Season ended and I'm already missing coach a lot ):
Plus all the trainings I had with him. Rah.
I don't care. Once I catch up with my studies, I'm going to train with him every weekend.

Today was so-so. Woke up went to school and waited for the usual round table gang to come. I swear they are getting lazier and lazier. All coming to school later and later. Tsk.
Told them super lame jokes and seeing their reactions just make me wanna laugh my ass off.
Esp when I told those jokes to Mark during lunch and seeing his retarded face stone while trying to get the joke xD

Everyone's emo today I've no idea why. See bestf in school and she's so quiet and emo, idk why.
Ying text me out of th blue saying she misses me a lot but I was happy when I read her sms (:
Couples around me breaking up :/
Gah, this world is so sad? ):

But whatever the case is, I'm still who I am. I think single hood rocks yo?
Eyecandies are common but who cares. I've yet to find a good boyfriend :D
Blahblah. What nonsense. I wanna go shopping. Anyone free? Guys also can.

After school, stayed back with one month old to mug. HAHA.
It was a super nonsense mugging session I tell you.
Especially when my magic trick was so perfect.
I put his NRIC on his neck into his shirt, and it ended up near his ankle there.
Smart right? I'm so pro in magic. NEHHEH.

So many things I wanna say. Haha, but I'd rather keep to myself.
Gah.
I'm hungry. Going to eat. Byebye.
Time: 7:47 PM

/You made my heart skip a beat.

Bah, I cry during this A division competitions only because of two reasons.

1) I trained so hard for it but yet I couldn't spare anything (during my doubles first game).
2) I couldn't give coach three nice games, just for him to see. (during my last 3 games of quartet)

So yah, today I kinda cried a bit. Not cause I'm bowling badly lah. Come on lah, I don't even cry for nuts when I get bad results so why should I cry over a game? Plus I know more of enjoying life more than anyone else. I cried cause of coach. I don't like thinking about him not coaching us anymore. No more fun times during trainings, the stories he tells us and all. All I wanted was to give him 3 good games. What did I do? I gave him my lowest game of all in the whole 18games I've played. A score of 88. My first game that's below 100.

(continued from yesterday's first three games)
Fourth game: 121
Fifth game: 88
Sixth game: 110
Average: 106.3

Wah, I emo until cannot emo. I know my temper was a bit bad. And for the last game I totally gave up on it already. Zz. Ahwells.
After the competition, we went to treat coach lunch at Swensens.
Had fun with him for almost 2 years. Heartbroken.

After lunch, caught 'Forbidden Kingdom' with Jonas and Eugene. Nice movie totally.
Let the pictures tell the story then.












Time: 7:13 PM

Firstly let me thank Grace for her rock-hard bread as a good luck food for me (: Haha, I still left a quarter of it in my bag (it's seriously hard). But still I appreciate the thought! Thanks (:

Secondly, today I had to know about the saddest news ever. Coach won't be coaching us anymore. Tomorrow's tournament will be his last session with us. He'll be going over to teach at the sports school. I heard the news and nearly cried )': It's because of coach that training's so fun and it's because of coach that I wanna train so hard so that he'd be proud. Rah, no more coach it's like ): I don't care. I'm still going to train under coach even if it means me going over to sports school for extra training. Sure that I'd go for training under a new coach but I still want Uncle mark ): I shall bowl well tomorrow, give it my all just for coach. Like what he said, 'It doesn't matter if I'm not your coach. Just bowl well for me.' And that's what I'll do in tomorrow's final quartet.

Today's bowling was pretty sucky. I couldn't spare I don't know why. In one of my games I had FIVE |9-|. Imagine if I could spare that stupid one pins it'll be FIVE |9/| which will mean a lot of difference. There's only 3 games today. Tomorrow's the next three games.

1st game: 135
2nd game: 124
3rd game: 125
Average: 128

I need to buck up even more. Sigh.
Coach's last day. Gosh, I'm so depressed now ): Seriously.

Photos of yesterday. Rach haven't sent me those with her yet.
























