Totally over you cause you ain't worth it.
I've deleted your number, all you sms-es and off MSN.
Time to start afresh :D

Someone please call me miss clever.
Spent my whole time doing my essay till 3am.
Went to school and fell asleep in nearly all the lessons.

Guess what?
When I woke up after like 3 hours of sleep, I forgot to print it out and went to school -.-

I think I'm the smartest person in the universe. Don't you agree?
Really damn tired. Keep dozing off in tutorials. Zz.

Had training with coach after school.
Coach was damn funny.

Coach: 'You know this morning I jumped out of bed?'

Me: 'Huh why? Something happened?'

Coach: 'I was sleeping then I jumped out of bed. I dreamt that I was coaching you.'

Me: 'Uhoh, was the training very disastrous and bad?'

Coach: 'No, it was very good. I dreamt that you got a perfect game. I was so happy I was jumping all over the alley.'

Me: '...Wah, that will need years of hard trainings.'

Coach: 'No need, you're already very good and you CAN get a perfect game.'


And Coach was super nice and all. Though training was really tough. My fingers are red and swollen ): But I'm improving a lot :D:D Coach say that I can have trainings with him every Thursday as long as I'm free. YAY!

AND FINALLY AFTER LIKE ONE YEAR OF SEARCHING, I'VE FOUND SOMEONE WHO HAS THE SONG I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR!
Monster - The Automatic

Whee, thank you Jeffrey for sending to me! WOOHOO!
what's that coming over the hills, is that a monster?
Time: 8:52 PM

SO BOREEEED! Gosh, I'm still doing my History Essay which is due tomorrow. Or rather today cause it's past midnight now. Bloody shit, I still got so much more to write about.

Tuesday was oh so happy day. We did weights training for PE and omg, during training I was totally exhausted but my FIRST game, I bowled 146 :D Haha, I shoul go train weights every day already lah. And coach was happy too!

Quoted from coach:

' YES! Finally I see the old ShuJun already! You finally got back your old style of bowling already. This was your way of throwing before you got your new ball remember? And you bowled very well with it!'

'I like you now! Very good.' (when I got a strike)

'This was how you bowled last time. Remember last time you could bowl so well? You got back your swing and momentum already.'

Okayokay, I'm so proud of myself. Finally my new ball and I can work together. Happy happy! Gosh. But after tuesday's training, I was completely drained.

Today's training was pretty okay. Coach says I'm alright already, I just need more practice and it'll be good. Cause my old way of throwing is back and it's much more accurate and sharp. Met Clement for dinner after training and came home to work on my History Essay till now. Ohwells.

Training with coach tomorrow. One on one for two hours. I just hope I can survive that training mannnn. Need to keep training and training and training till my average is much much better :D I'm working for a 150 average. That's my aim for A division. Gonna train damn hard(:

Okay, spoiler. Back to history essay. Bleh.
This sucks.
And if I don't get a reasonable mark this time, I might just hang myself (joking!)
But it'll definitely give me the incentive to work harder for my third essay till I can finally get a mark that I'm proud of (:
Time: 12:09 AM

stop spending money stop spending money stop spending money.
gosh, i can't seem to resist the pretty stuff i come across. blah.
save money save money save money save money.
i suddenly think it's a good thing clement's holding on to my ATM card so i only can save money and not withdraw. BAH.

i'm too lazy to type with capital letters. too tired also.
guess what?
trainings are killing me.
coach said, 'before you got your new ball, your bowling was very good. once you got your new ball you dropped a lot already.'
rah, my new ball and me has no link know? ): it doesn't wanna make friends with me. bleh.
so i'm having trainings on monday, tuesday, wednesday and thursday this whole week. gosh.
friday suppose to have also but i can't make it cause of med appt.

and i need to change my attitude towards my mum somehow also. it's not like i wanna be rude or anything but she says things without even going through her brain and just vomits everything out, digs out the past which makes me so damn frustrated. still, i need to control my temper but it ain't helping cause every single time i do so, she uses it as an opportunity to go further and be nastier. zz.

i'm so tired. so dead.
emotions running high yo?
someone help, i need the stamina to continue training and keep up with school work.
and i need to finish tian's shoes and shushu bird's shoes.
dammit. heeeeelp!
Time: 10:01 PM

I don't believe your phone spoilt. Now I'm even having doubts that you went for your operation.
_|_

RAH, today is so so so so so so so unhappy for me ):
I DON'T GET TO GO OUT WITH MY GANG AND THAT MAKES ME SO SO SAD.
=(
GANG = Faiz, KiaDong and Sofi. AAAAHHHHHH!!!!
They are my primary school best mates (not like I got along very well with them in school but out of school, we hang out together and of course, grew up together).
We were suppose to go out today but I have too much homework so yeah ):
Just hope and pray and cross fingers that they will come over to my house tonight.

AND TODAY I'M SUPPOSE TO GO OUT WITH KENNETH POH POH ALSOOOOOO.
FOR OUR USUAL WEEKEND BREAKFAST. Today's my treat and we were going to Holland V.
But as usual, I have to stay home and do homework ): BAH.

