Time: 7:36 PM

Friends should be the answer.
I think.
):
Time: 9:53 PM

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER LIKE OMG :D
Hahaha, i'm so happy that i spent 75bucks today and that made me not happy -.-
Ear piercings, hair cut and hair treatment. Stupid time I had to dye my hair black completely killed my hair that I went for treatment hoping my hair would be revived.

Now let's see what happened. Thursday was a bad day to study at home.
Or rather is was a bad choice to study at home to start off with.
There's so much construction going about my neighbourhood then it's impossible to study with a DRILLLLLLLL....followed by BANG BANG BANG... then DRILLLLLLLL.

Spent the whole of yesterday studying history. Then at night when lil kiddo finally woke up, he called me and we talked till like 1am =x Haha, right before my history test which was a morning paper too. How smart. He was trying to screw my brain upside down but uttering rubbish that had no link to my history. Tsk.

History paper was a killer I tell you. SEA history which I had so much confidence in, came out questions that were so direct and difficult to answer. In a way that, you had to draw links that were never discussed in class before. And Int. history questions were so damn simple and I know nuts about Int. history. Sucky. After papers, 22 missed calls to kiddo before he finally woke up. Damn, shouldn't have woken him up so early. Cause if he came to school later than 12.30pm, he owes me lunch. He came at around 12.20pm? Cheater, his mum fetched him to school. But what the hell, I waited till like 1pm before he FINALLY decided to get food to eat -.- By that time I was already dying from starvation.

Stayed till Sam came back to school and go for Chinese papers then left to meet Clement.
But he's sick so didn't meet him in the end. End up walking about WM and spending the bloody 75bucks. Nevermind, happy me still cause I finally got my old hairstyle back and 2 more piercings. I hate the bloody girl who gave me the piercings. Give me the damn machine and I bet I pierce better than her. Zz. Well, my hairstyle is not exactly the same cause uncle aloysius still cuts the best hairstyle for me but i've lost his number so ):

Ahwells, I'm going to nap and maybe wake up at midnight to chat with lil kiddo or something. That is IF he wakes up tonight. I have a feeling he'll just sleep all the way till next morning.
Time: 7:16 PM

Finally a day off before my History paper on Friday. Oh my what a week it has been.

Monday night was chiong-ing lit all the way till 2am. Got caught talking on the phone with lil kiddo at 1plus in the morning =x Heh, he stayed up with me and waited till I went to sleep cause he had no papers on Wednesday.

Went to school on Tue normal time. Mum thinks I'm going out to meet my imaginary boyfriend at bloody 6.30am in the morning and not go school. Whatever. If I had a boyfriend, I'd be going out every day in the holidays and not stay at home to mug. Anyway, stayed in library and mugged after morning assembly. An hour before my paper, lil kiddo called me and we talked till my phone went dead and I was so sad we got cut off ): Hand cramped for the paper. Gosh, my handwriting was damn neat I tell you. Haha. Wait till I get back my lit paper then put the picture of my handwriting. Damn neat. Even neater than my GP and Econs essay. Went home, called lil kiddo, did math, gave up, memorised formulas and off to bed.

Today's math paper sucked. Samarth sitting beside me K.O-ed like an hour or 45mins before the paper ended? He slept all the way through. Gah and I thought he finished but in actual fact, he had mental block so bad he totally gave up o.O If I can pass my math, it's a miracle. Blah.
After school, ate a whole hell lot of food with Wanting while waiting for lil kiddo to end his papers. Then mugged in the library all the way till 6pm and went home :D

I don't know how many essays I wrote/need to write in this common test. Let's see.
GP: 1
Econs: 2+Last question in case study = 3
Lit: 3
History: (if I'm not wrong) 4
Total number of essays written in this common test: 11 essays.
Approximate sides of paper written: 35 sides which is about 18 pages worth of words.

I can't believe I'm achieving that. Gosh. Shall pia history already.
Tennis on friday :D Can't wait man. It better not rain.
Time: 7:53 PM

/tell me what i gotta be.

-stones.
EVERY thing in my phone was deleted. EVERYTHING.
Every bloody thing. New phone contacts of people I've lost contact with recently.
My recordings of our nonsense phone conversations. Important messages and dates.
Ah, fuck.

GP paper was okay. We had one and a half hours to write the essay. I finished within 45mins and stoned. Everyone was still furiously writing and I finished writing. I wrote four sides of foolscap paper but seeing how everyone was still writing, I started to think that I wrote too little o.O Jeremy Yeo wrote like bloody 6 sides? Madness. With nothing to do, I started revising and drawing econs graphs on the spare piece of paper I had. I did the same with the spare time I had for compre too.

