OMG I'M SO SO TIRED ):

Let's see. Oh yes! Yesterday was totally killer day man. I had to go home with a bowling bag with TWO balls in it, the super heavy electric guitar and my I-don't-know-why-the-hell-it's-so-heavy school bag. Best part was that the train was pretty crowded (at 7plus?!) and every one in the train was staring at me like 'Why the hell is she carrying so much stuff?'. Damn malu ): That's when I thought of the time J**** would help me carry my stuff and blah blah. Okay, forget it.

AND TRAINING WAS SO SO LOUSY YESTERDAY. I've no idea why I've not been able to concentrate on trainings these days. I bowled so badly I nearly cried. Super disappointed in myself till I just feel like giving up ): Sigh, I need to buck up and get my form back. My form is like totally gone and I have no idea why! I keep forgetting the most basic stuff and BANG! my ball's in the gutter already.

The whole of last night was bad for me too. I couldn't sleep well and felt so super awake the whole night. Okay, I need to get my emotions settled down lah. If not I'm going to me an owl or something cause I was so so tired during lessons today I kept nodding off :/ Cannot cannot. Must wake up and study hard once and for all.

After school, rushed to go jamming and it was oh so hilarious. Especially on the bus trip back to school. Rehearsals were a disaster cause my guitar was out of tune and I totally gave up playing:/ Then somehow my pick dropped somewhere in the grass and it was night time with not much light and my pick was black... so yeah. Main idea is, I lost my pick ): EH, got sentimental value one lehhh!

Alright, once I get the videos of our jamming session from Cheryl, I'll post them up here:D
Tomorrow Tian's coming to have a sleep over at my house. I think. YAY! Shall finally see her tomorrow! LOOOOOVE :D


LOTS OF PEOPLE HAVE BEEN TELLING ME THAT MY BLOG IS VERY VULGAR AND EMO -.- HAHA! I KNOW THAT THANK YOU :D BUT THIS IS A SUPER NOT NICE PERIOD OF TIME FOR ME SO BEAR WITH IT.

Come to think of it, I never cursed and swear so much until I started hanging out with Adrian last year. Every day after school go over to his house then we'll start cursing and swearing at each other (he started it first) then learn all the bad stuff =X HAHA, never mind.

I'm a good lil girl. Trust me. HEH.
Time: 10:02 PM

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Disclaimer: I'm no racist but I'm just stating facts here. No offense to any races but what is written here is based on true experiences.

2 random weird numbers came sms-ing me on Monday and at first glance, I thought they were the same numbers only to realise later that they were two different numbers sms-ing me at the same time. Guess what? Both are Indians.

FIRST GUY

Him: Hi can I get to know you...

Me: you are?

Him: David..and wats your name..

Me: how did you get my number? self intro.

Him: One of my friend gave me your number some time back..i am 21 in the air force.. how about you..

Me: are you chinese?

Him: So you only talk to chinese ah..

Me: malays or chinese. no indians.

Him: Why is tat so..

Me: no reason. so if you're indian, sorry. bye.

Him: Tell me your name at least..


SECOND GUY

Him: Got yea contact. No idea who you are ? Who is this ?

Me: um, how did you get my contact in the first place? what race are you?

Him: I think we have met before somewhere.

Me: um, why don't you self intro? like age, race and stuff.

Him: Indian, (and I can't remember the rest of the sms)

Me: not interested. bye.

Him: what ever..



..........what the hell lah. Both sms me at the same time like what the hell? -.- I was so pissed. Grr.
And then it's like I kept asking who was it who gave you my number they refuse to say. If I find out that it's that bloody pedophile that gave it, he's so dead yo?

Anyway, training sucked today. Totally shit.
Okay, I'm on the phone with Clement. Blog tmr.
Byebye (:
Time: 10:26 PM

I still miss you at times, but I'm getting over you bit by bit.

Being single ain't that bad:/ (Mel says I'm attracting Indians. Wtf?) I need to get used to the feeling of not having a boyfriend and all. Bah. Last time after I broke up with Clement, I was single for like 9months? Before I got together with my ex boyfriend whom I just broke up with recently lah. Oh wells.

Anyway, the anon tagger on my private blog is pretty funny. Haha. Here's the conv on the tagboard.

I Am: You're not getting it that easy. In fact, I don't plan on ever giving away my identity, it's more fun this way. Plus, I get to say things honestly without the fear of backlash.

shujun.: zz, like i will backlash you like that -.-

I Am: Oh yes... I remember a Shujun who could backlash, not with cheap vulgarities, but with a thick book and lots of screaming (by the hapless victim). Besides, the truth hurts

Anonymous: She will rip your heart off. xD

Okay, that was sooooo random? It's crap but never mind. Haha. I just realised I haven't been revising lately. Bleh. Been occupied with stuff and thinking so much that I just don't have the mood to study.

Hmm, dance tomorrow night with Ting (: Band practice tomorrow too meaning I've gotta lug my guitar to school.

OH YES. Anyone wants to go watch NJ's talent time? It's on the 1st Feb (Jan) at 7pm. Tickets at 5 bucks each. Tell me if you wanna go alright? Yeah, I'm performing as an all girls band :D
Time: 7:15 PM

I'm so sleepy ): Slept at around 2am last night.
Yesterday was so so tiring. Mentally especially. YAWNS.
After school, rushed down to Westmall to order something. Then had lunch with mum and waited for Mel to end her physics lessons then we shopped at Westmall for like 2hours? =X

Both of us bought a new pair of sneakers plus a lot of other stuff. Gosh, My wallet was so empty after that lah. Then she came over to my house, had dinner and Ying came to my house also after work. Mel and I painted our shoes while Ying surfed the net.

BLAH, ying is going ngee ann poly and take up accountancy. JC life won't suit her anyway. Not like it suits me but what the heck AND ACCORDING TO HER, LUQMAN AND XINTIAN ARE MOST PROB GOING THERE ALSO! WTH! I'm wanna transfer out and go Ngee Ann Poly and take the same course as them lah. Shit mannnnn.

Ying left pretty early and Mel stayed till like 11plus before leaving. AND I ONLY SLEPT AT 2am -.- tired. Today, wake up, wait for Clement to book out from camp, go home, pack his stuff and left for Sentosa together. Pretty fun and all.

