hahah.as usual, i had a tiff with clement last night AGAIN.
over some stuff. blahblah. im so so getting used to these quarrels already.
and it's like i can predict what he will say liao lah.pfft.

but he said that he will blog for me when i go to taiwan.
I KNOW WHY HE SAID THAT LAH!
cause when im in taiwan he's gonna play com games all day.
no need to msg or call me what.that's why he will be at the com.

damnn.i dont know.mayb i shall ask bestf to blog for me :D
i've got dance on sat? o.O
clem say he wanna come over to teach me chem tmr.
but but two bestf asked me to go out w them alr!
blaaah.i havent asked mum yet.
she's still refusing to talk to me so yah.

anw, i studied math today!
after this im going up to mug again.yepp.
be proud lah.i studied leh.
raaah. feeel so super sick of everything.

it's just that SOMEONE is being an ass.
bestf? dont give me that shit lah.
i dont recall bestf being ppl that DONT even talk to each other anymore.
and dont even give a damn on how's life for the other party.
i hate you lah. for telling me all the goddam lies and making me believe them.

and also another SOMEONE who's making my life miserable.
bestf said that if she sees ----- she's gonna kill him.
love you bestf(: but yeah, im sorry.
dont wish to talk to u anymore. so yah.
u go your way, i go mine. i've made that decision alr.
and looks like the thing we've been avoiding is happening.
im sorry but i WILL ignore you from now on.
Time: 1:41 PM

happy anniversary love (:
hahah. thanks for comforting me last night and everything.
im just scared of next year when i know you cant be there for me everyday already.

anw, last night baby called me. wasnt in a good mood.
im sorry baby, but mummy still loves you okay?
yeah. promise you i will go out with you again and be happy :D
and i will try to make ur pillow aye? and exchange x'mas presents with you!

okay, i had a very very bad night.
dont know.

woke up at 5, was too lazy to go to the toilet.
went back to sleep.

woke up at 6, went to the toilet.
went back to sleep.

woke up at 7, checkd my hp.
love msg me saying happy 11month and 7hours.haha.cuteeee.
went back to sleep.

woke up at 8.30, still very early.
went back to sleep.

woke up at 9.30, still damn early.
went back to sleep.

woke up at 10.30, couldne sleep anymore.
so i got out of bed :D

yepp.and so i watched white chicks.
super funny. then waited for twinn to come.
but blahblah. things happened.
bestf know right? :/
then yeah, he came over and we watched resident evil 2.
i think i like resident evil 1 better! yepp.
but twinn was falling asleep on the sofa.

baah.and mummy saw. and i think she got the wrong idea or smth.
i dont know! it's like suddenly she so fierce to me.
have no idea what i did wrong can?
then yeah.
twinn tried to sabo me.
talked to anh and jiayi using my account.
ANH, THAT WASNT ME TALKING TO YOU OKAY?
a few parts were. but the main gist wasnt me.
and jiayi's a smart lil girl. lovee you.

i've got twinn's shirt and his music book. thanks twinn.
and im waiting for bestf to call me later(:
-did u know that everytime you call me bestf i feel so loved? really.

ALPHABIOGRAPHY!

A!
Available: NOPE!
Age: sweeeet 15 (:
Annoyance: betrayers. and not being able to give my best.

B!
Best Friend(s): TIAN, YING, JIA, LYNETTE, GERO!
Bored?: yeah, kinda. gonna cook my dinner soon.
Birthday: 21st May

C!
Crush: ehheh. ONLY SOME PEOPLE KNOW WHO HE IS :D
Car: ehh.i WISH lah.
Candy or chocolate?: CHOCOLATE OF COURSE!

D!
Day or night: Night
Dream Car: those vroom vroom but i hate the super loud exhaust.
Dog or cat: Dog

E!
Easiest person to talk to: ehh. i dont know? depends on what ure talking about what!
Eggs: not really.
Email: pho3nix_g4l@hotmail.com

F!
Favorite Day: umm.everyday? since it's the holidays now!
Favorite color: black, white, blue and (sometimes) pink/purple.
Favorite Memories: alot alot leh.

G!
Gummy Bears or Worms: bears. i always eat the head off first :/
Giver or taker: maker :D
Gum: yeah. esp the original flavour and grape!

H!
Hair Color: A little bit of brown, red, golden, yellow (?), blue( im not sure if it's there).
aiyah, abit of every color except black, green, orange, white, pink (i want!) and the weird colours.
Height: 171 (?)
Happy?: kindaaaa.