Time: 6:05 PM

Gah, yesterday's dance was oh so fun.
We did warm ups and danced with umbrellas. How cool is that? :D
Plus Eug says his hair is damn short now, I can't wait to see it tmr!

Can't believe I lost to Eug in last night's bet. I actually fell asleep. GOSH.
This sucks. Eh but Eug got handicap. He woke up late, stayed home the whole day and took a nap.
I woke up at 8am, was out of the house at 9.30am, had dance and no nap.
Duh I'd fall asleep.

Jonas is pissed with us. HAHA.
Show you our MSN personal messages. It's all so funny.

Eug: i won, so stop deceiving yourself. HA.

Mine: one month old is so childish.at least i woke up at 5am.i win. HA.

Jonas: stop it both of you...damn childish

HAHA this is so funny. So yeah I overslept and so sorry Rachel dear.
But I had a great time with you today love.
Watched Street King (Like omg finally a movie!) and I swear the cinema sucks.
Either that or I'm sick.
I felt so dizzy throughout the whole movie that after it ended, I couldn't walk straight.
Still feeling dizzy.
Wanted to rest but my mum's being an ass and created hell lots of trouble for me.

Photos I'll put up soon. Super tired now.
Rah, so tired.
Time: 10:24 PM

I'M SO HAPPY TODAY! Nahaha don't know why but maybe cause I'm feeling pretty rebellious now.

Those who've seen me in school would have known.

And blah, during Econs lecture I never bring notes so Sam, Ting and I were just cam-whoring away. Hahah. Sweet. Fell asleep during GP. Sorry I can't help it. Paragraph writing drills kill me.
Math lecture I didn't understand a single shit but thanks Sam for helping me take down the important stuff I need to know. Got sent out of class for History cause I didn't complete my 3 pages essay outline. Whole 50mins sitting outside the classroom in the 'garden tables' suntanning away -.- Lesson was at 1.10pm-2pm. That's the afternoon sun.

After school, headed down to OCC with Eugene. Haha, it was fun! (:
We were there since like 3.30pm all the way till 6.30pm. Gah.
After that, had dinner with Clement and here I am.

-burps. Can't wait for my birthday :D
Wheeee.
Time: 9:54 PM

Is it some all guys' pms-ing day or something?

YH pms.
V pms.
H pms.
and all th other guys I know are pms-ing.



school sucks.
competition sucks.
friendship sucks.
i suck.
i'm totally losing motivation.



Why the hell did I make that decision. This is sucky. Seriously.
I'll bet a week. Any takers?
another thing. will our friendship last? i'm having serious doubts now.
Time: 10:42 PM

I seriously have had enough of attitude problems? Like hi, this is my life so why the [fish] are you making it so miserable for me just because you are the one with the [booby] attitude? I don't give a [fishing] damn when you get jealous or upset because the problem lies with me. I seriously don't cause it ain't my [booby] problem.

Key: [fish] - fuck
[fishing] - fucking
[booby] - bloody

My doubles for bowling today was bad. I felt so damn pressurised (I have no idea why but cause the arrangement was screwed up and I had to change lanes halfway) that by the third frame of the FIRST game I was in tears. Not exactly crying but tearing because I felt so frustrated with myself. Three frames and not a single spare. How great is that?
My hopes of getting an average of 150 today can fly to Antarctica lah. I bowled only an average of 125.3? #$%$^$%^$%^

From 136 drop to 125. I seriously rock my socks.

1st game: 120
2nd game: 100
3rd game: 142
4th game: 119
5th game: 137
6th game: 134

I was so so disappointed with myself. Simple spares and I couldn't spare. Gah, totally irks me.
By the end of the whole competition I was tearing again not cause I felt sad but felt that all my open frames were nonsense cause they were simple spares that I could have easily gotten. I didn't even get a split (maybe once only).

Best of all, me being in a bad mood, had two people showing me attitude at the same time that drives me up the wall.

