stupid blogger made me change to the gmail thingie.which i dont like at all :/
im super super tired.

and yes, clem and i quarrelled last night. basically it was me making things difficult for him i guess.
but it ended up both of us crying ourselves to sleep. and waking up with no mood to continue the rest of the day properly. which resulted in me being moody the whole day and didn't feel like talking to anyone. which also caused me to sleep in class due to insufficient sleep at home.and i just kept thinking about stuff and more stuff and even more stuff.

im really worried for my studies.cause i dont want to be on probation again like the start of last year. freaks me out.im mugging every morning when i go to school and staying back after school to study my ass off.

monday - gym
tuesday - went home super late
wednesday - bowling
thursday - drama
friday - gym(?)

that's my schedule for this week. that's why i have to go school super early to study to make up for time lost. and my mum thinks im not going to school but meeting some guy outside. siao. so yeah, tired tired me. clement and i are kinda okay now i guess. i dont know?

i saw someone today. well not only today. alot of days and i just walked past him or ignore him.
he could tell i am ignoring him. i could tell from the way he looked at me. but i dont really care.
it isn't my fault. i can't help it. you're too horrible. you suck cause u treat me in this manner.

tired me. and emo me. i so want to talk to someone. someone who will listen. but who?
i really wonder. only dance, bball and now, gym and bowling, can take my mind off things.
distraction. that's the word.

and i promise jiayi im going to jiayou in gym. be it tramp or rhythmic.
I AM GOING TO TRAIN HARD!
i shall put myself to this test.
1) train hard this whole year for next year's gym comp.
2) train hard for this year's bowling.
3) practice hard for SYF drama this year (if i got thru).
4) achieve my goal of a GPA 3.5 by June hols.

i can do it!
Time: 10:22 PM

im in a super super bad mood. so bad that i cried.

firstly, clement changed alot. i didn't realised that till he called me just now.
normally it will be talking like some ah lian with that kind of ah lian words and stuff.
and today is the first time i ever heard him say something so crude?
not really crude. okay, i shall elaborate. this may seem minor but if it is coming out from clement's own mouth, it's really really bad.

u know people talk and they go 'walao it's damn nice SIA.'
notice the word? clement said that.for the FIRST time in all the times i know him, he never talked this way. some may say im oversensitive. but if only u know the normal way he talks. it's so different now.somehow he is getting influenced.SOMEHOW.

and i cried. while talking to him. i just heard THAT word and i cried. maybe im just too scared he will change.maybe im just too scared he will no longer be the clement that i know.then i hung up. din felt like talking to him anymore. even he said so himself that he might have changed.

on top of that, i just argued with my mum over money matters.
when i dont eat in school, she say giving me pocket money is a waste.
now that i eat in school, she gives me a miserable small sum of money.
which is practically half of what normal people get? and she expects me to survive my 2 meals EVERY DAY on that?i dont see how i can do that.

im so so not okay now. clement just called again. i felt really distant this time.
mt papa wanted to lend me money first. but i din want. have no idea when i can return the money to him. his comic books are still with me though.

only thing im looking forward to now is bowling tmr. but it sucks too. know why? mum refuses to buy az new bowling ball and the equipments. tell me big boss, HOW THE HELL AM I GOING FOR COMPETITION WITHOUT A BOWLING BALL? AM I TO FREAKINGLY USE THE HOUSE BALL? dammit.

it's not as though im spending ALOT now can? i never like to talk to her about money matters.
always talk to daddy. but she just has to intervene. bloody bitch.


dammit.im freakingly going to cry already.fuck this. im bloody pissed.
Time: 9:44 PM

yesterday was a super super long day.
yeah, woke up super early in the morning. and my mum had to nag at me early in the morning.
and guess what is the reason? cause she thinks that im not going to school but going to meet someone before i go to school. just because i leave the house at 6am.

siao ding dong.who meets so early in the morning lah? seriously it's mad lah.
then i came to school super sleepy.reached at 6.50pm?
ohwells.then had a very very long day.and pe was okay lah. i guess.
ran six rounds? two rounds warm up. then four rounds.
im already quite happy that we are not doing futleg (however u spell it).

after that eileen accompanied me down to down to change my shoes.
thank goodness she came with me or else i wil surely get lost.
yeah, she was like,'wah, lucikly i came over with you or u sure get lost one'
then we went back to school and stoned for awhile.
before we went for gymnast training.

training was kinda fun lah. haha.
i kept doing somersaults in the air until by the time i went home, i was like super blur blur already. but it was really fun.
and tramp is really scary! haha, JIAYI! :D
anyway, it was still really really fun.

heh, anyway went home really late.and yeah mummy wasnt happy.
then i ate and slept.

woke up kinda late today.was super sleepy.
and guess what? i reached school earlier than roy lah.
surprising lah. given that roy reaches school at like 6.30am?

ohwells.was just too tired to do any work. so i just sat there and stoned.
clem din call me last night ): bleh.
haha.im super tired today lah.yawns.
Time: 10:58 AM

okay, last night was bah.
HAHA.alot alot of things happened.