On the bright side though, Shushu bird came over to my house today :D
Haha, he just had so many things to tell me that he say must go out today-.-
So I told him to come over to my house. We talked about everyyyyything and it's boy so fun fun!
Neheheheheh, pity we can't have long talks in school cause 1) Rumours will spread saying that we have something going on between us (like WTH seriously). 2) He's busy conducting lessons while I'm busy HAVING lessons -.- 3) WE DON'T HAVE TIME TO EVEN HAVE LUNCH TOGETHEEEER :/
So today's good cause we finally managed to catch up with each other like yay!

I've got so many people I just have to catch up with. Esp my darling girlfriends.
Gosh.
(in no specific order)
Lynette WONG, HONG Jiayi, Denise, Ying, Tian, Rafidah, Aiman, Shirley LEE, Rachel LOW, Geraldine LEE, Sam TUNG, Jeremy LIM, Kenneth Pohpoh, Yongyi, Alex TAN(i think), Charmaine TAN, KiaDong, Sofi, Faiz, Luqman, Jo-ann, HuiWen, FengHeng, YongQiang, KaiSiang and I can't remember who else already :/ BAH.

Come on come on. March holidays are coming. DATE ME :D Haha.
Rachel's already booked one day of my March holidays. Fast right?
Ohwells, back to studying theeeen.

AND YES! I've finished my sneakers already!
I'm going to wear it to school on Wed :D
Will put up pictures of the final design next time. I'm charging my phone now.
These are the unfinished product. Plus the shoes I made for Clement is damn cool.
Only I forgot to take pictures of it -.- And another pair of lime green shoes which is damn pretty with a skull on it. It got stolen by those HDB shoe thieves #%#$^$#%@#$




Next up will be Tian's birthday present and Shushu's birthday present too (upon special request. HAHA)! After I'm done with them, I'll put the photos up :D

If anyone wants to order for your friends or yourself, tell me (:
YELLOW sneakers will cost $45.
NORTHSTAR sneakers will cost $35. (Extra $5 if you want the base to be of a different colour)
CONVERSE sneakers will cost $75.

Accessories will have additional charges applied (:
Prices include costs of shoes, paint and coating.
(Note: I'm not opening up a blog shop cause I don't want massive orders coming in:/)


AHH, HOMEWORK! BYEBYE.
Time: 4:29 PM

Whee. There wasn't training on Thursday so straight after PW (Project Work) briefing, I rushed down to Westmall to meet JEFFREY ZHOU JIE HAO :D Went around shopping for presents than had lunch. Met Mel at WM and decided that she will come over to my house later to paint her shoes. Blahblah. To save jeff boy some money, we WALKED home -.- Cause he kept complaining that his bus fare and train fare all adult fare already. So no choice, walk home with him and we talked cock all the way lah. He was suppose to come over to my house but we stopped by KD's house and talked. Two guys and one girl sitting on the brick wall just talking about everything. It's so love seriously (:

After that they sent me home and on the way we met Aiman ahbang so we sat down under my block and started talking again -.- Then when Mel met me she was like, 'What the hell? How come from one guy become 3 guys liao?' Haha, super crap.

Yesterday had to wake up bloody earlier z.Z because Mel had to be in school by 6.30am. Yawns. Road run was great totally yo? Minus the fact I had stitch in the second round it was still okay lah. Grace and I pon the prize presentation and sat at the stairs (she slept on the stairs -.-) and talked about life in Nanyang. Heh. After we got dismissed, headed down to OCC to get back my bowling ball and played a bit there. Something happened which made me oh-so-pissed and all. Rah, nevermind. After that, headed to Westmall to change shoes then go home. Mel came over later in the night and she kept saying Clement is damn shy. HAHA.

Okay, I'm going to study now. Byebye (:



Isn't the mandarin orange so cute and small? Haha.


Sam and I.


Cheryl and I.


Nanyang girls minus Jiao Mei and Si Pei.
Time: 10:36 AM

I thought I was over you, guess I was not ):

Yesterday was pretty okay day.
Minus the fact that I'm lagging behind in Math for two topics.
Plus the fact that PE included only two rounds on the track and captain's ball.
Minus the fact that almost more than half of my OG are posted somewhere else.
Plus the fact that Ying, Tian and Luqman are posted to Ngee Ann and I'm stuck here.

Went for training yesterday and it was better but still not that good. I have no idea what's happening but somehow, I feel so foreign with my ball :/ Better bond more with my ball man! After training, went home to put down my stuff then went for a run.
Wanted to run 2.4km but as luck would have it, I had 4 stitches continuously and it was so bad I had to change my 2.4km route to about 1.2km route -.- It was like, runnnnnn, oww pain, continue running, got worse, still continue running, nearly died, stopped and walked. pain subsided, runnnn, pain came back, stop and rest. then run again, another stitch came, continued running and blahblah..

I was almost limping when I ran home. Not limping from a sprained ankle or something but from the acute pain above my tummy :/ Was so painful that every step I took made it harder to breathe for me ):

Today was pretty so so. Went to school with only a file again as usual. School was pretty slack. And I'm lagging behind in History by quite a lot too. Bah. Felt pretty sick after school so didn't go for training and I was looking so forward to it.

