Finally my 2 days of system training is over. Feel so bad for poor Anthony cause Lyana and I were totally worn out during the second day we started chatting online (even though we were just next to each other) and he kinda saw our chats and he also saw Lyana playing minesweeper but he didn't say anything. He's a really nice guy, really, just that his voice's kinda droning.

Today starts work proper. Waited outside my desk (cause there was no one inside) and immediately I was whisked off to training rooms by Anizah. And I really mean quite immediately. But other than that, today's rather slack given that I've no programmes to handle. The programmes I'm in charge of starts next week so I guess that's when I get busy ):

Plus I made friends with this guy who came in from Helpdesk to troubleshoot some stuff. He was once in NJ as --- staff (won't say which dept) so we started talking about NJ when he happened to notice the ring file I brought along with me was NJ's orientation file. Then he started bitching to me about NJ and a few certain people here and there. Really funny, seriously. And boy was he straightfoward.

'So why did you leave NJ?'
'Cause the place/pay (I didn't catch the word but either way it's fine. Haha.) there sucks.'

Totally man.

But I'm really exhausted today.
I haven't been sleeping well the past few nights. Wake up tons of times and always am up like 30mins-1 hour before my alarm even rings. Zz. That's why I can never sleep early. I slept at 10pm and I wake up at frigging 1.30am and just dozed in and out of sleep till it's time to wake up. Sucks. But if I sleep too late, I'd just die at work. Ohwells.

I think I'll bring a pillow to work one of these days. Act as my cushion for my chair and pillow xD
Time: 9:29 PM

First day of work. Gosh, I'm sleepy at this frigging hour.
Another day of training tomorrow.

Help! I'm really too tired to blog now. Yawns.
Goodnight.
Time: 8:15 PM

I'm going to leave for work in like 37mins time.
When I told baby I'm going to work, he burst out laughing.
When I told baby I'm going to work office hours timing, he laughed even more -.-

Seriously.

Ahwells, hope all goes well today.
Hopefully.

And I managed to sew a skirt in 3 hours yesterday. Including drawing out the draft blahblah.
I can say bye bye to my sewing and everything.

Piano = Die
Grade 8 is really a killer.
Time: 7:02 AM

EHHHH, should I be happy that I'm going to work?
Kinda dread it cause it means no freedom. But kinda look forward to it cause I get to have moolah.
But still, no freedom is the worst.

9am-6pm.
Omg la. That means 9 hours no watching anime, no reading books, no taking naps, no slacking.
=/ Idk if I can survive seriously. BABY QUIT ARMY AND GO WORK WITH ME! ):
But ohwells. At least I think it's better than cooping up at home the whole day, literally.
Let's make this a happy job (I hope). Hahah.

But still I was thinking of moving over to stay at baby's house xD
Anyway he ain't home during the weekends, and his house is way nearer to my workplace (like about 10mins train journey?) so I can like sleep over during the weekdays and make my life much simpler. Ohwells. Wishful thinking I know. But still, it's a thought :D

That baby boy's going to book out tmr! Can't wait. He has 16km road march tmr and today he just had IPPT. Poor boy he must be sooo exhausted. And crazy road march makes them fall in at 4.15am o.O I don't have to sleep tonight already. Just stay awake till 3.30am then give him wake up calls. Ohwells.

I've tons of self-projects to complete. Hopefully I can complete them even when I'm working. Though this means I can no longer go over to Aunty Sandy's house to learn more sewing ): At least until uni starts cause that's when I stop work.The thought of no freedom scares me. Pfft.
Time: 9:30 PM

Gosh, I really need to sleep soon. Suffering from lack of sleep Z_z

I was busy doing my portfolio stuff yesterdayand I didn't check the time only till 3.45am. Then I went, 'Shit!'.
Cause like at 4.30am I've to wake up to call baby up (I'm his personal alarm clock when he's in camp) and I've gotta get up at 7.30am to get ready to meet Anh. By the time I went to bed was about 4.05am so I only had about 3 hours of sleep. And I'm really going to die any moment, really.

