. and we pay the rest.
so yeah, swensens x)
suppose to watch movie but they wanted to mug.zzz.boring boring :/

hoho, alighted at yew tee to go meet clement for awhile.before he goes back to camp.
but i was too sleepy to like REALLY talk. just stoned -.-
back to school tmr. SHUJUN YOU HAVE GOTTA WAKE UP!
bleh.


simin and i (:
Time: 6:39 PM

yesterday was super super fun (:
collecting ang bao and playing and everything:D

first went to my grandparent's house to eat mee sua.
then headed down to my dad's aunt? or isit my aunt?o.o
and then went to my grand uncle's house.
AND WE ARE DONE! (: went to westmall to have lunch with daddy.
and we talked about POLITICAL stuff o.O

then we went home to sleep. i know we went to v little places but zzz.
after sleeping for an hour or so, woke up, bathe and got ready to go grandma's house for dinner.
and that's practically where all my dad's relatives will be at lah.
yepp.and so yeah, watched harry potter there.
then all of my nieces and my nephew came over to my house to play.

we played sparkles and fart bombs.
quotes from 2 passerbys:

a : ehh? how come here so misty?
b: ya lor, i also dont know why leh. see infront? so misty lah.

fyi, the sparkles created SMOKE. and i mean SMOKE!
and people were looking out from their flats to see if there was a fire at the playground x)
ah xiong cabbed down to find me and yeah, we talked lah.
then wendli burnt her hand.so we had to pack up and go to my house.
they stayed till 12am before they left.

let pictures speak for themselves(:

CHINESE NEW YEAR (click here)

some pictures i want to highlight though.

i love my shirt (:


i wasn't kidding about the smoke. and this is NOT edited.it's really this bad.you can hardly see your way around.


cut pig huh?


ZHU ni gong xi fa cai(:


LOVEEE(:
Time: 9:23 AM

it's hard to talk to someone who has changed so much.
i try time and time again to start a conversation with you.
i appreciated the time you walked down the strectch of road talking to me.
however, what we talked about revolved around the one thing that is breaking us apart.
you told me to trust you, and that you will not be like the rest.
i think i've made the wrong decision.

yesterday was crap. i couldnt go bowling with choonfah.
so i slept.and i thought clem was only coming out at 5pm.
so i planned to wake up at 4pm, bathe and go fetch him.
who knew he called me at 4pm and said he was already out!

me: hellooo? (i just woke up)
him: eh, where are you? you just woke up ah?
me: huh? noo.why?
him: are you coming or not?
me: yeahh, i meet you there at 5pm.
him: i'm already out!
me: (stone for a few seconds) HUH? WTH! you're out already?
him: (laughs) yeah.
me: diediedie.you wait for me there. i go out now.

tsk, and i was like in this blur shit. din even have time to change.
so i went out super blur.
with a shirt to change to later, wallet, hp and ipod.
din even comb my hair can?

and rushed down to boonlay. we had our dinner at kfc and his mum actually allowed me to go over to his house! woohoo!
we shopped around at jp and he bought a handbag for me.thanks sooo much :D
saying that that was my vday present. i wanted to get him a shirt too.
but that choosy pok din like it.ESP after seeing the prcie.GRRR.

anyway, after shopping, we left jp for his house.
haha, reached his house at around 7plus. then stoned in his room while he bathed.
i looked through his photos, letters and everything. from kindergarten to njc.

then at 8pm when his family finished watching tv, we went down to watch superman returns.
watched til like 10.30pm. and his mum din make noise. AWW, thankyou auntie!
for once, i think she's really nice about me going over (:
and i cabb-ed home and clem called me. and kinda talked till like 11.45pm.
yepp, that's about it.
AND CLEM IS PROUD TO SAY THAT FOR ONCE HE MADE SOMETHING FOR ME.
3-in-1 milo -.-
Time: 5:25 PM

it's been three days since i typed a post so i shall type it now (:
cause these few days mummy hasnt allowed me to use the com and everything so yeah.

on wed it's valentine's day. and yeah, had to drag my bowling bag along. at least mel's dad fetched me to school (: saved my life somehow. yeah, then had the firedrill exercise.TSK.and everything went ho hum, ROY AND WAIKIT DAMN CUUUTE!

haha, on tue i was oooh-ing and aaaah-ing over the nice flowers they had at cold storage.esp roses! and they each bought a stalk for me and came to pass it to me! awww. so sweet right?then went of to bowling.

