That boy asked me to be ready to leave house at 8am but that sleepyhead wasn't even awake 7.30am -.- By the time he came over it was about 10 plus? We ate breakfast then left house to our first stop - Iceskating!

Baby insisted we took the circle line since we've never taken it before. So we sat the train all the way to Bishan, transferred to the circle line and took down to Stadium. Then we headed to Leisure Park Kallang where the Kallang Ice World is. But by the time we reached there, it was almost 12.30pm and they had ice maintenance at 1pm so we headed for lunch first. Went to Pastamania to share a 7" pizza and a bake rice.

After that we headed up to get the tickets to the ice skating. Ohh so fun okay! It's both our first time ice skating. Starting off was really funny cause I was holding baby for the first few rounds in case he fell and that silly boy was too afraid to let go of the side walls the first 2 rounds or so. I didn't really like the skates cause it felt really uncomfortable but I guess bo bian cause it's standard kind of skates. But after that, baby felt a bit more comfortable to let go off the wall but whenever I skated a bit faster, he'd ask me to slow down immediately. Heh.

Funny thing is, whenever he skates and like want to turn, he would somehow turn this mini turn that's 90deg to the left and end up right in front of me literally. And I always have to stop in order not to crash into him -.- It happened more than 10 times and he still suddenly turns right in front of me somehow. But wells, I don't really like the skates, felt it was super jerky and stuff. Maybe if I had my own ice skates it wouldn't be that bad but I'm still more apt in rollerblading than ice skating.

Anyway, we had fun :D loads of fun in fact. I wouldn't mind going ice skating with baby again though. So after we left, we went to this Halloween shop to look around for awhile.

Damn I wish Singapore celebrated Halloween. I mean, it's so fun to dress up for a day. But instead we only have "Be yourself day" for little kids -.-

We then took the circle line again, this time to Dakota then bus-ed down to ECP Big Splash to play at - Lilli Putt. Heh it's like this miniature 18-hole golf which is like super fun and baby knew I always didn't have a good impression of golf and since we've been playing Pangya on my psp for quite some time now, he thought it'd be a good idea to let me try out a bit of golf. And boy is it so much more difficult than playing in Pangya ): But it's so fun! 'Cept for the fact you can't really use your full strength at all cause the course is really miniature. Well I did bounce off the "supposed" route once or twice cause I used a bit too much force but it got me to the hole faster and the boy was like, "HOW CAN LIKE THAT!" xD

After finishing the 18-hole twice (we went 2 rounds, heh), we left. Baby won of course. Then we cabbed back to his place cause taking public transport back to his house from ECP is way too tedious.

Thank you baby for making it such an awesome date! (:

I love you.

I mean, I hope I can stay for that long but it's me you're talking about ): I hate being bound by work and stuff like that. Gah. My previous one was 3 months and I snapped. This is going to be 10 frigging months. & I do really feel like crying cause I feel like I really just signed my death contract for 10 months.

Gah, what am I to do? Am I to go down to the office tomorrow and ask for that part to be removed? But I already signed it. Plus I know that as a teacher, I have to be responsible. I can't just up and quit after maybe like 3 months? =/ Gosh this sucks seriously. How?

I wish baby's here with me now cause at least he can comfort me but his phone is now outta batt and I've got nobody to turn to ): Even my mum's saying it's a bad idea and told me to scrap this contract.

Somebody please just tell me that I'm not doing anything that's signing my doom's contract? ):

I dread going to work. Gah. Call me clingy but I love spending time with boyf every day rather than working to earn money. Can't help it la given that he and I have never really been not by each other's side since J1.

Anyway, sucha short notice. I'll be starting work like next Monday. Finally, some moolah in my pocket. But idk if I'll even have leftover money given that I'm working part-time. I've gotta repay my dad for my iMac and my camera flash. That's like $2k gone already. Well, actually I'm quite contended with this arrangement la.

Last time when I worked Mon-Fri 9am-6.30pm, sure I had more moolah, but I hardly had any time for myself and I went home late every time, rushed with the peak hour crowd to get on the train, etc. Now I'll be working part-time, either morning or afternoon shift, and a few days a week depending. Though teaching is going to be tougher but I'd choose that any day over having to read some stupid blind ass' emails and buying meals for him.

Anyway looking forward to this Saturday! :D Baby promised to take me out on a date. Heh. And he's planning the whole thing as a surprise. Yay! Love my boyfriend to bits.

That's always the question after a break up.

Varies for different people, and how they view life to be.

And also depends on how serious people treated that certain relationship to be.

For me, I always believe that ex-es can always still be best friends. Even though the initial pain may take a long time to heal, but ultimately, it can happen. Afterall, he/she was once the closest person to you at one point of your life.

But I've come to be proven wrong. There is actually no way to become best friends again.

There's also no such thing as being able to totally get over someone because deep down, no matter what, as long as you were serious in the relationship, you can never be able to get rid of the feelings and memories you once had. Like how you once talked about your dreams to that person, how you wish you life could be, how you both planned to do things together but never managed to do so, etc.