Baby's going to kill me cause I'm actually suppose to sleep at 2230, same time as his lights out. But now's past midnight and I'm typing this. Hoho. Think I'll go to sleep after settling some uni application stuff. Seriously damn troublesome.

Anyway, I'm pretty much happy that that boy and I have finally gotten over our quarrel. Seriously some times I wish he has the common sense and EQ of other guys but on other occasions, I like the way he is so blur about things :D Ohwells, the good and the bad. I just hope this matter will not arise again (it's the THIRD time this time), but if it does, hope that the boy knows what actions he has to take otherwise we'd end up having a fight for a few days again.

Ah, I don't know if I can submit my photos for a photography competition in time. Apparently my daddy lost the photos yesterday (in less than 2 hours after sending it to the photo shop to print and collecting it) so my mum went to print it out again today. Only that there's this weird white gap at the bottom. So she's going to call them up tomorrow to ask=/

Well, goodnight then! I need to get some sleep already.
Hopefully I can wake up later at 5am (that poor boy's so tired he refuses to wake up at 4.30am later) to wake that boy up. Apparently one of the guys in his bunk asked baby to wake him up when baby wakes up earlier. That is so not going to happen -.- To ask baby to wake other people up is something that will never, ever happen. Last time, he told my mum he wouldn't sleep and will make sure that my nap is only 1 hour long and after that he'd wake me up.

Can you guess what happen?

Yeah, he himself fell asleep -.- Amazing right? And in the end I had to be the one waking him up.
Geez, seriously.
Time: 12:02 AM

A wall.

Torn down, rebuilt, collapsed, patched up, ruins.
Time: 11:12 PM

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY BIG SISTER! :D
Haha, thanks a whole bunch for spending time yesterday helping me out with my portfolio.


Anyway, I've been deciding for the past few days or even weeks, whether I should change from Olympus to Canon/Nikon but I decided otherwise after I met Izam. Haha, got the battery grip from him but he really shared a lot of stuff about why he himself preferred Oly to the others. Plus he shared a lot of camera ideas with me that really helped. Thanks Izam! Plus ZiJie was also telling me the different stories about Oly. Both of them are Oly users by the way. Hahahaha. Okay I'm sticking with Oly :D

SORRY JEFF! Been really busy doing my portfolio these days. I'll go out with you next week okay! Promise! :D


& I seriously so wanna kick FanChou's ass somehow. Like really really.
Okay, I need to cut my hair alr. Fringe's so long it's irritating the hell out of me. Blah.
Time: 11:53 AM

I think it's amazing how people meet each other, especially couples.

Haha, I went to the wedding and it's like the guy's from America but they met and belonged to the same faith. Rather unbelievable to me but I guess this kind of love do exist.

I've always been thinking how 'lucky' it was for me to meet the boy.
If I didn't go to NJ's IP, I wouldn't have met him.
If I decided not to transfer out of NJ to go to poly/NAFA, I wouldn't have met him.
If he decided not to go to HCI, I wouldn't have met him.
If he decided not to go to VJC, I wouldn't have met him.

Well actually, if I stayed on in NY and he went to HCI, we would have met in J1 I guess. Maybe?

But life's like that. Like the anime Hitman reborn. Billions of parallel worlds. And it sounds so damn cool!
And I met this guy on CS who's from ADM! I'm still worried about my portfolio. Gah.
The past few days I've been sitting in front of my com sifting through hundreds (maybe even a thousand) of photos. Sucks.

And I so want to change this blog layout but I've gotta wait for baby to complete the HTML for me. Come to think of it, after I finish reading up on photoshop, think I'll read up on HTML and such. Totally doesn't sound like me right? Going on the computer side. I'm just interested in it but not to the extent of wanting to pursue it like baby.

Oh, I've got a photoblog up now. It's basically snipshots of the few best shots for each ocassion. I'm still in the midst of editing it here and there. But you can go see it first (:

CLICK HERE TO SEE PHOTOBLOG

I'll be putting this link by the side under the 'LINKS' section.

Okay, time to go back brainstorming for my portfolio =/
Baby hurry come back from your SIT test!
Pfft. Or rather hurry POP la. 9th April hurry come!
Time: 11:48 PM

Yosha! I'm back in action.