uhh, i went for project.
got caught in a traffic jam.luckily i din take taxi or i think my fare will be over ten bucks.
took me 30mins to travel from toh yi to bt timah. when normally it only takes 5-10mins.

then went to btp and bought stuff for the proj and i ate there.
after that it RAINED :D
and i shouldnt have worn that stupid shoes.once it rains, im dead.

amanda's mum came to fetch us and we went to her house.
WHY WON'T OUR CAR MOVE? ):
wil be trying that later though. im gonna construct a new one.
then her parents dropped me off at orchard and guess what?
my heels broke -.-
and i had to sit there for over an hour for elaine to come to my rescue.
but her maid's heels were too small. so by hook and by crook, i walked all the way to (i forgot where) and bought another pair of heels.

damnn. then we went to meet the rest of our OG.
initially booked a place at fish and co but after two hours, there's still no space.so we switch to pizza hut. but there wasn't enough space so jingjie, shaun and i went to BK and eat.
after that i had a good talk with shaun :D haha.and si hao tried to listen to us.haha.

then i went home.curfew was suppose to be at ten.
but i went reached home only like 11plus? :/
yeahh.
oh clement called me (: haha, seems like he is doing well inside lah. so yeah.
and photos after a long long time!


magic potion :D


gero and my pencil cases (:


when clem came to fetch me after school.


our dinner at fish and co


at toys'R'us.




a lover's touch




yay! it's the showdown for who gets simin! isit wai kit or jingjie x)


the couple! see the word LOVE? :D


arent they cuuute? lovey dovey couple leh.

they seriously have a couple look. awww.can't wait till they get together! HAHA.
Time: 10:21 AM

clement called me last night from camp.
and he sounded so fierce over the ph that i got really scared:/

there was only another time when i felt this way.
that was during his A levels. we kinda had a huge arguement between us.
and he refused to talk to me and everything saying he wanted to study.
he even refused my offer to go to school with him cause i will just be a nuisance!
given the fact that he knew i was sitting at the bus stop outside nj for nearly an hour, he did not bother to come out or anything. then somehow i called him and he sounded weirdly fierce and strange over the ph.

cause i havent talked to him for a month or so at that time.
yeah, back to yesterday.
he called me and all of a sudden he sounded so fierce.
and he said sorry cause he had been shouting all day and i was like huh?
till he reminded me that you had to shout back your answer to the commander.

sheeesh.that's how long ago i've been into footdrill lah.
and clem sms-ed me after that saying he nearly cried over the phone ):
said he isn't used to the discipline in camp:/
baah, i wish i can take over him lah. least i have 8 years of such discipline.
im used to it le. but he was NEVER in a uniform group before:/

and he msg-ed me at 5.15am this morning. saying he only slept at around one.
i know that if clem continues like this for ONE more day, he wil fall sick as usual.
he needs his eight hours lah.unlike me, dont sleep also can.
baah, shall wait for him to msg me tonight again. and hope he gets used to it asap.

ANDANDAND. i so want to go gym laaah. i to eileen i will go gym training next week :D
haha, but i dont want to do trammmps! omg, im damn scared when i do somersaults or something, i will go way out of the tramp and OOOF! onto the floor:/
given that when i dance i can already dance across a WIDE area esp if i jump and everything.
uhh, abit dangerous lah. but still, cheryl said that they only can start rythmic gym when the batch of J1's are finalised. THAT IS SO SO LONG! but still, she keeps forgetting that i have THREE years in nj to train. bah. im going back to gymmmm! yay. i need to get those old rusty gears in me to work again :D

going for project soon. or maybe now. then dinner with 07S20.
and u know what? my mum only gave me TEN dollars.
four dollars for dinner last night (she cheated me. gave me less fifty cents) and SIX dollars for lunch and dinner. is that great or what? my dinner confirm will be around 15bucks lah. like wth? they want to go sakae or fush and co or smth. i dont even get enough pocket money in school!

TWENTY BUCKS A WEEK. that's madness. esp when i buy loads of titbits to snack on.
i cant help it. i study better when im eating. SOMEHOW! damn. im broke.
and i dont want to use the 90 bucks in the ang bao.
that's what clement gave me. he said to use it when i really need it like not enough money to eat.
but i dont want to use itttt!
Time: 11:18 AM

yes, clement is gone (: haha. but it's not bad really.
ohwells. and he is the FIRST person i talk to and fell asleep over the ph!
im serious, dead serious. and it wasn't even past 11pm can?

clem called me and yeah, we talked and sing songs over the ph.
i was strumming the guitar while he tried singing over the ph.
awww. when u come out, im gonna teach you the songs okay?
so after we sang i just lie on my bed cause i was freaking tired.

and i asked clem to sing one PROPER and FULL song for me.
he was in choir and please lah, i never heard him sing one song before can?
so he said he needed to think of a song and everything.
i started zoning out already.
i zoned out to a point where i was at a bus interchange an suddenly i see math formulas PASTED on the window of every bus. AND I ZONED BACK IN :D

then after awhile i zoned out and never to return again x)
until i think around 11.30pm i woke up? and i was like SHIT.
WHERE'S THE PH? and i figured out my mum took it away to let me sleeeep.bleh.