After the GP papers, went to mug with Akshay, Mark and their friend. Then somehow the group got bigger cause Jeremy came over with Reuben, followed by Eurusha and then WaiNeng who walked past us and joined us too. Haha. And like the whole table I was the only girl -.-
But it was bloody funny seriously. Hearing Akshay and Mark saying fuck and pointing third finger(mainly aks) during the whole conversation. It was pretty loud too. Then Jeremy threatening to rip off Mark's balls if he flunked this exams. Mugging session was pretty effective though. Cause I taught Aks and Mark certain graphs and all which let me revised :D

Econs test was relatively simple and I thought it was hard. Thing is every time I say something is simple, I will tend to fail it badly. Hoho.
Okay, doing lit now. Bloody sleepy.
Words words. Floating everywhere.

If anyone came into my room to show me attitude now, I swear I'll scream.
Time: 9:47 PM

Okay, time to self destruct. I'm currently going on a rampage. How sweet.
I've lost the eraser lil kiddo gave me ): Aww.

Exams starts tomorrow.
The thought of the number of essays I need to write.
Gosh. Going to talk to lil kiddo now.
Time: 10:16 PM

Emotional - Diana DeGarmo

Sometimes I get emotional
Sometimes I do some stupid things
Sometimes I say what I should just keep inside
Sometimes I'm sad about everything
Sometimes I'm mad and break some things
Sorry times 10 but you just got in the way

Don't give up now running away
I won't hurt you sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy, but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional

You say I'm just impossible
Totally unpredictable
I'm just a girl get use to it
No big deal
You can't change me why would you try?
I'm no angel but I can make you smile
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but, sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional

Don't give up
I won't hurt you
Oh, sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but, sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel oh yeah
That's when I need you
Sometimes I get emotional

That's just the way I am
Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional

Ahh, this is really a nice song.

So yesterday was a horrible day with me saying the meanest things to kiddo when he didn't exactly do anything wrong, okay, he did offend me in an indirect way but he didn't know and I just flared up at him. Felt so bad after that I kept apologising. Gosh. I seriously have to find someway to let out the wild emotions in me otherwise there might just be another yesterday where I'll just burst and say the most horrid stuff to people close to me ):

Thank goodness there was bgf (best guy friend) there for me who kept telling me to think about happy stuff and not think about him. Plus we were both listening to suicidal songs and talking about how porn sucks to me and how porn kills boredom for him. I never knew bgf and I can get so close la given the fact that it's so sudden we got so close. HAHA. I'm not making sense but whatever.

Yesterday is over but I'm still feeling guilt-ridden for the harsh words I used on kiddo. Can't believe I actually said them. I was just so pissed at that point of time. Blah. Okay, I'm done studying econs already (: Just a few more pages and I'm done. -claps. However I know I will fail cause econs is, no matter how much you study and know, you need to practice applying the concepts and this is what we seriously lack in during lessons. So yeah, just hope for the best.

Next up is math. Hoho, I'm halfway throught. 13 topics in total. I've completed around 6 topics already. Lit is goneeee. 19 chapters and I've only read till chapter 11. International history forget it. SEA history I'm almost done already. Woohoo. Feels great. Can't wait for CTs to be over. YEAH MAN :D Okay, back to watching videos. I'm so bored.
Time: 2:09 PM

Okay, I know the answer already. Nope, I didn't have to ask.
Someone teach me how to do functions? ):
Time: 6:14 PM

I fell asleep over the phone yesterday =x
According to lil kiddo he waited for one hour plus till my house phone ran out of batt and he got cut off. Lucky he didn't wait cause I slept till my alarm rang at 7plus in the morning. Heh.

I wanna change blogskin but I don't have time to make a new one. Plus so long never touch HTML I kinda forgot most of it. I need to start all over again I guess. After exams I hope I have time to do a new one. I've been saying I'll do a new one since last year but till now I've yet to do one:/

Yesterday I was in a mood to kill. Everything just screwed up on me including my hp. It's bloody new and I've sent it for repairs twice already. It totally conked out on me last night. It just refuses to switch on and I'm so scared to send it for repairs cause there are a lot of important things inside! ): Gah. Now I'm using my old phone again. Don't know when I'll have the time to go down to Nokia Care shop (it's all the way at woodlands!!!!) so like if I don't go down, I won't have my phone till like 2 weeks later? After my common tests.