Just that halfway through or rather twice, Clement PMS-ed and for don't know what reasons got angry over a trival matter and showed me attitude. And I'm the kind of person that if you show me attitude, I'll get pissed off and show you attitude too. So that was what happened and Clement didn't get it easy when I had to have lunch WITHOUT my OG.

After lunch, I met up with my OG again and OMG, mark and I can get so retarded together. Our ball games are simple the best man! Haha, and yeah, my phone was the entertainment cause everyone wanted to read what the pedophile sent me.

TODAY HE SENT A TOTAL OF THREE SMS-ES CURSING AND SWEARING.

SMS NUMBER 1:

You could have told me if you aint interested...i would have stopped smsing you rite away...you didn have to ask your stupid girlie boyfriend who only knows how to shout in the phone...scoldin my mum..to call me...anyway you aint a miss universe for me to go down on my knees...you just a shit eating pig..who eats a pig..you wouldn even know how to wash your ass after you shit..only use tissue..get lost..i am a man..not like your boyfriend....

IF I WERE TO REPLY HIM, IT'LL BE THIS:

Are you a bloody retard or are you a fucking bloody retard? Anyone who isn't a retard will know that if someone doesn't talk to you nor reply your sms-es means that he/she ain't interested. But unfortunately for you sucker, you can't accept that fact and still cling on to me like a dick needing some real fuck. Gosh, you're hopeless. Yeah, I'll give you some real fuck. Go stick your dick into a bottle let fuck it. You'd stop sms-ing me right away? BULLSHIT YO? If that happened, then why the ruddy hell are you still contacting me? IDIOT. About my girlie boyfriend, I don't think Ah Chuan's girlie. A girlie guy won't go cursing at you. A GIRLIE GUY WOULD GET SCARED AND HANG UP THE PHONE, REFUSE TO PICK UP AND SWITCH OFF HIS HANDPHONE. That's you of course. Yes I ain't miss universe. If i was, I'd sue you for harassment a long time ago. And that's when you need to go down on your knees to beg me not to press charges against you. Come on lah, make up your mind. Am I a shit-eating pig or a pig-eating pig? Don't be so fickle know? And have you ever washed your own ass in a public toilet. I bet you do lah, with the toilet bowl water right? Stick your hand in after you shit and using that water to wash your butt. In that case, I'd rather be oblivious to how to wash my ass when using a public toilet and use tissue instead. I get lost? Who's the one who's sms-ing me now fucker? You a man? OMG, joke of the year. If you're a man, I'm in hell. You're just a bloody despo pedophile Indian guy who is a disgrace to your own kind. Just go be gay seriously. Not being racist here but go suck your own dick and wank yourself. I think my 'boyfriend' is much more cooler than you.

SMS NUMBER 2:

Dun bother callin me or sendin any sms....i wont read it..i aint got no time for a nonsense like you or your boyfriend k..buzz off

MY REPLY WOULD BE:

1) I call you? OVER MY DEAD BODY.
2) I sms you? I'M NOT GOING TO BLOODY WASTE MY SMS-ES ON YOU.
3) You won't read it? I'M NOT EVEN GOING TO SEND YOU ANY TO BEGIN WITH.
4) You aint got no time for a nonsense like me or my boyfriend? KINDLY EXPLAIN THE PERIOD OF TIME WHEN YOU PESTERED ME EVERY FUCKING DAY.
5) Buzz off? WHO'S THE ONE SMS-ING ME NOW? GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT IDIOT.

SMS NUMBER 3:

Ask your boyfriend not to disturb me anymore...I wont disturb you also..If you had told me yourself..I wouldn have...so sorry for the inconvenience

MY REPLY:

You just cursed me and you expect my 'boyfriend' to leave it alone? HAHA, wait till I tell Ah Chuan about it. Ohmy, he's going to hunt you down and whack you so hard you'd never have father's day. You won't disturb me? I'm sure. If I could trust what you said, you won't come sms-ing me this year to see if I'm still attached. TELL YOU? YES I BLOODY WELL DID BUT YOU FEIGN IGNORANCE ASSHOLE. and fuck you chao chee bye mother fucker son of a bitch gay bastard sucking his own balls cause he's no fuck to fuck and your life is just a miserable pile of shit. you fucking scold me in all the sms-es and end it off with a 'sorry for the inconvenience' _|_ man. You're like so dead lah. I'm like really tempted to hunt you down with Ah Chuan and give you a hell's beating till the daylights are beaten out of you and see if you will remember never to mess with girls so young you disgusting pedophile. I will SCREAM CURSES AND SWEAR WORDS RIGHT INTO YOUR EAR YOU'LL NEVER FORGET THEM.


Okay, I know it's pretty vulgar here but can't help it lah. I'm really damn tempted to reply him this but no point wasting my sms-es on such a no life dick head with no balls pedophile.

Back to today, I went to have dinner with Clement's army friends and I don't think I wanna go liao lah. It's no fun. All of them are likeeeee. Only Yi Jie was nice enough to talk to me and all :D Other than that it's like..... EVEN SWEE YEE NEVER TALKED TO ME LAH. Grr.

Okay, I'm tired. Photos and I'm off.


MY BANGS ARE GETTING LONGER! A bit more and I'll snip back to my old hairstyle :D


EMO PIC:D


On the bus to Sentosa.


We needed to digest our steamboat dinner.




Time: 11:08 PM

Oh hello, I'm getting pretty few anonymous tags on my private blog but never mind.
THERE ARE LIKE SO MANY WEIRD THINGS HAPPENING NOW THAT IT'S MAKING MY LIFE INTERESTING.

Here's the part I really wanna talk about.
THE CASE OF THE FUCKING PEDOPHILE REOPENED!

BACKGROUND HISTORY

Around last year (or maybe last last year), this Indian guy randomly sms-ed to my number. Like really damn random. So I thought it was some friends playing pranks on me, so I just replied. Till that person called me. It was an Indian (I'm not a racist here) and he's bloody twice my age (if I don't remember wrongly). Then from then on, he kept using words like 'Sweetie', 'darling', 'i love you', 'i miss you', etc. AND I DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING! So things went like that, countless of calls from him everyday (and fuck, his number is private and XinTian's number was also private so sometimes, I'd accidentally pick up) and countless of sms-es.

