♥ Tranquility

Date: Sunday, July 30, 2006

raaah.tomorrow's monday.and i just finished my math hw.hurhur.i was about to give up doing it but i reminded myself im suppose to be muggin.

it's super hard to mug now,with so much going on.
but i've come to face it.stuides come first for the both of us.
we'l decide about us later on.

hurhur.THANKS LAugHING bUDDAH FOR YOUR IPOD!
heh.
he came over and deliver it personally you know.hmm.
not bad.hahah.

AND do YOUR HOMEWORK LAR.dont slack.

alright.so he can help me in mep.not bad.good.got someone to help me.

to someone: do u wna come with me to nanyang gym fiesta on the fourth of aug?if tat's a fri then i put the correct date.if u wan,msg me.yah.loves.

alright.auditions 14th and 21st.let's pray we can go in.
grad night leh.hahah.im sure darling shanti wna see someone too :D

ohwells.think im gna sleep now.
just realised it's no point trying to talk to him.
he'll just ignore.so yarh.
will draw him pictures everynight before i sleep on korkor's laptop.

GOODNIGHT WORLD!

Time: 9:32 PM
Daisypath Anniversary Years Ticker

Date: Thursday, July 27, 2006

louisa and i at cat high.

lou and me

group hug (:

threesome

huiting and i.

rachel and i trying to act cute but failing

moss in the class!

anying and me (:

justina and me (:

the broken window of the bus.

everybody sleep on jeremy's shoulder! :D

i love panda(:

feeling bored in the lift.

ai ni is facinated by a camera x)

irony?

arthi,gwen and i

huijuan and i.

clement and i on the way to jp.

alright.somemore pictures coming up.very soon!btw,they are random.not in order of date.

Time: 6:56 PM
Daisypath Anniversary Years Ticker

Date: Monday, July 24, 2006

TO SOMEONE REALLY REALLY DEAR TO ME.
read the lyrics.it really means what i always wanted to say to u.
but i never dared to sms u all these.

baby i love you and i'll never let you go
but if i have to boy i think that you should know
all the love we made can never be erased
and i promise you that you will never be replaced(2x)

i love you ,yes i do
i'll be withhere you as long as you want me to
until(until) the end(the end) of time

from the day i met you i knew we'd be together
and now i know i wanna be with you forever
i wanna marry you and i wanna have your kids
thinking never compared to the feeling of your kisses

i can say im truly happy to this day
you made think i better live my life everyday
there's never been a doubt in my mind
that i regret ever having you by my side

but if the day comes that i have to let you go
i think there's somthin' i should probably let you know
i enjoyed everyday that i spend with you
and i will miss you but im happy that i had you at all

baby i love you and i'll never let you go
but if i have to boy i think that you should know
all the love we made can never be erased
and i promise you that you will never be replaced(2X)

i love you ohh yes i do
ill be with you as long as you want me to
until the end of time

i din sleep the whole of last night.so end up i was super hyper in the morning.and clement guessed correctly! cause i was running and jumping about in the interchange.then he asked why i was so hyper.and i said GUUUUESSSSS and he said,u din sleep the whole night. AND I SAID CORRECT!!!
haha.couldnt sleep.so yarh.just toss and turn throughout.
yawns.then went to school and shoot ball.

then go for lessons.mr eng is still complaining about my hair.
MY HAIR IS SCREWED DO YOU UNDERSTAND?
no way i'm gna dye it again just to please some teachers.that's just plain stupid.
and my parents know about it already.and they know that my hair is like this.
i cant help it.so they are gonna help me.
as in you cant just tell a person to dye her hair and dont' care it gets damaged.
FINE! I DID THAT!
then now you go to her everyday and say that it is getting lighter?
WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU IMPLYING?
do you think i'm damaging my hair everyday by dying it abit everyday?
sheesh.

anyways.blahblah.school life boring.
except photo taking?
just as luck would have it,alex pixie walked past.and he was laughing at me.
grrrs.im gonna laugh at him tmr morning about his hair.
and if he shoots ANY airball during the snr vs jnr match,i will laugh my ass off.

met my darling wu shuang on the way to school.
cause clement and i went to take the outside buses.
THANKS TO HIM WALKING SUPER SLOWLY.
WE MISSED OUR 852 BY JUST 1MIN?
so we had to go out and take bus,then on the way home,
ended up i sat the same bus as wushuang again.
and sadly,tian ye.
hahah.then wu shuang and i just kept talkin about nanyang life.yup.

raaahraaaah.and i saw hui wen,MY NIECE!nahahah.
i was walkin to westmall with clement to buy food.
then was super hyper jumping up and down.
cause i was also super hungry.
and hungry me = hyper me with no brains.
so i was jumping up and down not hearin anythin.
until clement said there's someone calling you.and i turned.
i din recognise her at first.
SHE CHANGED ALOT!hahah.ohwell.

then we talked for awhile.yupyup.and i said BYEBYE and i went to smack mingxiu.
nahahaah.cause i was talkin to huiwen when i saw him.
so i said byebye to her and went to smack him and disturb him.
hahaha.who ask me to be so hyper today?
dont know if im gonna sleep tonight.i feel so much like muggin!!