I really really hope Vincent will buy me a new handphone =x He said he'll buy me one but I don't know if he really will! I hope he doeeees. My phone's so screwed ):

Concerning J, I've decided not to start anew. Come on lah, if you're serious about getting back together, you'd at least reply my sms-es right? I sent him 3 asking him some things and he never replied. I wonder why am I always willing to give him a chance. I can't be this soft hearted every time! AHHH.

And no, I don't have an eyecandy now :D Heh. Some people told me to wait and see but wait for how looong! I'm dying already lah. Haha. Okayokay, back to studying.

We've finally found a new coach for bowling. Training resumes after CTs.
I hope he's nice. But I still prefer uncle mark ): Sigh.
My aim is still to get into masters nest year. I really want to!
Time: 10:41 PM

Hmm, certain things happened today that made me realise loads of stuff. It helped me made my decisions too. Well, I'm glad I've cleared my head and heart of all doubts already. It's time to just do what's most important now - study.

Just spent the whole day with Clement doing math. Yes I know it's a horrible birthday celebration for him but at least he understands (: I didn't celebrate my birthday with him this year either. Just had dinner at Swensens or something then went home to study?

I'm not exactly in my best moods now but ohwells. Every one has their ups and downs. It's just that I have extremely a lot =/ If I could turn time back, would I want to change things?
Nah, doubt so. Okay. Bowling tomorrow. I guess that could cheer me up. Unless they decided not to go last minute. Then I shall go bowl alone. No wait, I think I won't. I'll just stay home.

Happy birthday to Mark Theodore in advance (:

And yes, I've finally decided to upload photos already.

CLEMENT'S BIRTHDAY









And other photos taken a while back.


Ying and I exchanged one side of our slippers for fun :D


GROCERIESSSSS! and shopping xD


We haven't taken photos in ages =x


On the last day of competitions.


Idiot pretending to sleep -.-
Time: 10:28 PM

Haha, I'm wondering what the hell am I doing at such a bloody early time o.O
First things first.

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY CLEMENT GOH :D
Haha, thanks for the two years plus you've been by my side. From the bball trainings together, to late night talks, to studying in school together, to going home together, to coming over to my house every week end, to shopping with me, to every other little thing (: Haha, I'm sorry I can't celebrate your birthday with you this year because of the freaking CTs but at least I'll be spending the whole day with you. Don't say I'm not nice alright! =P


Okay, now the reason why I'm up now is cause I'm still on the phone with lil kiddo. Only thing is that, he is asleep -.- Can hear him breathing over the phone now and it's hilarious. Eh, I think he's snoring now xD Lil kiddo didn't text me much the whole of yesterday and guess why? He thought he lost his phone at the salon when he went to cut his hair when in actual fact, it was under his blanket all the while. He only realised it like late at night? -.- Ah, he just turned on the bed. It's really a wonder how he never woke up when I kept asking, 'Ehh, you slept already?' plus I was playing music just now while doing math. HE NEVER WOKE UP! Miracle I tell you.

Plus we did the silliest stuff just now. I used my house ph to call his handphone, and he used his house ph to call my handphone and we talked with both phones to our ears. Retarded right? Plus he had nothing better to do so he put one of the phone's earpiece to the other's mouthpiece and there was echo everywhere. He thought it wasn't irritating till I tried it on him by putting him on loudspeaker on my handphone and putting it near the house ph. Ahh, the retarded things we do seriously makes me smile when I think about it. Plus he's a sweetie to want to wait till I got to bed before he sleeps. Which in the end he failed to accomplish because he's already snoring away but I'm still up xD

Ahwells, I think we'll be on the phone till he wakes up? Which most probably would be around 11am-2pm that time period. HAHA, I bet he'll be so stunned he won't know what to say xD

J asked me for another chance to start afresh, just the last time to start every thing anew. Am I suppose to trust him after he finally admitted yesterday that while we were together last year, he was flirting with other girls behind my back? Rah, I don't know.