First was V which I don't know what the hell is wrong with him but he suddenly got upset with something I said (I don't remember saying anything harmful) and refused to talk to me. Hung up on me 4 times after he called me like wtf? Total turn off man.

Second was YH who got jealous cause I was talking(or rather arguing with) to V and whatever shit nutcase. Emo then show me attitude like FUCK!

Come on lah, I don't wanna be in a relationship cause I hate quarrels, commitment, jealousy and whatever you can think of. You loving me it's your own problem. I told you loving me is just wasting your own time cause I don't wanna find a boyfriend. BUT DON'T BLOODY WELL TREAT ME LIKE I'M YOUR GIRLFRIEND OR WHAT SHIT LAH. So what if I talk to other guys? Your business? You jealous I care what shit? So what if I show you attitude problem? You not happy? I care what shit also cause you're not even my boyfriend. Please lah I want singlehood cause it's more relaxing but with guys like you all, I'd just grab any random guy and make him my boyfriend if that's the case. You love me, your business. Don't come and drag me into this horrible business of love. _|_

Gah, and yea, maybe I do like someone now but I ain't sure. I'm not planning to tell anyone about it anyway. I like him but I know nothing will come out of it so I'll just keep it my little secret (: Eye candy eye candy. Haha. Whatever.


I'm super tired. But I'm still thinking about you(: Thinking about you makes me smile. Somehow.


This cutie pie has been in my bag for during competitions(:


Don't you think my hand's so cool?


My screensaver in my phone.


On the way to some baby's birthday party.


WeiQuan being completely stupid over the webcam :D HAHA.


Pooh bear says hi!


Random emo picture? o.O


We were the only ones sitting at the first row. OMG.


Obscene fat legs I know. But I just love this picture (:
Time: 7:31 PM

Finally my internet's working:D
My dad unknowingly went to change the password of the internet and thus, the whole internet connection didn't work:/

Competitions yesterday was superb man. Minus the fact that I had a huge quarrel with my parents the night before which made me cry myself to sleep cursing and swearing. Next day cabbed to OCC from Yishun cause apparently the shutter bus service only starts operating at 7.58am and I needed to be there by 7.30am.

Sleepy mode. Darling Lynette was there and Bobin too (:
First two games were pretty shitty. Bobin came over to my lane and I was pretty pissed that my second game was shit.

Me:Walauuu, bowling like shit lah.
Bobin: Eh show me some good stuff leh. I come here support you leh.
Me: Aiyah, see how.

Then I got a nice spare :D Whee. Haha. I just totally loved yesterday's competition.

My expected score under competition pressure:
Maximum score 100-120
Average 100-110.

Neheheheh.

1st game: 125
2nd game: 103
3rd game: 151
4th game: 147
5th game: 150
6th game: 140

Average - 136 :D

Wheeee! Tomorrow I'm having doubles competition. I'll do my best and this time I'm aiming for an average of 150-160. Not that hard I figured. Though I most probably won't achieve that but I'll still try my best(:

I'm still so tired. Sigh. Can my super nice idiotic godbro stop giving my number to his army friends? #$%#^ it's so bloody irritating having weird numbers calling me and sms-ing me.
Sleepy ): Blah.
Time: 6:30 PM

NAHAHA, GOOD MORNING WORLD. It's 5.30am now :D

Been so super exhausted these days that my muscles feel like they weigh a ton!
Friday we had training and I was the only girl? Cause the rest of the girl's team couldn't make it ):
Haha, had cabbed to Yishun and had lunch there. Eugene and Jonas were having the battle of the doubles. And it was especially funny when they were competing to see who finishes their soft drinks first. Hilarious I tell you.

After which, we went to the arcade. It's been so long since I've stepped into the arcade. Gosh.
Training was funnayeeee. But yeah. After training, went back to the arcade with Jonas and Eugene cause they wanted to finish using the credits in the card.

At first I agreed to go with them cause Jonas said he was taking the mrt. Then after that he say he'll just call his mum to pick him up and I was like wth): Gotta walk to the mrt station by myself. Then Eugene say he'll walk with me to the station. THEN he'll call his mum to pick him up. WALAU. All mummy's boy. Tsk.