then morning i woke up and switched on my hp (my hp died last night) and ta-da.
clem called :D and we talked till he needed to bathe. HAHA.
he said he kept calling my name over th ph and i din reply.
AND HE THOUGHT I WAS CRYING -.-

went to school feeling really tired.had no mood to study at all.
then everything was ho hum. except pe i guess.
i think i ate too many the the...i forgot the name.
then during pe, after the 4th round, i went to the toilet to vomit.
then missed the 5th round and went to do the 6th round.

bah, then i stayed back to study.
with umm, this RV guy, marcus from marist, roy and clayton and of course DEYAO!
who kinda bullied me till i screamed.
AND PEOPLE KNOW THAT IT'S SUPER RARE WHEN I SCREAM.
i broke the white hairband ): damn, gotta get a new one for me and bestf le.
Time: 8:08 PM

it's been a bad day.
reached school damn freaking early.6.45am.

everything is horrible.
except for drama. which i think it is okay.
don't feel like blogging.

i feel like talking to someone.
someone special.
someone who was never there.
Time: 7:46 PM

i just got home. bowling went really well.
school was okay i guess.
i know my posts are getting shorter and shorter by the min.

but i seriously have no time.
and i wonder how i can survive with so little sleep.
after school, went bowling.
after bowling, went to meet clem for dinner.

kinda had an arguement. or rather disagreement.
i met him at JE mrt station and he said he doesnt want to got fish and co at jp.
then i got really pissed off cause he was pissed at me for no reason too.
and it's the last time im meeting him and i wanted to have a good meal with him.
he, saying that he din want to travel, said he din want to take mrt.

and that kinda really pissed me off so i just walked away towards the JE entertainment centre on the verge of tears.
then i realised he lost me. dont know lah. but after that, he came over to find me.
i couldnt buy or eat anyth cause my wallet was with him and he disappeared!

then in the end, it ended well and he said go jp.
so we took a cab there. and ate fish and co.

best part lah. i saw my cousin, my aunt and grandma at jp.
i was like SHIT DAMMIT.
and they turned around to stare at me and clem blur blur went to turn back.
BAH! die liao lah. tsk.

after eating fish and co, we walked about and then cab home.
spent abit of time with him first and i cried.
i know two weeks is short lah.but still.....

haha, i dont know. im just going to mug super hard.
Time: 10:07 PM

loads of stuff happen.
and it's the feeling that's coming back.

the feeling of desperation.
the feeling of hopelessness.
and the feeling of giving up.

maybe supplying rach with one year supply of papayas is not a bad idea.
Time: 6:28 PM

emo shit getting into me again. and im feeling damn damn horrible inside now.
i realised long time ago that the guys i really love will always end up hurting me.
im no better cause i hurt the guys who really love me.
im such a hypocrite. bah. and im going to give up (somehow) on tong2.
it's upsetting, it's hard. but im going to try. somehow someday.



madness.
TEN ROUNDS!
10 x 400m = 4km.

hurhur. thank goodness clement came to fetch me today (:
and he helped me carry my bag and everything.
went to westmall and walked about. and for the FIRST time, we walked home :D
haha, cause normally i would be complaining bag too heavy and too lazy to walk.
but today, just for him, i walked home! cause he is going to army anyway.

then yeah. today was quite okay.
with the fact that bob picked on me as usual.
and i think i learn faster if i dont pay attention to him at all and learn by myself.
lessons went on and on.
voices droning in and out.

tuesday im having dinner with yunfeng most prob. BUT I DONT WANT MEET HIM WITH A STUPID BLACK BRUISE ON MY HEAD! damn.it's till bleeeding :/
wed i have bowling then dinner with clem.
thur i have drama auditions.
fri i think i have smth but cant rmb.ohwells.
Time: 7:43 PM

bah, i overslept today.
was suppose to meet gero and her mum at 7.45am at yiochukang.

my dad came into my room at 7.30am.
and i stared at him.then at the clock.
and i was thinking why on earth did he wake me up so early on a SUNDAY morning.
so i turned over and went back to sleep and he left the room.
at 7.31am, i was like SHIT! 7.3oam! i meeting at 7.45am! shitshitshit!
got out of bed, washed my face brushed my teeth, changed and at 7.35am, i was out of the house.

fast right? i know. then i tried calling gero. only to realised she was still in bed and she overslept also -.- haha, took train down to yio chu kang where her mum picked me up and sent us to jen's house. i was super super blur lah. bah. and we did proj. after which we left in her dad's car. her dad sent us to amk and gero and i took train down to woodlands to have lunch.

after that walked about and everything. i need to get my popular card lah. got lots of stuff i need to buy.and then we went home. i was kinda really sleeping on the bus. very sleepy lah.

and during the whole time i was outside, i kinda flared up at clement. being kinda pissed he cant even go to the mrt station to meet me and he is still under his mum's control and everything. it made me really pissed. he only has 5days left before he goes army? and his mum is still like shit.dont let him talk to me. not even allowing him to meet me or anything.feeling damn pissed.but i dont really care lah. we have been arguing for the past few days.yepp.

