Rushed home after the boyf ended school to prepare for some photo shoots and interview at 5pm.

Geez embarrassment to the max so please remind me to chase everyone out of the house if something as embarrassing as this happens again. It's going to be in a -------- and it's going to be in the ----- issue so whatever. I'm going to be sooo embarrassed like omg. Okay just pray pray cross finger it's just some ADVERT and not an article. I'd rather an advert than article.

Clement's going for job interview this Monday so I hope all goes well for him. Cannot anyhow whack la. Must still say things that'll impress them mah.

In school I had this stupid retarded conv with 'SHINY' in the toilet =.=

Her: You having break now?
Me: Yea.
Her: One hour ah?
Me:No la. Mine's like GP then half hour break then Lit then break then Econs.
Her: HAHAHA, sad. I've got 1 (or 2 I can't remember which) hour(s) break.
Me: So? I end school at 12.30pm. HAH!
Her: Go and die la.

Yawns, I'm so tired now. Can't stand school days. Really can't ):
Time: 11:15 PM

It's been a long day. Was so exhausted I didn't even wanna talk nor show any emotions. Totally couldn't take it cause my back was aching so and I was so drained I took an early leave from school. Went home and rest and I'm feeling so much better now (:

My left hand's pretty bad tho. It doesn't seem to be recovering and my little finger is getting more painful each day. I wonder what has happened to it. My back ain't recovering also. Though it's better now in a sense that it's not much of a persistent pain, I can't bend down while standing up cause it hurts so badly ):

School work's really taking it's toil on me): Feel so suffocated now though I'm glad there's boyf there for me to go through this with me.

Anyway pictures. I met the awesome cute guy and just love him so much:D Pity photos do not do him justice but he's so cute in real life.




Cute right!

And yeah, here's the dress I made for CNY. I've done making a skirt a few days back (all by myself, with no help nothing and finished it in one day) but I just need to head down to chinatown to get some accessories then it's finished cause it looks kinda plain now :D






His face got cut off =P
Time: 9:16 PM

Let's start with the pissing thing in my heart first. (skip this part and read the part below the line if you don't wanna hear me rant)

If you want to bitch, might as well say it out loud. Like hi, I'm sitting right beside you and it's so fucking obvious you were bitching when all those I asked around me could even SEE who you were talking about, there's no need to hear. Wanna bitch, say it straight to my face (even though that wouldn't be considered bitching anymore). You could say stuff to me like 'Why is he always with you?', 'Why must he come to our class?', 'You think you got boyfriend already then so big meh?', etc.

Puh-lease, which idiot will talk bad about someone and keep turning to look at the person and giving that 'oh whatever, you suck/i don't like you/you're gross/' kinda look and turn back to their friend(s) and start whispering? Isn't it a bit too stupid? Seriously, if you're not happy, say it straight to my face. I'd rather you do that than bitch about.

I've got people asking, 'Eh why is he always with you ah? Why you two always together one? Very weird when he's always around la' and all other questions. And I answer them happily cause at least they get the first hand story FROM ME rather than talking behind my back and fabricating stuff. Grow up man, it's so damn childish.

I seriously don't know what to say to those people whom I know were bitching about me. It's like it's been 4 years thank you very much. It's the last year and I pray/hope/cross fingers that I won't have to see these people again. Though we had 'happy' times together, the bitching really spoils everything. Seriously. You wanna ruin friendships with bitching, go ahead.

Like I posted previously, bitching is just letting emotions run wild and fabricating stuff along the way, it doesn't contain facts but more of personal emotions and opinions. People bitch just to make themselves feel better, to have a group of people who agree with their opinions and such. But can they hold it against their conscience and say whatever they say is true? NOPE. So why bitch? What's the point seriously?

I used to bitch a lot, I admit it. Till one day Jiayi told me (yes I still remember what you say cause it really changed me for who I am) when I was so upset about everything in the new school and all. She said (not exact words but roughly this idea):

"How would you feel if someone talks bad about you knowing that it's not true at all? Do you like it? If you don't then don't talk bad about others cause that's how they will feel too."

Just think about it. If you just have this dying urge to 'bitch', get your facts FIRST HAND NOT SECOND HAND.
And don't add your emotions in, just state the facts. It'll help you live with your own conscience, really.
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Okay, back to normal school life. Did the wrong history homework and got scolded. I should take more extra care writing the homework down in my notebook next time so I won't do the wrong homework again.