Cabbed down to -'s house to see how he is. Rah, pretty okay lah, limps a little but overall still fine. But I shan't put my hopes so high up yet. His MAJOR operation is in March. That's when the real thing comes I guess. Went over, bathed, watched a bit of TV and then slept awhile before heading home. I just realised, I don't know much about -. In terms of like, I don't know when to trust him and stuff when talking. Rah, never mind. It's still comforting to know that he's alright.

I'm going to have extra training with coach tomorrow if he can book the lanes:D I don't wanna disappoint him know? Must bowl my best. And of course be course of my brudder who's currently botak and in army now. Haha, he said I better train hard and all the usual crap. MONSTER WHEN ARE WE GOING OUT TOGETHER?! Tsk, lousy brudder.

Loads of seniors owe me dates lah.
- YongYi (J4)
- Alex (J4)
- Charmaine (J4)
- Yong Qiang (J4)
- Shu Ming (J3)
- Haikal (J3)
- RUICHAO BRUDDER (J3)
- AHPEK CHEE KIAN (J3)

That's all I can remember for now lah. And as usual, I'm pretty broke again -.- and fully booked. Tsk.

Thur - Training 4pm-6pm

Fri - Road Run
Meeting Clement then go for my medical appointment
Maybe going out with Ying at night
Sat - Studying at some yet-to-be-decided library the whole day
SHUMING IS SUPPOSE TO CALL ME!
Sun - If ShuMing remembers to call me, then I'll be going out with him.
Time: 6:25 PM

I'm feeling heaps and truckloads better now (:
As usual, I woke up in the morning in a pretty bad mood.
First thing that happened, I dropped my handphone on the floor and because I've lost my battery cover like almost a year ago, my battery flew out and I was too lazy to put it back and switch on my phone till like 40mins later.

Went to school, did math. And I'm going to quickly blog so I can complete my math.
Totally love mondays.
Free period free period break econs lit math free period PE.
The last free period sucks but it's all thaks to mohammad -.-

We ran the road run today. Fun fun, minus the fact that I seriously shouldn't eat so much on Monday's lunch cause in less than 100m, my stomach was hurting like shit. Still, I ran and it felt oh so good seriously. I was not putting my all in the run cause I don't really care but it felt good to be able to get rid of some thoughts and tension :D Bowling training was great also. Coach said my aiming was great and it was very consistent. Yay!

But one thing that pissed me off was a seller who went MIA. Was supposed to meet her boyf (cause she couldn't make it) and pass him the money. Waited for like 40mins yo? Never turned up, no replying of sms-es and she never picked up any calls. Gosh, totally sucks man. Make me leave training early for what sia?

Alright, I'm off to do math and read my history.
School seems so fun all of a sudden (: Okay, I think my brain's seriously screwed.
It should be, out of the blue, I got serious dizzy spells in Lit class which resulted in me not being able to walk straight and having to take panadol extra :/ Then lasted till PE and a splitting headache set in. But still, I'm feeling heaps better. Somehow (:
Time: 9:59 PM

I don't really wanna care who reads this post now. Be it my brother, my friends or teachers or anyone. It sucks somehow cause these days have been an emotional turmoil for me and not being able to share it with my best friends is one of the worse things that can happen to me. No, I can't even share with Clement because I know it'll hurt him even more when I talk about other guys so I don't wanna be the bad guy.

Yeah, I think about him every day, wondering how is he, how did his operation go. Whether he is recovering smoothly or is he really going to be crippled. A basketball player who went to the States to play basketball for two years and now has a chance of becoming crippled. Just the thought of it scares me. Irony is that, it was basketball who gave him the injury in the first place. Though I still can't forgive him for what happened in the past and the things he said to me before his operation, I still worry ):

I don't know but somehow just thinking about him will just make me cry. I don't even know why. Is it because I miss him? Because I worry for him? As a friend or a person I love? Because I've just lost a friend. Well, I think it's more of the last reason. I don't like losing friends over love. If I know that I'd lose a friendship just because of love, I'd rather just stay as friends. I still care but there's nothing I can do I guess.

No one to turn to. Or rather, no one who understands what I've been through has been there for me during this period. Especially Ying. I know she's busy with work and everything and I understand. That's why I'm not blaming her or anything. Having her as my best friend for 10 years is more than what I can ask for. Still, I think isolation suits me best.

It's hard to go to school with a smile on my face y'know? Still, I'm trying. Cause I don't think it's fair that I should spoil other friends' day by giving them a cold shoulder the whole day. I'd rather see them happy and smile, even if it hurts so much inside.

Well, there's road run trial tomorrow. 3.4km. Plus training after that. Good luck to my poor calves. For once I'm enjoying PE. Somehow. Cause running stops me from thinking so much and just run to my heart's content (not like I like long dist. I still prefer sprints). And I miss basketball. A lot. Been so long since I've played basketball. Well, the last time I played was with him but let's not talk about it.