tomorrow im having mep till like 5.30 or 6? gosh.when i end skul at like 1.10pm?
dammit.can go home early one lor.then come this mep.that starts at 3.30pm.
shitty laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~oh oh oh! wed is gonna be super exciting!
JUNIOR VS SENIOR BBALL GUYS MATCH!
nahahahahahaha.senior lousy le.
all shootin airball.
im clement's lucky charm lar.hahaha.cause everytime pull him to shoot ball with me.
so he still can shoot but not accurate.at least better then airball.nyhehehehehe.
I WANNA WATCH THE MATCH.

damn my red eye.gosh.i din know i felllllll so deeeeeply in love with you.
i wil just continue loving you the way i always did <333

Time: 6:58 PM
Daisypath Anniversary Years Ticker

Date:

MARIAH CAREY LYRICS

"Don't Forget About Us"

[Intro:]
(Don't forget about us)
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
My baby boy...

[Verse 1]
Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It'd be like that baby

[Bridge 1]
Now everytime I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about

[Chorus]
Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

[Verse 2]
Oh they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had, it perseveres
That we both can't forget it
How good we used to get it

[Bridge 2]
There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret
So don't forget about

[Chorus]

[Rap]
And if she's got your head all messed up now
That's the trickery
She'll wanna have like you know how this lovin' used to be
I bet she can't do like me
She'll never be MC

Baby don't you, don't you forget about us

[Chorus x2]

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go

When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us.

Time: 6:53 PM
Daisypath Anniversary Years Ticker

Date: Sunday, July 23, 2006

hmm.yesterday i practically stoned the whole day larh.
stone till my mum came bak with my dinner and i ate till 6 and i rushed out of the house.
all the way to raffles station.i was practically dying.dont know why i am so tired.
then i met up with minlu.
blahblah.walked to vch.audrey was super free that she went walking about.till dont know where.haha.

oh i saw this really cute guy.but somehow he reminds me of J** and that made me not look at him anymore.hahah.

beehim and gero were there too.and yarh.concert started.hmm.all the performers,there were no good looking guys.only really pretty girls.even gero agrees with me.haha.
oh.coming towards the end i was super anxious.cause clement was at bedok with his family.
then i din wna go home alone.cause minlu will be taking diff train from me.

so i decided to follow clement and his family to take the same train.then it's mad lar.cause he was on the train before the concert ended.then i was like CAN THE CONCERT HURRY UP AND END.i was super scared they performed an encore or smth.then stupid lar.guest of honour take so long to leave.tsk,wah.then once can leave i rushed out larh.run down the stairs the all the way to the bridge.then stop.mind you,my muscle aches are still not any better.then walk.then run again and walk.then from somewhere i ran all the way to the mrt station.guess what?

I MADE IT!heh.the train was gonna arrive in 3mins when i reached.then clement said he was at the front of the train.and i din know where the train will arrive from.and i ended up at the end of the train=.=

AND THEN I HAD TO SQUEEZE MY WAY THRU TO THE OTHER END OF THE TRAIN LAR!
it was super crowded and i was like 'excuse me...sorry...sorry...excuse me....sorry...excuse me...'
super malu larh.and finally i reached the last container and i saw his dad.mum and sis sleeping.then i was wondering where he was.and i saw him! standing near the door there.

nahahaha.stupid asshole.made me walk all the way and i was super hungry.gosh.yarh.
then his mum realised i was there but i din dare look at her.heh.then we changed train at jurong east and i sat beside him while his parents sat somewhere else with his sisters.
then i had to get off.and that means i will walk past the container where his family is sittin.so since im so nice.i turned and waved byebye to his mama.and she smiled at me and waved back.

heh.freaky lar.yawns.think i wil go mug now.i keep wanting to upload fotos.budden no time.mug mug mug.

now i realised that you never meant what you told me.
i dont consider us best friends now.
look at us?avoiding each other?
what on earth happened to us?
i love you.

Time: 10:22 AM
Daisypath Anniversary Years Ticker

Date: Saturday, July 22, 2006

yesterday started off with geog lecture.then break.went to go eat with clement.but he took super long so when he just started eating, i was nearly late for lessons already.i sneaked into class lar.cause mr.nah's back was towards me while he was fixing his laptop.so ya.i went bak to my seat.

after that we had math lecture.which means math quiz.i seriously have no confidence in my answers cause all of them are not a perfect ans except for the last.which is 40%.stupid trigo.just have so many not accurate ans.

then GC.i stil owe mr eng his letter.and the chinese.all the chi teachers are like GONE?dont know what happened to them.chian siang still refuses to tell me who she is.grrr.and to think everytime i let him take my ph.and even let him see my msges when im deleting them.well,at least he let me see his msges ytd too.but he was covering the name all along.tsk.no fun.oh,then we had to hand in the gong1 han2 we were doing on wed.i din do cause was studying for my math,so just took eugene teo's one and just change the whole formatting.was too sleepy to think of what to write.since chi teacher was here,we let ourselves off for an early lunch.

minlu pangseh me halfway larh.was talking talking then she was like SHIT I NEED TO MEET THE TEACHER! and she grab her bag and run away before i can ask her anything =.=
after lunch we have free period so its kinda of a very long lunch.i stoned in class.disturbing anh.nahahah.sprying water at him while he was drinking form the water cooler.and we nearly ended up having a 'fight' in class.hahaha.he with a stick and me with water bottles o.o no larh.then i go sit at his seat and took his notebook to read.it's super nice larh.tsktsk.it's DEATH smth.cant rmb.but the notebook is preeeeeetty!