I!
Ice Cream: Conetto
Instrument: piano and guitar!
Idol: dont belive in such stuff. unless it's God.

J!
Jewelleries: umm. fake got alot. real....i think i lost the necklace made of white gold:/
Job: mummy dont let me work cause my studies are BAD.
Jailed?: nope.

K!
Kids: i dont have but i want 2! one boy and one girl!
Kickboxing or karate: i've learnt kick boxing before :D
Kindergarten: cant remember leh. i think i had alot of kindergartens.

L!
Longest Car Ride: i dont know! cause i will normally be fighting in the car with my bro.
Longest relationship: hahah. shhh.
Last person you met: twinn.

M!
Milk flavor: normal kind or chocolate.
Most missed person(s): my bestfriendS! and alot of ppl too.
Movie Last Watched: resident evil (2)

N!
Number of Siblings: One
Number of Tattoos: underage :/
Name: Fu ShuJun

O!
One wish: wish for more wishes?
One phobia: umm.umm. i dont know. i think doing scary stuff are fun!
OH OH OH! i know! horror shows. those like resident evil im not scared. but those like the eye or smth. AAHHHH!
One regret: letting SOMEONE leave my side):

P!
Pet: dont have. was suppose to get another hamster buuuut..
Part of your appearance you like best: hahah. my numerous dimples :D i got 5 okay okay?
Part of your personality you like best: i dont know! i only know i changed ALOT.

Q!
Quick or Slow: quick.
Queen or princess?: SHUJUN!
Quiet or Loudmouth: loud but definately not BIGmouth.

R!
Reason to smile: if im happy i smile.DUH!
Reality TV Show: i dont watch.
Reasons to cry: if im sad, i cry!

S!
Song Last Heard: Trademark - Only Love
Season: Spring/winter
Shoe: AND1

T!
Time you woke: 5am, 6am, 7am, 8.30am, 9.30am and 10.30am. choose one.
Time Now: 6.28pm. gonna cook my dinner after this.
Time for bed: ranges from 11pm to 6am or else dont sleep till the next day.

U!
U love someone: YUP!
Unpredictable: guys.
Underwear: -_____- KPO

V!
Vegetable you hate: KANGKONG AND KALLANG
Vegetable you love: XIAO BAI CAI
Vacation spot: canada or switzerland!

W!
Whats your plan?: study super hard and aim for lawyer!
Where is your next destination?: uhh.i dont know?
Weather right now: abit greyish sky and it's cooling.

X!
X-Rays: collarbone.
X-rated: dont get you.

Y!
Year you were born: 1991
Year it is now: 2006
Yellow: sunflower?

Z!
Zoo is?: FUN but VERY HOT. ( i cant stand heat lah.unless got bball or suntanning)
Zodiac: RAM. (i think it is this word?)
Zebra stripes are?: nice.cause it's black and white (:
Time: 6:00 PM

Instructions: name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head.
dont read the questions below before you write and tag 5 people to do the survey.

1) twinn
2) clem
3) tian
4) ying
5) deeee
6) gero
7) lynette
8) rachel low
9) pixie
10) huiting
11)jeffrey zhou
12) shanti
13) yongqiang
14) yong yi
15) siamese twin- ELAINE(:
16) justina
17) tide
18) lynn ong
19) JIAYI
20) adeline yong

How did you meet 14?

-hahah.through basketball trainings (:

What would you do if you never ever meet 1?

-ehh, i dont know? think my life will be super boring w/o him :/

What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?

-OH MAN! no way laaaah. hahah.i cannot let them happen leh!
i will get jealous! hahaha.

Did you ever like 19?

-I DID NOT EVER LIKE JIAYI! I ALWAYS LOVED HER :D

Would 6 and 1 make a good couple?

-uhoh. dont ask me. i dont wanna answer this!

Describe 3.

- my lovey dovey bestie friend since primary school.

Do you think 8 is attractive?

-DUH RIGHT. so many guys like her!

Say something about 7.

- my dearest best friend in nanyang who has always been there for me whenever i am down.love you girl!

Do you know any of 12's family members?

-ehheh.nope!

What's 18's favourite?

-umm.i dont know! it's been super long since i talked to her :/

What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you?

-HAHAH.i dont think that will happen lah. we are bball mates for life :D

What language does 15 speak?

