Save the emotional turmoil.
I've even lost the appetite to eat already.
Countless conditions, never a gift from the heart.

The someone I always needed was not there.
I wonder why.
I think I've cried enough and heard enough.
We're both weary from this, I can tell.

Time to move on. Just a few more days before I leave.
Back to locking myself in my room.
Time: 9:03 PM

I'm in a pretty slack mood today so I've decided to blog :D

Yesterday was funnnn just slacking the day away with boyf when we were suppose to be up early to go blade at ECP but a hitch when the boy couldn't wake up so I got all lazy and thus, the slacking at home. Then headed over to his house and slacked more cause it started pouring and so no blading ):

Dinner with his family in the evening to celebrate his popo's birthday. Overall it was great day and night :D

I realised I've loads of things to complete before I go for my cruise.
- Sneakers
- Sewing
- Revision
- Shirts

and there are still many more. Ohwells.
I'm off to watch anime first. I'll try to finish the sneakers tonight and the sewing tomorrow. HOPEFULLY.

Check back few days later for peekchures :D It's all in my cam and phone!
Time: 7:29 PM

I'm finally back into blogging. This whole week is basically just training and sewing.

Not to mention, the falling sick part =/
Yep, I'm down with flu now and that sucks cause I can't even taste my food ):
On the bright side though, I went to blade with boyf and it was really fun? He fell down but he's all right (:

Plus I made him do a little bit of sewing today too =P
Surprised? Hehheh.
Lazy days slacking about. Realise I need to STOP PROCRASTINATING and START STUDYING.
Easy said than done with a thousand and one million things to settle for bowling and the TICs don't even give a shit about it? I think they only care about the money issue and that's all. All 'sai-kang' push to the captain. Wts?

But next week will be a better week to start studying cause I'll be in school from monday-wednesday and I'll most prob go bowling on Thur and Fri.
There's math tuition tomorrow and gym with the daddy BEFORE that o.O
Need to wake up early which is sad for me cause I've been lacking sleep these days.
The mummy thinks I put on make up cause my eyes are like panda eyes. That's how bad it is.

Blood from an wound caused by my bowling bag. You couldn't imagine how happy I was to see blood and feel pain. Okay, I sound sadistic but I told the boyf that I'm going to ECP on Sunday and fall down and bleed all over :D Sounds fun, yes?

Oh yes, and PLEASE DO NOT TRUST EUGENE LIM HONG HUI in directions please? He made us take the wrong bus (supposedly going to Tampines Int. but it was heading towards Woodlands which is the opp direction instead), getting off wanting to cross the road and take the same bus back to Tamp, but the smart guy say, I know how to walk back. So we walked, saw another bus stop that has the bus to go to Tamp, he refused to take. Came to dead end and I finally gave up and went to wait for the bus. So much for following a guy who gets lost even in town. Geez.

Okay, I'm sleepy already. Off to bed. Tmr's a long day.
I feel that things between Clement and I are really backsliding.
Turning for the worst. I just pray everything will be all right.
Just hoping for the best.
Time: 10:09 PM

Boo.

I'm here trying to revive this blog. It's been so dead lately.
Baby is too lazy to blog, and she's been bugging me to blog. So here I am. =/

Grrr. And she gave me a word count. 500 words. 500 damn words. How am I actually going to type 500 words of nonsense? This is killing me. It’s worse than a GP essay, because at least I know what I want to write about in a GP essay. This is like a piece of total randomness, and so I’m being random here. Right? Right. This is why in the first place I don’t have a blog of my own.

So well, here goes nothing.

Today is the 20th of November in the Year 2008. It is a Thursday today. And a very boring day. Stayed at home the whole day, doing nothing constructive in particular. Woke up pretty late, around 11+. Well, pretty early for my usual standard though, I must admit. =/

Been watching Blood+, some anime that baby have recommended me to watch. Not bad, seems rather promising after watching the first two episodes. She says that I watch anime sloooow, but I think I’m pretty fast okay. It’s just that the stupid anime takes quite a while to stream, so yeah.

Damn, the word count says I’m not even halfway there. Grrrr. Even my wonderful brain can’t think of much more crap to talk about.

Yawn. This is getting tough. Tougher than I expected. Much tougher. Much much tougher. Yeah, you guessed it. I’m wasting words typing rubbish again. =P

Training is on tomorrow. SAFRA Tampines. Seriously, it’s freaking far. Like on the other side of the island from where baby stays. I’ve got to go to her place to get my equipment since I left it there. That means I have to wake up early again tomorrow. Geeeeeez.

