Happy 51st birthday Michael Jackson.

I ain't exactly a fan for him but was watching the tv broadcast of one of his live shows with baby in the evening.

Something struck me, people can change lives with words.
He's one of them who could touch hearts of millions with the words of his songs.
& of course the song that has stuck me since young is 'Heal The World'.
Baby was more fascinated with seeing his famous moonwalk and dance moves and went hysterical seeing Singapore's flag in the background though -.-

But yeah, a world talent gone cause of drugs overdose.

Thursday, studied with Sam and Eug at my house.


I'm scared of math, literally.
I feel so hopeless in it. Studied for stats paper like shit, end up getting shit results.
Ms Ling's comment saying it's obvious I didn't study for the test doesn't make it any better.
No matter how hard I study for math, I always screw up. I really don't like math now):
But anyway, studying with sammy and eug at my house is great. First time in a gazillion years I actually spend time with Sam outside of school o.O Heh.

Friday was halfday. Went home early to nap. Baby assured my mum that he'd be the one waking me up to go run later on in the evening. In the end my mum woke me up and I had to wake him up instead -.- Fruitful run. We ran to Westmall then Xiao Guilin before we stopped and walked instead. It's his first time there anyway. Total running distance before we stopped was about 3.4km. Geez.

Anyway, I decided I won't look exactly nice with curls given my hair length now. Haha.
I'm still thinking if I should reborn. Ahwells. Wait till A's are over then say bah.





Oh and there was this super huge moth hiding in baby's butt xD HAHA, we were getting ready for our run and walking towards the lift when he kinda like shook his shorts a little and this huge brown moth came flying out. Like wth. It's really damn big. Given wing to wing, it's approx. 20-25cm long. Freaky. And he was convinced that the moth bit him (that's why his butt itches) and has lay eggs in him. Seriously.
Time: 11:07 PM

Poor boy's sick now. Take care all right?
<3
Time: 12:01 AM

I think the model is damn pretty -fawns over her-

Mum just came back with a new make up pouch for me. So I was busily packing my make up and I realise I've hell lot of make up, some which are no longer suitable for me but I'm just keeping it around. Might be useful some day?

Anyway, do make up have expiry date? =/ If you do know, please tell me. 'Cuz if there are, I'd most prolly throw half of them away cause it's been more than 3 years. Pfft.

Anyway, my loot consists of:

4 Lip Glosses
7 Make up base, foundations, loose powder
5 Eyeliners
11 Eyeshadows
3 Blushers
6 Mascaras
2 Concealers

Geez, out of all these, I'm most probably going to throw out 1 concealer, 1 foundation, 3-4 Mascaras (it's clumpy and doesn't look nice already).

And do listen to this. It's omg damn sad. I feel so darn sorry for the lady ): Her husband's sucha bastard, seriously.

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It's just 29 more days to baby's birthday! :D
Can't waaaaait to see if he likes his surprises. HEH:D
Love you dear (:

& omg I really think WeiyYu came back at the wrong timing. Prelims just round the corner and I've gotta find some time to meet her! She doesn't come back from the States every other day. How how how? ):
Time: 8:11 PM

Mm, yesterday was pretty fruitful :D
Nearly done with revising for microeconomics already.
Plus the math test was omg so stupid. I think I need to go study the MF15 too -.-

Eug.T: So how was it?
Me: Walau shit la. You know the poisson thing, I forgot the formula. -he looks at his his paper- Eh, you remember the formula ah?
Eug.T: You know there's sucha a thing called the MF15?
Me: They never put what.
Eug.T: -points out to me-
Me: Shit. WHY YOU NEVER TELL ME EARLIER!
Eug.T: What you want me to say? Oh remember to check MF15 ah. Got the poisson formula there for the question.

Okay, feel idiotic. I sat there for 15mins trying to rack my brains to recall the formula. Zz.
I'm so going to study MF15 already.

Yesteady we skipped gym cause the weather was too nice to be stuck in an aircon room tons of people sweating it out. Instead we went jogging around the neighbourhood :D First time baby's running my usual running route with me. & as usual, I took a turn too early -.- Dammit. I'm forever turning too early. No wonder I always get lost when I run at night cause you know, night time makes places look unfamiliar.

2.4km jog was super entertaining. Baby just kept rambling rubbish while I kept quiet cause I hate talking while running/jogging. Then he tried singing while running and obviously failed badly xD

After that, went home, had dinner and my dad taught us to make love letters!
Haha, omg it's a damn painful process. Eug tried and failed badly too. In the end, I managed to succeed in making a few rather nice one (the roller I'm using is to big) with the help of ice.