Okay, I'm going back to typing my History essay. I'm aiming to write >1000 words and score a commendable grade. I'm going to work hard this two years and do myself proud. Hopefully get my scholarship to UK and study law. That's what I really want. Just to take a break from Singapore life (:

-Stupid Ah Chuan went to give my number to one of his friends again. What the hell? Every time he gets attached to a new girl, he gives my number to a new guy. Walau, like that I'd rather this girl stick to him and he doesn't get anymore girlfriends lah-
Time: 8:56 PM

I stood staring at the empty basketball court, letting that very day replay itself in my memory. Typical as it was, we played in the rain. Not caring if we got really wet and dirty.
Tears just came and there's no stopping to it. I tried really hard not to think about you.
But it was little things that you did that made me love you more.

It's over I know. Even your operation is over.
How you are now will not concern me anymore.
Maybe we shouldn't have met each other 3 years ago.
And maybe you should have just stayed in the States and not return.

Putting a brave front in front of every one else is not simple.
I'm still trying my best not to cry when people ask me about you.
Rah. Especially when you and I made a pact to spend Valentine's Day together.


My new school bag totally rocks yo? I went to school with just my Pooh Bear file. Inside consisted of lit, econs, math and hist notes, my PSP, wallet, pencil case and Ipod. Not bad eh? And I'm serious, it's just a file. Then people were asking, 'Eh? Where's your bag?" Heh, walking around for each lesson with just a file. I should do that every day minus those days with PE.

After school I met Tian and we just spent time together till late night. Even she is moving on pretty well after her break up. I think I should too. Least I can tell she's really feeling better cause she talked a lot more nonsense today and stuff. Rah, it's love spending time with best friends who know me so well.

I'm going to study now so buh bye.
Today is study History and Lit day.
Tomorrow will be Math and Econs day.

Before I forget, photos on Valentine's Day.
Btw, it's sweet knowing my other friends who are attached still so lovey dovey with their partners despite a rough year last year(: I really hope they last cause I can't even stand seeing other people break up. Makes me super sad ):

I'M GOING TO SAVE UP TO BUY A NEW CAMERA SO NO MORE SHOPPING FOR ME ALREADY! I want my pretty pretty camera but I still haven't decided which one. Aiyah, wait till I save up then say (: NEW CAMERA NEW CAMERA NEW CAMERA!




I swear Clement cam whores more than me already.



He tired to take an unlgam shot of me trying to throw a french fry into my mouth but it turned out pretty nice instead (PLUS YOU CANNOT SEE ANY UN-GLAMNESS :D)



Before the movie.



I still think I dress better than him despite his many attempts to win me in terms of dress sense.



On the way hoooome(:



Lovely roses from mainly : Adeline, Clement and Roy <3
Time: 11:39 AM

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

HAPPY INTERNATIONAL FRIENDSHIP DAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL LOW SHU XIN!

And special thanks to Roy (my polar bear) and Adeline jie for sending me flowers (: Esp Roy, haha. It's such a lovely surprise when it's all the way from TJC. Rah, totally love it to bits you know!
Valentine's Day was almost all perfect. And yes, I'm still worried for him and all but I never showed it today cause it's suppose to be a happy day! Why should I spoil other people's happy day by emo-ing and crying? :/ Tsk.

I overslept and blah. Thank goodness Mel hasn't left the house yet so I met her at a later time to go to school. Tried text-ing him again, but as usual no reply. I know people will say, 'Aiyah, since you so worried then just call him lah.' I ALSO WANT TO BUT I DON'T DARE ): Bah.

After school, went out with Clement and headed down to Lot1 (CCK) to catch 'P.S. I love you'. Huiting was soooo pissed with Clement. HAHA. Quite expected lah. The only two people he makes fun of is Rachel and Huiting. Heh.

Caught the movie and was pretty disappointed cause they changed most of the storyline which resulted in it being super different from the book itself. But I still cried ): Omg, damn what lah. Cause I've read the book before so it affects me more when I see it acted out. Clement NEARLY cried too. HEH, cause I read to him part of the book before and he knows roughly what everything is. Still, love can be so sweet and sad at the same time. I don't like losing my loved ones in such a manner ): I'll just... I don't know?

And thank you Clement for spending the day with me. Don't say that I have no choice hor cause apparently I have lots of other choices which includes the next best alternative = go home and sleep. But still, thank you. Especially paying for everything today :/ I feel so bad.

Oh, I'm booked pretty much the whole week already.
Fri - Out with Xintian.
Sat - Out with Denise.
Sun - Out with Fifie.

Shit, I need to catch up on my work but I'm just so tired ):
Alright, I just mustered every ounce of courage left in me and combined enough insanity to dial his number and press the green button on my phone's keypad. Wanna know what happened?

















He didn't pick up.
Time: 10:05 PM

Went to school with swollen eyes ): Rah.
Didn't talk much the whole day.
Training sucked and coach is getting worried cause I'm way below my usual bowling standards.