yawns, im sleepy.
Time: 2:28 PM

haha, i think things got better.
and yeah, im happy. due to a few people who made me happy.

ohwells.i so so wanted to sleep in today.
but mummy had to wake me up.
to go over to my cousin's house. she is back in spore after like 3years?
and she got a baby. so we were there for the one month.
and she called me huijun -.-
that's how long i never seen here.

ohwells.daddy and i ran in the rain and it was fun i guess.
and yeah, going to study now.ohwells.
Time: 9:13 PM

SUPER DAMN TIRED.
and i woke up late. din feel like going to school.
actually i went to school in a good mood. till something blahblah.
POOF! emo-ness crept into me.
and guess what? jer emo same day as me lah. and we got less emo at the same period lah -during pe.

i dont know why, but yeah. and i felt so touched.
sms-ed tian and ying. and what they said really made me touched.
sometimes i so wanna define who really are my friends. esp my bestfriends.
im so glad ying and tian have never forsaken me thru these years.

so i spent the rest of the day emo-ing. not talking to anyone.
then had pe where we ran.and i started talking. omg. first time i go pe without excuses keh?
and yeah, i actually ran. okay, not ran. I JOGGED. practically jogged. literally jogged.
with sneakers which are falling apart. haha.

i need to paint new sneakers.buying the shoes to paint tmr.yepp.
and yes i've cheered up. had a girls talk with mel and jen(:
and blahblah. after that went for rehearsals. and yeah, i dont know. heartbreak.

and after performance, went out for dinner with jer.
went to this chinese RESTAURANT :D haha. ate noodles plus shrimps and XIAOLONGBAOS (:
and jer wanted supper so we walked around westmall and went to macs to get an ice cream.
went home at around 10.30pm?

freaking tired.damn.
Time: 10:56 PM

some things just aren't meant to be.
i am trying to give up. but sometimes it's just not so simple you know?
maybe i will just like you from afar:/

today, i went to school at 7am.
though it only started at 8.30am.
went to study math. im finally kinda catching up with my trigo!
haha, thanks to cs and eugene and trudy for helping me along.

yeah, then i saw crush but yeah, like i mentioned above, im giving up!
school was okay. minus the fact that there's pe tmr. HATE IT!
bah, nevermind.anyway, the day went well.

stayed back after school and studied. thanks jer for teaching me chem (:
least i understand more now :D
and i realised i am so lucky.so many people helping me along:D aww.

my contact lens screwed up today. in the end i had to throw them away and wear specs.
my right eye was damn red.uhhh.
baah, had rehearsals. then i went to study somemore then went home (:

bwah, im tired.
Time: 7:58 PM

i just got back from bowling.
and i suddenly got a lover. HAHA. ohman, okay, ignore that.
just bowled and bowled :D

haha, school started quite okay.
studied my math and gave up.so did my phy.
yay.joycelyn taught me again and junwei too!
haha, junwei is my cute stalker okay? :D

yeah, then had lessons. and so so.
i saw AHEM :D i was freaking happy x)
haha, maaan.it's been so long since i saw AHEM okayyyyy!


happy me lah (: then had principal talk.
damn effing pissed. so wanted to rebuke what she said but i din.
then went to bowling with teddy bear :D haha.
came home like 8pm. ohwells. going to study at 10pm (:
and im going school early to study.

actually i love the cat high clan.
as in, they really are willing to help me cope with my school work and everything.
and they never complain. and also my OG people lah. we helped me along.
thankyou!

anyway, orientation photos are compiled already.can go see them aye?

ORIENTATION PHOTOS
Time: 8:05 PM

it's been kinda long since i blogged.
fine, only two days but yeah.

yesterday was the first day i went for proper lessons.
had kinda hard time catching up with everything.
but shujun must jiayou! :D
heh, and yeah had to stay back for math consultations.

then went over to bugis to meet clement for awhile.
walked about with him and took neos. and took cab home.

and yesterday was best cause of bob.

bob: (walks into class) shujun, what happened to your hair?
me: what happened to my hair?
bob: it's getting very brown you know.
me: it's been like that since last year.
bob: i know, but it's more brown now.what did you do to it?
me: what did i do?
bob: what happened to your hair during the holidays?
me: nothing.OH i know what happened. -pause- my hair grew longer.
bob: what did u do with ur hair during the holidays?
me: nothing, it grew longer and i wash my hair everyday.
bob: u sure u never do anything to it?
me: do what to it?
bob: i shall talk to mr eng about it.
me: go talk lah.

today went to school. thanks to joycelyn for teaching me math :D
and yeah, school was bascially SUPER tiring.
was kinda in a bad mood since morning.don't ask why.

then i had geog consultation straight after school.
then MI make-up lesson.
then physics consultation.
ended like 6pm.was super shagged lah.

thanks to shaun and kar ho for teachin me phy and math.
and to my dear rejected bimbo shermain for accompanying me.
AND OF COURSE ROY FOR WAITING FOR ME FOR LIKE SEVEN HOURS?
heh.im sorry! hahah.
Time: 7:47 PM

im seriously too lazy to upload photos already.those who want to see the photos that are taken during orientation go to the photo albums icon on the left and see them.

