CHANGED MY BLOG LAYOUT ALREADY! Any comments?
I think this layout though plain, it's much neater than my previous one :D:D

I'm so sleepy. Gosh, had tuition at 9am which was sooo early.
But it was pretty fruitful, finished Normal distribution further practice and higher order thinking already.

Helped my dad design the birthday cake after my tuition.
I was soooo scared I screw up but it turned out pretty nice after all.
Happy birthday to desmond lim, whoever you are.
Hope you like the cake!



The cake half way through decoration.








After the cake was fully decorated.








Ignore the not so nice handwriting. I was so so nervous okay.
But I still think overall it's nice :D

Anyway should I get this bag? I think it's kinda really pretty and neat.
Opinions? Plus it's cheap. $22 only!


Think I'm off to bed now. Take a quick nap.
There's bowling tomorrow.
Yesterday's average was 157.
Let's see if tomorrow I can hit 170 average :D
Time: 2:09 PM

Yay good games today.
So tired so I took the day off school. Slept well, did math, slept again and headed for training.

I know it sounds pig but I really need my sleep. Baby needs them too ):
Considering this is our last (might be second last if we have one more next week) training together as a team, Si En and I bowled really well! Proud of you girl!

Don't know about the guys though but I'm sure they did well too. Especially boyf with his NEW BALL TWISTED FURY HOR!
Sorry but I'm jealous like really jealous. 'Hate' him to the max for having a twisted fury (I've wanted one since last year!) and a three ball bag. #$%!#$@#$@
Jealous to the max. Hate him hate him hate him xD
They're considered his birthday presents. Damn.

But still I bowled well with my fury pearl (yeah it's in the same family as twisted fury)

172, 164, 139, 118, 165,184

Not that good (I'm aiming higher) but considering that I've been screwing up since start of the year, it's really good now :D

My team is great, really great. Once bowling closes down, it'll be so sad.
We'll only get together again during the end of year chalet. Pfft.
Ah boyfriend left his jersey at the alley and he has to go back there to find it.
Thank goodness it's still there and he's gotten it back!

Smart guy I tell you. Ahwells.

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On the side note however, I'd like to see how NJC deals with this situation.
Whether it is a school with TEACHERS how really adhere to the core values to themselves.
Such as:
- Leadership with sensitivity

- Loyalty with integrity

To think Daniel Yew went to report before me, saying he caught me sleeping in class.
I'm amazed at what a story teller he can be, a hypocrite too.
If you refer to my post on Friday, 27th March 09, (click the date for direct link to post) you'd know what happened.
For someone to say he's scolding me NOT because I was sleeping in class but cause my phone was on the games page, he went to tell my civics tutor that I was sleeping in class and didn't even mention about the games part.

He's is so amazing, teachers like him should just GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY LIFE _|_
I'm using his full name and stating my school for the very first time because I no longer respect this 'teacher' and I do want to see how the school handles this matter.
I've got evidence, I've got proof, I've got witnesses. Let's see what he's got.

You want to mess with me, you're picking on the wrong person.
One thing I hate most is to be looked down upon and to be stepped on.
I'll will not let it go till this matter is settled.
Time: 10:49 PM

Gosh, nationals are just 5 days away.
Freaky.

I think my life is so mundane now.
School and training school and training.
Weekends are filled with tuitions.

Congrats to Ting for gold with honours (:
And whilst I'm at it, congrats to Daryl too. Haha.

Nothing beats spending time with the boy.
True we do meet every school day, spend practically every single moment in school together but hey, we're just building up the foundation for next year, when uni starts for me and army starts for him.
It's going to be tough next year so hopefully we lay a good foundation this year for our relationship.

& I just realised I may be a pretty good driver (please don't stereotype me with the female drivers who are known to be more cautious and slower drivers cause if you know me, you know I'm pretty much a daredevil) but I definitely won't find my way around Singapore -.- Geez.

I never bothered much about the roads in Singapore. Good thing though, once I've traveled the road at least two times, I'd get a hang of it already.


Remind me why I take my combi please.
Time: 10:31 PM

I was just reading someone else's blog & I came to realise the long lost loving feeling I haven't felt for a really long time. Top it off, I was looking at some really cute guys pictures on fb which made my heart go 'Awww man'.

Yeah, it may very well be infatuation for the cute guys' part but about the long lost loving feeling, I seriously haven't felt it for a really long time. Thinking back when whatever Eug does, will make my heart skip a beat or two. But right now it seems that it's pretty norrmal. I guess having abscence here and there helps but I'd rather not have history repeat itself when having lesser chances to meet actually gave my (ex) boyfriends more chance to find other girls and flirt with them.

Pros and cons of love don't y'think?
But honestly speaking, my heart feels so weary):

But I'm glad at least I have friends by me.
FC just contacted my yesterday.
Found little eagle after 4 years of searching for him.
Gah, couldn't be more happy.



But tell me, why is it that I find it so hard to continue moving forward?
Time: 11:52 PM

Gah, I'm still trying to get use to this small lil teeny weeny lappy that makes my other lappy look like a giant when I put the both of them side by side. Yesterday was one of the rare days I went out. Amazing, but only to get the neccesary equipments for my lappy.