and i bowled REALLY badly:/ i dont know why. my left wrist is getting worse as the pain is increasing. and my right wrist is starting to hurt too. ohwells. after bowling i went to meet up with charmaine (: haha. had dinner at j8's secret recipie. WHICH MADE ME BROKE. aww, we are like a couple haha, sharing one big piece of chocolate cake and we were saying it was so sinful but delicious. yumyum.but i reached home kinda late:/

on thursday nothing much happened. morning had PT which was really fun(: started off with running(which i din run cause my shin is seriously pain) then gym and then captain's ball.funfun (: after school went for drama. then went for the sports psychological talk at night. in which AHEM our vice capt and AHEM our capt were dozing off.HAH. and yeah, reached home late again.AND MY PH WAS DEAD AT LIKE 5.45pm):

today is cny celebrations :D haha, took photos and everything.
and something upsetting happened which made me cry but thank you to those who gave me hugs and tried to cheer me up. ESP ELAINE. thanks girl! for going to the extent of accompanying me to town to shop. it helped alot.
and yes, i bought ONE top only. guess what? i owe shaun 50 bucks.
HEH, cause i went to school with only 2 bucks:/
enough said and now photos (:

Chinese New Year Celebrations
Valentine's Day
Time: 1:40 PM

[edited]
i went out to have lunch with roy and waikit.
as promised because they are feeling down after getting back their results):
somehow mangaed to cheer waikit up.cause these few days he hardly smile.
and i made him laughed alot today! MISSION ACCOMPLISHED! yay!

we took stupid photos and everything. haha.
and waikit gives me LOUD sound waves.
and roy, im not deaf! haha.
it's really nice hanging out with them lah.
and they said that if they stay in njc, they will treat me to a meal.
but i want them to stay! ):

we might be going out again on friday. depends on waikit lah. tsktsk.
ohwells.


waikit and i (:


waikit's first shot! neheheheheh.


roy zi lian until cannot zi lian lah. take two people's photo also only want his face there x)


finally a nice shot (:


WAIKIT YOU BENG LAH. look so dao!


OLD MAC DONALD HAD A FARM!


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din have time to blog about anything last night. yeah.
cause i reached home exactly at 9pm.
zzz. i can seriously die.

AND CHOONFAH I KNOW YOU ARE READING MY BLOG BUT I DONT CARE :D
hahah, i cant be bothered to find yours so happy reading mine (:

heh, anyway, yesterday was really crap.
morning i met icelle to help her carry her bowling ball.
and i mistook her friend as her bro.dammnn.
then practicaly died trying to carry the ball up and down everywhere.

pe was sucky. my suicide dropped ALOT. and i seriously mean ALOT.
sheesh, i've gotta train my suicides alr.

and to some bitch (i shall openly call you bitch and i will write your name if i want to)
please dont come into njc and make ur life miserable.
trust me, if u really do, ur life will be damn freaking miserable.
i will give u hurt the way u hurt me by taking away my boyfriend.
i will seriously make you miserable. take this as a warning from me.

you cant stand boyfriend snatchers, neither can i.
and u snatched my boyfriend, so get lost. stop being such a bitch lah.
dont come into njc. u will regret it. and stop boasting about coming to njc on ur blog.
thick skin freako.

back to posting. hmm. school was okay lah. except that i nearly died in chem cause it was so long and boring.
and bowling was fun. minus the fact that i've got a left wrist that's about to fall off, a sore thumb, a going to fall off right wrist too and a sprained back. but my back's better now ever since daddy rubbed it for me last night.yepp.
coach wants me to go for the other comp next tue. and this time, i will make sure i wont cry!

waiting for rhythmic gym to start! hurry hurry start!
i know im slack cause i havent gone to like 4 gym trainings alr.
but i dont want to jump tramp!
AND TO ALL NJ TRAMPERS JIAYOU!
esp cheryl! dont sprain ur ankle already keh? take care on the tramp! (:
Time: 11:01 AM

nearly overslept.
bah, then i went to bowling comps.
nine pin comps.
hoho, everyone there were seniors :/
im the only junior.cause hogyew pangseh-ed me halfway.

my first two games were horrible.
was nervous like shit. and kept going gutter.
till i cried. i couldnt help it lah.
it's like they were all strike or spare or 9 pin.
and i kept going gutter.
coach was nice. he kept correcting me and i still had to cry infront of him.
bleh.

first two games were like shit. both below 100.
till the next 4 games were better.
all above 100.
with the highest (fifth game) scoring 138 (:
i beat clement's record alr. and my own too!
i know that's not GOOD compared to others.
but i dont care about others. it's my record i have no beat, it's my fear i have to overcome.