yesterday i went to watch my fair lady at esplanade with daddy. it was really really nice but at the wrong timing lah. i was so so super sleepy. so some parts i was like closing my eyes hoping i can catch some eye shut. after which i walked with daddy to raffles mrt station and there was the whole ingstad ppl. as in not whole lah. but ALOT. over a hundred :D

and we went to far east square pizza's hut. uhh, practically ALOT of OG ppl thought that free flow applies to pizzas too.which is not apparently. and OGLs were jsut stoning there watching them keep coming back for more pizzas. poor us :D and yeah, after dinner we had photo taking and everything(: then s20 and OGLs went down to dohby ghaut. walked to meridian's mosnter cue but it was damn crowded.so we walked to cuppage. and played pool there. soon, aaron's OG came too.and that time was already like 10plus? haha.had to leave first cause mum will kill me if i go home past midnight AGAIN. and yeah, was super tired by the time i reached home. blah.

i practically have no voice left to talk but i still got voice to shout. miracle eh?
Time: 4:05 PM

OHMAN. yesterday was a real blast okay?
it was the last day of orientation already. and we had the mass dance competition.

one of the pairs was adrian and vera. they danced until damn cuuute :D
and the other pair was THE FREESTYLER PAIR x)
they pratically din know the mass dance and freestyled all the way lah. oh maaan.
xian yong and i were laughing like siao ppl. so was everyone else. but they can freestyle damn nice i guess. HEH.

after tat we had war games. but it's a pity that it was raining. so war games wasnt that fun.
but THE CAT HIGH GUYS IN MY OG DAMN FREAKING NICE. joined forces with another class to sabo me. at first i was so so dry. then suddenly BWAH. they poured the whole pail of water over me. then after tat, when i was cheering, another pail of water came. MAIN CULPRIT IS CLAYTON LAH! gosh, i so wanna kill him.

haha, i kept going between my junior class and my OG. i think my junior class is damn cute lah x) after tat a group went out to buy dinner while another group stayed back in school. we played the number game mixed with truth or dare and the guys tried so hard to sabo me. pengyi tio and i made him do 5 catrtwheels in front of another OG. haha.then later i tio, they made me do 5 splits in front of another OG too. ahaha. then we had dinner.

and we celebrated wenhao's bday :D yay!
and after DANCE PARTY! yea baby!
i danced with my junior class first. making everyone high and everything.
it was held in the hall. with aircon. with disco lights. with dee-jays.
woohoo! then after that i went to find my OG. and danced with them.
dance dance dance! omg. damn fun :D

after the WHOLE thing, hugged those that i know.girls and guys.
cause there won't be another chance that we can dance like that again.
and shhh! i like this guy but i won't tell you who! HAHA!
and yeah, stayed back and clean up. then i reached home i think past midnight?
was super super tired.and im nice.still brought home jin xian's shoebag cause he left it in school.

im going to meet them later at cityhall i think.before i go for a concert. but i will still meet them at the clan dinner.well, MOST of them :D
Time: 11:29 AM

tomorrow's the last day of orientation ):

alot of stuff happened and i dont know where to start from.
let's see.

TUESDAY
orientation was just like that like that. all i remember was that i went out with my dearest OG26 to bt timah plaza and ate dinner. where all of us kept suan-ing jingjie :D and i told them ghost stories and got loads of different reactions. and everything was so fun x)

WEDNESDAY
don't remember much also. just know that went out with my other dearest OG22 to the food shops opposite beauty world. then had loads of fun :D haha.it's beyond words to describe. and also, junwei came to crash so like wth but still, it was super super fun! YAY! shujun is really happy during orientation.

TODAY
had lots of mass dance and everything. it was just dancing and dancing and dancing.woohoo.and yeah, orientation is ending. AND ADRIAN CAN DANCE LAH! HAHA! ohwells.today i just went straight home.guai right? and im going to study later.

rahh, i think orientation is seperating me and alot of stuff.hai): but still, i got to know new ppl and everything. it's love. but i want to spend more time with CGWM and bestfriends. esp bestf. been a week since i last talked to her properly alr):



OG26! :D


OG22! :D


ORIENTATION STATION GAMES!

THEY LOOK LIKE TWINS RIGHT? gosh. but they are not! and one is so quiet while the other is crap lah! :D:D

RYAN AND ME :D

at woodlands.
Time: 7:50 PM

YAY! INGSTAD ROCKS LAH! :D

haha, let's start from this morning. hmm, as you all know, last night i had a bad quarrel with clement so i just told him i dont want him to give me wake up calls anymore. and i woke up by myself, bathed and gong gong tried to find my black FBT. but u know what? I COULDN'T FIND THEM LAH! so today i was all dressed in red :/

left the house late.whici caused me to be late for morning briefing. I AM SO NOT GOING TO GO TO SCHOOL AT 6.15 FOR THE WHOLE OF THIS MONTH CAUSE OF THE NEW BATCH OF SEC1 WHO WILL CAUSE TRAFFIC JAMS SO EARLY IN THE MORNING LAH! damnn.

and after briefing, rachel and i were frantically trying to help ingstad girls draw eyeliner asap before assembly started. and after assembly, i met up with OG26 for the last time ): bwahhh.
sad right? and after which, we chiong to amphi to help put make up for everyone. was damn rush.cause we were the third house to present our walk-in.