hmm.after free period was geog.we played with plasticine.yarh.then we had SPIRE.in which we had excel lessons.i din go for d beginning.was walking arnd skul with beehim trying to find MR SEOW! i dont know if i spelt correctly but yar.bee couldnt rmb where the place is at so we went for SPIRE.and doing excel,rachel started typing her lama song again.and BELEIVE me!sharky is my god bro and he likes you!even huiting believes me okay?!

after SPIRE,went for drama.yarh.they had exco selections.blahblah.and the stupid clock in the room was spoilt lar.cause at the end of it i saw the clock was 6.45pm.so i tot bball should have ended.then when i check my ph,it was not larh.so stupid.i went to the canteen to eat and mug for awhile.before going down to the grandstand.they were almost ending training so yar.gosh.my shooting skills are getteing more and more inaccurate.i seriously gotta train alr.and guess what my mum JUST SAID? quit bball and dont go for a few months la.go study first.

like wth?few months?i think i would have become a fat pig by then.
ohwells.then i went home.and yarh.after eating dinner i was soo sleepy that i just slept while sitting on the chair.and that's bad.i woke up like 45mins later with a super pain on the right of my neck.then din bother washin my bowls.just put them into the sink then DRAGGED my school bag up.it's heavy okeh?

yarh.then i on aircon and slept on the bottom bunk of my bed.cause i haven't bathed yet.reached home super late.then my mum came in and woke me up to go and bathe.so i went to bathe.and was practically freezing when i went bak into my room again.cause i bathed with cold water and air con is coooold.but i still fell asleep immediately.but i msged jeff goodnight before i really blankout.at least i took the effort but i doubt he din even appreciate it.whatever.

and today im going to mep concert at vch.dont know if i'll be goin shoppin with min lu first.i think i wil be goin to study now.yawns.sleepy again.ohwell.

Time: 10:17 AM
Daisypath Anniversary Years Ticker

Date: Thursday, July 20, 2006

to me you will always be.

i miss you lynette,thanks for calling me.
though it wasnt cause u wanted to talk to me.
but ask me a question to not confirm ur fears.hahah.

im a bai kah now.i think it means crippled.but whatever the case is,i still am.
damn it.i cant even walk properly.
walking like a penguin.
that's the punishment for skipping trainings.
gosh,how am i gonna juggle between my trainings,studies and mep?
sheesh.

im dying.

Time: 10:36 PM
Daisypath Anniversary Years Ticker

Date: Monday, July 17, 2006

291205~

we are over.no point turning back.you dont trust me,i dont trust you.
to think i put so much into our r/l.

forget it.it all came to nothin.go fuck those people who sow discord between us.
i dont care what other people used to say about you.
why should you?
now i dont give a damn.goodbye.

Time: 5:34 PM
Daisypath Anniversary Years Ticker

Date: Saturday, July 15, 2006

yesterday was freaking fun.
let's see.umm.
went to school.blahblah.
had geog lecture.then break.
during break i went to eat with sam and louisa cause was hungry.
and clement din tell me he was having free peroid at tat time.

damn him.
still say cannot meet alr.cause we end skul at diff times mah.
then i smacked him in the stomach,made him by food for me,and carry my bag.
nahahaha.tat's for not telling me.
heh.no larh.was just tat im really really sleepy.

then yarh.he help me carry my bag back to class.then we had lessons.
first was biology.then math lecture.

so we went to math lecture at LT3.and now 06 and 02 combine so i sat with sam and lou.
watched videos first.then lecture.was funny throughout.yarh.

then suppose to have GC combine at LT3 also.jeremy was sitting behind me and he wanted to sleep.
asked me to help block him.but i couldnt be bothered.heh.budden we change venue to sanctuary.
and i shared a chair with minglu.
accidentally kicking ms wong's butt =x
lou.minglu and i are gonna buy RHD clothes.
minglu and i wna be indians.
then lou wants a qi pao.
yuuup.we suppose to go today but minglu cant and lou and i are just too tired.
WE NEED TO MUG TDY.
so mayb tmr.

after gc was HMT.went to chinese class.blahblah.
oh oh oh.chiang siang say that he got extra flesh on his right arm alr.
cause that's where i always hit him during chi class x)

THEN LUNCCCCH! lou,sam and i wanted to go somewhere but wont have enuff time.so yarh.no choice.had lunch in skul.
i looked super dumb carrying my TWO SUPEEER BIG WALLETS and a bowl of noodles in one hand.
plus 2pairs of chopsticks and two spoons plus another bowl of nodles in the other.
thanks alot lar eugene.haha.then lou and i just sat at the canteen talkin about some stuff while eating.i helped her ask for SOMEONE'S NUMBER LARH>if not she will be whining throughout the whole day.nahahahaah.best part.she got his number and din know what to msg him.