OMGOMGOMG! He's up! Lil kiddo is up.
First thing he said was, 'Hello? OMG, I fell asleep.'
Uh, I think he dozed off again -.-


/edited at 8.53am

It's super funny. He woke up talked a bit. said loads of 'omg' and 'you're abnormal (cause I never sleep throughout)' and dozed off again. A few times he woke up again muttering nonsense then he went back to sleep. Hilarious I tell you =X I just got cut off cause I think his house phone ran out of batt. But let him sleep. That lil kiddo stayed up just to wait for me to go sleep. Aww. But it's better that we got cut off lah. Cause throughout the whole time I was doing math, I didn't dare to blast my music at all. I put it to the minumum. One bar after mute -.-

We've been on the phone for 7hours 47mins and 50 seconds xD
OHHH. Clement's up already and he's going to wash up before heading over. Think I shall go wash up too :D

Will someone tell me what to do about J? He really wants this last chance ): He specially wrote 3 letters for me when he was in DB but it never got posted to me because he forgot the address. He's been asking me for this chance since a few months back. Sigh. What's the point of being in a relationship when I don't trust him? Ah wells. Go wash up leeeee. Still, many hearts to lil kiddo for staying up (:
Time: 5:54 AM

Practically talked to lil kiddo the whole of yesterday. Since morning all the way till dinner time.
Then he fell asleep after dinner when he was suppose to call me and woke up only at midnight. So he called me and we talked some more till 3.30am? I think. I really don't remember.
Ah shit, this is the third/fourth time I fell asleep over the phone again? :/
Cause I don't remember parts of the conversation towards the end. He was falling asleep too =x

Was woken up by J's call -.- Zzz. Bloody hell call me at 10am and made me wake up. So irritating. He kept saying 'wake up wake up wake up wake up' and now I think he went back to sleep? Don't know. Going to meet him, return library books and have lunch.

I'm so sleepy. Zz. Okay, think I'm going to bathe and go meet J.
That idiot still hasn't replied me. @#$%@%.
Wanna be home asap to study and also to talk to lil kiddo :D
He's yet to teach me the math question.

Plus wanna talk to my new guy bestfriend - AKSHAY! HAHAHAH.
We've been talking these few days and I never knew he could be so friendly online even though I talk to him every morning in school.
Time: 10:38 AM

/when the night ends and the dawn breaks, it's a new beginning.


It's never easy to let go of something you hold so dear.
What's more to move on in life after the disaster.
No one can say if it was the right decision.
Still, it's goodbye to you and me.



-let my heart stay strong and my mind stay firm, just this once.
Time: 10:50 PM

YAY! Lil kiddo owes me two lunches and he was whining away about it xD

Our bet was as following.
I'd treat him if he got more than 210 and if I got less than 100.
He'd treat me if he got less than 153 and if I got more than 150.

xD
I got 153 and he got 152. HEH, so I have two lunches on him already :D
He actually missed 210 twice. Once he got 190 cause he had two splits.
The last game, he got 209 =P

But yeah, uncle mark said he's really surprised cause he was watching me bowl today and he said I've improved tremendously from the last time he coached me. Even though the scores don't show, he said I've improved a lot in my throws and all. Well, I guess practice makes perfect but there's always a limit to how much I can go without a good coach ): He was one good coach who helped me and gave me motivation to improve so much in this one and a half years. I hope the students at sports school really treasure him as a coach because he really deserves it (:

Ahwells, time to start studying. So there.
Time: 8:54 PM

Typing a quick post before I leave the house.
It's the final event of the National Age Group competitions today.
Team event. The whole of last night was spent being so guilty that I'd pull my team down.
But thanks to sweeties like Sam and Wanting who were telling me not to blame myself and just give it my best shot since I'm injured there's not much I can do.
Also thanks to Akshay who is my best friend now and was emo-ing the whole of last night with me. Best friends really think alike eh? We even thought about committing suicide xD

Lil kiddo is back :D I'm so glad I set my alarm at 9pm or else I'd never get to talk to him. Went to bed at 7.30pm without dinner and I'm starving now. But yeah, lil kiddo called me once he reached home and finished bathing. Haha, like finally after so looooong we get to talk on the phone again. I don't want school to start ): Cause once it does, I don't get to talk to him much anymore :/

But anyway, he made my day with all our usual crap talk. He's got bowling competition today and we made a bet with each other last night. Whoever loses will treat the other lunch. xD
Alright, off to competitions already. No one in my family's awake. And they promised me breakfast ): I think I shall starve to competition. Blah.
Time: 6:43 AM

HE'S BACK.
-grins.
Time: 11:08 PM

Worst competitions ever. I feel so so guilty that I'm pulling my partner and team down with me ):
All because I have such a lousy arm that is so injured. The team doesn't know that I have injured arm though. I guess I'll tell them tomorrow after the team event which is the last event of this competition.

My arm's still numb on and off kinda thing. I so wanna do well. Especially for today.
I don't care if it's singles cause it only involves me (I'm ranked last like woah, my greatest achievement) but today was doubles events. I feel really bad for my partner cause my scores affect hers too ): Tomorrow's team. It's going to be so much worse.