HAHA. and yeah, we were like 'WHERE IS THE PURPLE BASE? WHERE IS THE GEL? WHERE IS THE BABY BRUSH?' etc etc. and after that walk in! omg, HATE IT LAH. i din stretch or anything before the dance.and i just went in dance for like 30sec. and i did my split. and guess what? STITCH. and i was on stage lah. i was like shit. that resulted me in leaving the stage 2 beats too late ): then i had only 5 secs to recover but i din ): but still! the dance went well! woo hoo!

YAY! AARON WE DID IT! haha.it's nice having you as my dance partner :D thankyou!
haha, and rachel, contemp was great too x)
and and to all ingstad people, WOOOHOOO! we rock our socks loah x)

after that we took pictures but i will only get it from eileen when she uploads it :D
ohman. INGSTAD ROCKS LAH!
and yeah, we got to see our new OG after that. things were quiet at first. but if got better (:

S20 OIE! OIE!
S20 OIE! OIE!
s20 OIE! SHHHH!

S20 OIE! OIE!
S20 OIE! OIE!
S10 OIE! HEEEEEEY MAKARANA!

and this is my DEAREST OG26 cheer :D
TWO SIX OIE! OIE!
TWO SIX OIE! OIE!
TWO SIX OIE! HI WASSUP YOOOOOO!

okayokay, i miss OG26 lah ): bleh. anyway, S20 is okay too! they just need to be more enthu.
AND YOU KNOW I CANT RUB OFF MY PURPLE EYESHADOW TILL NOW! it's still PINK.bah!
and and, DESMOND SAY I CAN BE SHOUTING QUEEN LAH :D
haha, cause for those who know me, they know that i can cheer damn loud.
i guess it's the practice i get since young, being cheerleader for LION HOUSE :D

haha, and yaaah. today was tiring but really fun! (:yepp.
tomorrow will be station games. woo hoo! can i pon? x) hahah.
an i better go to school EARLY tmr :D
hahah. going to mug after mummy comes back with my dinner.yup.


with my siamese twin - elaine!


that's how thick our make up was :D


with WENHAO x)


AND I JUST COULDN'T GET MY EYE SHADOW OFF! with chooi sum (:
Time: 7:38 PM

Time: 10:02 PM

clement's on the way home now. and it's a sad sad day ):
i slept like a pig. woke up at 8.30am.
after several bouts of nightmares of myself being a ghost, being killed by ghosts etc etc.
after that i woke up, ate, use the com and went back to sleep.

slept till 1.15pm. just in time cause clement just reached my block.
and yeah, i bathed and changed and went to buy lunch with him.
then ate and went to let him listen to our walk in song.
he's not going to school tmr. reason? his mum. who else can it be?
sigh, then i started with my chem. it was gone case lah.

cause i just told a simple sentence to clement that he din mean what he wrote to me on vday.
and i showed him what he wrote. after that he came explaining but i just kept quiet.
til i wrote him a note saying: i din get to know u better, i just gave up on you.
i think that's what i wrote lah. and poof, he cried after that.

i couldnt really be bothered. except passing him a box of tissue and everything.
i think im turning cold hearted again.ohwells.
and we just kept silent for an hour? i gave up on my chem so i revised smth i like - physics.
had to break the silence cause i had to ask about some phy stuff.
then he left and i just said okay. din want to send him to the door but he wanted me to.
and he said this before he left : i meant it when i said i love you.

and we both cried and walked away.HAHA. cute huh?
to me it's super dumb lah.i dont know why.

clement, i know u will be reading this post when you get home.
i want you to know that there are many things i TRIED to tell you.
but you always told me to keep quiet about them so that we won't quarrel.
tat's too bad okay? cause it made me feel less for you.
don't blame me for being cold towards you. i really don't want to care about you.
cause you don't care about how i feel in the first place.
Time: 5:10 PM

it's been kinda super long since i actually really posted about what has been happening everyday.
so i shall type it now since i am free. and after blogging i shall go revise my chem ):

WEDNESDAY
today's the first day of orientation. so i had to reach school by 6.50am. dar was super nice.
he called me and talked to me for the whole journey. even wu shuang was not happy cause i dao-ed her to talk to clement.heh. but yeah, he could talk cause his parents went to send his younger sis to school.she just started sec1. and after that we had briefing and everything. and just accompanied them for lunch. din really have time to interect with them lah. we hardly had time cause we kept going lessons then leave lessons then go lessons etc. it was kinda okay i guess. and we started lessons alr ): i really gotta work hard.super super hard.

after school, we had dance. when i tried to do my cartwheel. and as like normal, im too scared to go up fully. firstly, if i fall, the ground is damn freaking hard. secondly, im scared my collarbone will just ka-cha and break under the pressure.baaah. and i want to do ah beng walk and not cat walk! wenhao did the cat walk and it's suepr nice. CHEERS FOR WENHAO* :D

