♥ Tranquility

Date: Tuesday, August 31, 2010

ZJ and I decided to try out motion photography WITHOUT a tripod for panning. Damn difficult.

HEEHEE :D This and the photo below are taken with 35mm lens that ZJ lent me to try out.

Had a horrible dream last night -.- It's like a combined rubbish dream of I don't know what, my imagination, part of the novel I just read and more of I don't know what. Geez.

Oh great now I've gotta get ready to go out later. Yawns.

Got the interview for some photography thing. Sian. Wish baby could go with me ): Pfft.

Hate being alone. Ohwells.

Time: 10:25 AM
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Date: Monday, August 30, 2010

The miniature model of the Helix Bridge on display.

I still think it looks like a freaking circus wheel -.-

Yeah man. That's how big my kite actually is :D

The stunt kite that we still haven't mastered (it uses two reels)

FAMILY! :D

More pictures HERE!!

Went out with ZJ today to take some photos. Seriously there ain't anything to shoot in town la.

Boring shit. Then when we were about to go to the sky garden, once we came out of the lift, the downpour started -.-

Baby's sleeping now ): Pfft. But thanks to baby to help me edit my blogskin here and there. He didn't really finish up the whole thing so I did the final editing myself and TADAH! :D

I'm bored really. Damn.

Photos will be up tomorrow!

Time: 10:26 PM
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Date: Sunday, August 29, 2010

HE POSED SPECIALLY FOR ME! :D

& somehow he looks like FC. Weird much?

Anyway, spiciest day ever!

Finally cooked chilli today and if there is chilli, there is chilli beehoon!

And damn it was the spiciest we ever had.

I don't eat chilli outside much mainly because I'm really picky about the taste.

There are only certain types of chilli I eat and certain food I eat with chilli.

Other than that, I can't be bothered eating chilli.

BUT I can eat really spicy food. So can baby. & he eats more chilli than me on the whole.

Today was seriously the best.

Imagine him, whole face red and shiny (with perspiration), running to the kitchen to get ice/milk/water.

And me, gulping down iced water like I haven't drank in days,openly weeping and ears throbbing.

& after we 'cool' down, we would continue eating and the whole thing starts all over again xD

Now both our stomachs hurt. Hohoho.

Time: 11:37 PM
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Date: Saturday, August 28, 2010

Really sleepy now but baby's sleeping on my bed so I don't get to sleep ):

Baby slept over at my house last night cause we were going out early this morning :D

Went kite-flying with my parents at Marina Barrage. First we went to a coffeeshop nearby then cabbed to Marina Barrage and fly kite. Heh, really fun 'cept that there was close to no wind cause of the stupid storm ): Still it was fun. After that we headed down to Suntec to walk walk and eat. My mum's considering to let me have a dog!!! Considering on the terms that I've to clean it's poop and train it and everything else. Pfft.

After Suntec, we went to Marina Square (toggi!) then we bus-ed down to Marina Sands to see the hotels and stuff like that. It's rather cool you know (photos will be up tomorrow cause I'm really too sleepy now). Then my parents headed off elsewhere while baby and I went down to Ikea @ Alexandra to get the following items:

NYTTJA frame ($3.90 for 2)

DRONA box ($9.90)

LACK Side Table ($12.90)

DUDERO Floor/Reading Lamp ($19)

Had to cab home cause we really had to hands to carry the stuff on top of our own personal bags, my camera bag, tripod and kites.

Well happy day today:D

Time: 6:04 PM
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Date: Friday, August 27, 2010

I AM SO BORED! ROAR!

Well today is really nice to sleep in. Raining heavily all the way till 11plus in the morning. Gosh.

I've been having all the weird dreams these days. Especially dreams about baby cheating on me xD But last night's dream was pretty cool though. Action-pack with monsters and killing and super power. Heh.

OH AND I'M SORRY BIG SIS FOR NOT TEXTING YOU! SORRY! =/

Hahaha.

Took these two photos this morning. Had nothing better to do. Think my mum thought I was crazy standing at the window with my camera when it's raining heavily outside.

Going to meet the baby boy later! Saw him yesterday but I miss him uber much already =/ Ohwells. Soon soon! :D

Time: 1:06 PM
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Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010

I'm still trying to keep up blogging every day. Ohwells.