Reached home pretty late and I tell you these two nights are the fun-nest nights since school reopened. HAHA. Eugene and I have been staying up playing the MSN games.
On Friday night we were playing wheel of fortune till I fell asleep halfway. HAHA.
Today, we've finished playing all the MSN games and are searching for entertainment.

Ohwells, I'm tired. Dance killed today.
I think I shall start studying soon. Like at 7am or something.
Nope, I'm not planning to sleep (:
Time: 5:28 AM

My heart skipped a beat when I picked up the call. I wondered if it was you. Maybe I'm thinking too much. But was it really you?):

It's a wonder how things still operate as they are, as though nothing has ever happened.
I always think like, 'What happens if I never said this or did that?' Then I will create a whole new story that ends with an ending I very much preferred. People change as circumstances around them change. To me, people always change the most when they are attached. I don't see why things need to change when a loverboy steps into your life or something?

It's hard to smile and say it's alright, when it hurts so badly deep down. But I know I can't forbid cause it's your life. People say it's a miracle we can survive for so long. I think so too. Given our ups and downs in life, it really makes me wonder, what made us last so long together.

Total exhaustions eating me up from the inside.
Training and dance is the only reason I smile for.
Why should I miss someone I don't love? Makes no sense to me.
To get back together? Nah, forget it. Not interested.

I'm being so random now. Finally done with my PI 2nd draft.
Next up to go will be:
1) History essay outline
2) History summary sheet
3) History paragraph writing drills
4) Lit questions
5) Math tutorials


I don't know why but being alone just sucks. It sucks so badly.
Haha, no I'm not desperate or something.
Just that, I never grew up to live without anyone.
If that makes sense, cause it does perfectly to me.
Time: 10:31 PM

Totally demoralised man.
I admit I'm lagging behind in Math but I'm struggling to catch up.
Math ain't my best subject you know but I'm trying to understand, to score in it.
So much that while I was studying on the way home after training yesterday, I nearly cried cause I couldn't even understand the simple concepts of functions when I read the notes.

Before I increased my training, I've always made sure I'm ahead of class, cause I know sooner or later I'll lag behind. Yes, I'm struggling but you didn't have to demoralise me so much? Well maybe you didn't mean it in that sense but I can tell you it pulled my whole self esteem down. I know it was a simple question. So simple yet I couldn't answer it. YH says functions just memorise but the thing is, I wanna UNDERSTAND and not just stupidly memorise words.

I'm trying damn hard to catch up but I guess you don't see it?
With trainings 5 days a week, reaching home at and average of 8pm every day.
Going home with exhausted body and muscles, having difficulties waking up in the morning cause my body just feels so heavy and my mind can't get up?
Dance every Saturdays. I'm struggling lah.
Sigh, this sucks but nevermind, I shall just try even harder.

I don't believe I can't bowl well and study hard at the same time.

Going to study now so ta ta. My mood was so down I bowled like shit. What you said in lessons just made me so demoralised. And I thought you were nice.


My lit annotations that I'm so proud of :D


My dream guy. A bit scrawny though.








Time: 8:57 PM

Guess what? Even coach thinks I don't train enough :/
I think so too. 1 day train for 2hours is really not enough?
But good thing is coach says it's already very good for someone like me who learn bowling so late and train so little last time (I used to slack a lot in trainings and don't even train on other days) to bowl and improve so much :D

I'm still pushing myself more. My body's on the verge of breaking down already.
Just two more weeks. Two more weeks of strenuous training. After competition, MAYBE I'll cut down on training but maybe not. Cause I will have National Age Groups on June. So I'll train even harder especially if I don't do well for A divs.

I'm sick and tired of trying to be the nice person you know? I don't know but yeah, it sucks having certain friends but still...
Btw, FC and I are no longer talking. Well, more of like I blocked him on MSN but I've got my reasons lah. So yeah.