Here's what you need to do:
1) Pour the mixture into the electrical mould and press it down to cook it.
2) Once the love letter has turned brown, immediately take it out and roll it. (Here's the painful part. Imagine, it's fresh steaming hot from the 'oven' and you have to roll it with your bare hands o.O)
3) You're done! :D

Sounds easy but it's frigging hot. If you wanna try for yourself thinking that the heat is no big deal, you're welcome to come over and try =P

Look at the video below and you'll see that I've to numb my fingers before rolling them up.



Off to breakfast now!
Time: 9:12 AM

& I still turn with a skip of the heart, recognising that same, familiar smell from afar.
I could always literally smell you coming along.

How I wish I could smell the old you one more time.
I'm still trying to find that deo.
Call me mental, but it's the only thing that keeps me safe and sound.
Time: 10:57 PM

HEEHEE, people making my day are <3

FC who finally called after billions and millions of years. & for the first time in history, he called me past midnight. Amazing right? Then after 'bout 10mins or so he hung up (excuse phone bill) and promised to call the next night which I knew would definitely not happen and I was right. Tsk. That guy, wait till my A levels are over. I need to teach him some proper values of keeping promises and to stop being an ass.

Right now I'm talking to shawnny shawn shawn online. Haha, omg joke la. I'm ranting to him about everything (secret secret) and he's like so darn funny. Another person who never fails to make my day too! Amazing how close we got together this year, considering that the previous years I know him are just midnight chats, finding him for lunch during his work break and talking about the bottle of vodka he owes me which is sitting in his house right now HALF EMPTY (cause some pig decided to drink half of it up without me!)

Okayokay, and boyfriend who made my day today by helping me understand Sampling, Hypo Testing and Correlation&Regression all in one day :D Heehee. He knew I was about to flare up/break down cause I was so damn confused about everything and his slooooow sloooooooow sloooooooow talking and teaching was making me to icky picky irritated. Ahwells. Still happy happy me.

Okay I'm off to do homework now. Toodles :D
Time: 10:51 PM

I need to stop spending money, now that I've got a new motivation to save up for. I'm going to save up for the fees for driving lessons and also to get a second hand car :D

Cause I see no point in getting a license and then having no car to drive. I've searched about and second hand cars can be pretty 'cheap'. Some are at $6k :D So must start saving up. Plus road tax and COE and such, it's going to be rather costly so must save money.

Anyway, today is a failed attempt at trying to read 'Great Expectations'. Gosh it gets so dreary and boring the more I read it. Stopped reading already and I'm going to finish 2 econs essays, 2 chapters on math, 2 lit essays and 2 history essays.

I'm not kidding! Not planning to sleep early tonight anyway. Need to mug.
YJ promised me a really nice present sent straight from London if I get at least 3 A's :D
Ohwells. I'm so looking forward to end of A's.

And and and look at my bruise! Haha, it's much darker in real life though.


That red dot in the middle of the bruise is where the needle's poked in. The needle's about the size of a Yakult straw? Yup. Really cool when you see the blood flowing out of you into the bags o.O
Time: 9:01 PM

Donated blood for the second time :D
Hahaha, but this time's pretty screwed. Leaving me with a bruise that will take about 2 weeks to recover.
Pfft. Someone please remind me that I'm suppose to use my left hand, not right. Well, I think the nurse couldn't really see my right vein but just poked through anyway. During my first time, the nurse already told me it's LEFT cause the vein's more prominent there. And i conveniently forgot which hand was it -.-

So yeah, the needle wasn't poked properly I presume, then I moved my hand slightly and there was this searing pain for that split second, followed by throbbing pain. In the end, my blood clotted at the needle so they can't collect the full amount but it's still 300ml nevertheless :D

Apparently, it hurts cause not all the blood was flowing from my vein to the needle. Some leaked out into under my skin and the pressure is pressing against the vein. I don't know it was pretty cool though a bit bloody on my arm.

Muahahahahhahaha. I must be scaring those people who are thinking of donating blood but are afraid :D

But I was so bored, sitting there, pressing my wound, then changing the gauze and pressing it again, this time with an ice bag to numb the pain. But pretty cool I got yellow smiley faces. I like!





Oh yes, my brother just came back from a short trip to HongKong and he bought home a really pretty and expensive gift for me. I think it's the most expensive one after the mini swarovski crystal for me from Europe last time.

This time it's a wallet made of silk from KATE SPADE. Pretty I tell you. I can't seem to find the picture on the net with the colour I have. Those on the net are black but mine's somewhat greenish blue. But it's really really pretty though I'm not going to use it soon cause I'm so so scared of bringing it to school =X But I still think it's sweeeeet <3
Time: 10:11 PM

Baby and I were looking through my old neoprints last night.
& this nostalgic pang just hit me.