Until one guy (I can't remember who) sms-ed/called him and told him to go away and I was his gf. That helped only that bastard pedophile was a sore loser and text me vulgarities and all. He really pushed me to the limit of making a police report for harassment. Then after like more than half a year, he stopped.

So all was well and I stopped being paranoid and all.

UNTIL YESTERDAY! Omg, this foreign number sms-ed me and it went like this.

Weird person (WP): Have you eaten?
Me: Uh, who are you?
WP: I'm Steve. We haven't talked for a really long time.
Me: I'm sorry, I don't know any Steve. You got the wrong person.
WP: No, I knew you since last year. Are you attached now?
Me: I don't know any Steve. And why should I tell you if I'm attached?
WP: We stopped talking after your boyfriend called me. So are you attached now?
Me: Okay, then tell me when was the last time we talked and who was my boyfriend at that time?
WP: How I know? You never told me. Can I call you?
Me: K.

[SO HE CALLED.]

Me: So who are you?
Him: I'm Steve. How are you?
(At this point of time, I felt his voice was damn familiar but still can't figure out who)
Me: I don't know any Steve.
Him: We talked last year remember?
(I RECOGNISED HIS VOICE AND I WAS CURSING SILENTLY)
Me: Wait, are you Chinese?
Him: No, I'm Indian. Do you mind Indians.
Me: (curses and swears) Nooo. Uh, I'm busy now.
Him: Aww, come on. Don't like that. We just talked.
Me: I'm busy now. Talk next time.
Him: -keeps refusing to hang up until finally...- Okay, bye.

Then I was hopping mad in my room and cursing and sending swear words all over. OMG. NO WONDER HIS VOICE SOUNDED SO BLOODY FAMILIAR. AND GUESS WHAT? ONE YEAR AGO, THE NAME HE TOLD ME WAS BLOODY WELL NOT STEVE! STEVE MY ASS LAH. YOU STEVE THEN I CHIO BU LAH. fuck.

He sms-ed after we hung up but I never replied and this morning, he sms-ed 'good morning darling.' I'M LIKE WHAT THE HELL! FUCK MAN! He sms-ed me again in the afternoon and I got damn pissed. I told Ah Chuan about it and he was like, when I meet you, I use your phone and call him. Wanna know what happened? Read in the later part of this post :D

Today was really killer mind day. Don't like Thursdays. Very strenuous on the mind. Too many information. Nothing much happened in school but yes, O level results are out! Congrats to Ying for getting 10 points (: I'm so proud of you darling! And all the rest who did well also :D

I got my Higher Chinese results also! C6! Haha, eh come on lah. At least I passed -applause-
I told Ying and she was like, 'walau, you didn't even study for the paper and you get C6. Then if you study for Chinese how? HAHAHAHAHAH!' I also don't know how. Maybe A1? :D

Stayed in school to study till 6plus. Cause Ying didn't wanna go out so I just rot away lor. Then went home, bathed and went to meet Ah Chuan for dinner. Stupid pig was such an idiot. Had dinner then sat at some void deck with the lights spoilt and it was pretty dark. And sat there to smoke -.- HAHA it was damn crap lah. I just sat there on the tables like some ah lian waiting for him to finish smoking while he kept disturbing me. Zzz. Then walked with him all the way to BBDC for him to go for his motorbike lesson. TOOK ME FREAKING 15 MINS TO WALK HOME LAH -.-

Oh yeah, here's the part when Ah Chuan called the pedophile.

-Ah Chuan took my phone and called him-

Ah Chuan: EH BANGALA YOU KNN CCB DISTURB MY GIRLFRIEND FOR WHAT? EVERYDAY CALL HER FUCK YOU LAH YOU CB THINK.....-the pedophile hung up-

Ah Chuan: KNN, kap my dian hua (phone). FUCKING COWARD LJ LAH. -calls again-

-pedophile kap again-
-calls again-
-pedophile switched off his hp already-

It was damn hilarious lah seriously. Let's just hope that the pedophile don't come disturbing me again. ESPECIALLY LIKE ONE YEAR LATER. Fuck man, seriously lah, go find someone your own bloody age asshole.

Oh, then I was on the way home after Ah Chuan went for his driving. Then this Indian guy came up to talk to me. I was thinking, WTF, how sway can I be?

Indian guy (IG): Uh, you look very familiar. Do you know someone called Mrs Lim?
Me: Huh?
IG: -repeats again-
Me: -misheard as ms lim- Is she a teacher?
IG: -hesitates- uh, yeah.
Me: what did you say the name was again?
IG: -mumbles something inaudible-
Me: Can you repeat?
IG: Mrs Lim.
Me: Oh I don't know her.
IG: Oh, really? Are you still studying? Does she still teach you?
Me: Yeah, studying. I told you I don't know her.
IG: Oh, where are you studying now? Which school?
Me: -glares at him- JC.
IG: Oh, Jc, not bad. What's your name?
Me: -stops walking and stares at him- I'm not going to tell you that. -walks away-
IG: What did you say?
Me: I'm not comfortable with telling you that. Byebye.

OMFG LAH! He's like some Indian uncle who's like 30plus of something and hello, please be ashamed for trying to hit on someone younger than you by half your life. I'm seriously not being a racist here but wth seriously. If it was a Chinese uncle, I'd feel equally disguisted. I'm so going to scold Ah Chuan after he finish riding his motor. SEE LAH, LET ME WALK HOME ALONE AND THIS HAPPENED! Sheesh.

OKAY AND FOR THOSE WHO DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO LEAVE TAGS ON THIS BLOG RIGHT, LOOK AT THE TOP OF THIS PAGE. THERE SAYS THIS LINK 'CLICK HERE TO COMMENT/CHAT'. That's the place where you type. Yeah. I don't like tagboards cause they don't keep messages in the past ):

And yup, photos :D


Ting and I can get so retarded sometimes (:


Yo! Don't we look so cool with long ties?