I'm proud of my lit poem (:
All the annotations were done on my own :D
Now on to GP homework, PI draft 2, history notes.
I need to stay awake and have more determination.
But my body and mind is working against me. They are screaming they wanna rest.
No, can't. I can't feel sleepy now. I train hard, I need to study hard too.

COME ON SHUJUN WAKE UP!
Zzz.
Time: 10:07 PM

Even coach says I looked totally shagged.
Gah, who won't be? I can't even cope with my school work.
Bad bad bad.

A and I had a greaaaat talk in school today.
He said that I shouldn't try to put on a fake smile and a strong front in front of him.
Haha, I can't help it. I'm used to it lah. Plus he mentioned that I shouldn't just keep thinking of others but learn how to care about myself.
Plus he says I have low self esteem. EHH, I also don't know what's wrong with me -.-

Totally love the tattoo on my hand. Yeah, it's not real but it's still nice.
I don't mind getting a real one though.

Look at my timetable since last week.

Mon - Training
Tue - Training
Wed - Training
Thur - Training
Fri - Training
Sat - Dance

And look at this week's timetable.

Mon - Training
Tue - Training
Wed - Training
Thur - Bowling with Bobin
Sat - Dance
Sun - Training

But I still think I'm not training enough though ): Somehow I feel I'm not giving my all yet?
A says he's scared that I'm training so much just to take my mind off things? Ehh, I'm not sure but I do know, I wanna do well for this competition :D


After dance on Sat.


This is PART of the birthday cake. Trust me, I'm not lying.


Sian-ing during the party.
















I really don't mind getting this tattoo-ed on my hand.
Time: 9:53 PM

Ohmyyyy, I cried and cried and cried like nobody's business last night:/
I didn't even know who was I crying for cause I had two big blows one after the other?
Well, the first blow was finding out that J has a girlf (I hate it when I find out such stuff) and well the second one I'd rather not say.

I nearly finished using the whole tissue box but well thanks to Clement and YongHe who talked to me and tried cheering me up by laughing and saying lame stuff which actually made me more pissed. But I know they meant well (: Ahwells, my eyes were so swollen last night and this morning and it's SO SO DRY! Rahh.

But still, I'm feeling loads better now and did a bit of shopping just now:D
Yesterday dance was omg so fun! But thing is, THAT FREAKY WOMAN IS GOING FOR THAT DANCE CLASS TOO! Like omg! She's EVERYWHERE! I recognised her not for her face but for her pig's trotters. Okay lah, I admit my legs ain't that thin or what but come on lah, hers is like twice of mine? Well, I stayed FAR AWAY from her. She was on the right of the studio, I was all the way on the left. Whew.

Today I'm suppose to go for the choir concert but gave it a miss cause Clement and I were late and everything. Zzz, 24bucks down the drain. How smart. So we headed down to Westmall to shop instead. I'm so so seriously in need of clothes. I think :/
I spent like damn alot of $$ today? Nearly more than 95 bucks? ):
Sigh, I hate emo moods. Make me so broke. Plus, make the people around me broke too. Cause I used YH's debit card (he wants me to use the card otherwise he'll be pissed -.-) to pay for some and Clement paid for my meals too. Gah, feel so so bad.

Got loads of photos but I shall upload it some other time.
Econs test tomorrow. Ta ta.
This ain't the time to think about a boyfriend.
It's the time to think about getting a scholarship :D
Time: 8:27 PM

I'm so tired ): Been so tired that I don't even have the energy to blog.
J1 life seriously sucks to the max I swear.

And I think I'm going to the no life route? Thank goodness I still have dance to give me a bit of life.

Monday - School + Training
Tuesday - School + Training
Wednesday - School + Training + Dinner at Swensens with Clement
Thursday - School + Training
Friday - School + Training
Saturday - Dance
Sunday - Choir concert

Gah, I've really been so tired that I'm breaking down. I'm spraining my ankle every single training): Sleeping before 10pm like such a miracle? Cannot wake up in the mornings cause my body just feels so heavy. Back injury getting worse too.