People have been asking me how is he.
1) He never replied my sms-es.
2) He never picked up my calls.
3) I have no idea what time his operation was.
4) I can't go visit him cause his operation is not in a hospital but at Changi Naval Base (if I'm not wrong)
5) I'm more worried than anything.


Best of all, Clement said my present is from Daiso and it's a coin purse. Such a nice and thoughtful Valentine's Day present. Totally can't stand him. I should just go home and sleep tomorrow instead of going out with him.

And please don't think it's going to be a surprise and he's saying this just to throw me off guard. Knowing him for so long, it's just as idiotic as it sounds.
Time: 10:10 PM

/I've tried everything just for you but you still won't change for the better.


Last night was really really bad. I met up with - and things were quite bad. Met him pretty late in the night and as usual, he lost his way here again, this time better still. He didn't lose his way on a bus here but rather in a cab -.- How smart eh? Met him and rah, his leg hurt damn badly I felt so sad seeing him in so much pain. He nearly fell down the stairs too cause his leg gave way to the pain.

We talked about his operation that is taking place tomorrow. We talked about the past and he made me cry lah. I don't know why I cry either but he asked a simple question that I didn't know just how to answer him. But all and all, till the end, I ran home crying, leaving him alone with his injured leg ): Rah, feel so bad but still... Better still, went home and get a good lashing (with words) from my mum who was pissed I went out till so late.

Couldn't sleep well the whole night. Thinking about everything since last year till now. Just when I thought every thing was over, this had to happen. And only one person knows what's happening now. Sadly, it's not Ying. She doesn't even know anything. Sigh.

Woke up went to school in a bad mood. I nearly cried, I don't know why either but it's just so hard. I'm lagging behind school work some more. Friends have their own life now I don't know who to turn to anymore.

Not Ying, not bestf, not Sam and not even Clement.
Looks like I'm really alone this time.
Let's just pray that I can go through this alone.

Training sucked like shit. Seriously. I kept going gutter gutter gutter.
Frustration is driving me mad.
Fuck, how the hell am I suppose to go to A division competitions in this lousy state?

I'll pray for your operation tomorrow.
Even though doctors say there's only 30% chances of recovery, I believe you will be okay.
There will be a miracle and you WILL recover. I'm just sure you will.
You can't give up just like that okay? You're a bball player and you should know better.
How can you give up on a match even before it starts?
Please be positive no matter what happens.
At least I'll still be here for you.

P.S. Anyone wants to donate to the HELP SHUJUN fund? I'm currently surviving on 5bucks to last me this whole week. And I've gotta return Si En $2.50. So I only have $2.50 left for the rest of the week:/
Time: 9:25 PM

Ohman, I'm feeling so down ):

1) Eugene Koh is giving me undue pressure in Math. I'm lagging behind cause I don't understand what's going on and Eugene seems to be able to grasp everything which makes things worse ): I need to buck up. Come on come on!

2) Road run trials tomorrow. Hurhur o.O

3) Still waiting for TingZhi to text me but that should mean there won't be any dance for me. Maybe I should go back to my old dance school and stick to Contemp but it's so damn far ): I really wanna dance laaaaaaah.

4) I'm seeing Eugene Koh APPEARING ONLINE DAMN A LOT OF TIMES! Grrr.


Saturday, Clement came over to bai nian at my house. My parents gave him ang bao when they never give me any -.- Tsk. Then =I did Econs and ATTEMPTED to do Math and failed. Jason suddenly called me to ask me to cab down to his house to find him, but I didn't ): Went to Westmall and have lunch with Clement. Wanted to go find Jason after that but he was already on the way to his Aunt's place to never mind.

Sunday woke up damn early and went to meet Kenneth Poh Poh for breakfast. HAHA, two people living on the red line going all the way to Tiong Bahru Market just to have breakfast. Mad right? And that vain pok refused to take off his beanie initially cause he is BOTAK. But in the end he did cause he was perspiring like hell. Heh. After breakfast, we went to Tiong Bahru Plaza to walk awhile then went to the MRT platform to sit down and talk before going separate ways.

Went to meet daddy and korkor at City Hall before going to my niece's one year birthday (I think) at Allson Hotel. After the buffet lunch, Jo and I headed down to Bugis to shop. Omg it was so crazy I tell you.

We were at Bugis shopping till we couldn't shop anymore then we took train down to town. We wanted to go Peninsular initially but this was what happened.

-we were at cityhall, changed train and stepped into the train heading towards orchard-
-door closes-
-stone-

Me: Eh Jo, you know how to walk there right?
Jo: Where?
Me: Peninsular lah.
Jo: -eyes open big big- I don't know leh. I thought you know! I only know how to walk there from City Hall.
Me: -stares- WTH? Then why you never say earlier. Then we take this train for what? Just now should just stop at City Hall then walk there liao.
Jo: I thought you know how to go mah. So just get on this train lah.
Me: Aiyah, forget it. Some other day then go. We go town.

-Another one was when Jo was having a conversation with her friend over the phone-

Jo: Yah Yah. I outside now........Outside with my aunty lah.........The aunty the one I tell you same age as me de......