Short ties are cute :D Thanks to Ting Soon and Ying Lun for the ties :D
Time: 8:11 PM

Hello(: I'm feeling a tad better.
Went to school emo emo. Morning emo emo.
Then things got slightly better.

Aiyah, fine fine, I get the point. I'm still not THAT cheery okay?
My ex boyfriend's operation is next week. Well well.
What's my reaction suppose to be? Never mind.
ANYWAY ARTHI'S BETTER GET IN FOR TALENT TIME SO I CAN PLAY FOR HER (:

Today they went for auditions with only piano and singer. If she gets in, we're going in as a band:D
Ahhh, whatever.

Okay, I'm in this really lousy mood where I don't know what I should be feeling. Oh yes, one VERY IMPORTANT ISSUE.

HELLO PEOPLE! I AM NOT ATTACHED!
I've no idea why YingLun thinks I'm attached-.-
Not only he thinks so lah, a lot of others also. Zz.

It's kinda pretty obvious I'm not attached lah.
1) As compared to other years, I don't sms as much already and I pay attention in class.
2) I stay back in school till pretty late to study then go home straight.
3) No more late night talks for me.
4) I don't go scribbling and doodling my boyfriend's name all over my papers anymore -.-
5) I make no effort in looking neat. (HAHAH! I never do but heck)
6) If I'm attached, I won't be emo nearly every other day.

SO THERE, MORAL OF THE STORY, I'm not attached!


Oh yeah, I've updated my private blog.
darkestmemories.
If you want the password, get it from me.
Time: 9:55 PM

/I miss the smell of your shirt and I miss the warmth of your hugs.

I've no idea why but I've been missing my ex boyfriend again. Sheesh. I feel sad every time I think about him and I'll just cry): It's hard lah, especially when I know he ran away from home and is staying at his friend's house (that's what he claims but apparently he told ying that he was staying at his grandma's house), when I know he's going to have his operation soon and I just wanna be by his side and stuff. RAH. Okay, I'm getting emo now. I just wanna talk to him, somehow. His shirts... his smell is gone and I used to be damn addicted to the fresh smell of his clothes. Sigh.

So yea, my night wasn't great. I kept thinking about him and all. Woke up and the first thing I thought was him. Weird lah. I must be in my emo stage now. And wth lah. When I was in the lift, there was this super hot and good looking guy who lived on the floor right below mine and he walked in and I was like -stares. I never knew he existed. Best part lah, his clothes had the same (detergent) smell as my ex boyfriend's clothes and I was like WHAT THE.... Eh, don't get the wrong idea lah. I wasn't sniffing that guy. Just that I was pretty near him and the smell was pretty strong. Felt damn sad after I smelt it lah :/ Nostalgic.

Ahhh, shit. I'm crying again.

Okay, school was pretty alright. PE was fun. Lessons pretty boring but I managed to scrap through them. Pon double Chinese and the teacher wasn't happy with me. Sms-ed me and warned me saying I gotta go for Chinese the next lesson. Stupid. Waste time seriously. I go there and do math. Some kind of Chinese lesson huh?

To Hwee: Rah, I don't know what's going on. Been sms-ing you for nearly 2 weeks and you never replied. Called you and you never picked up. I don't know lah. You've never ignored me for this long before. I really don't know what's wrong? I have a feeling you still read my blog and if you do, at least tell me what's wrong before you ignore me ):

I'm pretty sick of so many emotional turmoils. Been trying to distract myself by studying, studying and studying. It's working. But I'm really really tired, deep inside. I need to put on a smile every day and go to school, when all I really want is to cry out loud and just hope for some miracle that he'll return to my side.

Miracle? Bullshit man. This is no fairytale.
Time to face reality.
Time to put on this smile and face the world.
Hello, I'm happy (:
Time: 9:00 PM

Mum's being an ass. Just cause the screen of my laptop wasn't down this morning, she claimed that I woke up in the middle of the night to use it. Serious fuck. Like hell yeah I woke up in the middle of the night but that was cause my bladder was full so I needed to visit MR TOILET. Zzz.

I'm feeling loads loads better today. Maybe because there is no school and there's like nothing that can affect me (: Okay, I wanna meet up with DENISE DANIELLE LEE YING JIA soon. And of course my dearest Ying, which will be pretty hard cause she's working every day ):

I've got PE on monday and tuesday. HMM. and double chinese too. Gosh, monday sucks. I wanna pon Chinese lessons on Monday. Waste time like fuck. Only like 5 (i think) higher chinese people are attending NORMAL chinese lessons? While the rest don't have to? Asked my teachers why and they put it nicely like, if you're not satisfied with your O levels higher chinese results, you can take H1 chinese or you can just quit. EH, TO PUT IT HORRIBLY, YOU ALL ALREADY EXPECT US TO FAIL OUR HIGHER CHINESE LAH.

That's one reason why I hate teachers. They don't encourage you, instead, they make you feel hell worse about yourself. I know my Chinese ain't good and stuff lah but at least I know I'm not bad until I will fail O levels. If I do fail, then fine, I'll take H1 chinese AFTER the results are out. Not bloody well before they are even out! I'm just really pissed that I've gotta go for Chinese and waste time there.

Today was waste a lot of time day. Did not do much studying. Clement bought breakfast over then we headed down to JE library to study. Only managed to finish the GP ws, P&C tutorials and assignment and Econs assignment 3. Still got loads I haven't done ):

Had lunch and for once in a thousand million years, I had Jap food. Then headed back to library and wanted to borrow my History SEA text only to realise it can't be loaned out -.- So just borrowed some random poem book for lit and the study guide to my lit text.

OHYES OHYES! I bought a new pair of shoeeees :D Okay, I think it's pretty. HEE. Nevermind.
Mum bought me my lit text, lit poem book, math textbook, econs book and I don't know what else. I've got LOADS of readings to do. Okay, I'm off to mug. Midnight mugging on Saturday nights :D I'm dreading MONDAYS. Double chinese and PE at a freaking 2.50PM!

AH HWEEEEEE! walau, whole week never reply my sms. CALL ME WHEN YOU SEE THIS KAY! I miss talking to you lah pighead (:

Oh yeah, photos :D

Apparently 08A02 wanted to climb this during the quest -.- It's freaking high mind you.