THURSDAY
today for OGL we din get to miss much lessons cause mainly there was nothing much for us to do and the school din let us have bonding session): to be honest, i can't remember what happened in school lah.OH i know that we had one and a half hour to do a mock compre and i finished it in half an hour and slept for another half hour. so i don't expect to get good results for that.OH, all i know is that i got lost lah. cause after school i went to clementi to settle some stuff first.was dismissed at around 1plus.then had my lunch at clementi but needed to head back to school by 4pm for OGL briefing. and guess what? i took the CORRECT bus in the wrong direction.this was what happened:

when you take a bus from pt A to pt B, and if you want to return to pt B from pt A, u normally cross the road and take the same bus back right?
so i took 156 from somewhere near nj and went to clementi. and i crossed the road to go eat.
after that i took 154 from THAT side of the road wanting to go back to nj.
who knew lah! it din go to nj at all can? damn.
i was sitting on the bus wondering how come the road from clementi to nj passes by flyovers and highway? i was like OH SHIT! die lah. so i asked the bus driver and he said that he already passed bt timah ): bwaah.so i got down at some ulu jalan ahmad ibrahim and crossed over to take the other 154 :/not fun okay? i was late for the briefing lah.but still! i got lost ):

and after OGL briefing, i went out with jingjie, elaine, roy and daphne for dinner at cine's pastamania for dinner and we took neos which are super spastic.was suppose to meet ah xiong today but did not in the end.i wanted to buy exercise books and everything.blah.

FRIDAY
today we have more time to spend with our OG cause of cca carnival. was dismissed at 10.40am and we collected money from them for orientation packages and brought them to have lunch, played games with them and have a cheer :D haha, i seriously think our OG is FINALLY bonded! GO OG 26! we played games which were super fun and everything.it was seriously seriously a success :D hahah.and yeah, after that was cca carnival which at the end i got really pissed with SOMETHING that i shant mention here. uhhuh. and we had dance rehearsals after that. but sadly to say, something cropped up last min and it was damn urgent so yah. blaah.

TODAY
woke up at 5.45am. needed to meet elaine and yan qing at the overhead bridge at 7am.
so yeah, thought i would be late.but who expected that i could reach school in 20 mins (on a sat morning that is) yepp. did make up for cheryl while rachel did on eileen. then we had the first dry run which was super screwed cause everyone was coming in at the wrong timing and baah.i felt so bad bad bad): but second dry run was such a HUGE success can? yepp.i think it was damn freaking good lah.not perfect but still good :D heh.

and after both dry runs we had debrief and i headed over to the mass dance.wanted to go for lunch with cheryl and eileen so had to wait for them to finish mass dance. in the end i went to dance also lah.cause i just sat there and stone like some STONE :D
and we went for lunch and talked about loads of stuff and here i am now, HOME! :D


OUR FIVE HANDS IN THE MRT :D

=
lakshmi and i on the first day of school :D


i din know how to play wei qi so i did this with anh during cca carnival:D


my special dish for elieen - baked beans mixed in egg yolk and put on egg white with a lemon:D
Time: 4:43 PM

Time: 8:46 AM

and yes, i got lost today.
ended up at jalan ahmad ibrahim lah.instead of school.
cause i went to clementi and did some stuff then i took the wrong side home.
i fell damn cheated lah.shan't elaborate.
but i was thinking, since when from clementi to school got flyover and highway de?
bah.

and today not much done for orientation. just went out to eat dinner.and yeah.
next week is going to be fun.but meantime, clement will update the blog for me.
cause i will be very very busy.
yeah.

i love you (:
Time: 10:00 PM

Time: 4:15 PM

talked to xiong till around 3.20am last night. cause it was going to be our last late night conv alr.
once school start, it's serious studying for me.and maybe back to serious dancing. but yeah, gonna study really really hard.

then i woke up at 9am. clement came over after that. waited till i finished eating my breakfast then we went over to westmall. and dar bought me a school bag :D cause most of my bags are for going out or it's too big - MY ROAD TRIP BAG :D heh.yeah. and he bought me my school stationeries too. after that we bought lunch back and ate while watching casino royale. and we planned to go bowling but i was super sleepy so we went up to my room first. and dar sat there writing a letter for me. the last letter i will ever receive from him i guess. while i slept. i really slept lah. until he woke me up at 4pm to go bowling.

went bowling and after that we just sat down and talked about us.and he told me to be stong and not to get into trouble and everything. i just broke down and cried. and while i was crying, i suddenly felt a tear drop on my hand.and my hand wasnt anywhere near my face.and i looked up.dar was crying too.it's been a very long time since both of us cried TOGETHER. the other times we actually cried together was when we were breaking up or quarrelled really badly with each other.so yah.

and we kinda stopped crying.then he started telling me to take care and everything and i stared at him.and then.. i cried. he was like dont cry dont cry then he cried again.baah.then we went home and i transferred MOST of the photos we took tgt in this one year into his mp3.so at least he got smth to rmb.and after that, my dad gave him a pandan cake and he left.bwahh. i feel so much like crying again. but im glad bestf promised me that this year would be a new year.
a year where she will be there for me and she would not leave me alone.thankyou bestf. love.

and i love you clement(: i will be strong. so must you.and dont try to act tough lah.i know you will.take care of yourself okay? and i promise you i will study hard.won't disappoint you.