But I'm glad to say, my hard work has finally paid off (:
My first personal best (I'm not going to reveal how much cause to pros, it's pretty low) in bowling was using just my polyester ball (my first ball). Since I've gotten my reactive ball (my second ball), I haven't been able to get used to it yet thus not being able to break my personal best.
BUT I'M PROUD TO SAY THAT I'VE FINALLY DONE IT! YAY!

After like so many weeks of trainings, back injuries, sprained ankle, swollen fingers, blisters, etc. I'm proud(: Let's just hope I can keep it up during competitions (:

Ah wells. Eh, don't expect me to contact Jason again lah. It's like hell impossible for a very simple reason - I've lost his number :D
I'm sick and tired of relationships. AND EVEN THOUGH I'M BLOODY WELL NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP, the fact that people love me is irritating enough.
Not being a bitch here or what but, hey, yeah I know you love me and all.
But what's the point of wanting me to be ur gf if I don't even like you at all? Plus I'm not even WANTING to get together with anyone so aren't you like just being desperate.

P.S It's not meant for just ONE person. There are many people forcing me to go over the edge. Zz.

I wanna go shopping so badly):
Anyone wants to study with me? I need to catch up with my work too. Bah.
And I've been emo emo emo.
I miss having a boyfriend and all but I know I can't.
STUDIES FIRST.

Okay, YH is crying now. Wtf? My fault again.
BYEBYE IM LIKE SO PISSED.
Time: 10:17 PM

I'm thinking of getting a tattoo! Haha, but the fact is I'll get murdered by my parents first, followed by Clement, followed by a whole lot of my friends.
Been thinking of getting one since sec3? Blah. But knowing my character, I'll soon get bored seeing the same stuff over and over again. So most prob I'll go get an airbrush tattoo during the june holidays :D Either that or Ting and I are thinking of using henna. Hmm.

Anw, today's like so so slack? Clement came over in the morning and we kinda just slacked? We had a tiff last night cause my attitude sucked like rotten eggs. Pms-ing I suppose? I just know that I didn't have the mood to like talk to anyone and everything around me is just pissing me off. So yeah. At 12pm, daddy and I headed down to CSC@BB to celebrate a baby's one year birthday. I don't know how she's related to me and I don't bother trying to remember but ya.

They kept playing all the nursery rhymes and songs till I got so sick of it -.- Humpty Dumpty especially. Other songs were like 'two little black birds sitting on the wall', 'I'm a little teapot', etc. You get the idea lah. And there were so many kids there plus helium balloons! Omg, I wanted to take one too but you know, small kids there, must let them have it. So yah.

Jo came damn late -.- And we cam-whore awhile before we left for Westmall. Went to find Clement then we walked about and shopped a bit. When we were at The Face Shop getting nail polish, my aunt suddenly appeared. Scared us when somebody suddenly talked to us and said, 'What are you shopping for ah?' Haha, good thing was, my aunt paid for my nail polishes. Happy happy (: Then we left and Jo went to meet her boyf while Clem and I headed home. Yawns. I'm really tired.

Have photos but am lazy to upload. Sheesh, I feel a shopping spree urge coming on. Plus, I need to buy more make up. My foundation cracked cause I accidentally dropped it on the floor -.-
Time: 8:59 PM

WHEE, it's been ages since I've posted.
Been so super tired and all ):

Wed after school went to training. After training went to dance.
Reached home with more bruises (story below) and a sprained ankle.

Which totally irked me cause of this CHEENA (I think) woman who think she owned the dance floor. Like fuck, she doesn't know what's evenly spread out? And like if you're a dancer, you show co-operation to other dancers also making sure you don't hit them with ur flying pig trotter's kick or something? Well apparently she doesn't give a damn? Treated the whole dance floor like hers, and we were doing scissors kick and turns on the floor, her pig's trotters will just WHAM! and she stepped on me like countless times? Plus, she squeezed me out to the corner like what can I dance? Dance and bang the wall ah? Fuck.