Today was greeeeat! :D Met baby after his work at Jurong Point for lunch then went to gai gai for a bit. Though we didn't buy anything. Oh wait! We did! Heh baby bought me a book from the Sans Bookstore - Midnight Club by James Patterson.

Well I wanted to buy Agatha Christie but he say James Patterson/Dan Brown is better ): Haven't read it yet but soon.

& at night was super fun too! Haha poor Jeff didn't have water supply in his house so he asked to go play bball. Went with baby cause he was at my house anyway. Not bad la. So long never play with him already:D 2hours of bball ♥

Infrared photography is really fun though. Going to try it again soon. Ohwells. Baby's going back to camp already ): Pfft.

Time: 10:34 PM
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Date: Tuesday, August 24, 2010

OKAY! I've made up my mind to really start blogging every day again.
Afterall it gives me something to do. So yes, I'm back to blogging.

Anyway my room is like really really cramped right now.

Just imagine:

- Queen-size bed

- 2 wardrobes cum cupboard cum storage area

- 1 chair

- 1 dry cabinet

- 1 table with many small cupboards, 2 drawers, 2 printers, 1 iMac, 1 laptop

- 1 art stand + paint + brushes + paper + basically all my art stuff

...and a lot of other rubbish in my room.

Gawd. Seriously the number of steps you can take in my room is about 10-15 steps and that's it.

Well the boy it lazier. He rolls on the bed from side to side to get from my com to the door cause he's lazy to walk -.-

Anyway started a new photography project again. This time it's INFRARED PHOTOGRAPHY! :D

The past two weeks I haven't touched my camera cause I was concentrating more on drawing and painting. I didn't know I could draw if I tired REALLY hard =/ I still suck at painting though. Currently learning watercolour painting and it's hell hard. Still, I'm trying my best! Really need to keep trying to boost my portfolio no matter what.

& Barney Stinson and Scooter are a gay couple in real-life! How cool is that? Barney Stinson, the womanizer! Hahaha. Seriously the best news I've heard in a long long time.

Oh, on Saturday I went out with Clement and ShiHao. Been so damn long since I saw the both them :D Heh. Equally as retarded, reminiscing old times, I really miss our round table group. They were my round table and OGL group. Love them to bits really!

Okay photos will be up in my next post! Finally got my lazy ass to upload the photos to my computer. I miss a whole ton of people right now & I just want to say ' I LOVE YOU!' (:

Time: 2:54 PM
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Date: Saturday, August 21, 2010

Haven't been blogging for really long.
I also don't know why. Somehow I just don't know what to say here anymore.
But I'll still try to keep blogging.

& well, I realised, true friends are those who tell you the truth each time they talk to you, despite those times being only a few every year.

But those who tell you lies every day they talk to you, they just ain't work it.

Time: 2:36 AM
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Date: Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Nothing ever seems enough for my parents.
Nothing I do is right for them, enough to make them proud.

I'm seriously sick and tired of trying to impress them and making them proud of me, or even noticing me.
Why?
Cause all I ever get from them are criticisms, sarcasms and insults.
And each time this happens, I cry my freaking face off cause I get so upset.

I'm so sick of this. I've had this life for 7 years already. When is it EVER going to end?

I know I screwed up badly okay? I know it's all my fault that this happened.

But have you ever wondered whether it was your fault too? Sure, you provided my tuition which costs a bomb and such but I've told you before, I just want some recognition, some encouragement. Well I never got that.

Whenever I tried to get good results, the only response I get is, 'Why never get higher? How did your cohort do? How much did (fill in a name) get? So?Not good enough, you still failed last time what.'

Ultimately, the blame always end up with me. Always.

That's why I don't even talk at home to anyone, I don't even go out for meals with them.

Hell, they don't even think I'm important to them enough to offer me to go out shopping with them.

They just go out leaving me at home, to find food for myself (I'm cut off financially) and bid time.

In this one month, I think the number of sentences I've said to any family member is less than 15. Most of which are just one-word answers.

Sometimes I wish I can just disappear from the face of this earth and not look back.

Save me the pain, save them the trouble.

After all, tell me how good can parents be when they cut their own daughter off financially, pressuring her to get a job when all she wants is to concentrate on building up her portfolio, criticises her each time she tries to suggest a new addition that can help her portfolio by saying she can never make it and basically throwing sarcastic remarks at her every other day?

Plus, they don't even realise that their very own daughter has actually been suffering from depression and having suicidal thoughts for a few years already.