Things I got include:
- Mouse pad @ $4.90
- Earphones @ 2 for $10.00 (1 for baby and 1 for me)
- Ear muffs @ 2 for $1.50 (1 for baby and 1 for me)
- Laptop bag @ $14.90
- Screen protector @ 14.90
- USB Hub @ $9.00 (S10 only has 2 USB hubs out of which I use one for mouse)

So in one day I've spent a total of about $50. There goes most (or rather my whole week's worth) of pocket money cause my mum thinks I'm trying to cheat money out from her and refuses to reimburse me with cash. Whatever I'll just go w/o meals for the next week. Which is good can cut down on food intake.

Best thing is that everything I got are all pink. Gah not exactly that I'm in the pink mood but casue boyfriend can only get the alternative colour of blue of most items (like mouse and earphones) so I'm only left with pink. Then since my mouse and earphones are already pink, I have no choice to buy everything else pink to keep the colour combi. Ahwells.









Anyway do excuse the lack of photos in here. Every day is just going to school going to training going for extra lessons going for tuition. Nothing interesting so to speak.
I'm missing Kenneth Poh Poh who is currently in Taiwan and will only be back next week or so. Gah, no idea where FC went to. Think he'll only contact me 2 months later as usual -.-

You know what are the things I really really feel like doing right now?
Drinking, partying, shopping, blading, tanning, tennis, badminton, swimming, sewing, craftwork, and the list goes on and on.

A LEVEL YEAR SERIOUSLY SUCK! #$#@%#%

Amazing, I realise my lappy has an SD card insert. Haha, I've been trying to find it so that I can get my pictures uploaded. Bulk of my personal items will still be in my old com though. This lappy is soley for work in school or in library. Cause it is lighter to carry around plus less bulky.

Some long ago due photos in my camera. Gah, I need to get a life man and go out more often instead of cooping at home ): But my mum refuses to let me out on the belief that I need to stay at home all the way till A levels are over. I'm not kidding. She said now I don't go out and just stay home to study. NOT EVEN A SINGLE DAY I'M ALLOWED TO GO OUT.

Wtf, people need a life man. Not like her.





Other photos are all with baby. That lazy pig has been saying he'd upload them but till now he still hasn't. Geez.
Time to nap :D
Time: 4:06 PM

"today will be the last time i'll be checking Jun's blog"

& you think you're the one who's not moving on and that you're the one who's stuck at the same spot.
What you don't know is that I'm also stuck in this same spot, the mess of this whole issue and still crying over us, or what's left of it.

Posted a post on how upset I had been, crying my eyes out but took it down 10mins after I posted.
I'm still hurt, I just wish I could call you and cry over the phone just like what I always do last time.

But, you're no longer there...
Time: 12:23 AM

Nationals are in two weeks' time. Gosh, just another 4 more trainings and it'll be the last time the NJ team's bowling in the nationals. Pretty sad?

On the plus side however, I got this really sleek and mini lappy from my daddy. Thank you daddy love you! Really sleek and pretty I swear. Only the keyboard is hell small. I'm pretty fascinated with the foldable and portable keyboard Sam had in school the other day. Anyway my lappy's pretty to the max. Love it.







Pretty yes? It's LENOVO IDEAPAD S10 IN WHITE.
It's small at 10.1" wide only. Just imagine an A4 size paper and it's like 5cm shorther in terms of length. About there.

Also my dad told me he just met his old neighbour and turns out he's a fashion designer! Omg excited. Plus my dad told me that he (the neighbour) has tons of cloth he no longer wants so tomorrow daddy's making a trip down to bring some back for me! Yay! Maybe after A levels this guy can teach me some skills :D

It's been a pretty good week. Training yesterday was great too.
I just need to catch up with school work that's all.
Toodles for now. Am so sleepy ):
Time: 9:15 PM

Okay pretty sad. My skirt's no more exclusive (one-of-a-kind) already ):

Saw this blog shop that's selling the same skirt with the same design except there's an extra zipper and it's blue. Gah. Heartbroken ): PLUS IT'S ALSO GOLD STUDS. Rawr.

I need to design something much more exquisite already. Hmph.
But not now, I'm sick and I'm already struggling with the workload.
Gah. Look and see!


Credits: indulgescences.lj






Not saying copycat or what la. Just no more "special" ):
Ahwells.
I'm glad boyfriend's popo is alright. Quick recovery!

At times like this, I just need a lifeline. Can you be my lifeline?
Time: 10:20 PM

Hello!

Heh. Wasted the past few days. Been doing nothing constructive. Spent the whole day yesterday going around Singapore, visiting graveyards and increasing my risk of lung cancer. Gosh, I inhaled like HELL lot of smoke.

Burning incense was pretty 'fun'. But I'll get scolded though. I'll just take one whole stack of paper and chuck it into the flames. Then it'll take ages to burn. So I'll take a branch and poke and prod it until the thing burns. Kinda stupid.