Oh. And I finished reading the first 3 books of the Twilight series. Yup, they are great. Totally absorbing read. But I still don’t get why baby is so obsessed over Edward Cullen. Sure, he is nice and all, but he is FICTION. =/

And I want to read the last book of the series. Breaking Dawn. But baby won’t lend me because she hasn’t finished reading the book yet. And she hasn’t finished reading the book because she does not want the story to end yet. -_-
Oh, and she’s afraid I’ll spoil the story for her too. XD
But I can’t wait to find out the ending. So I’ll try to steal the book tomorrow. Shhhh, it’s a secret. =P

Going out on Sunday. Going to be quite fun. Oh, and painful too. And I hope I can wake up early. Or at least, on time. Maybe I shouldn’t sleep on Saturday. But then, I’ll just rot and die on Sunday if that was the case.

Tadaaaa! I reached 500 words. Actually, not yet, but as I’m typing this, I’m probably reaching the 500 mark somewhere about now. XD

That’s all for now.
Time: 6:43 PM

I told the others to take a big leap and dare to be different. Seems like I can't do the same?
It's amazing, his level of tolerance.
But I know, someday, even the strongest metal rod will break.

Someday, it will happen.
I've thought about leaving, one time too many.
Leaving cause of fear, fear of being hurt.
But more of fear of hurting another.

They say leaving should be the last thing we should ever do.
But what other options are there besides leaving? I'm left with none.
Like what I once told you, 'The closer you get to me, the higher I'm building this wall.'
Maybe, I really haven't recovered. I was just lying to myself, hoping to start anew.

I should reconsider my option(s).
Time: 2:27 AM

Grueling experience. Walking with heels from 10am all the way till 10pm. 12hours.
Walking to the book fair @ Suntec was killer enough. To rummage through the crowd and find things to buy and to rush back to the queue in time to make payments nearly made my feet give way. Then after which the walk back to the MRT to travel to PS. Thank goodness I could sit and rest my feet a little. Everything settled, walked to Cineleisure and the back to Somerset station. My legs could have died there and then. R.I.P.

The boy disappointed me yesterday and nearly today. Sometimes I wonder what goes through his mind seriously.
And of course, CLEMENT IS BACK FROM GENTING LIKE YAY! But we're having some communication problems now and I hope we can really settle it because I don't wanna start crying all over again ):

My feet are still uber painful. I'm so not going to wear heels for the next 2 weeks or so. PAINFUL! And for the sake of people who've been missing out on photos, here are some random ones. Those recent photos have yet been sent to me (the girls and the boy). Ah, time to rest my tired souls (pun intended) and watch some anime or play my PSP.






Time: 11:20 PM

I realised I haven't been blogging for really long cause these days I've just been sleeping mostly. I think?

So quick updates.

Tuesday - (I don't remember where I've been actually=/) Oh okay, I remember. Sewing lessons in the afternoon. Met boyf before that and he accompanied me for lessons. AND HE FELL ASLEEP. Geez. Hopeless I tell you.

Wednesday - Woke up frigging early to meet the girls at Siglap Starbucks. I DIDN'T GET LOST IN THE EAST OKAY! :D Photos up when I've got the time. Talking to the girls is just L.O.V.E :D:D After that headed down to training and had a good long talk with coach (:

Thursday - Met baby at IMM. Bought a new sewing machine. Fun fun. Imagine all the things I can sew once I've finished learning the basics.

And today is stay at home day. I'm just too tired to head out. Yawns.
Well, someone's out tmr so I guess I'll head out tmr too.
Only difference is he'll be with his friends and I'll be alone.


I'm off to play PSP. BOSS BATTLE YEA!
At least, I hope it lifts my spirits up a bit.

And yes, Clement's coming baaaackkkkk. Wonder if he bought presents for me.
But I really doubt it. Ahwells, he better be back like really sooooon. I so wanna talk to him!
Time: 9:48 PM

HELLLLLLLLLOOOOOOO!
It's been damn long since I've posted yes I know!
I've been too engrossed with my heart throb vampire boyfriend, Edward, that I can't keep my eyes off him.
Literally of course.

These days have been really great somehow?
Midnight movie, staying up at macs talking, playing pool and the random-est stuff you can ever think of.
Sewing lessons have been a blast of course with nice Aunty Sandy giving me free lessons (:


MI RE DO :D


3rd monthsary :D


His FIRST time at a neo print shop xD

Okay, so people have been wondering what I've been up to. Wellllll.
Just the norm I guess? Going out, shopping (actually not? I haven't bought ANYTHING so far. Don't I deserve a pat on the back or something? :D), movies, slacking.
Well anyway, I'm going to start studying already. Not that I'm some hardcore mugger or what.
But hey, to get U for math for promos ain't a joke man.

I.AM.SERIOUSLY.AIMING.TO.GET.STRAIGHT.As.FOR.A.LEVELS.
Don't laugh, I know it seems pretty impossible for me but hey, I really do believe hardwork pays off! Then can fly overseas and I don't have to be looked down by my parents who believe I'll just be a failure in life. And of course, go overseas and date a hot ang moh guy (who most preferably can be a vampire but a sweetheart like Edward) and I wouldn't mind.