Both of us looked at each other and burst out laughing. BTW, Jo's my niece but we're the same age. In fact I think her birthday's before mine. Ahh, wth seriously.

Damn stupid I tell you. Haha, we were laughing like mad on the trains and every where else. We got down at Plaza Sing, shopped a bit here and there then walked down to Cine and then to Far East. I tell you, by that time my feet was hurting like shit and I was having blisters. That's why I hate going to town all dressed up and stuff. ONE: I'd rather wear slippers to shop. TWO: Whoever created the rule that go to town must dress nice nice?

That's why my favourite outfit to town is: Big shirts + shorts + slippers.
Almost like what I wore when I was out with Ken and friends on Wednesday.

By the time we went home was like damn laaaate. Ohwells. My cardigan (the one Clement bought for me on my birthday) cannot be found ): SAD. Looks like I've gotta get a new one. Shall get it this coming Thursday in town or something. Or maybe online cause it's cheaper. See how bah. But I totally love the one I saw at ESPRIT but it's so freaking expensive. 100 over bucks I think ): Should I buy? :/

Today I finally did PE like once in a million years. Loads of running. Two rounds warm up then followed by 6 rounds around the field and finally 40 dips. Gosh. I totally love PE all of a sudden. Don't know why. Like suddenly love running again. Just like what happened when I was in basketball. I wouldn't mind coming early to school just to run a few rounds before assembly. Gosh, I must be going crazy.

Okay, Adrian is still the same Adrian I know. He just broke up and blah blah shit but still as idiotic as ever. He told me to go over to his house today after school and my last period was PE. So knowing me, I was lazy and said don't want to cause I've gotta walk damn far from the bus stop to his house and then walk home again. Then he say I go over already then later he'll drive me home. WALAU. He drive me home only less than 5mins lah -.- Told him might as well drive to school and fetch me he say bloody far and waste energy. So in the end I didn't go :D

Suppose to meet Jason today also. But PE was pushed back one period so Jason went out with his other friends instead. Maybe I'll meet him at night. Then Ah Chuan also wanted to meet me and with due respect, I SUSPECT HE WANTS TO MEET ME CAUSE HE IS BRINGING AH XIONG ALONG :/ So I told him I not free xD Heh. LIKE HELLO! HOLIDAYS DON'T WANT MEET THEN NOW SCHOOL DAYS ONE BY ONE ASKING ME TO MEET UP.

WALAU. Wrong timing can?
Hello, I shall spend Valentine's Day sleeping at home. Teehee.
I need my beauty sleep yo?
Okay, I'm saving up for a new camera now. I die die also want a new camera.
Jason was suppose to give me a brand new one he got from the States but that bastard has yet to even SHOW it to me. Plus my puppy he promised to give me):

And yes, I owe Polar a letter to his house ever since X'mas. And WeiYu jie a letter to her USA boarding school where she is now since 2 years back. HAHAH. Gosh.

Personal messages to some people, it's of no offence but I've always wanted to tell you guys about it only (as you can see) we have no time for each other anymore:

- You said it'll be over soon but till now, it's not. Realised that I hardly talk to you anymore? I doubt you realise it but I've got so much to say but you're never there. Instead, you do know where you also are right? ): I'm trying to be there for you every time but you realise we hardly have time for each other anymore. Be it a simple chat or anything. The only happy time I spent with you this year where we could properly talk was during the overnight stay. I don't know what's happening but we are definitely drifting further.

-Although I do not entirely agree with what you are doing right now and plan to do in the future, I will still support you the same way you supported me throughout the years. To see you happily with him now, I can't bring myself to tell you what has been troubling me so far. I don't wanna affect you with my unhappiness. Be happy with him okay? I just wanna see you smile that's all (:
You know me well enough lah, I don't like talking to people who are attached especially when I'm going to talk about unhappy stuff. Even like now, I also understand, priority of your free time not spent working will go to him.

-You've been attached for pretty long now. I'm happy for you of course. Promises you made never really came true though. One promise I still remembered, 'When school reopens, I'll still stick with you and won't leave you alone.' It never did happened. Disappointed yes but what can I say? You've got your boyfriend, things changed for the worse. Neglected yes and you became more insensitive somehow. That's the thing with being good friends. It's hard to tell you what exactly is wrong with you but I shall say it anyway. You've grown to be insensitive and more self-centered. I don't know but that's just how I feel.

SIAN, my week is so cramped.