then went to bytes to do my spire.
omg.was trying to find some articles on dating but then it ended up giving me porn links.
shit the com larh.then sam kept laughin n laughin. -.-
then i helped lou take SOMEONE'S PHOTO ALSO LARH.
and it was a super nice shot and clear view hor.
note that the 2 someone are diff ppl.

then mr eng suddenly came over in bytes.
said something like trying to find someone in class and canteen but couldnt find.
then we all thought that he came to find me.
but instead he wanted to find lou.so she left.
then sam and i were saying.
if he couldnt find us in bytes,i think the next place he will find is library.
raaaaah!

lou and sam pangseh me to go for lessons.din wna wait for me to sent an email.
huiting,rachel,zhangli and i stayed for quite long to print out SPIRE proposal.
ended up 15 mins late for geog lesson.
and cause we ran all the way up.
rachel's mad lar.when we were running up the stairs she started laughin for no apparent reason.then huiting and i started to laugh at rachel.
and trying to laugh when running up the stairs is no easy feat.
then rachel told mr heah.
'can i rest the toilet pls?'
i think she's seriously mad.haha.
she wanted to go to the toilet but i think her mind is super jumbled up after the running.
mr heah's lessons are super funny larh.
really nice(:

finally last two periods of the day!
spire.but i think that it is more of less than a period larh.
cause we were let off early.
yup.1hour earlier i think.
then i went to find lou.cause she was stil having spire so i sat in 03 behind her waiting.
and i FINALLY got jeremy's math paper.after so looong.
lou din know i was sitting behind her until pam came over and wanted to see the clothes which i brought to school to wear later.then lou turned and saw me.haha.

after lou finished her spire,we went to take 156 to j8.
then went to eat at macs.
somehow i saw anderson ppl and reminded me of denise.
then i was telling lou, i hope denise is in town cause i dont wanna see sean khua.
TA-DA!
denise appeared! im serious larh.just a few sec aft i said that.i saw her walking towards me.
haha.but she wasn't with sean.she was with natasha.then she left.

hmm.then lou and i walked around shops.
i promise lou i will go shopping with her.
for her bag
her clothes.
etc.
at bugis
at orchard
etc.
oh.mr eng really has alot of free msges larh.
kept msging me for like 2 hours?
he was like.
is fang yu with u now?ask her to go home and study.

super random lar.
then i replied.
fangyu?since when?hahah.im w/louisa now.

then i think he asked why.so i said.
we are out shoppin then we are goin to cat high n watch guys.heh x) we will study.dnt worry.

and his reply was somthin like
go cat high and watch guys?! im going to call your parents.

=.= haha.super funny larh.ohwells.then lou and i was abt to leave when we realised we havent taken neo.so we took the lift up to take neo.and i met denise again.haha.hugged her before i left.dont know why.ohwells.
blahblahblah.

at we are at cat high.haha.just walked there.too lazy to explain whud happen.
lou and i din know how to go to the hall larh.then we walked round and round and round.
till we finally reached the hall.
then eugene said there was a water cooler at the toilets there so i went to find.
BEST THING IS THAT THE WATER COOLER IS JUST OUTSIDE THE DOOR OF THE GUYS TOILET.you gotta see into the guys' toilet before u can see the water cooler larh.and it's like wth?sheesh.bad experience.

alright.lou saw one hot guy in grey shirt.but i dont find him hot larh.lou and i got diff taste.just tat somehow we manage to think that someone from j1/IP3 was hot larh.but now i dont think he is.haha.oh yarh.we saw this girl super close to him and i think that was his gf.he's attached anyway.and lou got jealous.haha.she got jealous in the canteen too.tsktsk.
anyways we went in to sit down for the concert.with this guy screamin throughout the concert.
im deaf in my right ear now.I'D BET HE IS LOWER SEC.cause i expect upper sec guys to be more hot and matured.not like some gay guy screamin his lungs out like a girl.
wonder if his voice ever broke.so shrill~ nahahah.
concert started.super nice.
SOLO VOCALS:
first guy was not hot but im super in love with his voice.cant rmb his name but his voice is SUPER good.lou and i were saying he can really go spore idol.he's got the voice.
and so on so forth.some really good ones here and there.yup.

INSRUMENTAL SOLO:
oh oh oh.this one was won by the youngest contestane sec one.he's super cute.as in you know.
the small small boy boy.chubby chubby.very very cute! really.tsktsk.

CREATIVE EXPRESSION:
hmm.i dont rmb much about this.i dont know.nahahahah.i was mainly super irritated by the guy beside me.keep screamin n screamin.i felt like smackin him.
once he said OH SHIT! super loud.and i stared at him. and he was like 'sorry'.

INSTRUMENTAL BANDS:
gosh.hot rock and roll! with only one kinda above average guy from centipeed.
i dont know.but he looks like sean.HE HAS THE EXACT KIND OF BLUR LOOK IN HIS FACE.hurhur.