Math test was a flop and I really studied hard for it. This is the first time I can proudly say to myself, 'Yes I studied hard for it and though I could have done better, I'm answerable to myself cause I studied real hard.' Seems like I've gotta put in MUCH MUCH MORE EFFORT to be on par with others. And I gotta work EXTREMELY hard to surpass my usual standards and get an 'A' in the finals.

And I met a group of the thickest skinned guys in NJ. They were there conning the drink machine (getting 4 bottles out) in broad daylight (c'mon, others normally do that towards evening time) at 4PM, making much noise (and only hushing up when teachers were buying drinks or something) and with me staring at them the whole time. They saw me staring, contemplated awhile then continued with what they are doing. If they aren't thick skinned, what are they? Seriously.

Plus, when we went to get our ball bags, I found two of my team mates ball bags lying flat on the ground with the wrong side up and a shoe bag strewn far away. To whoever it is who's done that (I SUSPECT some people but I shan't say it here cause I may be wrong), it would have been nice if you could let us know that you mind us putting our ball bags there, like leave a note or something. Not fucking throw our stuff to the ground just cause you ain't happy. I'm sorry but isn't this an act of a hooligan uncivilised student? Not happy then throw stuff?

Or maybe I could be all wrong, it may have toppled on it's own and caused a domino effect, though I don't see how a bowling bag weighing about 16kg could travel 1m away (leaving the remaining two ball bags inbetween UNTOUCHED) and was turned upside down at the new spot and the shoe bag thrown about 2m away. A bit ridiculous?

So whoever it is, please at least inform us rather than throwing our things about like junk. FYI, there are two bowling balls in each bag with shoes.

If let's say the two bags were damaged with the balls in it INCLUDING THE SHOES (cause once it's wet, the shoe's spoilt), the cost you'd have to compensate would be about $2.1k. and I'm not kidding.
$1400 for 4 balls, $500 for 2 bowling bags and $200 for bowling shoes.

So please, inform us. Thanks.

Still, training was great. Got a game of 161 which I screwed up at the last frame so wasted otherwise I could have gotten 170. But I'm really exhausted right now.

Wanted to upload photos but apparently photobucket ain't working so nevermind. Shall go study now. Maybe it'll work better tmr (:

I know this post is really wordy but I really wanna get it off my chest.
Can't people be a bit more civilised and stop being so childish?
But who I am to judge others? I just hope people can live up to their conscience that's all.
Time: 9:57 PM

Here I am rotting at home doing nuts.

Spent the whole day sewing yesterday with a good end result. A skirt which mum complains is too short but whatever. It's not your typical kinda skirt but it's something I'm pretty proud of. Have yet to buy some studs/chains/beads to sew on to complete the designs. Shall head down to Bt.Timah/Chinatown to get 'em soon.

I've almost completed my homework too. Just left a bit more.
Boyf will be the FIRST person to come over my house and his house will be the FIRST house I'm going to this CNY.
Amazing isn't it?
I've only got one ang bao from my dad and that's all.
Don't ask why I'm not going out to bai nian. Sensitive issue.

I need to stop procrastinating and start studying. But I've been so tired these days that I fall asleep at 10-11pm? o.O Amazing. ShuJun sleeping so early. Really amazing. Keep this up and I'll have no time to study. Best still, I sleep so early, wake up early and feel damn tired. Zz.

I've gotta go shower and get changed. Boyf's coming over soon.


& I realised, sometimes I think I try to hard. Maybe I should let things go and relax.
Let things go..... It's something I've never done much in my life. Sigh.
Time: 2:50 PM

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!
Clement's back in Singapore safe and sound and he's sleeping now I presume.
I've been rotting the whole day at home and just screwed up the skirt I'm sewing so forget it.
Lacked the proper planning which resulted in a screwed up skirt. Zz. I should have spent that precious time studying.

Dinner was a family affair. Steamboat plus hotplate. Yumyum.
But soon after, I had serious diarrhea so yeah. Had to flush the toilet bowl THREE times before it was normal -.-

I'm pretty bored the whole day. Hardly talked to the boy.
Now he's going to sit at the temple there and meditate for 2 hours.
I think I shall go sleep. Bye.
Plus the boy says he wanna bring me to seek professional help in case I'm really suffering from depression -.- Thing is, by seeking help, it makes me more depressed.
Time: 9:41 PM

Solitude.