Baby's addicted to facebook games! More specifically, Pet Society. Gosh.
And now, I'm back playing Pet Society because of her. Ahhh!
Oh. And if anyone wants to donate me some gold, feel free to!

Gah. 1 more day to go? Time passes so slowly. :(
It's amazing how I look forward to seeing you.
Time: 10:32 PM

I need to stop using my computer and start studying. Geez. Thanks to bf who made me so into fb now =P


His pet bullies me ): Make me sleep on the floor. Tsk.
This is how his pet treats my pet ): It's at his house by the way.



Sleeeeep. Hee. This is my room. Love it. Totally Zen feel :D


Sweet right. Having a love love time in the kitchen xD

Thanks to Bryan who let me use the $$$ in his account to furnish my house. Haha.
Okay do work time. Dang.

Love my com's wall paper too. Nice :D

Time: 10:07 PM

Feeling pretty happy and loved.
Caught up with close friends and talked cock with kenneth pohpoh.
What's missing now is FC who has MIA till the other end of the world I think.
Plus a few more I can't wait to meet up with.

It's so hectic these days. Every day is just work, work and more work.
Every day trying to finish an essay or two.
Or math questions to complete.

I don't like this life.
Kenneth poh poh says I'm pathetic. Wth.
Time: 9:46 PM

Been thinking so much these days.
About what's important, what's not.
A levels will be here in a jiffy.

Right now, I can't wait till nationals are over. More time to study.
More time for friends too.
3/7 of my week are spent training.
2/7 of my week are spent on tuition.
2/7 of my week are spent having extra lessons.
There goes my whole week.

Let me pull through this.
Nothing I'd like more but the love and support from friends.
Miss you love you.

I'm hanging by a thread for what's left between you and I.
Time: 9:03 PM

I'm back!

Been a hectic past few days. It's really draining me. I'm so tired, been staying up till pretty late, and getting up pretty early in the morning, but somehow I just can't fall asleep. Witnessed a lot of raw emotions these few days. Life's firsthand experience of grief.

Well, my uncle recently passed away due to complications in his operation. It was pretty major considering that it's only a 60% success rate. Can't blame the doctors, it's just unfortunate that at only 50+, he has lung cancer and heart problems. The wake was sad, the atmosphere there was pretty solemn. Though his daughters smiled as they thanked the guests for coming, you could see that their eyes were blackened by crying. And they are still schooling. The youngest daughter is of the same age. I just can't imagine the pain of losing a close kin at this age. It's just scary to even think of it.

The funeral was pretty much okay, but it became sad when the casket was being sent to the incinerator. The ladies began to start sobbing, then weeping. It really was pretty upsetting. But I guess life's like that, as someone dear to me has said, everybody has to die someday.

And baby, I'm so glad things between us cleared up. I know these few days haven't really been a great time for either of us, with both of us being physically and mentally and emotionally exhuasted. But it's all over now. I love you more than ever. I don't want to hurt you again.

And if you're still unsure, just press the blue star. =D
Though I'll say it a million times to you everyday if you want. :)

Time: 8:32 PM

When things just don't go right.
I've been feeling so many different kinds of emotions in two weeks.

Friends, friends and more friends issue.
Suddenly I'm so sick of all the superficial things I've to put up with, literally.
Wonder why am I always the one trying to accept things as they are, why am I the one who got to put up with the rubbish they give me?
Top it all off, why must I be the one who's always sensitive to their feelings?

They'd never given a damn on how I feel. Not once.
Well would it even kill to just be in your friend's shoes for just awhile?
To try to imagine how they would feel under certain kinds of circumstances.
No sire.

Sure, I've got a boyfriend.

BIG DEAL.
I'm not someone who leads a life where my whole world is rotating about my boyfriend.
I am SO NOT that kind of person.
Does having a boyfriend make me some kind of alien with an extra head popping out or something?
At least I don't view my friends who are attached as aliens and discriminate them.
Enough of this already. Couldn't hold it in any longer so I just have to spill.
Whatever happened to '(best)friends forever'?

[This post is with reference to no specific people. I just needed to get this off my chest.]

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Anyway, I need to start studying my old math topics. Gawd, tests on complex numbers, P&C, probability and vectors totally killed my brain cells. I've been so exhausted lately and this is one of the rare days I'm home so early.

Monday - Training, Reach home at 9.30pm-10pm
Tuesday - Extra lessons
Wednesday - Training, Reach home at 9.30pm-10pm
Thursday - Extra lessons
Friday - Training, Reach home at 9.30pm-10pm
Saturday - Tuition
Sunday - Tuition

By the time I reach home, I'm so damn exhausted I'll be so tempted to give the shower a miss and just go to bed. Still, by the time I finish showering, I'd immediately doze off. Ever wonder how I still manage to do my homework?

I do it on the way to school.

Can't wait for nationals to be over, when I finally catch up with school work, catch up on sleep and everything.
Birthday... It's such an event I am NOT looking forward to anymore.
I don't even think I am going to celebrate it already.

Call me a loser, a loner whatever.
At least I'm not hypocritical nor a liar.
Sucks to be me doesn't it?
Time: 7:02 PM