BANDS:
sean lookalike is in P.I.J.oh.this time there's this really hot guy larh in P.I.J and another in Lithium i think.no wait.not lithium.im not sure.BUT I AM SUPER SURE THE GUY IN ORANGE IS SUPER HOT.and lou agrees too.though she was more interested in one of the alumni singer.but im not in love with him anyway.just wanted to take a decent foto of him but he kept moving.nvm.hahah.anyways.their music was super cool larh. <3

then it was follwed my alumni.damn it.there was lucky draw.with and ipod nano and ipod smthsmth.dont know.hahaah.yawns.it ended around erm.1030?not sure.all i remember was that cute cute lil chubbychubby boy getting two awards.best instrumental solo and best performer.he's so cuuuuute~that kind u really feel like pinching his cheeks u know.
yarh.lou and i walked bak to j8 to change.then we cab home.it was super tiring.
taxi driver din eve know how to go my house.and im super poor in directions.but still i made it.
came home around 11.45.then went to bathe and use com while waiting for my bro to buy my dinner.then i ate till like 12.30?went to my room.listen to the music recordings and looking at the photos.then i fell asleep.damn.

woke up at 5 am with the aircon still on.so i switched it off.my room lights were on too.but i was too lazy.then woke up at 8am to see my room lights still on so i got up to switch it off then went bak to bed.yawns.suepr sleepy.gotta mug.

photos soon (:

Time: 9:37 AM
Daisypath Anniversary Years Ticker

Date: Thursday, July 13, 2006

i dont understand why am i still living?
i am living thru this week to go out with louisa.to take my mind off things.
to go to a place full of rock music.and just going crazy i guess.

LOUISA STILL OWES ME PUB OUTING!
and she still hasnt call me.
ohwell.

i dont know!
fucking bob.
today he gave us survey forms to fill in about his module.
and i put disagree for 2 questions.
then at the bottom they say if u write disagree,put ur reasons.
so i put:
1) the teacher goes at a fast pace and doesnt really check to see if the class can catch up.
2)he asks students to go up and do questions but he never really explain after that.
3) (i cant rmb whud i wrote)

then he was flipping through when he saw mine and read it out loud.i was super pissed.the he was like saying in his gay voice, 'who wrote this?'
i couldnt be bothered and he asked again.
no response.
then he said,the person who had the guts to write this should have the guts to admit
LIKE WTF?
i cant stand his attitude.he deserves no respect from me neither is he qualified to b a teacher.
surveys are meant to be kep confidential.
and he is acting like a small kid.fucking bastard lar.
i should have written:
4)YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSE TO READ THIS OUT ALOUD IN CLASS.

gosh.after you left me,im no longer myself again.fuk this.

Time: 9:05 PM
Daisypath Anniversary Years Ticker

Date:

these two songs are dedicated to that someone i really love but whom i cant think of.
i am so scared one day i will just forget the way you smile,the way you laugh and the way you talk.

All My Life - shayne ward

I will never find another lover
Sweeter than you
Sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover
More precious than you
More precious than you

Girl you are
Close to me, like my mother
Close to me, like my father
Close to me, like my sister
Close to me, like my brother
You are the only one, my everything
And for you this song I sing, and

CHORUS

All my life
I prayed for someone like you, baby
And I thank God that I
That I finally found you

All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

I said, you're all that I'm thinking of
Baby
Said I promise to never
Fall in love with a stranger
You're all I'm thinking of
I praise the Lord above
For sending me your love
I cherish every hug
I really love you so much, baby, baby, baby

CHORUS

You're all that I ever know
When you smile on my face
All I see is a glow
You turn my life around
You picked me up when I was down

You're all that I ever know
When you smile my face glows
You picked me up when I was down

You're all that I ever know
When you smile my face glows
You picked me up when I was down

And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes I pray that you
Do love me too

CHORUS(2)

All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I
That I finally found you

All my life
I prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

It's All Because Of You

it's all it's all it's all

You're my sunshine after the rain
You're the cure against my fear and my pain
'Cause I'm losing my mind when you're not around
It's all (It's all) It's all because of you

your my sunshine

[Verse]
Baby, I really know by now
Since we met that day
You showed me the way
I felt it then you gave me love I can't describe
How much I feel for you
I said, baby, I should have known by now
Should have been right there whenever you gave me love
And if only you were here
I'd tell you
Yes, I'd tell you (oh, yeah)

[Chorus]
You're my sunshine after the rain
You're the cure against my fear and my pain
'Cause I'm losing my mind when you're not around
It's all (It's all) It's all because of you

[Verse]
Honestly, could it be YOU AND ME
Like it was before neither less or more
'Cause when I close my eyes at night
I realize that no one else could ever take your place
I still can feel and it's so UNREAL
When you're touching me, kisses endlessly
It's just a place in the sun where our love's begun
I miss you, yes I miss you, baby, oh yeah

[Chorus]
You're my sunshine after the rain
You're the cure against my fear and my pain
'Cause I'm losing my mind when you're not around
It's all (It's all) It's all because of you

Bridge
If I knew how to tell you what's on my mind(what on my mind)
Make you understand
Then I'd always be there right by your side

[Chorus]
You're my sunshine after the rain(oohh)
You're the cure against my fear and my pain(ohh)
'Cause I'm losing my mind when you're not around
It's all (It's all) It's all because of you

[Chorus]
You're my sunshine after the rain
You're the cure against my fear and my pain
'Cause I'm losing my mind when you're not around
It's all (It's all) It's all because of you

[Chorus]
You're my sunshine after the rain(you're the cure of my pain)
You're the cure against my fear and my pain
'Cause I'm losing my mind when you're not around
It's all (It's all) It's all because of you