Tue - Training
Wed - Training
Thur - Going out/sleeping at home
Fri - Self training
Sat - Dance (if I'm going back to my old dance school that is)
Time: 6:17 PM

EHHEH, I haven't posted for like daaaaays :D

OKAYOKAY, I'm back to blogging business and I think one my exams are over of during June holidays, I'll finally do up a new blog skin again! (Like finally!) Cause I guess this blog skin is pretty emo and I'm going to make one even MORE emo. Heh, joking! See how la. I just don't have the time to do it now cause studying is my main priority (:


WEDNESDAY

SCHOOL CELEBRATION! :D And there was concert at LT5. HuiYing and I were sitting at the back eating oranges -.- HAHA, I'm nice lah. I gave ONE to Mr. Khoo to eat also xD Left early with the girls and headed down to town with HY and her friend. They went to PS though while I alighted at Orchard. Met up with Kenneth and his friend, DONG YANG :D

Whee, made a new friend plus one more new friend but I forgot his name ): Still, I made TWO new friends :D AND OMG, GUYS CAN REALLY SHOP LIKE WTH MAN. They walk and walk and walk and walk into sooooo many different shops. Gave critics to clothings which can take up to 15 minutes or more. Gosh, this is my first time shopping with guys who shops you know! They shopped all the way from Wisma to Taka to Herren to Vivo =.= And they bought their things only at Vivo. Zzz.

BUT BLAH. They are like $#%#$* RICH. DongYang was like willing to spend 100 bucks on just ONE pair of pants. And the other guy whose name I've forgotten, SPENT A FREAKING 300-400 bucks just on ONE black formal suit (costs 300 I think) and ONE TIE (costs close to 100 if I'm not wrong). I was like o.O omg. For DongYang I was already thinking with that 100bucks, I can buy at least 2-3 pairs of jeans plus maybe 1 or 2 tops? Then for the other friend, I can like spend on so much more stuff. Okay, but the suit's nice I gotta admit. It's so prettily stunning =x And Kenneth bought a shirt for I don't know how much and being cheapskate after that, he went to buy his beanie at DAISO for two bucks -.- But the beanie (or like he say, snow cap) is cute and comfy so yeah :D

Here are photos randomly taken in shops:/


colour looks so off but what the heck.




My dress code of the day : Sloppy with style :D

Took bus home with Dong Yang and Kenneth while his friend took another bus cause it was faster ): HEE, seeing the both of them sleep is damn funny. Don't have photos of Dong Yang sleeping but I have photos of KENNETH sleeping :D WAHAHAHA, please don't kill me!





Went home, changes and got ready for reunion dinner at grandma's place. Went over, eat, got a bit of accessories from my aunt cause she doesn't wear them anymore and SLEEP :D



THURSDAY

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!

Woke up not so early, changed and thank goodness I didn't wear my HIGH heels out today. First stop was gong gong's house. Ate mee sua then left for my aunty's place. All mum's side. Met my uncle and I feel kinda sad cause he's paralysed on his right side of the body ): Esp his right hand. Cause of the stupid stroke. Feeling damn sad after seeing him in this state but he's all jovial like usual which is good (: Saw my toddler niece also but I can't help but feel that she's going to grow up being a spoilt child. I don't wish that to happen cause she's really cute and lovely when she was younger and she'd sit on my lap and play non stop. But now everything is like mummy here mummy there. See strangers ignore and stuff. I know she's just a small kid but if she keeps depending on my cousin so much, she's really going to be spoilt :/

Third stop, to my grand uncle's house. Here's why thank goodness I never wear HIGH heels. I had to climb the stupid overhead bridge (TWICE!). Once when going to his house, and second time to get to the bus stop to go home. I'd just die you know. Ate a bit of snacks at my grand uncle's house. While half the time I have no idea what they are talking about because they are conversing in dialect -.- Like what my brother say, if they seem to be talking to you, just smile and nod your head.

After that, home sweet home :D Rest awhile till 5plus, then went to bathe and change and get ready for the BIG reunion dinner at my dad's side. Go to my grandma's house again.

And somehow, when we were waiting for a cab near my house, I think I saw Jason playing bball at the CC. Can't be sure if it's him but the body built, the way he runs and play bball really looks like him :/ Couldn't see the face but somehow, I'm quite positive it's him. Ah, never mind.

Went over, met my nieces, had dinner. AND MY DEAREST NIECE WAS BEING IDIOTIC -.-

(at the dinner table, I was sitting beside her)
HuiWen (my niece who is one year older than me): YI YI (short form for auntie in Chinese)! Can help me get the bee hoon? YI YI!
Me: (stares at her) So sweet hor? Call until so LOUD HOR! Get yourself.
HuiWen: YI YI DON'T LIKE THAT LAH.
Me: (glares at her and helps her take bee hoon)

My nieces all like that one lah. Know I hate being called Yi Yi but will still purposely shout it out loud especially in front of relatives cause I can't retaliate -.- Tskkk. No photos for the dinner though cause we forgot to cam whore :/ And omg lah. My aunties were all making me try out the cheong sum/qipao whichever it is. And now I've got two hanging in my wardrobe. One pink and one red. Plus my aunty says she has another new one which is black. If she can find it, she'll pass it to me -.- Gosh. They were like, go toilet try on be a model. Bo bian go toilet try. Try one liao then go try the other :/ So maluuuuu.

Random photos at my grandma's place. I super love my clutch. Aww.


Watching tv on my aunt's bed. Super retarded I know.



Can you spot my pretty pretty clutch I'm holding? :D

After dinner, went home. Rest awhile then went downstairs to meet Ah Chuan and Ah Xiong. It's been one whole year since I've seen Ah Xiong already and sad to say, he's still asking me to be his girlfriend. AHHHHHH! ): I was like =x don't know what to say. And stupid Ah Chuan still give Ah Xiong ideas on how to woo me even more lah. WTH. Accompanied them to wait for cab then went back home.