I'm missing out so much in life just cause of damn studying.
Want A levels to me over asap to catch up with those that have slipped out of my grasp.

Denise, Lynette, Jiayi, Shirley, Mindy, Justina, Justin, Clement.Y, ShiHao, Mel, Roy, Waikit, Alex, Yongyi, Yong Qiang, Adeline, Lynn, Rafidah, Faiz, KiaDong, Sofi, Luqman, and the list goes on.

I swear once A levels are over I'm going to meet each of them for one whole day to catch up.
Okay maybe not 1 whole day otherwise baby would go into army without ever meeting me =X
HAHA, but yeah, I so really want to catch up with them <3

But honestly speaking, I really really have no frigging drive to study anymore.
I'm just pushing myself to get this over and done with. I'm desperate for straight A's.
Who isn't? But I'm desperate for straight A's not because I wanna go to a good uni but more of safeguard myself.

Let's be practical, I don't even have a bloody O level cert. Gah.

Should I do something I always wanted to do or should I do something I need and have to do just to survive? This will decide whether I go to uni or not and what course I'd take =/
Time: 8:51 PM

It's 070809.
Pretty cool dontcha think so?

Had school celebrations then headed over to baby's house for lunch.
Rested awhile before getting ready to go out. Heehee.
Surprised baby by showing him the pair of movie tickets Jeff passed to me for free.

THANKYOU JEFF<3
Hahaha, the show (HANGOVER) was really great. Thumbs up.
Got X-rated scenes too (like nude girls) but that's about it?
After the show, headed to my house for dinner.
Really was a great day spent with baby (:

I can't upload pictures now I don't know what's wrong. But I'm going to have an early nights for sure.
Really tired right now.
Time: 10:48 PM

Been long since I typed something in this space. That's cause I kept my lappy away so I've been to lazy to like take it out again. Ohwells.

But it's been fun these days xD Especially Monday :D

Well Monday was our first year anniversary so happy (belated) anniversary, dear.
He made this really cute pop up (pre school kind) card for me which is really ultra cute.
Haha, plus I love him to bits for the nice surprise he gave me.

Well, on Sunday night I pretty much argued with him, refused to talk to him and went to bed.
Next morning he texted me like nothing's wrong and such.
So Monday blues, feeling lethargic, not aware of the surroundings, I left house, put on my headphones, stepped into the lift and pressed the button when...

THIS FREAKING BIG GUY PUSHED ME AND SCARED THE HELL OUT OF ME.
Omg, it took me about 3 seconds to register who was it.
Yup, it's the silly boy. Imagine what time he left house just to come over. Geez. About 4.50am?!
Well, he had this whole bouquet of flowers (with roses, my fav!) for me and I was so damnnnn happy:D

There he was, smiling like a small kid and giving me a great big hug! Heh.

But I had to go back home and put it down cause no way I'm going to bring it to school and let it rot till I go home ):

The flowers are too pretty to die, seriously.





But I love that little boy to bits <3
Fancy giving me hell of a surprise by popping out of nowhere and yup, it's the first time he's sending/accompanying me to school, right from my doorstep. Yay!



Plus he had dinner at my house, we bought home KFC Family Feast to share with my parents too.
My parents kept probing like what's the occasion? Why got flowers and got a feast.
My mum was so jittery just trying to figure that out (according to my dad)
& baby, being cheeky, said we are patriotic and celebrating an early National Day. Haha.

But we had a good time, with daddy telling us stories about riots in his time, how they lived and all way back before independence.

All's well now. Can't wait for baby's 18th. HEEHEEHEE.
I love you dear!

Now's time to study. Gah, this sucks.

P.S. Rose Tylor never gets to be with the Doctor again ):
Time: 9:20 PM

Tomorrow marks a special day.
But tell me, why's my heart in a flutter?

Like darkest secrets unlocked, the memories start flowing in.
The pain, the sadness, the hurt,
And the reality I've always been running away from.
The silent sobs over the line, did you notice?

I've always wanted to believe in the best of others.
But time and time again, I'm wrong. Always wrong.

Someone used to tell me, stop running away from reality,
Stop trying to bury them and not face up to them.
Cause just one day, BANG!, it all comes back.
And that's when you really can't recover anymore.

So true, I wished I had listened to that friend.

Do you know something? I've totally lost the motivation to study, to go to school.
To do the things I once loved.
& sometimes, I wonder, why the hell am I living in this accursed world?
I don't think I'm suicidal. I think I'm a lost cause.

It ain't one, it ain't two, it's a flurry of emotions.
Different people, different reasons.
I'm tired, I'm really tired.

I really can't wait for this to end.
Time: 4:16 PM