Best part that nearly made me scream, she dance dance dance like the whole floor's ours and there was this part where we were 'running' backwards and bloody hell I was already so close to the wall and she came running like a giant BACKWARDS TOWARDS ME. I was like fuck! There are bloody mirrors in the studio not only for you to correct your posture but for you to look out for others lah. Well she didn't care and she came crashing straight to me I had to put out my hands to stop her. She still dared to glare at me like, 'WTF YOU STOP ME FROM DANCING FOR?' Bloody shit. Her shirt was so wet my hands stank after having to TOUCH her bloody sweaty shirt and stop her.

I'm changing dance classes dammit. Changing to another class and I pray those people there are nicer and more sensible.

Thursday went to collect my phone and buy my finger inserts. Tired.
And wth? SAFRA MOUNT FABER DOESN'T ALLOW STUDENTS WEARING SCHOOL UNIFORMS TO SIT AT THE LOBBY?! I'm not even like smoking there or something? I'm just waiting for the rain to stop=.=

Friday was in a bad mood cause my phone is still not repaired properly. Had to go down to Woodlands again and send it for repairs. The lady who was attending was nice. She made sure she understood everything and even brought my phone in to let the technicians check. She said they had no idea why it's so screwed up and 'the all the applications are going haywire.' Ah wells.
After sending my ph for repairs, headed down for the friendly match.

Super bad I tell you. Never bowled so badly before and I was so so disappointed that I nearly cried ): Sheesh, if I'm going to do this badly for A div, I'm going to break down and freak out I tell you.

I seriously wanna go out man. So boring.
Okay byebye, shall study ):

AND YES, I LOVE LYNETTE DEAR AND MEETING YOU YESTERDAY WAS LIKE OMG IM SO HAPPY! but you never called me): maybe you were too tired after training. Whatever the case, I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH DEAR! Must meet up soon okay!!!
Time: 12:35 PM

I haven't been sleeping well the past two nights and I have no idea why. Kept having repeated dreams about Jason and random thoughts about him just keeps popping up in my mind. No idea what's going through this brain of mine but yeah, I just pray it's got nothing to do with my 6th sense.

Feeling so exhausted. Nationals are in 20days time? Rah. Have to train really hard.
Should I go for dance tomorrow after training? I really wanna go back to dance ):
But thing is, my back's killing me. Since yesterday's PE, my back has been hurting so badly it's making me walk with a limp already. Today's training was like SHIT cause I couldn't even correct my posture of throwing the ball cause it's hurting so badly that it makes no difference no matter how I change my posture):

I'm stuck with what choices I have to make and the opportunity costs (I'm a loyal Econs student...like real). Sigh. Dance? Bowling? Studies? More time for myself?

GOOD NEWS IS MY HANDPHONE IS READY FOR COLLECTION:D let's just cross fingers and hope that the profile doesn't screw up any longer or I'll scream.

Yesterday, at least I made an attempt to talk to M okay? As in, just like ask how he was with his gf and all. Made an attempt. Turned out bad. Things between us were so...awkward? I can't help but resent him for spilling my secrets I confided in him like nobody's business but I still want to revert to the old us. He still feels guilty, I still feel resentful towards him. Sigh, don't know when things between us will get better.

I don't know but lots of people are asking if I'm attached and all. Especially my bowling mates cause they've seen Clement fetch me from training a few times.

1) I'm not attached.
2) If I'm not attached, means Clement is not my boyfriend.
3) I don't wanna be attached for the time being.
4) Yes, I do have someone I love dearly but I'm not saying who.
5) I still don't wanna be attached :D

So there. Okay, I'm back to mugging mode already.
Anyone wanna like pei me go collect my hp and go to Mt Faber SAFRA to buy finger inserts?
Be nice :D Accompany me on Thurs!
Birthday's next month. Rach says I should celebrate.
Haha, given my emotional state now? I guess not. I shall emo.
Time: 9:22 PM