next target shall be 150 and above.
and i've got a blister. but what's that compared to the lesson i've learnt today?
:D im proud of myself.
cause instead of completely giving up totally in despair, i held on:D
and the team pushed me on too(: i shall train harder, yes i will.
Time: 6:37 PM

dar came over today.
and mummy is being mad. saying all sorts of stuff.
and everything. being an idiot.
and tomorrow she is going to cancel my hp line.

i give up talking to her.she's such an ass.
okay, anw, clement came over and after that we went dover.
cause i needed to pass amanda the model.
then we went westmall and walk walk. then went home.

i ate my breakfast and went to sleep.
slept for around 45mins. till dar woke me up.
then went to wash up and ate lunch then studied :D
i finally understand vectors COMPLETELY!

yepp, then we went bowling.
best part is that halfway we realised that we din have enough money to pay.
so had to call daddy down to pay for us.
yeah.

tmr there's a bowling competition.
and i dont know why on earth i signed up.
i must be so so mad.


this is what happens when i use house ball for trainings.



in class




rach and i cam whoring in the hall :D







dar and i :D
Time: 8:14 PM

very very tired.
and as usual din want to talk to anyone.
am just so sian diao.

only started talking to jer?
school sucked. i stoned the whole day.
nothing went into my head.

after school i just jogged.
jogged one round with liyana.
and another with elaine.
cause pe we did standing broad jump.
i seriously decreased alot.damnnn.

after school stayed back with xiangyin.
thanks girl.
we got mistaken for being alex's FAN CLUB.
both of us were like wth lah.
and i got whacked by a hockey ball straight in the face.
got a bruise on my right cheek lah.

then met yun feng for awhile.
then blahblah.saw bob running.
i took videos.but cant upload on my blog lah.
i will get killed.

then took bus then train down to pasir ris.
damn.was dead beat.
met dearest and we took train to tampanies.
and finally got a taxi.
reached home at 10pm.


freaking tired.
some people did well. some people din.
but whatever it is, i love you guys! :D
Time: 10:22 PM

Time: 7:52 PM

didn't have time to update yesterday. and maybe i wont be updating tonight also so yeah.using zhangli's laptop now to update.cause im in school :D

yes, firstly to all J1s taking their results tomorrow, GOOD LUCK!
yeah, to all those whom i know ESP THE CAT HIGH CLAN:

I WANT YOU PEOPLE TO STAY IN NJC OR I WILL MISS YOU LIKE MAD LAH!

heh. anyway, i went back really late yesterday. reached home at 10.10pm.
and i bought my bowling ball already :D
but imagine lah, normally i play bowling for fun, my ball is only 6-8 pounds.
during normal training i take 8 pounds. then all of a sudden, during monday's training, coach said that the ball is too light for me.

so he made me take 9 pounds.
then 10 pounds.
and he wanted me to take 11. except that the finger holes were way too big.
and so i had to stay at 10. with my fingers wrapped up like a mummy to make it fatter so it can fit into the hole.
and the ball which i bought yesterday is 12pounds! bah.

say good luck to me. i can still hold the ball.
but if we are to do the two finger training, i will die.
tried that infront of coach ytd.
and he said my fingers are too weak to hold the 12pound so i gotta train those two fingers.
bleh.

after that i went to have dinner with icelle at khatib's macs.
saw the scandalous couple :D
then had to rush home.cause mummy was like screaming over the phone.
at least daddy was nice lah, he came to the station to fetch me and carry my ball.
cause i was seriously carrying alot of stuff.
went home and jer called me to teach me geog.
then studied abit before i slept.

this morning went to school with icelle and felicia.
and for the first time in this year, i took 852.
i've always been avoiding it cause i dont really want to think about last year.
when dearest goes to school with me. but yeah, today i took that bus.
just thought about everything and closed my eyes.

then had PT. two rounds of more what seemed like running.
instead of morning jog -.- zzzz.
then we did sprints. and gym work and practiced our target aiming with a shotput.
i think it was fun overall :D

rach and i have been cam whoring since yesterday.
TSK.
loads of pictures to upload and everything. but i can only do that when i reach home.
now i can just rot in school until drama starts.
blah.and i shall wait for tingzhi to send me the animated photos and the rest of the photos too :D yepp.
Time: 1:54 PM

feeling sick. woke up in the wee hours of the morning and had a bad bout of sneezing.
in the end, went to my mum's room and said that i was too sick to go to school.
and brought my pillows over and slept there.

dearest's sick too. he had fever for two days already.
and now he is on his way home. ALONE.
damnn. while his mum is like in chinatown?
mummy doesn't let me go help him.
but i seriously think he's sicker than me. and there's like no one to help him carry his super heavy bags and everything? ): that makes me super sad.BAH.

slept in the whole day. feeling much much better.
daddy thought i was having high fever or smth. bleh.
there's a test tmr and i missed today's lesson. hoho.
wish me good luck lah.

anyway, for those who knows my private blog link, i've changed it.yeah.
get it from me if u want them. pw remains the same though.

and i think blog posts are boring without photos.
so here are photos for entertainment.


the basketballer guys who went for prom night 2006.


rachel and i during one of our rehearsals for walk in.