Time: 8:58 PM
Daisypath Anniversary Years Ticker

Date: Wednesday, July 12, 2006

alright,im in a really unstable mood now keh?till i cried infront of sam (06ip02)
i tried so hard not to hate you guys.i love the class i knew during orientation.
but definately not the class i know now.i guess time shows everything.

to you ppl i may seem someone whom you hate.
or rather, 'another dumb claass rep who ought to be shot dead' or smth.
i know how that feels to.i felt that of my monitress in sec1 and 2.
but think of it,do u really think i wanna be this way?
do u really think i AM this way?

i tried so hard to speak to u ppl nicely.trying to bring the class together.yea.
i think im just a wall now huh?
all i wanted was the class to bond,to be able to cooperate.
but did you ppl do that?no u din.
sure it did work out at the beginning,then started to have ur own bunch of friends.
i USED to have my own to.but i tried to help you all settle the conflict among theses groups.
and now,i doubt u even need me.in fact.i felt like im being thrown away.

dont u ppl freakingly come and tell me that you think we are not bonded to the house.
im gonna ask you that question back.did u ever wanna bond with the house?
like today,i asked for volunteers to paint the posters.
first response i got was, 'walao,house arh.forget it'
look.if you ppl cant cooperate with me cause you ppl think that i suck,
im sorry,i cant help it right?cause now i think you as a class suck too.

im trying so hard to put myself into ur shoes.everytime i go up there to give announcements and stuff,i'll be thinking 'i guess they are thinking of what shit im gonna say,and they cant really be bothered.' so YOU think it's damn freaking simple to be a class rep?yarh it will be simple if u get cooperation.but if you dont? you are doing all the work by yourself and just talking to yourself when you are meant to be briefing the whole class.

IT IS NOT FREAKING FUN TO HAVE FRIENDS LEAVING YOU TO FEND FOR YOURSELF,
SEEING PEOPLE TALKING BAD BEHIND YOUR BACK,GIVING YOU BLACK FACES OR COLD RESPONSES WHEN YOU TRY TO BE FRIENDLY AND HOSTILE TO SOMEONE AND HAVING THE WHOLE CLASS TO GANG UP AGAINST YOU ALRIGHT?

im sorry if i had offended you in someway or another,maybe i was rude or smth.or mayb bossy?
i admit it can happen,but pls bear in mind that all i wanted was cooperation.and i had a job to finish.not a job for myself,but for the whole class.and thanks alot 06ip06.you made me cry alot this yr.even much more than i did in nanyang.i should have never come here.

and thanks eugene,could really tell you tried to show that you were enthu during the personal mentor period.i appreciate it alot.

i am not going to say anymore but just that i really think you as a class suck to the core.you may think that we are bonded.i think we are no diff from the rest,or rather,we are worse.and even as friends alone,i think i rather not know you ppl IN THE FIRST PLACE.it will make my life more peaceful.thankyou for coming into my life and ruining it so much you freaking people.

Time: 7:26 PM
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Date: Monday, July 10, 2006

this is not me.
dont ask why.
i've never been so calm before.

this is seriously not who i am.

Time: 7:29 PM
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Date:

i had this dream.

i dreamt that i saw you getting into the car.
and the next day i saw in the newspapers.
FATAL ACCIDENT KILLS TEEN
i saw your name and photo.

i was too shock to even cry.the things that went thru my mind were:
-the times i had with you.
-the things i never got to tell you
-i couldn't hold you hands,hug you or kiss you one last time
-i never got to say i love you one more time.

and i woke up.still in shock.
to me,you were my everything.
and i cried.
i was thinking,thank god you're still alive.whether bad times or good times,
im gonna treasure them.
and im gonna make u feel loved.

i love you

Time: 7:24 PM
Daisypath Anniversary Years Ticker

Date: Sunday, July 09, 2006

okeh.pictures time.i can only spare awhile.so yarh.

this was me in the lift feeling super bored.yarh.my new spects.they are HOT!

me at daddy's office toilet.yarh.i slacked the whole day.

this is the amount of motorbikes parked at jb.trust me,there are lots more.

korkor and me in the sushi restaurant.

daddy and mummy in the sushi restaurant.

nice sky right?took this on the way to obs.

look how full my room was before obs.

so in the end i had to pack my camp bag at my door :/

before meeting jeff? shrugs.

this was at chirch and u seriously have to know that that was a poncho.I HAD NO IDEA LAR.my mum told me to grab a jacket and leave so i took that only to realise it was a poncho my kor used in europe.and it din keep me warm ):

clement trying to be irritating.

taken in the cinema

this too.

daddy and me (:

arthi so in love with herself x)

and again.

and yet again.

i guess she's really in love with herself huh? (:

me and sam on the boat after obs.

lava and me.

trust me.dont mess with sand flies.they can kill.i've got over a hundred.

audelia and me during CIP at bugis.

lava and me in the dance studio.i dyed bak my hair alright.

huijuan and me on the bus to school.

arthi and me at science centre during enrichment week.

Time: 7:37 PM
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Date:

i felt so muc better after talking to james.
cause he and his gf also went thru what i am goin thru now.yarh.
thanks kor for talking to me.

and tianye,dont get so upset.
parents are like that.
i never thought i would say this but they love you.
yah.i also have to study hard so let's jaiyou tgt keh?
and seriously,dont let ur gf get into ur way.
cause somehow,they dont last.shrugs.