Lil kiddo is coming back soon. That's some good news. Bet he's going to laugh his ass off when he hears my score :/
Gah, this competition sucks. Everyone's telling me not to blame myself cause I'm injured and can't be on top form but screw it. I still think I can do better. It's just so frustrating that i can't control my arm whenever I'm about to release it. My muscles just totally give in and WHAM! The ball goes somewhere unexpected.

DISAPPOINTED ):
Uncle Mark (I can't call him coach anymore) told me to just enjoy the game. He didn't sign me up to win but for me to enjoy the game. Ahwells. How to enjoy when I'm pulling the whole team down ):


After bowling yesterday.


I saw this little boy carrying it so I thought it was kinda 'special'. Look at what he's holding xD
Time: 6:19 PM

Depressing day I swear.

Woke up, said bye bye to kiddo cause he's going overseas.
Ate, talked to sam dear for awhile, went back to sleep.
Woke up, went to meet Jeff, headed down to OCC.

Bought my new bowling shoes, played two games to warm up.
First game was crap cause I was still getting used to the new shoes.
Second game 188. Was happily thinking to myself, if I can mantain this, I might be able to go to masters.

Comps started. Bowled like shit. Second game was best. First frame strike.
The rest open frame. Couldn't spare a single shit. Depression sets in.

142, 94, 123.

Tomorrow's the other three games for singles. I don't know what's the system like but whatever.
My arm was so painful it got me so pissed. Why do my muscles have to die on me at this time? It hurt till I couldn't control my arm movement anymore. Totally gave up.

Depression. I'm going to emo.
Time: 8:59 PM

If things were to be different, would you hate me for doing so?

I typed a whole load of shit, Ctrl + A and backspace-ed the whole chunk.
Tell me the solution will you?
Time: 1:16 AM

Gah, I'm taking part in NAG (National Age Group) competition.
Coach called today and said that there were vacancies so ya, I'm going.
I'm going there to emo. Seriously. Cause I'm put into a team with 3 others who are damn good.
Coach called me and the conversation was like this:

Me: Hey coach.
Coach: Hi darling, ya, you will be bowling tomorrow. I gave you a really good team.
Me: Uh, good team? Who's in it?
Coach: My daughter...
Me: YOUR DAUGHTER?! (His kids are damn good in bowling. S'pore youth team if I'm not wrong)
Coach: Yah, my daughter. My niece, she's quite good also. And another girl from sports school.
Me: Uh, okay. This sounds bad. All of them are such good bowlers.
Coach: Don't worry dear. I know you can bowl very well. That's why I put you in such a good team.

The thing I like about coach is that he believes in me and he'll keep pushing me on further.
Best I tell you. I go there to get trash by my own team already. Plus I'll know no one from there.
So I'm prepared to go there, sit at one corner, emo till the comps start and just be a loner till the comps end. I don't wanna pull my team down because of my lousy bowling you know! ):
Sad life isn't it?

I seriously regret playing Wii. My muscles have not recovered.
Anyway, for those interested in going down (and come talk to me or something), here are the details.

Venue: Orchid Country Club (nearest mrt: Yishun. There's a shuttle bus service at the bus stop near the mrt)

Dates and time:

Singles (1)- Thursday 4pm-6pm
Singles (2)- Friday 5pm-7.30pm
Team (1) - Saturday 12.30pm-3pm
Team (2) - Sunday 9am-12pm

That's about it. Plus point is, I get to see coach :D Haha, that's why I agreed to go.


Well, last night lil kiddo DID hallucinate. Cause I kept quiet over the phone and there was silence (he was dozing off already) when he suddenly said, 'huh? did you say something?'
He doesn't utter gibberish. He hallucinates -.-
Bowling with him today. That stupid pig was late and refused to treat me lunch. So he said,'If you can even beat me in one game, I'll treat you lunch.'

HEH, I won him in the 9th game I think. I got 182 and he got 112 I think xD
My muscles hurt like shit and all ): Let's just pray that tomorrow will be much better.
After bowling, we went to put bowling bags at home, then headed down to westmall to have lunch. KFC TREAT ON HIM :D

But he's nice lah. At least he helped me carried the groceries my mummy told me to buy on my way back xD Small kid still quite obedient. Heh. Then we just played Wii all the way till dinner, had dinner, watched barney and all sorts of shows till his dad came to pick him up.
He's heading overseas tomorrow. Tsk. If only he didn't have to go overseas at this time, he could have gone to NAG too ):

Ah, whatever it is, I'm trying to find people to go down to Yishun with me.
Currently, Jeff's going down with me tmr and Clement's going down with me on Sunday.
Anyone wanna come on Fri and Sat? :/
Time: 8:39 PM

Just got off the ph with FC. Yawns, that pig's off to sleep cause he has to wake up early for work tomorrow. Eh mister, no letter no talk. Got letter got talk :D Heh.