DINNER! (:


nahahahaahha.




jiayi! proud to see yourself in sec two? :D


dearest say he will try to video call with me tonight if he is feeling better.yay!
haha. ohwells. i dont know. mummy say i can't think of relationship stuff now cause im too young.
so i wont think about it! it kills my brain cells everyday and makes me go retarded and also reduces the water capacity in my body due to tears :D
Time: 2:02 PM

i didnt feel like waking up today at all.
last night, talked to jer and for the first time in history, he said he was sleepy.
haha, and yeah, sms-ed clement for awhile. before he went to sleep.

went to school. super stone.
tried so hard to avoid SP in case she catches me for something else besides hair and anklets.
but she never turn up.
then CHEMISTRY SPA.
went kinda okay. but i was really in no mood to do anything. so my readings were kind of off.
but i really cannot be bothered anymore.

basically im in a bad mood the whole day.
i will post about it in the private blog ONE DAY.
when i have the time. i felt really really trapped inside.
till my hands went cold and clammy.
and i felt sick lah. but after resting, i felt better.

went to bowling. and i can say i finally know how to spin a ball properly.
but i still need more practice. waiting for dearest to come out.
met marcus after bowling for awhile. and yeah, what's past is past.

dearest is very very sick. he's down with a fever.
and i really really am about to cry.
my dearest is sick and having a fever.
which is damn damn rare.
it's going to be a bad week.

im glad i could talk to you today.
but somehow, u seem like you want to distant yourself from me.
i will try again, to talk to you.
but please, stop walking away.
Time: 9:56 PM

HAHA, i reached home EXACTLY at midnight :D







let's see what happened. hmm.
there's was sharon's farewell party yesterday.
so i made a trip down to town and passed her her present.
they were at kbox.the five of them.
sharon, louisa, chian siang, eugene and sam.
stayed only for awhile before i rushed down to marina to meet my og.

and NO, i wasn't wearing stripes can?
it's just that my cardigan has a bit of stripes at the sleeve only!
haha, because the last two times i went out with them, i wore stripes x)
aiyah, stripes are nice lah. simple and neat :D
anyway, met them there but went off to the steamboat place with jenn and simin first.
to chop place.
AND THE UNCLE WAS DAMN FREAKING NICE (:
he let me get two tables first even though the rest weren't here yet.
nice nice right? though he kept saying that he will give the tables up to others soon.
but he never did x)

then the rest came. 16 of us altogether.
with only two OGLS. me and wenhao.
bah. we ate and ate and had loads of fun i guess.
it's going to be the last outing they can go out as a class together:/
after they get back their results it will be.....-sad face-
and yes, we played arcade too and my timing is always out.
THAT IS WHY I CAN NEVER PLAY DRUMS FOR NUTS.
piano and guitar still can. DRUMS NEVER.
unless it's fast beats then can.

towards the end, i played a game of bowling with wen hao.
and he won me. HAHA. i no face already:/
ohwells. then i had to rush home. cause it was already like 10.45pm?
simin, gerald, mel and i stood like retards on both sides of the road trying to flag down taxis.
we stood there for like 15mins or more? in the end, wenhao, yeeyar and pengyi came along.
and we decided to take mrt down to cityhall to flag taxis.

bah, im sorry wenhao! :/
we alighted at raffles station and wen hao was in a really bad mood.
cause his hostel curfew was at 11.30pm.
and there weren't any taxis around. and he was really really pissed.
bleh, stupid taxis. it's like, they didn't have passengers and they just drove past us.
and halfway while trying to frantically flag down taxis(it's very rare u will see one),
mummy called and screamed over the phone to why i wasn't on the way home yet.