SHI HAO'S FORFEIT! :D:D:D:D:D:D


SHUSHU BIRD ON THE BUS! (:


The car model we needed to create for the Science competition. Rach and I gave up and decided to decorate and make it look pretty instead :D


and of course we got bored...


..till we could kill.


the whole team.






Remind me to bring 2 jackets to the library next time.


Cause if I don't, I always have to give up my jacket to Clement cause I can withstand cold conditions better than him.
Time: 11:38 PM

hello J1s, can you all stop going to school so damn early in the morning and taking away our round tables? sheesh.

School was way not good and every one around me (except some people) are having hell too. Ying's being really upset over stuff till she cried. [FYI, Ying is NOT yinglun for heaven's sake.] Malcom is having trouble with his poly final year exams and his gf and blah blah. I'm having a horrible day also but I'm just gonna shut up about it.

Few kind of people I can't stand:
-LIARS!
-Backstabbers.
-Hypocrites
-People who are so damn 'fake'
-Assholes.

Those who I confide to should know what I mean lah. Zz.
I'm brain dead. Never mugged so much before.
And I still can't catch up. I feel especially inferior to the rest during literature.
All the cheem cheem vocab. Gosh.

Yes, I'm still lazy to upload the photos in my phone. Another reason also being I can't find the cable. So sleepy. Clement's coming over tomorrow. I hope. We argued over stupid stuff again till he cried for God knows what reason and I'm so pissed.

Someone's hiding something from me and I know it.
Someone's being a bitch and I know it.
Someone's being a total asshole and I know it.
But I'm just gonna keep quiet.

I miss these people. Help!
Dearest gong gong - YongYi
Cute pixie - Alex
NY good friends - Lynette, Jiayi and Mindy
Bestf - Ying
Darling kors - Yong Qiang, Yan Shun
Brothers since I don't know when - Monster RuiChao
AHPEK - CheeKian
and I don't know who else.

I wanna meet gong gong and pixie soon though! It's been like ages since I last saw them and I miss them oh so very much. Especially gong gong (:

Aw Fuck, mum being a bloody bitch now.

Can someone just like put some bloody common sense into her that I fucking don't have to go to school tomorrow and that I need to stay up to write my essays. FUCK seriously.
How the hell you expect me to even finish up 6 short essays and 5 summaries and other homework if I bloody well have to sleep at 11pm every night? INCLUDING WEEKENDS _|_
Time: 11:34 PM

I can't stop thinking about the past.
Remember....

1) We played basketball in the rain and you stole kisses from me every time you got a shot in?
2) We kept walking from HDB to HDB trying to find a place to sleep before you played rugby?
3) You surprised me by waiting for me to go home from town at the MRT station?
4) You'd call me using your handphone and we will talk for hours and you wouldn't complain about your bills?
5) You coming to find me late at night just to talk and walk no matter how tired you were?
6) I'd cry in front of you and you'll just hug me like there's no tomorrow telling me every thing will be okay?
7) Your mum scolding you for drinking again when I left those alcohol bottles in your room?
8) You always said 'Baaaaabyyyyyyyy, howwwwwwwww...' and stare at me looking pitiful whenever she called/text you?
9) You always refused to put down the phone and kept saying 'I love you' non stop till I said 'I love you too' ?
10) When you tried to suffocate me under your mountain of pillows and I'd throw them back at you one by one?

Ahh, shit. I'm gonna cry. I miss him yet there's nothing I can do about it already. I miss the times we had together but right from the start, I knew we wouldn't last. Then people asked, if you knew you two wouldn't last, why bother be together in the first place? Simple. Cause I loved him. Okay, I need to tell myself, 'SHUJUN SHUT UP!'

I think I'm turning to full-time mugger le. Went to school early with Mel and mugged. Then had lessons and all. Damn crap and damn brain torturing.

-History Lecture
-Lit Lecture
-Lit tutorials
-Econs tutorials
-History tutorials

Should have Econs Lecture and the list would have been complete -.- After school, mugged. Till drama auditions for SYF. After auditions, mugged. Then went home and mugged some more.
Ah, sheesh. Back to studying now.

I know my posts are boring. CAN'T HELP IT LAH. NOT WHEN I'M NOT ALLOWED TO GO OUT AT ALL. Rah. Oh yeah, Clement came over last night :D

YAY! Taught me math and had dinner with me. It's loooooooove..... of friends :D Haha, if Clement and I were still together, it's going to be out 2 years 1 month soon! Okay, nevermind.

STUDIES :D I need to pia these 2 years. It's not gonna be simple.
Time: 7:38 PM

Last night was hell for me. Serious hell.
So much that I took out my penknive and wanted to slash something but pity it was blunt.
Time to buy a new penknive. Zz. This time it was really out of control.
Fucked up place I'm in.

Hello, since it's your bloody house, then I'm not invited to live in here right? I can always move out to my friend's house. Money wise? No problem yo? I've got working friends who can support me lah. If every one of my working friends give me 10 bucks per week, I'd get even more than my miserable pocket money now. And don't be ridiculous. I'm not in the wrong and I'm not saying sorry.

Wanna threaten to beat me up? Go ahead and beat lah, I'll just call police and press charges against you for family abuse. I don't really care. You no longer have my respect. I'm violent? Look at the kind of father I have first lah okay?

WHICH MOTHERFUCKER CAME INTO MY ROOM AND STARTED SHOUTING AT ME FIRST? Don't come and give me the crap about who's elder. You want me to respect you? EARN IT.

Note: First time I've EVER used the word motherfucker in my blog. This is seriously how bad things are.

Morning ain't better with this deprived woman suffering from menopause banging into my room at fucking 5.45am and shouting and scolding me just cause my door was locked? Bloody hell. You don't get to have sex or what shit don't come let it out on me lah. Like seriously, I'm still sleeping and all I get is you screaming and scolding for something so minor like locking the door _|_

Went to school with puffy and swollen eyes. Bad mood. And what the hell? I have to go for Chinese with the people who never take higher Chinese. EH WTF LAH. Results not yet out and you're condemning me to fail my HCL and I need to take H1 Chinese? THANKS FOR THE SUPPORT LAH. I'm like sooooo grateful.