Random thoughts have just set me thinking about life.
Soon (or maybe not so soon), it's going to be 18 years I've been in this world.
So many things happened and sometimes I wonder, who are those who stuck with me all these years.

Okay, leave the 18 years out. I was thinking more about friends. To me at least, I thought my truest friends were those made in primary school, when people didn't have another ugly side of them. Unlike the friends I've made since then, almost all were just faking it out or pretentious you may say.

Yes, I've made good friends too, those who stayed by me no matter what, those who were there when I cried or felt so down, but at the same time I wonder, do they feel and think the same way as I do for them? I'm one who treats friendship seriously. I don't believe that friends who make others cry on purpose, who's selfish in most aspects, turns to others when they are in need and never bother to listen when others turn to them, etc. are true friends.

My philosophy all these years has always been the same.

'True friends are those who are there whenever and wherever you need them. They will never leave you in the lurch no matter what happens.'

These days I've been thinking a lot about just friends ever since what happened a few days ago which affected me so greatly. I thought about how much I've done as a friend to others and I realised, it's pretty bad. So right now, I'm trying my best to find time and meet up with my closest friends, to spend more time talking to those I'm close to already and such. Being the best of friends need not exactly mean that we both have to be on the same page. It just means understanding each other and accepting them for whom they are.

Yes I admit there are people whom I don't like, people whom I really can't get along with. But still, I try to just keep it as it is cause I see no point in gathering in groups to bitch about someone I don't like. It makes no sense don't you think so? Bitching occurs when people allow emotions to take over everything else. That's when all emotions run wild and the mind think of things to say to make one feel better about it. It's also when rumours spread.

& I realised what's most important is that we do things not to impress others but just to live with ourselves. It's something like, people may talk behind my back but I need not care cause as long as I can live with my own conscience, it's all that matters.

I'm still pondering over this question, 'Who are my true friends?'
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On the lighter note though...... okay, I can't think of anything on the lighter note. Oh wait, I can!
CLEMENT'S COMING BACK TOMORROW! :D I really wish/pray/hope/cross fingers that he'll call me once he's home. Miss him truckloads! Can't wait to hear the stories he'll have to tell me about how's it like in NZ.

Boyf's having bowling comps right now and he's currently in 2nd position. Told him to get 1st cause he'll win something like $300 F&B vouchers (to be used in RTC I think) and a one night's stay at some hotel or something. $300 F&B!!!! :D

I know there's an immense lack of photos here but hey, I don't take photos in school everyday? Plus this year's CNY's going to be a quiet one. Those who knows why will know why. Eh, that doesn't make sense -.-

I really need a new phone but my parents don't have the money to get me a new one. My phone hangs like nobody's business, the internal system is screwed up even though I've sent it for repairs at least 3 times (I've given up sending it for repairs). Just my luck to receive a faulty phone which screwed up on the 2nd day I used it. Just gotta live with it I guess till I renew my contract or something. But I really really hope/wish/want a new phone real badly ): ):

And good news is, I haven't been shopping at all! Okay, shopping yes but it's buying stuff for others (like birthdays, x'mas, etc.) or just accompanying others to shop. But I haven't bought a single thing for myself. I don't even remember what was the last top/bottom/bag/shoes I bought. If I'm not wrong it should be about 3-4 months ago? Nope, I didn't buy any CNY clothes either.

Actually, it's pretty weird y'know? Suddenly I lose interest in the things I really love doing, or even when talking to friends, I no longer feel happy.
Geez, I might be sinking into depression. Ahwells.
Friends are still the main issue I guess. And at times like this, I wish I wasn't so sentimental by nature.

I really think I'm suffering from teenage depression. Here are the signs and symptoms and whether I have them:

• Sadness or hopelessness - Yes
  
• Irritability, anger, or hostility - Yes
  
• Tearfulness or frequent crying - Totally yes
  
• Withdrawal from friends and family - Totally yes
  
• Loss of interest in activities - Totally yes
  
• Changes in eating and sleeping habits -Not really but I eat less and sleep early these days
  
• Restlessness and agitation - Yes
  
• Feelings of worthlessness and guilt - Totally yes
  
• Lack of enthusiasm and motivation - Yes
  
• Fatigue or lack of energy - Yes, which explains my sleeping early
  
• Difficulty concentrating - Yes
  
• Thoughts of death or suicide - Totally yes

Ah whatever. Bye.
Time: 12:57 PM

Just found this picture EXTREMELY CUTE LIKE OMG. But apparently photobucket aint working so another time then.