FRIDAY

TODAY WAS I DON'T KNOW DAY. Went out with parents to Tampines. OMG, the train ride was killer and my butt was so painful from all the sitting down. Had lunch at TM Pastamania before taking the shuttle service to IKEA. Whee, saw nice nice cabinets and drawers and MIRRORS! Gosh gosh, pretty stuff know? But one of my cabinet's OOS so I've gotta go back next next week to place order again ):

I haven't been picking up Ah Xiong's calls ): RAH, how how? He keeps asking me to go out with him. I don't mind going out with him but thing is, he'll hold my hand and stuff and keep pestering me to be his girlfriend and asking how long more he has to wait:/ Even though he knows I don't wanna get attached or anything ): OHMAN. HOW!



Before I say BYEBYE, here are photos of the pretty sunflower and rose that Sam and the 08 OGLS gave to me respectively on Talentime (:







And I totally love my handphone's camera (: It can take super nice effects like shown on the flowers. Photos are not edited :D
Time: 8:39 PM

I NEARLY DIED DURING TRAINING TODAY!!!!
Let's start from like Sunday.
I woke up pretty fine and all. My appetite came back and I was happy all the way till evening when my giddy spells kicked in, making me lose appetite and all ):

Didn't go to school yesterday cause dizzy spells were killing me. I kept sleeping and sleeping and had to force myself to go down and visit the doctor to get MC and some medicine. Then slept early again.

Today, I woke up with dizzy spells as usual but still went to get ready for school. It was pretty bad actually cause I couldn't really walk that straight and my head was just like, 'ehheh, what's going on ah?' that kind of feeling. Went to school and just felt like vomitting. Grogginess in my head remained the whole day up till now. Plus dizzy spells too.

Training nearly killed me by then. I was bowling and 1) I couldn't concentrate cause my brain is in a world of its own. 2) Who can walk and aim straight when having dizzy spells? 3) My co-ordination for my arms and legs are 'SUPERB' (sarcasm intended here).
Plus, I was feeling damn weak, I don't know why. After every throw I'd just collapse on the chair and wait for my next turn :/

But thank goodness I'm home now. I'm going to sleep really soon :D

I'm going out with MISTER KENNETH POHPOHPOH TOMORROW.
-and his supposedly nice friends :/ HAHA! -
To do some last minute new year shopping.
Nahahahhahahhahahahahahaha xD
I'm gonna make him pay. WOOHOO! xD
Time: 9:03 PM

My fever is fluctuating :/

Rah, last night was Talentime and even though we couldn't clinch first place, at least we got through the finals (: I love 'The Signatures'! We totally rock yo? And of course plus all the new friends we made and stuff, it's all worth the trouble. Our rushing out of school and cabbing to go jamming, get scolded by teachers for not being in school, well, nice memories (:

But last night was pretty bad also. At 6plus I had throbbing headache and when I have headache, it means that I'll have fever. So yeah, at 7plus, my fever came and I go oh so upset that I kinda cried :/ I don't know why but I just felt so horrible and I couldn't remember my chords when I was practicing. During the intermission (our turn was during the second half), Clement and Sam came over to see how I was. Plus WanTing. Thanks darlings (: They told me it'll be okay and I'll do fine. HuiYing also text me saying that it'll be alright and I'll be just fine. And thanks to Anh for taking the effort just to call me and wishing me luck even though he couldn't go and watch us perform. And of course, Malcom dear who text me and wish me luck even though he replied my sms-es super late -.-

So went to perform with stupid fever and after the whole thing ended, Clement and I shared a cab back home cause I couldn't even walk properly already. My head and ears were hurting so badly I kept swaying as I walked :/ Tian was already under my block when I reached home. Didn't tell my mum that I was having fever otherwise Tian won't be able to stay over. Today's the first day in a year plus (I think) that I get to see Tian again and I'm not going to miss it for anything. Poor girl got sad and cried (I feel guilty here for asking her about her break up) and I sat there comforting her. Rah, stupid guy hurting my poor Tian like that and it was her first relationship and she put a lot of effort in it. Even sacrificing me as a friend. Sheesh.

So she cried and we just talked (it was hard to make Tian open up) and we slept at around 1am. Woke up at 8am then woke her up too cause she needed to go work. Rah, it's sweet to spend time with my best of friends :D Yay! But my fever ain't sweet.

My temperatures were like 37.2, 38.0, 37.4, 37.2. No idea why it's fluctuating so much. And I never even eat medicine. All I know is that I've been sleeping all day and my mum thinks I'm lazy and not studying. Ohwells. I just now that when my temperature was 38.0, I went downstairs to eat lunch and I was like oh so not stable and nearly vomited after that -.-

Rah, all photos of yesterday are with Rachel. I'll get them from her soon.
And yes, thank you 08 OGLS for the pretty rose and Sam for the lovely sunflower (:
Time: 8:18 PM