I've decided to just look forward and move on and see what life has to offer :D

Been busy thinking on how to do my portfolio. Seriously it's killing me when I know shit about drawing. Ah whatever. Just do whatever I can, cross my fingers and hope I get in.

And I'm happy cause right now I've got new books to read :D Got them off a deal!
Like 6 books and 3 magazines (2009) for $55:

- 1 book on how to take wedding shots
- 1 book on how to design digital wedding albums (which I'm going to use it for any other occasion)
- 2 books (in a set) by Scott Kelby which I already have the 3-books set. The seller decided to be nice and throw that in as well since he's quitting photography
- 2 books on Photoshop
- 3 photography magazines

And I bought myself a new printer too. Okay not actually I buy but it's suppose to be my monthsary present :D BABY'S THE BEST! It's uberly cute I tell you.


Canon Selphy CP780!

Small and cute. Plus it's portable too! If I get the external battery that is. It costs over $100 so hell no -.- If it's $10 I still don't mind that much.
It's like only 17.6cm x 13.26cm x 7.56cm.

I got baby shades (he's so happy like some small kid I tell you. He's been wanting a pair of shades for damn long ever since I wore mine out the first time a long time ago), a beanie cap and some shirts.

That boy's having sit test now (yeah, it's a test you've gotta sit down for 3 days straight without moving xD) so I don't get to talk to him ): Ohwells. Thankfully I've got the completion of my portfolio to focus on and my competition entry.

Plus I'm going to start up my sewing again. Once I finish all my uni stuff and such. I realise I've got a huge pile of cloth in my room that I haven't used so I'll just sit down and think up of designs and such to use those cloth else my mum's going to make noise for buying so much cloth and never using them. Pfft.

I still wanna read some more books but I guess the new (second-hand) ones I got should suffice me for a month or two until I finish reading them.
Okay, going back to watch anime.

Seriously, watch these anime:
Bleach (duh)
One Piece (duh duh)
Naruto (duh duh duh)
Katekyo Hitman Reborn
Element Hunters (I think Chem is so fun ONLY in this anime)
Blood +
.hack (only for gaming geeks cause baby seems to understand it but I don't)
and a whole load more.

Go to ANIMEFREAK.TV to watch :D

I'll upload photos only most prolly next month or something. Cause I'm really hell busy right now. Plus I need to sort out all my photos and such. Taking photos is fun, viewing them is fun but editing and sorting them out is a chore -_- ohwells.

& DID I MENTION! I WENT TO A WEDDING TODAY! HEEHEE. But the shots are hell lousy cause well there are restrictions considering that it was a church wedding...mumbles...and complications that restricts my movements. But still, it's fun :D
Time: 11:06 PM

And all of a sudden, I think that dancer boys are really hot once again.

Damn, I really wanna go back to dance. You know how people are, thousand of things they wanna do but there's always two set backs (for normal people that is): Money and time. It's already damn ex to pay for my piano alr.

But still back to the topic, dancer guys are really frigging hot. I'm going to try pull baby into dancing after NS. HAHAHA see if he can be cooler after joining dance.
Time: 11:00 AM

Now's a rough time for me and as much as I want time alone, I'm grateful for the encouragement and support.

Thank you to the sweethearts who have been there for me these days especially:

Mel, Jo, Sam and Baby.

And as much as I hate to say it, none came from my family.
All I've heard and seen were harsh criticisms and cold shoulders.

I don't know which hurts more.
My results or the fact that till now after 18 years it's never about me in my family.
Time: 3:09 PM

Because this dilemma is killing me.
I really wish it would end soon.


I wish I had someone to talk to other than you.


I am trying to be strong cause this is the path I chose and it will be the path I have to follow.
No turning back now.
Time: 12:20 AM

Happy 19th monthsary baby!

This is the first time I'm celebrating the day of our monthsary alone): Without you wishing me a happy monthsary too at midnight. It feels really lonely to be honest.

I just want you back asap dear. I love you.
Time: 12:00 AM