Okay, math test was screwed don't even bother asking. Studied so hard but last minute circumstances caused me to fail the paper so forget it. Just go for math consolidation lor.

And I swear I hate this guy. I was at the grandstand when this floorball guy (no offence to the rest of the floorballers but only to that guy) whacked his ball and it hit my shin (I don't know if it's the shin but it's the front of my leg below my knee, above my ankle). THANK GOODNESS IT WASN'T SOME HOCKEY BALL OR I'LL BE SCREAMING "FUCK YOU!" THERE AND THEN. But yeah, still, he whacked damn hard and it slammed onto my leg. Then he just stare at me and say sorry. So I say nevermind la though I was damn pissed cause like HELLO? WHY ARE YOU WHACKING BALLS ON THE GRANDSTAND???? The hockey/floorball area is there for a reason yes? Plus he didn't even whack straight, he aimed to whack it down the stairs. Like for what?

But whatever, so I say nevermind. Best part is, THAT GUY STILL HAD THE NERVE TO STRETCH OUT HIS HAND TO ASK ME TO PICK UP THE BALL FOR HIM. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK OKAY! Sorry but I'm really pissed cause what idiot, whacks a person, and wants the person to pick up his ball for him?! AND WHEN THE BALL WAS LIKE ROLLING DOWN THE STEPS HE EXPECT ME TO GO RUN AFTER IT OR WHAT! He stood there staring at me, hands stretched out, telling me (he didn't even ask come to think of it) to pick up the ball and I'm like fuck? I just stood there glaring at him and let the ball ponk ponk ponk down the stairs. Seriously is he a fucktard or what?

Pissing retard.

Ahwells, I'm going to do some sewing tonight. Hopefully I can finish a top by tonight since I'll be taking a break from revising and studying today.

3 more days till Clement is home. Wanna see how fit he's become and hear the stories he has to tell me <3
Time: 9:20 PM

Friends are those who jump when you jump whilst others do not really care if you jump or not. Which one are you?

Monday was so tiring after training that ended only at 8pm. Thanks to Eug's mum who sent me home otherwise I'd reach home about 10pm.

I've been sleeping super early these days while on the other hand, boyf has had the energy to stay up and finish his work. Amazing yes? When normally I'd be the one staying up and doing work while he slept. I bet he's snatching my alertness away. Grr.

Anyway, yesterday I went for sewing lessons and I made my mum's skirt. She's always wanted new skirts but I didn't have the time to make it because I haven't really learned skirt yet. I'm still learning tops with different kinds of collars, sleeve, designs, etc. STILL, I FINISHED MY MUM'S SKIRT WITHIN LESS THAN 5 HOURS! :D So proud of myself.

Today was a really bad day. First, I didn't bring my bowling shoes with me and I didn't have time to go back home to take 'em cause I'd be late for school. Secondly, math lesson wasn't really a good time. Third, I got pissed off even more during econs. So much that I cried in school not once, not twice but three times. Just the beginning of the year and someone just has to make me cry in school.

And I always thought, friends are people who'd never make you cry. Yes we may cry cause of arguments here and there but not as something so fucked up today. There ARE limits to how much I can just ignore things people do but today, they've crossed the limits.

But thank goodness to boyf, fc, anh, sam and aks who was there for me. Boyf who came down specially to find me, fc who took time to call me and listen to me whilst he was still in army camp, anh who didn't get pissed off when I asked him to go away and he was so ever understanding, aks who text me and gave me rubbish to think about, sam who'd just go to the toilet and stone there while breathing in the "fragrance" and listening to me.

But the best part of all was Clement. He's like a freaking thousand miles away from me but he replied immediately after I text him about my day crying in school.

"I'll try call u e day i go back k,dun so sad. i'll see if can get present for u :) smile"

Though it was a simple text it made me go home grinning like an idiot. Everytime I was down, or something has happened, the first person I'll normally turn to/ get into contact with/ who's there for me will always be Clement. Be it 3am in the morning of during office hours when he's in camp, he'd pick up my calls/reply my texts without fail. Gah, I can't wait till he's back. I really can't wait. Got so much to tell him about, to talk to him and all.