I'm so bored to the max. Think XM forgot to call me -.- Blah. I'm super hungry now I tell you. As in really really hungry and not the kind where I just want something to munch on. How? ):
Arm still hurts. Some smart ass K.O-ed already I think. Tomorrow no need to bowl already lah. Cause I doubt I can wake him up tomorrow just by calling his phone.

160GB. I've only used like 5-10GB? -pats myself. Well done. Not much more. Just another 150GB to go? =.= FC's com just had to choose this time period to crash if not I'll most definitely head down to the east and get songs from him. He's got at least 60GB?

Will someone please give me the motivation to study? I'm feeling so super slack I swear. Sigh.
Should stop the late night talks with lil kiddo. HAHA, it's screwing both of us up seriously. We need to spend more time studying together then crapping over the phone =X
AH! GSS (Great Singapore Sale) and I don't get to go out cause of stupid common tests.

JC life's just out to taunt you.
Imagine some great horrible ghost jeering at you and saying,

'HAHA you can't shop. You have to study. I'm not going to let you shop. I'll make sure you fail common tests if you shop. You will miss the Great Singapore Sale. Miss it miss it miss or YOU FAIL!'

I'm going to complain to Clement now. I'm so freaked out by the fact that it's just less than two more weeks to common tests and I'm not prepared and I don't get to shop. It's his birthday in 9 days' time. Any idea what I should get for him? Was thinking of making him a photo album but I really can't afford the time right now ):
Time: 10:41 PM

Sunday = killer day.
Normal parents will ask their children to stop gaming and go study.
Mine told me to stop shutting myself in my room and go and play the Wii.
So I had no choice cause Clement came over to my house and both my parents were like go play go play.
Bad mistake. I played it for 10 hours straight. From 1pm till 11pm. Did I even have dinner? o.O
Can't remember. Still, a bad mistake. My arm hurt like shit and was like some dangling piece of flesh when I went up to my room.

Night talk with lil kiddo was woah. He said I fell asleep over the phone a lot of times. The longest was half an hour -.- Wah, I had a super had time trying not to talk rubbish over the phone and I was really dozing off. Cause if I start talking rubbish, he'd record it down and laugh at me the whole of eternity. In the end, I totally gave up and went to sleep. Better than letting him have a chance to make fun of me.

Morning woke up with an arm that had no strength at all and was painful to the max. Still went bowling and every thing was so lousy. Right arm = useless cause I can't even control my own arm muscles how to control the ball? Did left hand bowling. It' s much easier than I thought. I just need more practice. xD I'm making friends at the alley. The malay family and now the ahpek and his friend. Haha, it's good cause both of them were looking at the way I bowl and correcting me and telling me what went wrong. The ahpek and his friend are like WALAU. Average should be 180 around there. o.O Got him to tell me my flaws is like woah. HAHA.

Went home with wanting and played the wii. ONLY FOR LESS THAN AN HOUR. I played using my left hand cause my right is totally dead. Went to have a nap after lunch and when I woke up, my right arm's worse than before =X
Texting lil kiddo now. He's had his dinner I haven't had mine.
Shall have mine now. FOOOOOD! :D
Time: 8:14 PM

Funny things that happened yesterday:

1) Lil kiddo believed that I was still at Bt.Gombak at 10.30am when I texted him that (we were suppose to meet at 11am) and went to walk about Toa Payoh first. I was already nearing Orchard at that time. He got a shock when I called him 5mins before 11am that I have reached because I teleported. In the end, he was late by 7mins and had to pay for half my lunch.

2) We were walking out of Wisma when two NY girls doing flag day came up to us and one said, 'Hey, would you like to buy this for your girlfriend?' I walked off in another direction laughing while lil kiddo was saying, 'Who's my girlfriend? She's not my girlfriend!'

3) At Pastamania, he wanted to pass me a straw but accidentally flicked it to the ground instead.

4) He took the straws but forgot to take the utensils.

5) Lil kiddo stumbled over the uneven floor on the top level of Cineleisure.

6) Lil kiddo and I walking down the corridor to the toilets. I turned left where the female toilet's door was and lil kiddo just walked past it, then turned to me and asked, 'Where's the guy's one ah?'. It was right opposite the female's door.