Currently, my boyfriend is on a date with Edward cause he took the first book away and is not replying my text. Grr. Rubbish, snatching MY Edward away. HELLO BE STRAIGHT NOT GAY THANKS!

Plus I saw the cutest jigsaw puzzle today and I would have bought it if I had $$$ on me at that time but sadly, I had ZERO in my clutch ): I really like that jigsaw. Geez.
Okay, I'm off to bed soon because I've to be up early to complete my 'sewing homework' before heading for the sewing session tomorrow :D Happy happy.
Time: 11:37 PM

Boo.

Been a long while since I've posted here. XD
And no, don't ask me why I'm back blogging on here, I won't tell you. (Actually, I'm being forced to post, that's the truth.)

And YAY! For the holidays are finally here. Like woohoo. Waited so damn long for it. But now that they are here, I'm bored numb. Totally, completely bored.

Slept a whopping 17 hours. 12AM - 5PM. Tell me I'm amazing. =D

And I seriously don't know what else to type already. But I really have to think of what to type, since if I don't think of what to type, I cannot get my baby to go upstairs. And if I cannot get my baby to go upstairs, I shall be bored. And since I don't wanna be bored, I'm back to typing some nonsense on here again. (Like what I just typed =P)

Since I can't really think of anything to say, let's talk about bowling.

Training these days seem so meaningless without a coach and all, but the fact that baby is there makes it so much more fun. Heh. From our little bets with each other, to the funny things she says ("HELLO, THIS IS TRAINING!"), to the rubbish shots we throw down the lanes (or more of I throw down the lanes, but whatever =/), it was all great fun.

And Milo is coming. As in Milo, the competition. It would really be fun going up with baby and all. Heh. But it's a lot of money involved. Gah. I really wouldn't mind going just for the experience. Gonna have to find a way to ask my dad.

Okay, I think this should be sufficient already. =D
Byeeeee.

PS: Baby, I love you. <3

Time: 11:00 PM

I realise I'm reading the series of twilight too fast that I'm going to stop halfway in the fourth book and re-read the first three books again. Well another reason is also because the fourth book is the last book and I can't stand knowing the ending YET. So maybe I'll read the first 3 books another 10 times or so before reading the fourth book.

Which apparently leads me to the fact that my boyfriend so CONVENIENTLY let slip the ending to me. So much I felt like murdering him there and then.

Well, speaking of which, the boyfriend says he still prefers Jacob Black to Edward Cullen but I still feel Edward is one hell of a boyfriend to begin with. The romantic side of him, the adventurous side of him, the protective side of him, the humourous side of him, it just all fits to a perfect guy, just like what Bella says in the novel.

Jacob Black's really sweet too, minus the fact he's younger than Bella, but he protects her no matter what, he was always there for her whenever she needed him, he puts Bella in top priority above all else.

Sigh, where have all the good guys gone to? Sure there are a few here and there but still, isn't it just heartwarming to see how much a guy really can sacrifice just for true love? I must say, Stephenie Meyer is one good writer. True that it may be a fantasy but the feelings evoked by reading this book is really, indescribable.

I know I know, I'm getting to engrossed in this series, even Aks says so. I KNOW. Geez. Can't a girl daydream some times about her dream guy? It really is sad to know no such guy exists anyway ):

Okay, I've finally (YAY!) uploaded the photos in my ph to my com. Clap for me please. Thank you. Kill the guy for not sending me the thousand pictures in his phone yet. Slow pok forever sleeping. Will show the pictures tomorrow (if I'm even home that is to say). Class chalet friday, saturday, sunday. And yes, should I go to M'sia's competition to bowl? :/ Ahwells. I really want to. I'm still thinking about Edward. Gah, sorry but yeah, I like that kind of guy :D
Time: 10:16 PM

I finished reading 2 books in one day. Amazing yes no? It's almost a total of 1200 pages of words.
And to think I can't sit down and read Great Expectations for more than an hour?





I'm currently searching for the third book but apparently many stores OOS?
Anyone knows where to get the third book?

Anyway, I've just watched the movie trailer on 'Twilight'and it's pretty different from the book itself?
The trailer is at http://www.twilightthemovie.com/

Geez, I hope it won't be a major disappointment when I go watch it in a few weeks' time. Anyone wanna go watch with me? :D



Here's the main cast anyway.



Layman terms, English guys are just so hot. I can't wait to migrate or study overseas! All the heart throbs will be there but of course, there'll be heartbreakers too. Hmm.

I still think Edward in the novel is such a sweetheart and he's really a heart throb. As for the actor, well, he's not so much a heart throb but it all depends on his acting skills. If he's good, I'll fall totally and crazily in love with him. Geez, that's why I can't read romance for nuts. I fall so in love with the guy.