Off to study for the math test tmr. 4 more days (:
Missing you so come back quick!
Time: 9:03 PM

Random WeeSiang coming up to me and saying my blog's damn interesting to read -.-
I'm too tired to blog much. Today's training was like 6pm-8pm and thank goodness Eug's mum could send me home otherwise I'd reach home much much later. THANK YOU AUNTY! (:

Met Coach Mark today and yay! he can start coaching me again :D
Actually Coach Jimmy ain't bad. Guess I just need to get used to his style of coaching. No harm right? Just that Brendan's irritating the hell outta me during training I feel like strangling him on the spot.

Anyway, I just got a phone call which is damn retarded. Cause like 1-2 weeks back, I saw this promotion or rather contest going on in the newspaper, so I just sms-ed in since I was kinda bored. Then they called me just now to say I got it! HAHAHAHA, don't ask me what contest is it cause it's really dumb but hey, I get loads of free stuff with no obligations so why not! Though my mum's sneering at me saying their bound to rope you in for this and that but STILL! I get free stuff :D:D The free stuff includes like $300 voucher with no expiry date and no minumum purchase, a free something and a free "hamper like thing" if I go collect it before Valentine's Day!

Okay, I sound like a cheapo here but who doesn't like free things? Well if you don't like, you're weird. I'm normal. Can't help it la. Economy so bad. Can save then save :D

Can't get the boyf now cause I think he fell asleep ): ): Wanna tell him this piece of news cause it's so funny. He was next to me when I sent that sms. Hohoho.

Anyway, I'm pretty proud of myself. It's two weeks into school and I've finished my tutorials on time, handed in work on time (minus history assignment cause XM and I totally thought the deadline was first day of school), settled bowling matters pretty efficiently, revised and studied, finished my tuition homework.

Hope I can keep up this pace throughout the year though ): I already feel myself slowing down already. Gah. Off to study now. BYE!
Time: 11:28 PM

Baby and I are okay now. Thanks to those who cared and ask if everything's all right (:
It's a misunderstanding blown big, emotions running wild and all. But it's fine now.
Helping baby with his Econs essay now.

Saturday was spent having tuition, doing homework and watching some Japanese drama about a dog and a little girl. Sounds cheesy I know but it really made me tear ):
Boyfriend came over later in the afternoon and stayed with me till night.
Headed down to Popular in the evening to get my math TYS but out of stock so yeah.

Today was just stonning at home. Having a terrible nightmare and that boy couldn't be contacted at all cause he was sleeping. Made me so scared. Last time whenever I had nightmares, Clement would always pick up my call even if it meant 3am in the morning. Right now he's in NZ and it's just another week before he's back. Can't wait! :D

Okay, I shall go do a bit more math if my eyes don't betray me.
I'm going for sewing lessons on TUESDAY! YAY! HAPPY HAPPY ME:D
Time: 11:11 PM

Started out a nice day, with FC replying my text early in the morning.
Boyf not late for school despite oversleeping and leaving the house late.

Continued to be a nice day cause I ended school at 12.30pm. Texted FC more.
Did one whole chapter of functions in the TYS.
Waited for the boy to end school then headed down to amk hub to shop for his new year clothes and that's when misery started.

Ended up with him shouting at me and me crying (wth? it's damn rare I'll cry in public)and he being sad and all. It just reminds me of last time when quarrels and misunderstandings start to take place more and more often. Then we'll drift further and further apart, then the feelings start to fade, you get the idea.

At least we're still talking now? I don't know.
I'm so freaking tired right now. Mentally, emotionally, physically.
I just wish everything was okay, that I didn't have to worry about so many things.

Well, what's done is done. Let's just move on and face life as it comes.
It's finally weekend. Like what sharma said, it's more like 5 weeks than 5 days.
Rest well people! It's full steam ahead till A levels are over.
Time: 12:09 AM

Happy happy me cause F.C called again and we yada yada on the phone all the rubbish we've missed out for the past few months ever since he got enlisted. Geez, I still feel happy talking to him even though it's been about 3 years since I knew him? Though he says the most idiotic things to me so much I feel like cabbing over and punching him in the face (I'M SERIOUS!), I still love him all the same cause he's such a dear(:

Anyway, had a huge scare in the morning. Thought I lost my phone for real. Embarrassing to the max but also scared the hell outta me. Geez, it really sucks.
And for the first time in my entire life, I acutally wake up in the middle of the night cause I was too emo. Like wth? Normally I'll be too emo that I can't sleep or emo myself to sleep. But I actually WAKE UP cause I was feeling so darn emo. Smart la.

Boyf and I are a-okay now. He's the lousiest at han yu pin yin (for those who don't know chinese don't bother reading the following).