Guess the only thing that cheered me up today was the Science competition after school. It was so damn crap and all. But I had fun, somehow. Only thing is that I missed training today): Sian.

Oh yes, bestf, cheer up. Even though I'm not in science stream, I'm still in the same school right. And it's not like there's no such thing called a handphone. Just call me if you're upset and stuff, I'll pon my lessons to be with you. No worries(:
I'm so tired. Going to do my homework now then revise before sleeping.

Apparently I've got jamming tomorrow. Helping LeeJing for her item in Friday's performance. Being a guitarist? Like hell long since I touched a guitar. Damn.

Photos up tomorrow or something.
G'night.
Time: 10:01 PM

zero sum game. one gains while the other loses.

OMG LAH, IT'S BEEN SO FREAKING LONG SINCE I RAN NON STOP FOR MORE THAN 20MINS. I know it's no big deal lah but ever since I quit bball, I'm always too lazy to run for more than 10mins -.- Okay lah, I wanted to give up towards the end but I still kept on going.

THE BEST PART! I haven't ran since like damn damn long. The most just 800m and I stop. AND TODAY I RAN FREAKING LONG AND I DIDN'T FEEL THAT TIRED :D WHEEEEE! My pace today was perfect man! Okayokay. Funny part.

I got lost.

Yeah, I came home, put my stuff, went to run, and got lost cause I made a wrong turn somehow.
Walau, it was freaking dark lah and by the time I realised, I was like shit! where am i? :/ Still managed to run home. But I took a long de-tour -.-

Today was bad mood day number two. I remember telling myself not to wake up on the wrong side of bed (my bed has been shifted so now I've got two sides I can get down from. Last time one side was against the wall). AND I STILL HAD A BAD DAY. I'm going to get off from the other side tomorrow morning. Went to school, get scolded first thing in the morning just cause yesterday I was caught playing cards in the canteen and that teacher who caught me recognised me and blahblah.

Bad mood number 1: Getting scolded.
Bad mood number 2: My timetable SUCKS.
Bad mood number 3: PE is on Mon and Tue 2.50pm. The sun is going to be oh-so-not-bright.
Bad mood number 4: I over-strained my right arm muscle again for the 2413532235th time.
Bad mood number 5: I'm missing training tomorrow for the Science competition #%#$%.
Bad mood number 6: Ying's emo and I don't know how to cheer her up.
and the list goes on lah...

School had only one lesson. Math. End of school. Perfect day eh? Stayed in school to play tennis, had lunch, went over to JE with shu shu bird to find my OG. Came back to school. Played tennis. Mugged Math and History till 7pm. Went home, put bag, went to run.

Sucks lah. I can't play tennis tomorrow and maybe on Thursday also. My arm muscle is seriously strained now. I can hold a pen and it'll shake like mad. Sigh.

Sometimes I wonder why can't I make up my mind. To go for it, stay where I am or let it go? Sheesh, this sucks. HELLO SOMEONE HELP ME? Okay nevermind. I'm ranting. I'm going to check out dance classes now. Byebye.
Time: 8:32 PM

I'm so so so so bored ): The whole weekend was spent at home with nothing to so except to pack my room and fill in my new wardrobe :D Yes I've got a new wardrobe and it' pretttttyyyyy (:

But it's super huge and daddy was saying, 'You want to change with korkor or not? You take his old one and he takes this one.' AND I WAS LIKE HELL NO! Now all my furniture except my study desk has been moved about. My room is so bloody squeezed that I doubt I'll be able to do much gymnastics stretches in it anymore ): But still, I like my new wardrobe :D

And to Ah Chuan. Eh sorry kor I never pick up ur call. Heh, I guessed all the private numbers were from you but sorry lah. I know I promised I'll go drinking with you this weekend but I'm damn bloody tired so I've been sleeping and sleeping. Soon lah k? We'll go drinking together. But hor, you now got your ai ai then not so good lah :/ HAHA.

And to Hwee, WALAU. why you go offline so fast! Eh, and you cheat me lah. Say will call me during weekends also never call lor. Lousy pighead :D


Okay, I'm still need to pack my room. It's in a total mess. Grr. And hello, I'm missing someone right now :D (pokes Mel) Eh, I'm thinking hard about him, it's hard work you know :D
Anyway, a few more photos.


Playing bridge :D


My OG :D


Mel and I after performance.


Hello dance partner.


MY FAV POSE :D
Time: 6:49 PM

Orientation is overrrrrrrrrr! Now the main word is STUDY -.-

Let's see. Thursday we just had normal stuff with mass dance and everything. After orientation, we went out for dinner together as a whole OG and played pool. EHHEH, I think my pool skills are getting better but what the heck. Nevermind. Some things cropped up and adding all of them together made me so mooooooody ): In the end I left early to meet Ying who was super sweet and walked me home even though she was so tired after work. Thank you! And yes, to jeremy also for talking to me online and trying to get my in a hyped up mood for the last day of orientation :D Well. we'll meet up soon and tell each other stories (:

Yesterday was spent completely with my OG except during the dance party when I went 'exploring' the school with my class people. DJ sucked, songs sucked and it was almost like clubbing. Zzz. Ohwells, by the time OGLS got dismissed and everything, it was already close to 11.15pm -.- Walked home from Westmall and reached home past midnight. Yawns.

I'm dead beat. I've got two parties later :/ Sam's and HL's. Sorry Sam I'm not going especially when it's your special day. So so sorry. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANYWAY LOVE (:

To KM aka Froggy: Rah, I appreciated you being there for me when I broke up and also thank you for lending me your shoulders when I cried. But somehow, I don't like you and you're just like a big brother to me. Please don't call me like 5-10 times everyday cause it's really getting pretty irritating. Plus your continuous flow of sms-es. I know you care and stuff but like I said, I don't like you as a boyfriend or anything so please don't get the wrong idea.

Mm, Jason wanted me to cab over to his friend's house to find him now. Like I'm so free and hello like fuck, you're bored then you come find me, other than that you practically ignore me. Hey, I'm no entertainer yo? Gosh, I'm so sleepy and tired. Time to change to study mode.

Anyway, photos of orientation will only come much much later. I've only got 4 now.

For the walk in performances and dances.