Time: 7:34 PM
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Date:

alright.tomorrow's start of a school day.one week obs.one week enrichment.this two weeks caused me and him to grow further apart.so yarh.it ended.

if you are reading this,then i just wanna say.i love you.that's all.

ohwells/
time to start afresh.now i am aiming to get GPA 3
and for bball im gonna show those ppl i hate that i can make it.
esp *******.

say jiayou to me then.
and now i seriously admit i got split personalities.
and it's freaking me out.

Time: 4:40 PM
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Date:

i get your point already.goodbye.it's over.full stop.end of story.from this point onwards.nothing will be the same to me again.

[NO PROMISES]

Hey baby, when we are together,
doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven,
feeling high
I don't want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don't wanna run away,
baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight,
I just wanna die in your arms

Here tonight

Hey baby, when we are together,
doing things that we love.
Everytime you're near I feel like I'm in heaven,
feeling high
I don't want to let go, girl.
I just need you you to know girl.

I don't wanna run away,
baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight,
I just wanna die in your arms

I don't want to run away,
I want to stay forever,
thru Time and Time..
No promises

I don't wanna run away,
I don't wanna be alone
No Promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight,
now and forever my love

No promises

I don't wanna run away,
baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight,
I just wanna die in your arms

I don't wanna run away,
baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight,
I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight.

i wish i could hold your hand one last time.
to hug you and kiss you,
and say,
i love you.
just one last time.

Time: 3:57 PM
Daisypath Anniversary Years Ticker

Date: Saturday, July 08, 2006

DENISE TOLD ME NOT TO GIVE UP!

i am so on the verge of just keeping quiet.
i just thought of.
stuffing myself with books.
and just forcing myself with bball.
even if it meant dying on the track.

i just need you in my life really badly.i dont know how to say it,what's more show it.
i just know.
i love you.

Time: 11:13 PM
Daisypath Anniversary Years Ticker

Date: Friday, July 07, 2006

and once again.my mind starts to think of the cold blade against my skin.
the walls falling apart.letting the red river flow freely.

and this time.i wont stop it.

Time: 8:26 PM
Daisypath Anniversary Years Ticker

Date:

I SERIOUSLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT US.SO PLEASE DONT BLAME ME.

im really sorry alright.but no matter how hard i tried, how much i sacrificed,it never seemed to be able to get your attention.

sometimes,i thought they were true friends.but i realised they were not.cause true friends dont talk behind your back,instead they tell it straight to you so that you can change.true friends are always there for you.never giving you a black face no matter how bad they are feeling.cause just a smile from your best friend can just brighten up your day.what they say is true.you can have millions of friends,but there will only be a few who are your TRUE friends.

i am just recollecting the days we spent together.sometims i will ask myself.is it even worth it?to agree last time.promises mean nothin to the anyone in this modern society.lies can be told without the blinking of the eye.why am i always the one giving?am i that vunerable?cant i stand up to my two feet?why must i keep thinking of how people will feel before i say something?i can just dont care.but what isit that is stopping me?im trying so hard to be polite to everyone.to be nice.but somehow.you people just dont get it.

it seems to me that no matter how hard i try,NO MATTER HOW DAMN FUKING HARD I TRY.it ends up with me being hurt.it sucks u know.I CARE SO DAMN LOTS FOR YOU.omg.im seriously breaking down really bad.all i wanted was to love you.

Time: 7:45 PM
Daisypath Anniversary Years Ticker

Date: Wednesday, July 05, 2006

alright.im now in my dad's office.feeling super super i dont know? heh.i was talking to alan and panda ytd nite till my mum started screaming at me.yarh.then she said that if i dont put down the fone,she's gonna cut off my line.like what the hell larr.oh then alan used the computerized voice to talk to me.grrs.it was super low and funny though.heh.anyways a brief recap on what happened at obs.

first day,

i got put into NILA UTAMA! heh.we rock alrite?and then BIBI is super super nice.yup yup.okaaay.we did kayaking that day and pitched tents.then cooked rice to eat, which somehow turned out to be like congee.bleh.but still nice(: ohohoh.somthing i hate about kayaking is that we had to capsize.and that was something i really hated.what's even more funny is when we rowed to the deeper part of the sea to capsize.cause sam and i know nuts about kayaking and we kinda forgot how to back paddle.so yarh.the tide brought us closer and closer to the rocks and bibi was like saying back paddle! backpaddle!but we din know how to. so in the end we crashed into the rocks.which was super funny lar.we were like OHNO,OHNO,we are gonna crash and....BHAM! against the rocks.

then we were suppose to like capasize deeper in the sea and do the double rescue thing.arthi and rachel were to be our rescuers.and casue they need to form a T-shape with us to rescue but they couldn't and ended up kayakiing to rounds around us.then i got super tired of tredding water i put my legs on the ground.and guess what? I COULD TOUCH THE GROUND EVEN THOUGH WE WERE SUPER FAR FROM SHORE.but the ground wasn't hard lar.it's mushy mushy and sinks like quicksand.yarh.so sam and i wer like STANDING.and saying, 'oieee.can you both hurry anot?'haha.