7) He tripped over his own leg while turning around to walk.

8) He tripped while walking to Plaza Sing.

9) He kept blocking everyone's way unknowingly and I had to keep pulling him away.

10) We walked round aimlessly in PS because we both had no idea what to have for dinner.


Today was the last lesson of dance for the term. Don't think I'll be continuing next term because of school. The most I'll go for only 3 times or so. Blah. My dance friend is leaving after term3. To study in the US for freaking 5 years for her PhD. So sad ):
I wanna go bowling with lil kiddo but he ain't free. Tsk. Nevermind, bowling with Wanting next week :D:D

Haha, and my parents bought my bro his Nintendo Wii. They got me a Ipod Classic for which I have absolute no use for. Like seriously. It's so bloody big, so heavy and I don't have enough songs to put in there even! -.- For once, I think it's a waste of money. 160GB. What you want me to put in there! Might as well get me an Iphone or something. Don't say I never told my mum I didn't want it. I did tell her I don't want it. Still, they bought it. Ahwells, let's just try to find some ways to fill that whole big thingo up.

Alex came talking to me online today. After MIA-ing for months?
First question: What's my number cause he lost all his contacts.
Second question: Do I miss him.
Third question: When can I be his girlfriend.

Best conversation I ever had I tell you -.-
I'm still pretty worried about Jason. Not knowing how he is right now. Sigh. I don't know if I'm caring as a friend or something else? Seriously no idea. The only thing I'm sure of right now is that he's not the guy I want to be with now.

As for the guy I really like, 15 more days, till I make my choice to give up or wait. I don't like dragging things for too long.
Haha, till now he is still just like a close friend to me. Maybe it's better to be just friends. Maybe?
The late night talks we have about anything and everything, the time spent together doing retarded things outside, the numerous sms-es we exchange every day just talking nonsense. He can really be one of the bestest guy friend I'll have :D I should just drop the idea of him being my boyfriend. Heh.
Time: 10:01 PM

Yo. First time in so long that I've been to town. Just don't really like going town. So many people and all. Yawns.

Lil kiddo was late so he paid for half of my lunch. -grins. He got cheated by me but whatever, he'd still be late anyway xD Watched Kung Fu Panda. Super funny though I don't really think the ending is nice but whatever.

Walked about town and all. Town seriously has nothing. Or maybe I shouldn't go shopping with guys (except Clement). Haha, cause I actually wanted to go into loads of shops but with guys, a bit weird lah :/

Tired day you know. Thank you lil kiddo for today. HAHA (: Esp all the stupid stuff you did that made me laugh so much. Okay, you didn't do it on purpose but still, I think you ought to be panda =P

I so wanna go bowling.
Tomorrow's the last lesson of my dance term. Don't think I'll be continuing till after my promos I guess):
Exam's such a pain. Seriously.
Back to studying. Feeling sleepy. Zz.

FC, don't be thick skin =P
Time: 9:25 PM

Hoho, yesterday's 'training' was greaaaat. Zz. Stupid kiddo got 214 on his first game? I think. But after that he went all the way down so what the heck xD Went home, put ball bags then had lunch and mugging session after that. Even he agrees that one piece is nice :D hahaha, but that shit head refused to let me sleep when I just wanted to take a nap.

Bullshit lah, he say he didn't let me sleep cause that would be I don't bother about him already. In actual fact, he's just scared that I sleep and there's no one to send him to the mrt station -.-
Yawns, night was funny. I told him that we'd both go to bed at 2.30am and he agreed. I K.O-ed before 2.30am ever came :/ WHO ASK HIM REPLY SMS SO SLOWLY! Thank goodness I didn't K.O over the phone or he'll be laughing at me like there's no tomorrow.

Today's bowling was horrible. My shoes got wet like YAY I've no bloody idea how. Time to get new shoes. I didn't know it was wet and I nearly fell over cause suddenly I couldn't slide -.- Highest game was only 175. Sucks. After that, Wanting and I went home, slacked till Ying reached gombak. Had lunch there and shopped and played arcade. I realised I'm damn rusty in DDR alr :/

Wanting's sleeping now. She's been sleeping for more than an hour? Shrugs. I'm sleepy too. Lil kiddo was forced to go for a walk with his mum because he's been spending too much time in front of his com. Serves him right =P Meeting him tomorrow. Dared him to wear shorts to town but apparently he doesn't want to. Tsk.

