Here's the video as promised:D Don't be too critical cause it's my first attempt in ever trying stop-motion photography AND using a video editing software (or basically making a video).

And I made this video for baby for his early 2nd anniversary present (it's on a Tuesday so I don't get to see him) & that cute boy nearly cried. Heh. He was giving me this sad face and saying, 'I wanna cry already...'

My back pain came back to me this morning. Frigging painful. Had difficulty walking and it got worse towards the end of the day. I hope I'm well tomorrow so I get to go out! =/

YAY! Tried out a really really simple "project" today and it worked!

I think I'm awesome. Haha, especially when I really really am hopeless in that area of expertise + I have no freaking idea how to use softwares related to that area, what's more a Mac version of it.

It's amazing how I got through it! YAY YAY YAY! :D

Wanna know what is it? Heh. Well, I'm good in photography, I read up a lot on it, I practice a lot. But one thing I have absolutely NO IDEA how to operate are things related to video. I never EVER pulled off being able to operate on a video editing software. Okay, I did but that was in sec1-2. I'm awesome xD

Did a really simple project and it worked out great (for a beginner okay!). Will upload it tomorrow night after the boy sees it. Heh. Already let my mum see it and she thought it was done by him cause I think she knows I totally can't make it for video stuff somehow.

Oh, photos of me and clem when we went to catch a movie! :D

Went out with Clement yesterday for a movie at Vivo. Watched Nodame Cantabile (Finale). Have no idea what it is cause I didn't even watch the first one -.- But still thank goodness it was rather interesting cause it was about music (piano especially). Visual effects were kinda lame though. I mean, in anime it's okay but real life? Kinda dumb.

And I finally got a proper mousepad. No more using cardboard already xD But I think I need to get some sort of 'base' to put under my keyboard. My table's somewhat not straight so when I type, the left of the keyboard keeps going down and up and down and up. Damn irritating. Now I'm using a notebook to balance it out properly.

I'm so sleepy. I'm like catching up with all my lost sleep since I don't know when. Feel so tired right now. Ohwells, going to go out soon for awhile.

Sian. I'm even too tired to think about how to celebrate our 2nd anniversary. 2 years. Omg. This really is amazing in my standards. HAHA.

I'm finally done with the photos I took from the Malaysia trip.

Here are the photos I took during our kite-flying session on Saturday. It really pays to go early cause there was strong winds, not much sun and empty space with no kites. Totally love it :D

Baby stayed over at my house after dismissing from camp at about 10pm?

Woke up at 5am today to get ready to head down to Marina Barrage.

Well, nothing special really, nice view and such but still, so-so. Do really wanna see the Helix thingo at night though. Seen pictures of it and it looks awesome.

Went to fly kite. Really damn fun but handling the stunt kite was hard.

End of the day, still unable to handle the stunt kite. Heh.

Joel came to find us about 11am, then we headed for lunch.

Whole day we got lost TWICE -.- 2nd time full credit to Joel really.

HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY: Joel and I decided 'What-the-heck' and took the plunge to the FISH SPA! & yea, we dragged Eug along with us. I've some super hilarious videos in my phone and some photos. Will upload it soon. Somehow, after the fishie thing, I have this huge and long bruise on my leg. VERY WEIRD cause I never knocked into anything today. Pfft.

Headed to Marina Square to watch "The Sorcerer's Apprentice" and it's one helluva show.

Really MUST WATCH. Totally loved the show even though the lead actor wasn't exactly cute/hot but he's definitely funny enough to love him :D

After that said byebye to Joel and headed home to cook dinner.

Photos up soon, esp the videos :D HEHE.

Does that mean it'd take me 6 years to let go of everything? =/

Shit, I'm getting emotional again. I love this song yet I hate it cause it makes me cry each time I hear it.

Think I'll go back to editing photos.

Well the trip was kinda fun even though I didn't have anyone to talk to most of the time and I sit alone most of the time -.- Plus like I'm (supposed to) sleep alone for the 3 nights.

Well 1st night I slept alone at Ipoh, but the 2nd and 3rd night at Cameron Highlands I slept with my parents, leaving my room empty cause I was so freaked out.

1) My tap makes a high pitched sound each time I use it.

2) I nearly died in the bathroom when I slipped on the bathtub cause the management's so frigging stingy they don't even provide the bathroom mat NOR bedroom slippers.

3) My mirror has this face like shape on it that wouldn't fog no matter what after a shower with hot water.