-a language only we twins understand :D

Who is 9 going out with?

-NO ONE! beams with pride :D:D

How old is 16 now?

-15 years oooold.

When was the last time you talked to 13?

-HAHAH.umm this morning when we went for brunch.

Who's 2's favourite band/singer?

-himself cause he can sing! but he likes chinese songs lah.

Would you date 4?

-SURE! we went out on lots of dates before din we? :D:D and we held hands too!

Would you date 14?

-HAHAH.NOOOO. how can i date my own gong gong ahhh?

Is 15 single?

-YEPP! i think.hahah.

What's 10's last name?

-CHUA :)

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 17?

-uhhh.no. hahah.he and i are just.....brother and sister :D:D

What school does 3 go to?

-BUKIT PANJANG GOVERNMENT HIGH!



okay! the 5 special ppl who're gonna do this!

1) lynette
2) geraldine
3) jiayi (i know u did this before but muahahahah!)
4) chongying
5) denise (i know u did this before but muahahahah!)


EH, that quiz is damn accurate can? i got super freaked out lah.okay, its not ACCURATE. but very coincidental leh!

anyway, woke up at around 9am?
then left the house to meet yongqiang at je.
to have bruch tgt.
we mrt-ed down to harbour front to eat.
HAHAHA. i can whine better than you lah! :D

then we ate macs. and talked about alot alot of stuff.
like happy tree friends. scary movie 1-4.
damn crap. omg, thankyou for waking up so so early to have brunch w/me (:
then wanted to meet twinn. but he fell aslp. according to him.shrugs.

finally bought my ipod cover.
and then mrt-ed to westmall.
suppose to meet twinn there but wth. nvm.
met clem there.
shopped around.bought food and bus-ed to my house.
HAHAH.mummy made him try on my bro's pants!
cause korkor cant wear them anymore and she thinks clem can!
but he said abit tight and i laughed at him and said HAHAH! you grew fatter lah!
and mummy laughed too.hahah.

then we watched umm. THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW THREE.
at first we were watching sky high. then smth wrng w the disk ):
so we changed show.
after that, went to play bball.

OMG, i got super super alot of chops cannn?
grins. but i think i aggrivated my muscle strain.
it hurts ALOT more now. blaah.but still. bball - my love!

OHOHOH! and clement damn smart lah.
forgot how to go my house from the bus stop already.
then he walked the opp direction thinking he was correct.
and i just stood there and stare at him.HEH.
when he realised, i laughed at him x)

blaah. and again, i was suppose to meet twinn.
but yeah. sm stuff. and blahblah. im kinda raaaah.
nvm. i can bet, he wont be able to come over tmr.
anyone wanna bet with me?

ANDANDAND tide said that he will give me a present when i come back from taiwan :D
he said that he will meet me anytime i ask him to! yay!
hahah. he said super long never see me alr. awww.im touched lah.HEH.

but still, thailand fighters are good lah.
try to train harder but still, u did ur best(: and i love you for that!
im not going to practice boxing with you but i can play badminton with you.
wahahhaha :D:D

okayokay.photos FINALLY!


HONGJIAYI EATING PAPER!


BOWLING :D:D


DOESNT YONGQIANG HOLD THE PHONE THE WAY L DOES?


oh maaan, they look sooo soooo cute!


leaning tower of smth smth at sentosa :D


eugene and the guy behind him are actually doing the same action!

Time: 9:39 PM

clem and i had a SUPER big arguement last night.
really really bad.
just told him straight i DONT trust him ANYMORE.
and i told him that i never wanted to see him.
blah. irony, i went to his house today.stupid.

i wont elaborate on our quarrel lah.
it's just so irony. blahblahblah.
but still, i dont wanna trust him anymore.so yah.

okay, woke up super early and i went to school for OGL meeting.
on the bus i saw this guy wearing a weird combi of brands.
ADIDAS SHOES.
AND1 BBALL SHORTS.
UNKNOWN SHIRT.
NIKE HAT.
ADIDAS BAG.
haha.super funny lah.