Contemp dancers and their partners.
(from left: Zi Zhao and I, Nora and Samuel, Mel and Clem, Tisha and Leung Yan, Valerie and Marcus)
Time: 3:26 PM

/Hello, I love you (:

T.I.R.E.D.
Tuesday was station games and being the only OGL with my OG was.... I DON'T KNOW. It's fun cause I made them all wet, WITH COLD WATER COOLER'S WATER plus smeared flour on the guys' faces, and sprinkled flour on the girls' hair. Not that my OG was exactly nice cause they sabo-ed such an innocent OGL like me xD Haha. They took their revenge after one of their water games and it was like I was chased around with a bucket of water (poor shawn/shaun/sean) slipped and fell so the bucket of water spilt then Ting Soon ran after me with the super soaker. AND JEREMY AND BENJAMIN BEING SUCH NICE FRIENDS HELD ME HOSTAGE FOR HIM TO SPRAY AT ME -.-

And my OG ain't innocent lah. After running about, they called me to hurry up and give them the next clue to the next station so I rushed back.... only to get bombarded with LOADS of water from my dearest OG. I could squeeze water out of my socks even o.O But still it was fun (:

After orientation, rushed home, packed my clothes and went for OG dinner. Had no mood to interact with the rest (a few people know why) then went home with Sam. Didn't stay over at S's place cause apparently he did magic and wasn't at home. So slept over at Sam's house instead.

Slept at 2am, woke up at 4am z_Z Damn shit lor. Was brain dead, don't know what dead and just stoned. Freaking sleepy. Follwed OG 24 for Quest (something like treasure hunt) AND BOY WAS I TIRED. Haha, the OG always chose some weird weird ulu ulu places to walk and the routes they choose are miraculously LOOOONG! Gosh, so tiring lah. I know I was damn sian diao the whole journey. Can't help it. Super tired and (emo?) I don't know. HAHA.

It rained when we were at Newton and I had fun splashing Leung Yan with puddles of water :D
Ohwells, I don't know. I'm tired. At least tmr not so hectic but I'll be going out till late night again): Sigh. I'm feeling soooooo......


NEVERMIND.
And hello, people owe me dates since I don't know when.
-Faiz
-Luqman
-Bobin
-Ying
-Shirley
-Mindy
-JiaYi
-Rachel
-Jer
-Shawn
-Tide
-Clem
-Lynette
-Grace Ong
-Valerie Chew
and many more... Yawns, sleepy.

Anyway, about love life, I've decided to let things go the way they should be. No point harping over the loss of someone cause things won't be the same again. Yup, learning how to look forward and move on :D There are so many guys out there lah, haha, why limit myself to one guy who doesn't even appreciate my existence? Tsk.
Time: 8:50 PM

I just went to bathe twice just -.- What the hell.
Really really tired today.
Woke up at freaking 5am, bathed, got changed to school uni, and put on make up.
No I don't wear make up to school. Just that we have the walk in performance for orientation today.
Went to school, nearly got caught by Sharon,P but this time Melissa tio. Stoned and help people put on blusher, eyeliner, eye shadow and their glitter. The glitter was so freaking small that I got irritated and told the girls to put in on themselves cause if I were to them individually, it'll be daybreak the next day.

Walk in was great, somehow. I don't know? Well well, I like my OG though :D OG14 :D:D:D:D
Okay, never mind. Anyway, mass dance was scaaaary.
ZZ and I were dancing on the platform when we decided to get high and jump about to the beat.
AND OMG THE WHOLE PLATFORM MOVED AND WE WERE LIKE WAAAAAAH~!

Damn scary and after that, we decided not to be high already ): Anyway, sorry Shirley that I coulnd't play tennis with you. Well, one main reason is because I need to go see doctor (which unfortunately I haven't done so) and another is I sprained my ankle (I don't know how) so yeah :D Gosh, I wanna play tennis so badly!

Well, I'm staying over at S's place tomorrow so should I bring my tennis racket? If I bring, I have to lug it about for the Quest. Bleh. PLUS, pray that I won't get hangover at S's house. We're going to drink and talk through the night I suppose. And out of the blue, I owe Ah Chuan a drinking session and going out together and a dinner. I don't know how that came about. RAH. Okay, I'm going to meet Jason now to get back my Pe shirt. Ta ta.
Time: 8:36 PM

Fuck it. I've got nothing to say already.

You played around, I had enough.
You even played till this extent.
It's been a long time since I sms-ed any guy for being a bastard or scolding anyone fuck you.
Be glad you're the first in a long long time.

If I ever see you, I'm giving you one tight slap.
That's just a little bit of what you deserve.
Never expected you to be like this, well maybe I'm stupid.
Seriously you're a damn bloody asshole.

JASON CHUA CHUNG SIANG. Here I am putting your full name.
I hate smokers and I hate people who club.
But one thing I hate most are liars.
You even asked your friend to lie for you. How much more can you get?
_|_




Had to go school for rehearsals. All the sad stuff happened when I was at froggy's house. Forced the truth out of Froggy about Jason and all. Then for the first time in my whole entire life, I cried in front of a guy who isn't my boyfriend not once, but I broke down at least 4-5 times. Poor Froggy didn't know what to do to cheer me up except to just see my cry and cry and provide tissue.

But he was nice and paid for all my cab fares and also treated me to dinner which included quite a lot of food and was my punching bag for the day. Even though it was damn painful cause I was so upset I really whacked damn hard. But still, thanks (:
Time: 8:56 PM

/I miss the smell of your shirts cause I've been wearing them to sleep every night.

Okay, today I'm not in my best of moods as usual. Each day is getting more screwed as it passes and I lost my OGL booklet today. Grr. Good thing was I finally got Jer's tennis racket after like how many months of asking and him forgetting to bring it to school -.-

Today was boring, I just sat there and play PSP the whole day :/ Till my PSP ran out of batt. Rah. CCA carnival was okay bah I guess. Just super stone and emo. Tomorrow at least I'm playing tennis with my tennis partner so I guess that'll cheer things up a little.

I wanna meet Jason and get back my P.E shirt. Need it badly for next week. But apparently we're no longer talking and I don't know why. Unlike Ying and her bf, at least their relationship is still stable, well not so stable but still better than mine. Don't know what the hell is going on between the both of us but forget it. I can't do anything can I?