Big sister was right, sometimes not being friends is the easier and less painful way. Because this way, you never need to keep re-opening old wounds each time you talk to each other, you don't have to rake up old memories and feelings. Still, I do want to be friends no matter who it may be cause to me, they have been a part of my life and even though, it hurts each time I recall the times I had, it's memories that can never be replaced, and it's just memories belonging to both of us and no one else. Those memories and those feelings are what I still treasure and are what still binds our lives together unless time could be turned back.

But of course, there are some idiots whom I never want to speak to again. Like what I said, it depends on how much you've put in the relationship. Heh.

Anyway, some shots I took when I was out. The night my legs nearly killed me and my shoulders hurt so badly cause my bag was so heavy -.- Sucks when baby's not with me cause he shares half the load with me :D

This week is going to be a lonely week again. Sucks. Plus it's not as though I talk to the boy much cause his stupid camp practically has no reception. Once, I only received one msg for the whole day ): Sheesh.

Ahwells, miss the boy already. I look forward to weekends a lot but when he comes over, he ends up sleeping instead of spending time with me. Then when he's in camp, I can't be bothered talking cause the reception's so bad and the bg's so noisy it irritates the hell outta me, and he complains I no longer want to talk to him -.-

What are souls? How come we feel the way we feel?

What do we see of this world?

Who gives us souls? Are souls real?

Do we even exist? Or are we just trapped in a sick joke?

So many things happen in one's life. So many people to meet and to leave.

So many different emotions for all the different occasions.

Am I real? Do I really exist?

I look back at my life, countless times. Wondering what happens if I made this decision instead of that. Or if I went that way and not this.

People say things happen for a reason. Does it really? Who plans this reason? And reason for what?

I've been feeling so disconnected lately I think sooner or later I'm going to lose myself. Sometimes I see the world from my eyes and yet, I feel that what I see does not belong to me, like I'm looking through another person's eyes and living another person's life. It can really drive me nuts sometimes.

I know I'm ranting but this is what you get when you have severe insomnia for the past few months. I don't even know why I'm having insomnia all of a sudden, and so severe too.

And it feels like the boy and I are drifting apart. I don't know. I haven't been in a relationship this long before. For me, I always have a change after a few months so it's starts all over again, the honeymoon period, the wooing, etc. & it doesn't help when the boy doesn't tell me anything and I'm tired for trying to pry each and every time.

Boy was it Chinese alright. Baby says he feels like he's in a communist place cause of all the uniform and deco-.-

Anyway, I could finally wear that formal dress I bought in HongKong/Macau (forgot where)!

& baby was suppose to wear the formal clothes + shoes I chose for him last time when he needed to wear a tux for some wedding.

Smart boy brought everything, 'cept that he also brought the wrong pants. Instead of the super sleek black stripped pants that's made of super nice material, he brought his old pair of dark blue I-don't-know-what-but-feels-like-cotton pants instead. He didn't even realise it until I saw the pants and I was like, "Uh, this pants is BLUE."

Needless to say, he freaked out and started to panic, then whine, then pout, and then complain he didn't want to go anymore cause it's the wrong pants. Haha.

Anyway, we headed to the wedding. Won't say much so just see the photos below.

After that, we left early cause I had to rush back for my piano. I didn't even get to eat the last 2 dishes ): Damn, was really looking forward to the vermicelli alot. After piano, headed home for awhile then went over to baby's house for dinner.

Ohwells. Today, is a stay-home day as per usual. Tomorrow's the test/interview. Geez, don't know why they need to have tests. Zz.

Then there was this blood donation drive there and they say it's ending soon so baby and I just decided to go donate :D

As usual, I loveeeee needles! Heh, was looking straight at the needle when the poke through. So cool!

It's like you see that thick needle poke through and for me I got "extra" cause the person said my vein is crooked -.- So she poked in once, then pulled out a bit, then poke in again.

Oh plus free goodies! They didn't even give us this much goodies when there was a drive in NJ!

Plus we got loads of extras cause they were packing up already and they wanted to clear the food and drinks and whatsoever. Heh.

Anyway, busy day tomorrow. Die for piano lesson. Really hate scales. Hate it to the max really.

I think now it's like the time to get all the sleep I missed out in school last time xD Heh.

Woke up really late today, cabbed down to JP with my mum to accompany her to the dental clinic. Then came home, stone and baby told me he was going to have a night's out so yay! :D

Baby dropped by, returned my wallet (he abducted my wallet leaving me freaked out to what am I going to do for this week) and gave me a 'collect his wallet' task to do. Zz. Cause baby lost his wallet a month ago and he got this letter saying they found his wallet or smth.

& I also headed down to the roti place to say hi to Jo and her bf and her friends (I'm nice okay! heh) then baby went back to camp after walking me home.

Well tomorrow I have a job interview. I kinda don't want that job but I do need money badly. Gah. Ohwells. Let's see how it goes. And that photography competition thing still has no news. Geez. Might as well just give up alr la.

Yesterday was a really really fun day. But it was also a super tiring and killer one.

P.S. Other photos will be uploaded on fb soon! :D