You said sorry to me a few months too late baby. You want me to be your girlfriend again so that you can treasure me. Baby, you had that very chance in Nov-Dec last year when we were together. You didn't treasure it as you promised to. Every day, you told me a different lie. Even pushing me to your friend and when I found out the truth, I broke down and had to be comforted by your friend instead of you. You ask for this last chance to prove to me that you really love me. Hey, when we broke up, wasn't I the one who asked for a second chance? I said I didn't mind what happened in the past and the lies you told and I'm willing to accept you again. How many times have I cried in front of you, wanting to say I love you still but had to say I don't love you anymore to make myself forget you. Every time you ask, 'Baby, do you still love me? Can we get back together?' d'you know how much it hurts? Now you're just leaving me in a dilemma. Old feelings rekindled? I'm sorry baby. I don't trust you anymore. No matter how much I want us to be like last time, it's so different now. I'm in love with someone else, even if he's not my boyfriend at least I'm happier than last time when I cried every time you lied to me. Even when I'm missing you so badly, I can't turn time back.

It's hard to keep silent about certain stuff but I guess, sometimes, some things aren't meant to be. Just like how I feel that you and I are both not meant to be. Even though I dreamt that you became my boyfriend last night. Dreams are just dreams, they can never be reality. Haha, maybe it's time for me to stick to the fact that we are friends (: Though I really like you :D


FC ah, don't be jealous hor xD HAHAHAHHAHA.

Time: 6:50 PM

Last night was a horrible night. Zz, I just don't understand what goes through an adult's mind sometimes. I fell asleep while waiting for someone's reply. Been so long since I actually fell asleep while waiting for a friend's reply. I think I slept with the lights on or something? Not sure. I don't remember.

People say that I'm keeping too many things to myself and that I shouldn't. Well, I feel I'm such a hypocrite cause I do that too when I tell others not to. I just don't wanna affect others around me with my problems because it has nothing to do with them and all they do is listen to me rant non-stop. Everyone has problems. Except that I've problems in nearly every aspect of life. Relationship problems, friendship problems, family problems, studies problems and every other little thing.

Yeah, sometimes I really feel so tired of being so happy and smiling my days away. Last night was one night I really couldn't bring myself to laugh or be cheery over the phone. Didn't even feel like talking over the phone. For once you know. Resulting in little kiddo being upset too ): All I could do after that was to be really cheery on MSN after we hung up. I'm pretty tired of trying to be happy but what else can I do? Rah.

Guess this is life? Every one has their ups and downs. It depends on how well you can handle them. I know what I'm doing now is not the best way but as long as I see that I'm not affecting those around me and they are happy, I'm happy too (:

Alrighto, my next high game: 260
I need to win lil kiddo :D


My number 1 eyecandy (:


My number 2 eyecandy(:


Yesterday's score. To get 260, I need almost 9 strikes? Not sure.
Time: 2:24 PM

Nothing much happened yesterday. Just that Clement and Wanting came over.
Just mugged econs the whole day. Gosh, it's so hard lah like seriously!
And I just hate people who lie to me. Especially when it's so bloody obvious and you still try to claim you're right. Bullshit man. Totally turns me off and make me sian diao.

Lil kiddo didn't bowl that well for his competition. HAHA, his lovely antique wooden lanes xD He bowled like shit but whatever. At least he had buffet dinner! >< Night was super funny. He and I were both doing math over the phone and it was so nonsense. Especially when he made so many careless mistakes. Wanting stayed over so she did her math and I did my math and econs. Yawns.

Slept only like 3.30am? o.o I know that mister piggo is sleeping now. He hasn't woken up yet :/
Oh yes, bowling today! :D 13 games. Haha, first few like shit lah. And guess what? I broke my personal best yet again. It was my 8th game. Imagine la. People bowl 6 games already dying and I could get my highest game. Plus it's above 200. How cool is that!

Scores were like shit though. I didn't record the 6th game cause it was super horrible.

1st: 127
2nd: 142
3rd: 134
4th: 143
5th: 134
6th: not recorded
7th: 147
8th: 204
9th: 144
10th: 131
11th: 170
12th: 140
13th: 113

Haha, I'm happy. But my scores could be so much higher lah. The lane is cursed lah -.-
All it gave me was splits and pins 4,6,7 and 10. So cool right? One game can get up to 4 splits. So stupid lah.
Yawns. Kiddo is awake. Wanting's playing with my PSP. I think I shall go study :D
Wednesday bowling with kiddo. I told him to bowl 130 games so I won't feel inferior :/ HAHA.


EH FC AH! You were not online the whole of yesterday and you never called me ):

Time: 1:16 PM