4) My little ooah (a little monkey toy that I have that has both a recording voice button and a playback function) who hasn't been able to 'talk' for almost a year just started playing back the last recorded voice out of nowhere when I was in the toilet with it. Freaky as it was, the last recorded word was 'HELLO'. Oh, and when I tried pressing the playback button after that, it didn't work at all.

So yeah, I went to my parent's room to sleep cause hooboy I trust my 6th sense a lot okay. & boy was I glad I did. According to my dad who went to use the toilet on the last day there, the lights and fan were still on and turning even without the room card key in the slot for electricity. Spooky yes? Plus he even went back there twice and both times, they were still on.

Other than the freaky hotel part, the trip went pretty well.

Still can't upload the photos I've taken yet cause I still don't have my photoshop in my Mac yet.

I'm now rotting at home with nothing to do. Just catching up on my sleep.

Well, hopefully this week I can go to register for BTT and the next week head out with Clement.

Going to sleep again. Really sleepy Z_z

Going to miss the boy when I'm there cause it means 4 days of no sms-ing & calling and 1 week of not seeing him and 10 days before I can go out with him again. I seriously don't cope well not contacting the boy at all.

Now I'm pretty used to not seeing him every day (unlike in school) but I'm still not used about the not contacting part. Last year his Korea trip and my HongKong trip nearly killed me. It was uber long and torturous.

Well will be back on Sunday late night =/ Hope everything works out well. Wish baby wasn't in army though. My bro can't make it for the trip so there's this empty spot (already paid) & my mum asked if baby could go, but sadly, there's army. Sucks. I'm going to have the whole room to myself. Freaks me out. I'm going to leave all lights on when I sleep. Gah.

Anyway here's the itinerary, pretty much all nature stuff. Hopefully I get good shots there. Would do me a great deal. I love landscape shots. Still, wish baby could have come with me.

4D3N Ipoh/Cameron Highland

Day1:

Transfer to 2nd Link Malaysia --> Lunch at Seremban --> Ipoh

Place of interest - Gua Tempurung, Haven Cave

Dinner at Ipoh

Heritage Hotel Ipoh

Day2:

Ipoh --> Cameron Highland

Strawberry farm, cactus, tea farm, honey farm

Heritage Hotel Cameron

Day3:

Cameron HIghland

Place of interest - Tea farm, Pasar Cameron, free time in Cameron

Day4:

Cameron --> Singapore

Check out

Place of interest - Orang Asli Waterfall

Have lunch at Kampar (Curry Chicken Roti)

Friday night talked to FC over the phone till 2am and I was up at 6am on Saturday. Geez. Damn tired I tell you. Headed to meet baby for breakfast cause he just booked out. Went to Art Friend to get some materials and went home. I still wanna fly kite though =/

Today baby came early, had breakfast and now he's sleeping like a pig on my bed. Ohwells. I'm really bored at home. Heading over to M'sia next week. Sucks. Means that I won't even get to spend the weekend with him.

Damn, I'm sleepy too. Shall go watch Bones now since my whole bed is practically 'taken over' by the boy.

On the other hand, started watching 'Bones' so yea, I'm pretty much occupied now though I still wanna design the ideas I have and see how it turns out to be. Cause I can't draw for nuts but I can most certainly use the computer to draw for me :D

Tons of things to do this weekend though. Seriously just wish baby could have more than just the weekends off. But ohwells, army...Tsk.

& well, since my bro was back from his 2 months stay in the States, astronaut food for you.

I nearly crashed into the pole while trying to take this picture -.-

Cause I was squatting and balancing on my toes (due to my knee problem) and the train suddenly moved faster. Zz.

But I'm pretty glad it turned out quite nice :D

You know when you're home you think of tons of things. How your life has been, what have you been doing in life, who deserves to be part of your life, etc.

I've been thinking so much it's driving me nuts. And I'm glad for the talk I had with FC. Cause somehow it just took my mind off things and we talked about nonsense things (as usual) for 1.5hours. We haven't talked for this long for a really long time already so it felt nice somewhat to finally be able to hold such a long conversation with someone over the phone other than the boy.

I'm not wallowing in self-pity or what but I haven't been in the best mood for the past few months. The past few weeks have been spent locked up in my room, not talking to anyone and just leaving my room to go for a run, practice piano, bring my meals to my room and go to toilet. Seriously, the number of words that comes out from my mouth each day (other than talking to the boy) is about 0-10. That's how bad it is. Like even though my brother came home on Friday (I think?), I haven't even spoken a single word to him, not even a 'Hi'.