finally one taxi was kind enough to ACTUALLY STOP and pick us up.
so pengyi, wenhao and yeeyar went first.
while mel, simin, gerald and i waited for another.
but dont know why, simin suddenly walked to the mrt station.
cause i think she really needed to go home badly.
AND A TAXI CAME! but tat uncle was v v nice. he needed to rush to woodlands but we pleaded with him to fetch us home. AND SUDDENLY WE REALISED THAT SIMIN WASN'T WITH US!
and we couldnt go fetch her:/ it's damn sad lah.omg. mel and i during the whole taxi ride were super worried for her.

think about it. if taking taxi, i already reach home at midnight,
then how about simin? ohmaaan, and we were damn scared she will miss the last train and all.
bah. and i realised my bracelet is with simin. while my cookies are with jenn.hoho.

and i have found out that that person was indeed talking about me.
i dont know what to say in reply. as in, i thought i explained myself quite clearly to him.
but he still seems to misunderstand:/ are we not friends?
i really wish we are, like what i told you.
i will be here when u need me. and i will give u a hug just to cheer u up.
didn't we agree on that? but what is happening now?

and about another person, i never expect you to react this way.
as in, i seriously never have thought u will be this mean.
i so wanna talk to you. and tell you everything. who knew...
u pushed me away. u ignore me and now u are just being ridiculous.
i treasured u greatly as a friend. wanted to just be friends.
a simple word. FRIENDS.
why? why are u being so childish right now? am i no longer suppose to talk to you anymore?


just thought that i would do this quiz for fun.yeah.

1. Would you kiss the last person you
kissed again?

my dearest? YES!

2. Have you ever thought that you were
going to marry a person?

haha, at times yes. but i realised how long i still have to go.
so it becomes more of a DREAM but never go into detail(:

3. Do you like someone?

i dont like him. i love him!

4. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?

yup. that's because i see him walking further and further away from me.
or better still, him falling for someone else.

5. Have you ever made a boyfriend or
girlfriend cry?

yup. whenever we quarrel, my bf and i normally cry.
as for girlfriend, nope. i never made them cry before.

6. Are you happier single or in a
relationship?

i dont know.it depends. like right now, i think being single has more freedom.

7. Have you ever told someone you
loved them and didn't mean it?

yeahh, that was way long ago. when i was playful and stuff.
but now, no.

8. Have you ever had your heart
broken?

of course.

9. Do you talk to any of ur exs?

some of them.

10. If you could go back in time and change things, would you?

yes, definately.

11. Think any of your exs feel the
same way?

i dont know.

12. Do you believe that you are a good
boyfriend or girlfriend?

ask my dearest (:

13. Have you dated people who were not
good to you?

sure. but at that time, i didn't know they would change so much.

14. Have you dated someone older than
you?

YAH.

15. Younger?

nope.

16. Do you believe everyone deserves a
second chance?

depends.

17. Do you Believe in love at first
sight?

nope.

18. Has anyone ever told you they
wanted to marry you?

yaah.

19. Ever loved someone else's
boyfriend or girlfriend?

nope. never want to do that. that's a damn bitch.
unless, those who snatched my bf away.
DUH rite? of course i will still love their bf lah.
or rather MINE.

20. Does heartbreak really feel as bad
as it sounds?

yeah, it's very very bad.and it hurts alot.

Time: 11:11 AM

i just read someone's blog and i have a VERY VERY bad feeling somehow that person was referring to me. UHH, but then again, some parts in that person's post do not link! bah. i dont dare to ask u directly, or maybe i will when u come online. BUT STILL, it feels damn damn weird. esp if that person u are referring to is me. if that person u are referring to REALLY is me, i SERIOUSLY think we got some misunderstandings between us le. and i will really need to meet you and talk to you some day.sheeesh.

YAY!
im done changing my blog skin :D
say i rock lah.took me 4 hours to complete editing and everything.

HEH. i was thinking if i should put a bg.
if i did, it will look like this:



then i was thinking of making it black base for the post and profile, which means it will look like this:



but in the end, i decided to make it THIS way :D
haha. and YES! i am happy cause finally i've got the time to do a new skin :D

anyway, random stuff before i start posting.
this is joan bowling. seriously, her leg stretches to the other lane. TSK.
jinnie and i were like UHH? haha x)



and this was what i did in class. i know it's ugly, but that's what boredom drives me to.



ohwells.im bored alone at home. dearest cant come to my house for dinner on friday. but he said he will try to come over on sat instead and help me with my work. bah.
i miss dearest okay?

and im starving at home. not knowing what to do. my OG is having steamboat dinner at marina later. damn. im jealous. don't think i will be going though. firstly, im broke. secondly it's super far. thirdly, i want to study. and lastly, i bet you my mum wont allow.

shall post again later. after i finish studying :D
Time: 1:12 PM