Great, just great. I can just die today and they'd never realise I'm gone.

Time: 3:19 PM
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Date: Sunday, August 08, 2010

Sometimes I really wonder how is it that there are some who can just be willing to spend the rest of their lives with just that one person.
While others, just can't seem to find that one person they are willing to spend their lives with.
And a few that just aren't willing to spend their lives with just that one person.

I mean, it's really a mystery to me up till now.

I, for one, really can't see how someone could just see someone as 'the one' and believe in happily forever after. Especially despite the fact that it's the first person he/she ever got together with.

That's what I keep questioning Eug about. I mean, I'm not the first girl he liked but I'm his first girlfriend and I really don't see how it's going to work out really. For me, I've dated a lot of guys and I still don't know what it's like having 'the one'.

I had that 3 years back. I thought that was it, finally got someone I was willing to spend the rest of my life with. Planning a family, my dream house, my dream fantasy house even and even the names of our kids. I thought that as long as I could imagine spending the rest of my life with this guy, it's him. But...things always don't work out somehow.

Bottom line is, I really don't see how people can just decide 'He/She's the one' at the very first try and be so fixated about it. Not that Eug considers me the one but he seems really convinced that we'll work out right. I obviously have my doubts about that given circumstances and experiences I've been through. I think it's amazing some people still have that kind of faith and belief in this era. Well well.

Time: 12:31 AM
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Date: Wednesday, August 04, 2010

2 longs in a relationship is helluva long time for me. I mean, to others it may not seem like it but to me it sure it long. I always wonder how I can make it this far.

Damn. But still of course, there are tons of things I'm still struggling with like how I could stand 2 years in a relationship (trust me, it's an amazing feat to accomplish for me) and hopefully I'll be able to keep it up and not give in otherwise... well, it wouldn't be nice.

But sometimes, all it took was for one guy, just one. Someone I trusted in for almost 3 years even though we didn't talk much and rarely met, someone I used to like and basically just someone I thought had no reason to lie to me whatsoever, to temporarily stop that struggle for me. Just for awhile but still, yeah.

I got reminded of all the reasons why I used to hate the life of being single or basically having short relationships and hopping here and there. Baby says he should pay that guy to do this to me more often -.- Idiot.

Well, like what I always like to believe, I'm still young. I still have a whole life ahead for me that sometimes I do think being tied down in a relationship so early basically just defeats all kinds of fun you get to do only when you're young and single. But yet again, I can think of arguments against that. This dilemma sucks. Geez.

Not that I'm straying or what but when you have nothing to do at home, you tend to think a lot more than you actually need to. Heh. And the past few weeks I've been thinking so much I think I can be some expert already. Ohwells.

P.S. Stargate Atlantis is awesome. You should watch it if you have the time. Just get it off youtube.

Time: 5:55 PM
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Date: Tuesday, August 03, 2010

Did a second stop-motion animation. This time using more shots and I nearly died of exhaustion doing it.

Here it is:

Time: 10:06 PM
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HAPPY 2ND ANNIVERSARY MY DEAR BOY! :D

You're in camp now but I know you'll still read this. Heh.

Since the boy will be in camp, we celebrated it earlier on Saturday.

Had lunch at Marche at 313@Somerset. First time baby ate there and it's been a long long time since I last ate that. Damn, the rosti is still awesome. Tried the mashed potato and it was delicious too.

We then went to sing at Kbox at Cine for about 4 hours. It was really fun!

After which we headed down to The Cathay to eat at Astons for dinner. Damn long queue la. We waited for more than an hour before we could go in and eat. But I think it was worth waiting. First time I'm eating there and the steak is really good. We both ate the tenderloin, mine medium rare and baby's medium. Baby's always complaining about how bloody my steak is and chewy and soft and I don't know what else but I like it like this whaaatttt!

While waiting outside Astons

When we were going for dinner, baby realised that our couple ring was no longer on his finger and we went all the way back to kbox to find it but it wasn't there. So baby got emo and cranky saying it was a 'sign' that we should get a new pair -.- Silly boy found it in his bag when we got home and I've no idea how the hell it ended up there. This was him emo-ing about the lost ring during dinner.

But I still don't get why they serve steaks in such a miserable size. Seriously miserable. Small and sad. Haha.

Anyway love you dear! :D

Time: 12:00 AM
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