Okay, the boyfriend's jealous. He won't even let me daydream of my vampire boyfriend. Tsk.
I don't care. I still want my vampire boyfriend. Tian thinks I'm crazy -.-

I'm off to hunt for the third book cause my brother has the fourth book already. THIRD BOOK STOP HIDING!
Time: 8:01 AM

GOODBYE PW!
GOODBYE OP!
HELLO HOLIDAYS! :D

Finally everything is OVER! Like yay!
But now's boyfriend to jiayou all the way!



Well,
Happy 3 monthsary darling! <3
I'm sorry the night kinda "ended off" with tears and all but still thank you.
Esp your presents! I got a pleasant surprise when I saw them sitting on my room table.
I love you still (:

Time after OP was spent eating out with the other "done-with-OP" friends at Seoul Garden @ Taka.
Wanted to find aks and mark at vivo but lazy so headed home.

Long overdue pictures will be up soon when the boy finally has time to send me cause it's all in his phone. Sam.T needs to send me photos too.

And hello to my superman(:
Badminton can't wait!

On the side note: WHY THE HELL DO I HAVE ANOTHER RANDOM NUMBER SMS-ING ME?! FIRST ROYSTON AND NOW THIS GUY? If I find out it's my NICE NICE godbro's doing, he is SO dead. Grr, he still owes me like $130, damn him.

-: Hi is tis shujun?

me: you are?

-: I am wenlong. Mind intro?

me: uh, who gave you my number?

wenlong: eh.i just saw my contact list,happen to c tis number so msg u lor.eh.mind intro?

-----I AM SO NOT GOING TO WASTE MY SMS TO REPLY----
Like bullshit he has my number in his contact list. Unless it's the bball wenlong I know outside but weird, I can't recall giving him my new handphone number. Or maybe I did, online. BUT INTRO? FOR WHAT SINCE HE ALREADY KNOWS ME. Geez, what a lousy excuse seriously.
Time: 11:37 PM

/Be my superman, now and always.

When people bitch about others, I seriously wonder what's going through their minds.
As in, yeah, sure there's a thrill in bad-mouthing someone with others who share the same thrill as you.
Ahwells, whatever. I just read someone's blog and realised that uni life is also the same with girls bitching and backstabbing each other in uni. Geez, people never change I guess? Like the song 'High school never ends'.

Sometimes, I also wonder if seeing your partner nearly everyday of the week is a good thing. Sure, people will say, 'What are you complaining about? My boyf/girlf and I hardly have time to talk on the phone much less go out!' But ever realise, absence REALLY makes the heart fonder? Plus if two were to meet up occasionally, they'd really treasure the times spent together. Of course there are the plus points for meeting up almost every day such as having a closer relationship, stronger trust in each other and all.

I don't know why I'm being so random here but ahwells. I know I'm such a pain in the ass sometimes. Especially to the boyfriend who seems to give me the whole world but I never seem to grasp it properly. I'm always being a bitch over the smallest thing I don't know how he stands me.

It's a hard time and I can say I'm so NOT matured enough yet for such a relationship. When will I ever grow up and stop daydreaming of a fairytale relationship? Geez.
I always hope for my dream guy, a dream relationship and of course happily ever after.

Now tell me,
which girl doesn't hope for that?
Time: 2:54 PM

Sweeeeet start to conversation won't you say so? :D

[F.c]™ Taking a walk down memory lane. |love yuan ling| says:
hey baby
[F.c]™ Taking a walk down memory lane. |love yuan ling| says:
missed me?

Anyway yes, I know, lack of updates.
Let's seeee.

Wednesday was apparently the last day of school. Caught 'Max Payne'.
Apparently baby fell asleep towards the last part even though he said it was exciting -.-
Training was screwed here and there. It was so funny seeing everyone screw up due to the immense pressure I decided to put on them xD

Thursday was job interview day. We spent like ages hearing the guy talk and talk and talk non-stop. It wasn't much of an interview but more of like introduction of the job. Geez.
Walked about Singapore River with boyf, running around malls, jumping of steps, laughing ourselves silly, waving to tourists on the boats (one waved back at me okay!), shopping (boyf sucks at restraining me from shopping), late dinner at PS and everything else.

Friday was just slacking about at home, playing cards till late night. Watching cartoons on OKTO.
Eating the most random stuff from prawns to crabs to chips to baked potato to soup.
Having the silliest conversations also.

AND DID I MENTION? FC CALLED ME. Heh, happy happy and I was like talking non-stop to him. I MISSSSS YOUUUUU!

Okay, back to today. Apparently it was basically doing my proj stuff the whole day. Ahwells.
Baby has to get up at about 6am tomorrow and he K.O-ed without setting alarm clock. Good luck to his group mannnn.

Photos another time :D
Time: 11:18 PM