second day,

we had rock climbing.we learnt belaying and stuff before climbing the real thing.and before that we had practice for trust fall.and WE DONT TRUST ARTHI AT ALL.hahah.arthi,i shant say what happen at nite over here keh?im super nice and u should know that (: hehe.oh oh oh.i nearly got killed by arthi though.cause we were rock climbing.and rachel was my belayer,arthi the anchor and dont know who was the asst. belayer.maybe sam?anyways.up there i was gna take a risk knowing that i may slip and fallwhich i did lar.and arthi,thinking that i wont move,stood up and talked to other ppl.so when i fell,the impact pulled rachel forward and we were both shouting.then arthi was talkin talkin then OMG OMG.and she ran to rachel to anchor.gosh.if i was much higher up on the wall,i seriously would have killed arthi.then we packed our stuff and got ready to trek.the journey begins x)

second night,

we pitched our tents somewhere super rocky.and we cooked maggi mee.yup.and i think that's where i started to get my sand fly bites.cause my legs or rather,my feet started to have them first.i though it was ant bites.cause they can actually go into my socks.then i scratched one till it bled and had pus.and i still thought it was ant bites.till the last day then i found out that they were sand fly bites.yarh.anyways,the ground was super hard with super big rocks underneath us.but i still slept on.used to it in guides anyway.(gosh.my itch is coming again!!!!)

third day,

we had this activity in which we needed to transport an injured person across logs and stuff without touching the ground.and yarh, WE DID IT! though it was 15mins longer than the given time,but we din give up! that's the nila utama spirit :D oh.and it was super funny lar.cause we used the four tents we had as the weight of a person, and cause there needed to be a head and a butt.so obviously the tents needed to be at the butt.but while crossing the whole thing over logs and stuff,we sometimes needed one end to be lighter.so we'll just move the tents to the other end first then move it bak.heh.hmm.after that we continued trekking to the quarry place.yarh.and that's where we built our raft.it was a success OKAY? you know,i'm always not THAT proud to be a guide lar.ya.but at obs,im PROUD to say that im a guide.cause it really helped alot in all the knots and stuff.yup.then we swam in the quarry after our rafts we packed up.and had fun.yarh.

then we took up our things and walked to our next campsite.which had super alot of sandflies.trust me.and there,as expected,arthi tried to murder me again.she dropped this big rock onto my foot and my toe started bleeding immediately.tsk.MISSION FAILED.hurhur.anyways i realised that i din change my shirt for like 3days?only my pants.cause seriously.i cant be bothered to.it's like,u know tat ure gonna sweat later.makes no diff.then trudy and i ate uncooked instant noodles tgt.cause there's always not enough time to cook for everyone lar.yarh.and after dinner while waiting for bibi to come,we sang songs.example,THE COLLEGE ANTHEM and barney's I LOVE YOU.hahah.then other groups were like kinda pissed and were like shut up lar.but we still sang anyway.and we wanted to do the mass dance upside down and car wash but no music and we forgot the moves.ohwell.

third night,

sam,rachel and i stayed up in our tents and talked lar.cause we had night duty at 12.30am?yarh.and i guess arthi was really tired.cause at 12.05 like tat,she fell asleep and when we tried waking her up at 12.30am, it was super difficult larr.we shake her.we shine the torch in her face.we called her super loudly.also no use.then suddenly got miracle and she suddenly say, IM AWAAAAAAKE.gosh.haha.

fourth day,

we woke up and i shitted.nyheheheheh.there are no toilets mind you.u gotta do ur business in the bushes.i needed to shit real badly cause i din wna shit in the sea.what if it floats?hurhur.and we started our sea ex! woots.7 hours plus for 16km.with a break on a island.hurhur.it was fun lar.sam and i were like.hyper when we started.then got super tired.cause we were kayaking against tide.then we rested on that island,ate and started again.then we were super hyper again and got tired.in the end to bring people's morale up,sam and i went around kayakin like some mad couple shouting ARTHI IS A MURDERER.then ppl ask why and we'll give them super funny answer and they will laugh x) and we made it in the end anyway.yupyup.then blahblahblahblah.we pitched tent near the beach (:

fourth night,

while other ppl were cooking dinner and stuff.rachel and i din really wna eat so we went to the jetty and lie down there talking about nanyang.it's like when we are in nayang we never talked and even in njc,when we are in the same chi class,we never talked too! haha.weird huh?anyways i feel so stupid.went to sleep in fbt shorts and only a windbreaker with me.i forgot it'll be super cold laaaar.then was practically freezing.yup.

fifth day,

packing time blahblah.omg.i suddenly miss obs ):

nyheheheheh.im super freezing in my dad's office now.brrr.super cold.yawns.and i din apply my cream for my bites.i have arnd 42 bites on my left arm,30 over on my right,20 over on my hips,back,neck and face and 20 over on my legs.that's a 100 over can?i wonder why do i always get bitten so badly.bleh.I DONT WANT SCARS! gosh.or else my tan cant shine.hurhur.

Time: 9:07 AM
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Date: Tuesday, July 04, 2006

omg.

i think im really goin mad.someone SAVE me.

Time: 10:11 PM
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