The only life-saver is when the boy comes over during night's out/book out. That's almost the only time I actually talk to someone face to face/leave my room. Sounds pathetic yes? I guess everyone has their own ways of dealing with setbacks and mine is just to cut myself away from everyone else. I mean, even the boy doesn't know what I'm going through and I'll admit, sometimes it gets irritating cause he thinks that I'm just being a bitch despite me telling him tons of times I'm really not in the best moods these days.

Songs always have a link to day, moment, time, etc, basically short periods. Mine's like months or even A YEAR -.- Geez.

Plus no photoshop = making me feel worse. Zz.

Well, I'm going back to stonning now. Once again, I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO ON MY MAC. Ironically, the reason I got a Mac is to do design stuff. Ohwells.

Well, just gotta make do with the current programme I have now I guess. & gotta make do with the photos for now. Haha.

Weekends always pass by so fast while weekdays are a drag for me. Geez. Photoshop is suppose to make me be occupied but somehow I can't seem to install it. Gah.

Anyway, pictures when my Mac arrived! :D

When the box first came! :D


In the cardboard box! -heart melts- Super exciting I tell you.


YAY! It's really huge.


But it's extremely slim. Considering that I never bothered to follow up on Macs before, I never knew a desktop could exist without an external CPU. I know it sounds dumb but really, the last time I used a desktop at home was about maybe 10 years ago?




Slim wireless mouse. I'm so scared I scratch it, dirty it or something =/



On our 23rd monthsary (: (Mixture of DSLR and my baby cam photos, thus the blur-ness in a few of 'em)


Found this photo really cute cause the boy was being irritating and kept looking in the other direction (refusing to look at the camera).

















Well that's all for now. I really wanna get a photoshop software for my Mac ASAP cause editing photos on my baby lappy (though I'm quite used to it already) it's really tiring.

Though our elaborate full-day plan didn't work out as expected cause of your "confinement", I'm still thankful for the time I get to spend with you on this special day. It's been way long since we celebrated together on the actual day itself.

& though we have been getting into stupid quarrels lately, really stupid ones actually, heh, it was fun wasn't it? With you and your other split personalities =P

I love you (:

Well, today baby and I went out. We actually had a whole day's worth of activities planned out but we didn't follow it much. We still kept to our Sakae Sushi lunch but it was more of brunch.

Didn't manage to go to Bras Basah nor Marina Barrage cause it was raining. Cancelled our late-night out at Esplanade cause we went to celebrate my mum's birthday down at Chinatown. Still, a happy day :D

Went to eat at the Mouth's Restaurant (is it even spelt like this?!) and somehow that restaurant always makes us wind up eating too full. The last time I went, my parents brought me and Clement along for dim sun breakfast or something, winded up with Clement being uber bloated. Same goes for Eugene, he was half-dying of full-ness after dinner. Haha.

& Well, I have decided on the general path I should take in life but for the specifics, not yet.

Still I'm pretty happy with my life right now. Though cash-flow is a problem cause I'm not working NOR getting any allowance, I'm still rather satisfied with life now. I mean, it's all right for us to take a step back, relax and observe as life goes on, once in awhile right?

On another note, MAC IS SUPER HARD TO USE DAMMIT. Gosh, I'm really going to die trying how to figure out how to use it. Zz.

I was feeling lost again last night, felt totally useless and wanted to give up.

Kenneth and Aks pulled me right back up and onto my feet again.

They told me not to give up and like what Kenneth says 'There are always choices'

Well true. There are always choice but it's making the right choice that is the hardest part.

I want to get my life back on track, piece every thing back together and move on.

But there's always the fear of making the wrong choice again. I've made 3 major wrong choices in my life that has made a complete mess out of my life. I don't want to make anymore wrong choices that's going to screw me up even more.

I'm going to be brave, move on and still, be brave. Damn, that's hard.

And I can tell when I'm emotionally unstable. I tend to look for things to buy, A LOT.

& Thank goodness the only thing that's stopping me from buying anything is the idea of 'I'm not working anymore'.

Plus I've been pretty thrifty these few months. Haven't bought anything for a really long time.

No camera equipment, no clothes, no shoes, no unnecessary accessories (I needed ear sticks)...basically nothing that I WANT but do not NEED. Quite proud of myself :D

The boy has confinement so that means my plans for Saturday has to change already cause he can't book out on Friday.

Oh well.

Yawns. I'm so proud of myself. Today is a really nice weather to sleep in/take a nap and I didn't! :D