Time: 7:19 PM

i did read the first post dar wrote.
read it before i left the house.and yeah, i nearly did cry.
sounds like a cry baby right? i just say what happened ytd lah.

clem was suppose to meet me at 10am but then his mum made noise.
and dar kinda cried cause he was super pissed.
but after that he came over.and u know what he did?

i went to open the door and he showed me a kitkat.
sayin that the kit kat was the token for me to open the door.
then i stared at him and said no. and i went back into the house.haha.
then i went out again and opened the door for him.
and he bought a whole bunch of roses for me.aww.
sweet right? haha.

then he came over and ate potatoes i was cooking.
after that he helped me pack my bag again and we left for lot1 to catch DEATH NOTE2.
when it ended it was around 3plus alr.and that's when clem and i went to buy the super big stuff toy pig to keep me company when he was in army. his name is DA ZHU(:
the pillow pig is called bian bian (:

and we left lot1 and headed down to town to meet my dearest and her darling (:
that's when i kinda cried on the train.cause i dont want dar to leave me ):
hahah.anw,i shall just name my dearest- dearest and her darling- milk. cause i dont think she wants me to say who she is :D

and yeah, we went about taka till we went over to cuppage to play pool. and after that went to plaza sing pasatamania to eat.
and it was super super funny lah.cause everyone was looking at the big big pig i was carrying and they said it was cute.as in people i din even know.
and when i was outside zara at taka, this lady came over with her toddler girl and she asked if she could play with my toy.cute right?

and at pastamania, the pig was so big that we had to ask the people there if we could have a chair for it to sit on. and they were so nice and they found a seat for da zhu you know. and a BIG thankyou to those ladies and the gentleman sitting there and letting us put da zhu on the seat :D
oh man, dearest and milk were laughing like mad lah. so was dar and i.

we went to carrefour after that to buy water.and while the guys were paying, dearest and i went to the restrooms and u know what happened? when we got back, milk said that there were two ladies that walked past them and said that da zhu was super cute and then they said THEY WERE TWO GUYS CARRYING A TOY! ahah.like gays lah.oh man.

so we reached marina and walked to the fireworks place.reached there damn early at around 9plus? then dar piggy-backed me for a short distance just for fun. aww. and after tat we headed over to the arcade there and i cried again.bwah, i kept crying i dont know why. and milk kept asking why i was crying.heh.

after that, we went to this place by the river and sat there.both dearest and her milk were so cuddly.hahah.dar and i were just uhh.HAHA. i just lied down on his lap and slept and we also kept taking photos.milk kept saying we better not drop into the river.hahah.

NEVERMIND, we both can swim okay? and there i cried again.blaaah.after tat, anti-climax.
started to have a bit of rain.so we went under shelter.after that we walked down the road and found two double seats which are around 5-10m apart? so dearest and milk sat on one while dar and i sat on the other.

and after awhile milk came over saying that dearest was crying ): dont cry okay? :D and then clem and i started singing.i dont know why.i cant rmb if i cried.but still, we sang and sang and sang. then dar piggy-backed me :D he piggy-backed me to dearest and milk there, then ran all the way back. and i was screaming when he ran lah.cause damn scary.

and then i said milk couldnt to that for dearest and he said he can.so he squatted down but dearest REFUSED to go on top.it was hilarious seriously.the first attempt, the both of them fell over lah.and in the end he did piggy-backed her but she dropped halfway.LOUSY MILK D:

then was the fireworks and everything.nice okay? and i kissed dar and milk saw. then he was like he can also kess dearest. oh man, seriously funny.and after that we WALKED AND WALKED AND WALKED.i was dying casue of my heels.and there was this part which was mud and my heels will sink in.so dar piggy backed me across the mud :D i love you (:

and yeah,dearest's mum was suppose to fetch us at marina but she lost her way so we were supposed to meet us at harbour front. and it was alr aroun 1.20am le. so we all rushed like mad for the last trains.it was super funny.omg, i am NEVER running with heels anymore.seriously i couldnt walk properly when i reached home lah. and yeah, first they sent clem home then me(: haha.thankyou auntie :D and yepp.that's about all.i love you dar, and i love you too dearest.
BUT I DONT LOVE YOU MILK CAUSE YOU WHACKED ME SO HARD! x)

anw, reached home like 2.40am? just went to sleep.cause i got car sick ):
din even talk to xiong.yepp.then i woke up at 1pm today. and left the house at 4.30pm cause it's grandma's bday.HAHA.and yeah.loads of stupid stuff.ohman.
we had steamboat and blahblah.too lazy to elaborate.

dar's coming over tmr.OH, dar and i can have web cam conv.im praying his mum will be nice to let me have a mic.so tat i can talk with dar freely alr.he even waved hi to my mum over the webcam.cute right?heh.


























THIS IS DEAREST AND HER MILK :D sweet huh?














Time: 9:54 PM