He wanted to say the han yu pin yin for "qiang3 jie2" (rob in Eng). Here are his variations.
1) Qiang J-ack (He wanted to say J but said jack instead -.-)
2) Qiang Jia
3) Qiang Jai

Another word was "kuang3 kuo4" (vast in Eng). He said it to be "Quang kuo" and he kept insisting he was right. Tsk.

Anyway, F.C's sleeping now and boyf's doing homework.
I wonder how's clement doing. Another 10 more days till he's back. Hope he's fine over at NZ there.
I'm off to do some work. I've got my design for my next dress up plus I promised a new shirt for boyf so yeah, going to start this weekend (:
Time: 10:42 PM

I just want a rainbow after the storm.

It's amazing how I'm feeling so down and F.C just ta-da rings me up to ask how am I. Poor him cause I immediately went into the ranting stage. Dee dee da da non-stop till I teared. I couldn't help it. F.C's like my next best friends to my other best friends. Okay, that didn't make sense.

But like what he said, 'Those who are talented will never understand how those who are not feel."(or somewhere along these lines)

Am suppose to call him back later at 10.30pm cause now he's on the phone with his sweetie pie =P
As usual we were wondering what would happen if we both got together like a few years back. Haha, but it ain't happening now. He and his girlfriend are nearing 2 years already. Plus boyf and I are nearing half a year alr.

This convo was funny though.

'If I didn't have my girlfriend now, I'd most probably be with SOMEONE who'd be having a cold war with me now.'
'Nah, I doubt we'd ever have a cold war? We'd just argue at most.'
'Yeah, we'll argue for one minute and laughing the next. Then we'll be wondering what we argued over.'
'Ya, then we'd be like, eh what we quarrel about? aiyah don't remember forget it.'

Okay, F.C's going to POP soon so yay for you! (:

Anyway, thanks to Aks who was there for me too. Wasting texts on me (his replies were at least 3 texts long!) and just listening to me curse and swear.
I ain't exactly in a good mood today. I tried to smile, I tried to laugh, I really tried to just keep calm.

This is when I feel like giving up on everything else and just be myself for a bit.
No pretense nothing, just me. Gah, just need to be focus and serious for a few more months.
After which, I can party all day and night without a single worry.

& you know, it's times like this i need you most.
but it's time like this, you'd leave me alone.
i was wrong to snap but you just won't understand.
Time: 9:56 PM

I need my beauty sleep!
Boyf and I headed home early cause I was super tired today and so was he.
Once we reached my house we immediately (or maybe not so immediately) K.O-ed on the sofa.
Cause my sofa's like L-shaped so our heads were near each other and the intersection portion.
Something like the picture above except our heads weren't on each other -.-

AND WHEN I FINALLY GET TO HAVE SOME SLEEP...
Okay, before I continue, the thing about me is that I can't stand being woken up for the most idiotic things like opening of doors and such. I'm a light sleeper so any slight sound affects me. Thus, if I'm woken up because of ridiculous things, I'll be in such a bad mood I'll snap at anyone who talks to me.

SO WHEN I FINALLY GET TO HAVE SOME SLEEP...
That guy snored -.- So loud it woke me up in a bad mood.
Was really irritated and in such a bad mood I pushed his head to make him stop snoring.
Sorry but I know I'm violent so my heart goes out to my boyfriend when I'm in a bad mood.
The snoring stopped, for awhile, then I went back to sleep and it continued.
So I woke up again and pushed his head till he finally woke up.
Then he went back to sleep and snored again.
ROAR.

Pissing pissing pissing.
If I marry a guy who snores (IF I EVER MARRY ONE WHO DOES) I'm so not going to sleep in the same room as him. So there.

Off to do work now. I've finally decided on the design of my new apparel so I'm heading down to Chinatown this weekend to see if there are any nice cloth to get (:
Time: 10:20 PM

It's just the first day of school and I'm already daydreaming of what I want to do after A levels.
Of course it's spend more time with the boy before he turns into some ugly baldie (HEEHEE) and turning into a green man.

Then go back to dance lessons again and this time commit to it (I'm an on off student cause every time when I go for dance after school hours, I'd be half dead by then and by the time dance ends, I'll reach home about 10plus at night.)

Plus maybe, just maybe, I'll self learn piano again and take the exams (my mummy can't afford piano and dance at the same time). But I doubt I will though it's just one more grade till grade 8. Wasted yea?