Oh yes, I have been so emo up till today that I decided to run home. Yes, run home from Westmall. Normally when I'm emo, I'll walk home from Westmall in the rain. Today, I ran home in the rain, with my bag and tennis racket. I feel a tad better after running but still not that good.

Hwee's not talking nor replying my sms-es either. I also don't know why. That's the reason why I hate school re-opening. I lose contact and spend lesser time with the people I treasure. Sigh. It sucks. Seriously.

Pictures taken on the 2007 OGLS outing at sentosa. My skin on my shoulders are peeling now. Gross. Just when I need to wear tank for dance on Monday. Sheesh.


Shuming and I make the perfect cards partners :D


The girls (:




Rach and I.


Laopo and I.


Shushu bird :D


WenHao's toe can never be buried! See me pointing at his toe?


Still attempting to cover his toe up.


BURY THE SHUSHU BIRD! 1st stage.


2nd stage.


3rd stage.


Poor Shushu bird ):


Almost done.


My masterpiece yo?


I was planning to step on.... Anyway, I have that towel around me was cause the skin on my shoulders were burnt till it's turning purple -.- (According to Shaun).
Time: 8:25 PM

/together no more.

I'm bloody tired so screw it. These few days' post are going to be full of vulgarities cause number one, I'm bloody tired. Number two, I'm not in a good mood these days cause school's so boring. Number three, school sucks cause it gets me away from my friends whom I hung out w in the holidays.

Today we met our new CT who is Ms. Tay (: Everyone was so freaking worried that it'll be bob. Mr.Eng's gonna be a father soon in June or so. So during contact time, I sat at the back of the class, legs open wide, like some ah lian and stoned at Ms.Tay. When she saw me staring at her, she said, 'ShuJun, how come you look as though you want to fight with me like that?' -.- I was just stoning but TingZhi said that when I was stoning I really look damn dao and it's as though I wanted to fight with someone. Zz.

Mass dance was okay. I was pretty dead. Not my fault. Nothing excites me.
Tried talking to Ying last night but she seemed kinda cold. Which might explain my mood today.
Whatever. I'm damn bloody sick and tired of everything. Even dance doesn't make me smile anymore.

And I played the PSP the whole day. Till it went out of batt. How cool is that?
Time: 6:30 PM

boyfriend, i love you but too bad you're so fucked up most of the time.

I'm so so emo and tired. Today's first day of school.
So many things to do but I'm just not in the mood for orientation.
Boyfriend, I love you. Why can't you just be more sensitive?
That's asking for the impossible.

Well screw it. We'll see how things go between us.
Yes, I'm going to my guy friend's house to sleep over. Happy? -.-
Not like you've never been flirting with other girls when attached to me.
Difference between you and me is that you flirt but I don't.
Thank you so very much.


/I'm so distracted about everything that I couldn't concentrate in bowling. In the end, I had to be pulled away by coach to do my own throwing cause I just couldn't throw my ball the normal way I used to. This sucks.
Time: 10:17 PM

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! :D
New start to everything.
First things foremost. Thank you to everyone who's been in my life in 2007. Be it bad or good.
But those people who's been bad to me ought to be shot dead but what the hell.
It's a new year new year new year (:
AND SCHOOL STARTS TMR! #%#$^*@&!

Okay, yesterday woke up at 6am just to get ready to go school for full dress rehearsal. Till afternoon then went home, ate, slacked awhile with Clement. Sent Clement to the bus stop and waited for Jason. Talked for around 2hours plus with him and settled some stuff between us. Then headed down to Vivo to meet Clement and his cousin. Ate dinner, talked cock and went to Marina.

The whole Marina is closed so we had a hard time figuring out where was where. In the end we went back to the MRT station and crossed the highway. Actually we wanted to sit at the curb of the highway to watch the fireworks but in the end we continued walking. All the way to Singapore River and we managed to get the front spot closest to the river. How cool is that :D

Stoned, slept, freeze to death for 2hours. The wind there was mighty cold I tell you. I was shivering like mad and brrr, it was just super cold. After that was fireworks and boy were they nice :D Only that Clem, Derek and I kept laughing cause the group of bangalas behind us were making weird noises -.-

After fireworks, we walked about and went to lao pa sar to eat supper. AND WE MANAGED TO CATCH THE LAST TRAIN HOME FROM CHINATOWN:D Please don't ask me how the hell we managed to get from Marina to Raffles Place to Cityhall to Little India then Chinatown. Have no idea. Haha, I got a tad drunk on the way home. Drank two bottles of vodka and feeling damn full cause of the supper :/ I wasn't drunk in a sense I could think properly and know what's happening. Just that I felt damn tired and sometimes I'd lose my balance.

OH, we say this drunk guy/girl throwing up somewhere at Chinatown. Then after he/she threw up, he/she just lay there. And it was on the road near the curb. Tsk.

Okay, I'm going down to buy hair dye soon. Stupid, I need to dye my hair just cause the teachers ain't happy with it. Wth. Waste money, waste time and kills my hair _|_


I know I'm damn dark now :/


To the left, Derek playing PSP.


To the right, Clement playing PSP.


Wanna see the whole picture? There they are. They kept talking across me till I went over to sit on the opposite side -.-


They finally put down their PSP to take photos with me. Derek took this.


Clement took this.


While walking at Marina.


We lost our way and got bored.


Come on, tell me this is oh so cool.


Hey yo! We're in the underpass playing with light sticks.


COUSINS!


YAY! Finally at S'pore River le.


Back to playing PSP -.-


Bored things we did while waiting for midnight.




FIREWORKS TIME! :D








Could you tell I was a teeny weeny bit drunk? No right?


I bet Clement was drunk. Or rather sleepy ad stoning.


On the way homeeeeeee.




I reached home at around 2.40am. Went to the toilet in a daze to bathe and at 3am, K.O. Jason called me but even though my handphone was on loud mode, I was knocked out unconscious. Fun day (: Though I really wanted to go clubbing with Jason and his cousins but ohwells. Maybe next year. If we are still talking that is.
Time: 1:39 PM