But I'll continue my sewing lessons for sure. I know I've been promising photos so here's some photos of the shirt I made according to boyf's measurements :D







Nice yes no? It's hand sewn from scratch. This whole piece was just made from a piece of 2m cloth? :D

Anyway, my parents bought a massage chair and this is what it does to the boy. It was switched on mind you.





AND YES HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM TUNG DARLING! I LOVE YOU!
Celebrated with aks,wt,mark and eug. Ohmy, ice cream cake, THE HORROR!
(it's an inside story so nevermind. STILL, THE HORROR!)





Okay, I'm off to study. Be proud of me.
I've finished my lit essay, GP assignment, 1 math mock paper so far.
I'm going to do another math paper now(: BYE!
Time: 9:28 PM

Okay, it's back to school tomorrow. DREAD IT.
Made cupcakes today with daddy. Though he said the recipe's a bit screwed up.
Math tuition. Okay, I'm itching to sew. Damn. But my mum's even prepared this whole place in the cupboard to lock up my sewing stuff already ):

Are you feeling blue about going back to school?
ANYWAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY WANTING! :D
No I didn't forget you=P

Tell me more about school blues. A levels this year. It sounds so scary.
Gah, someone save me.
On a random note, I was telling bestf about one of the things in my 'To do before I die'.
That is to date a hot English guy overseas. I know it sounds stupid but like I say, IT'S ONCE IN A LIFETIME!

Anyway let's just list down my goals for the month of January. (I dare not set long term aims cause it never works for me)

1) Get back my 150 average in bowling. And hopefully increase to 160 average.
2) Even better, break my high game of 204 and break stupid Choon Fah's one too while I'm at it.
3) Do my homework and hand in tutorials on time (SUPER DIFFICULT!)
4) Sew a shirt dress and/or a skirt during my study breaks at home by the end of Jan.

That's it for one month. BRAND NEW START EVERYONE!
(I'm so not looking forward to it). Have fun.
Time: 9:30 PM

DREAD.GOING.BACK.TO.SCHOOL.


Okay the boyf just asked the most retarded question while reading my lit essay.

"How you know it's a guitarist?"
"Cause the title is 'The Guitarist'."

Retarded? Yea I know.

Anyway, today I've been lying in bed cause my dizzy spells were so bad the whole house was turning round and round and round. Plus my stomach was feeling so queasy which made me feel like vomitting cause it really felt so horrible!

Anyway I've gotta halt sewing lessons already cause mummy says I better concentrate on my A levels. Plus she even set my sleeping times to be 10.30pm like what the hell? I got projects then how? Crazy woman. It's been like that since I don't know when. And every time my group members wanna kill me cause I can't stay online till late to discuss with them. Zz.

BACK TO POINT, I STILL WANT SEWING LESSONS. I've finished my basic dress, Eug's buttoned shirt and my self-designed dress (with suggestions from Aunty Sandy of course!) :D
Photos up tmr or something. I'm lazy to take 'em now. I still have lots of things to learn from Aunty Sandy though.

Ahwells. Need to study. I'm so sick of it.
I seriously should have went poly or some arts/dance school instead.
Back to school blues. Sigh.
Time: 10:59 PM

If life could just be more relaxing, I'd be happy.

So tired. I'm trying to do my homework but you know, once you're into the holiday mood, you can't study.
Clement left yesterday 4pm. Off to NZ for army training. Yes, it still hurts but what can I do?
He doesn't seem to be hurt anymore, I guess I should be happy for that.

I just want some quiet time relaxing, before the hectic school life begins.
Where deadlines, projects, homework, competitions, trainings, all come piling in.
I know it's a bit late but 2008 has had its ups and downs for me.
I just hope 2009 will be a better year for me. It's time to prove my worth.

Ah, i'm so tired right now. Going to move my com upstairs now.
Sick of lit. Typed a whole lot, com restarted on its own, recovered only ONE paragraph. Best la.
Time: 1:13 AM

Well well, yesterday reached home close to midnight. Poor boy reached home close to 1am.
Went over to his house before leaving with his family to celebrate his mum's birthday. Funny thing was, we wanted to surprise his mum with the cookies he made for the FIRST time.

SOOOO, there was this conversation:

(on the phone with his mum)
........ (him) okay. bye.

Him: We gotta cross the road.
Me: Eh? Go where?
Him: To the other bus stop there.
Me: HEHHHH! So far. Why your mummy cannot fetch us here?
Him: She doesn't want to U-turn la.
Me: Then like that how to surprise her! Cannot ask her close eyes and drive what.
Him: Aiya got traffic light. Turn red then ask her to close eyes la.
Me: Orhhh, but what if no traffic light turn red how?
Him: Sure got one la. -looks at his phone- Eh? HELLO?!

Smart guy, didn't off his phone and his mum heard the conversation. Thank goodness we didn't mention anything about cookies and such. Have you ever EVER met a smarter guy than him? o.O Tsk.

Anyway headed to LingZhi restaurant at Liat towers. For those who read my blog when I went to Taiwan 2-3 years back, I have phobia of taking any herbal things and such, ESPECIALLY LING ZHI. So I heard the name I was oh noooo. But it's a vegetarian restaurant so it's quite alright. Just that there are LOADS of mushrooms. Like super super alot. Nearly every dish (except the fruit juice and desert) had mushrooms in them.

Oh yeah, please clap, I drank fruit juice for the first time! Other than orange juice and apple juice that is. I had no idea what juice that is though. But the meal was great so yeah. Just that so much mushrooms): I don't mind if all were button mushrooms. I'd love that. First time eating vegetarian meal in a restaurant. Geez.

Going to study now. Had a super hard time trying to wake that boy up. Been up since 6.30am talking/screaming/shouting through the phone (we didn't hand up since last night) to wake him up. And guess what? He finally woke up at like 8am. Smart aye? I could have slept for 1 and a half more hours cause I wasn't planning to wake up till 8am and start work. Zz.

Ciao then. I dread school reopening. Really do. But the plus point is that, I get to see the girls again(: Miss them lottttts.




His parents.


His grandaunt.


The cake.
Time: 9:03 AM

GREETINGS EARTHLINGS. The aliens have now come down from outer space to ban NJC from letting us sit for any 'BACK-TO-SCHOOL' tests for those who failed subjects in promo.

Geez. I wish la.

Haven't done much work yesterday. Was suffering from cramps until I will just curl up into a ball on the sofa and groan. Though curling up didn't help so I just kept fidgeting about.

Plus I was so freaking exhausted cause I've been crying from like 12am till close to 4am and I cried myself to sleep. Still, thank you to Tian and Ying who had been there for me comforting me and encouraging me via sms despite being in the wee hours in the morning and school starts in a few hours' time. My mum came into my room the next morning and sound the mountain of tissues on my chair and she thought that I had a bad bout of flu during the night.

But all's well now, I hope. You think I'm the one that's having it easy but you don't know how hard it is for me right now. Anyway, the boy came over and we baked cookies! HAHAHA, his first baking experience okay! Plus he was being so childish with the cookie cutter. He kept saying, 'HAH! MY AEROPLANES ARE DOMINATING YOUR CHICKENS!(It's doves anyway but he says they are chickens)' Then he will start cutting out more cookies to compete -.- Plus we made like DAMN ALOT of cookies. It's not that sweet though ): Even though we finished using an opened before packet of brown sugar and a small container of white sugar (the boy was like WOAH SO MUCH SUGAR?!) It's still isn't sweet ): Gah.

We baked from like 6pm till 10pm before we finally could have dinner. Well we were half watching tv and half cutting cookies which explains the long duration =P Anyway, just two days back was our 5th monthsary so yup :D Photos belooowwwww.

And yes, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTY! (:
Heading over to the boy's house later on to have dinner with his family. Now is just to wait for him to wake up. And it's 12.10pm already! Gee.



5TH MONTHSARY




Okay, he looks freaking retarded in this xD






Sorry but I just found this photo super cute :D



BAKING COOKIES




Look at the humongous amount of flour we had to use.


The boy with his new hair cut. HAHA.








Before they were sent into the oven to bake.





Fresh out from the oven.


He can't wait, trust me.


Cooling process.


A lot right? These were just the first two trays. We made about 5-6 trays?


These are the 'shit' he made with the left over dough xD




Loads of cookies yes, no?


Time: 11:51 AM

Anyway here's more photos. I'm busy watching korean drama now like amazing right? :D


At coffeebean.




I actually wore tank and fbts to countdown -.-


WeiYu is so happy she caught my camera's flash -.-


We played cards and I owned! Win about 80cents :D We played 1cent per card.












WeiYu, Sunny and Rebecca.

Ohwells, I'm so bored right now. This whole week I'll be chionging homework.
Wish me luck.
Time: 6:25 PM