anw, reached school.stoned there. kept super quiet.
i think i was weird.then it ended, told deeee to call me.
walked out of school.
wanted to go eat lunch w twinn.
but as expected, he was sleeping.
CAUSE I WAS SUPPOSE TO MEET JIAYI AFTER SHE REBONDED HER HAIR.
but she cannot make it cause her mummy is fetching her:/

then then then, i was super super hungry.
so called clem to go pei me eat lunch.
irony right? quarrelled and everything.
but cause i couldnt find anyone else so yeah.
then went to yew tee have lunch.
he just kept quiet blahblah.
then he msg-ed his ex crush to come explain to me everything.
i just deleted the msg w/o seeing it lah. i dont wanna see that kind of shit liao lah.

then i went to his house to get some dvds.
at first i stood outside his house and looked at the dvds cause not nice going in.
then his daddy saw me standing outside and asked me to go in :D
i think i like his daddy.his daddy very nice.
im damn scared of his mum though :/
so we just sat there.and watched resident evil (i think) and a series of unfortunate events (i think)

my memory is just bad lah.
then i tried teaching clem dance.omg.can die lah.
so after that we played PS2. yeah.
blahblah.and i left.cause his mum aint happy ):
but still, i dont trust clement. told him that before i left.yeapp.

and i miss twinn.somehow we are drifting?
saddening lah. but i really dont wanna drift from him :/
it's like....raaahh.i dont know.blahhh.
at least he's coming over to my house on wed.
i wil get to see him before i leave for taiwan :D
raaah.i want twinn): sniff sniff. < /3

Time: 7:22 PM

i never knew.
i really never knew about this.

so it means, everything was so fake.
finally, i hear the truth.
Time: 9:24 PM

[EDITED]

FINALLY I MANAGED TO RESCUE MY IPOD.
come on, cheer for me :D:D
hahah.both anh and clem suggested that i leave it there till it dies.
HOHO! but i got so bored i went to find how to restart it.and it's okay now(:
im super bored at home lah.

slept and ate and slept.
luckily it din rain. cause i wouldnt wake up to close the windows at all.
clement's english is WOAH!

'....it RAN...' - quoted from clement over the ph conv just now.
that's his past tense of RAIN.
tsk. shakes head.

and im still bored.HELP!


RAH! my ipod hang on me. dont ask me how.
it's still hang-ed (if there's such a word) even though it's been like an hour.
cant off it or anyth. wth.
all i did was to press the 'next' button.
and it hanged.
dumb.

im alone at home stoning.
mum and dad went to chinatown to get some winter clothings.
lazy to follow them.
kor went to school to study for his exams next week.
bleh.
twinn's still sleeping.
clem's falling sick.

just cause he drank last night.
serve u right. who ask u want to act pro and drink.
pfft. seriously, i think im a better drinker than him.
though i never drink those kind of reallyreally alot of alcohol stuff.
but still, i THINK i will be a better drinker than him.
but drinking kills ur liver.tsk.dont want.

and clem refuse to lend me the dvd just cause it's M18 and blahblah.
pfft.and i cant go rent.HOW? twinn is such a pig.gosh.
random random.

i wanted to go and do up a new blogskin.
but no inspiration :/ super sleepy.
lazy to redo my blog.BAHH.
super bored lah.

mummy FINALLY let me join dance.
she din allow this year cause of bball and everyth.
blah.dance!
im super ultra duper sleepy.
calf muscles hurt like shit.
dont know why.
but still, im sleepy. twinn refuses to pick up the ph.
damn. im gonna rot lah.
stupid ipod. less than a week and it hangs on me.
sheesh.
Time: 12:46 PM

rahh.
i cant remember what i did last night?
oh no.
umm i think i slept. yes i did.

then i woke up.
to find out that both my clocks are not working.
alarm clock and the one in my room.
damn. luckily mummy woke me up.

took my own sweet time.
bathed.
din even bother to comb my hair.
just left the house in a daze.

mummy told me to bring a bag to bring waterbottle and umbrella.
was lazy.just left the house with my wallet which can fit my ipod and handphone in.
took bus.side gate was open. CHEERS!

danced danced danced :D
huiting dont get the wrong idea can? tsk.
i love you lah. no one else okay?
loved you since 030106 (:
and im going to propose to you next year.
be happy! (:

i think the dance today was fun.
minus the fact that aaron kicked my leg (eh, i din kick you keh?HEH)
and minus the fact that he stepped on my foot (luckily u din REALLY step)
u make a GREAT partner.hahah.i know i keep suan-ing you throughout the dance.
i think i did. but still, im sorry if i hurt ur ego or smth.
HAHAHA.i think i shall hurt baby's ego instead. heh.
i dont mean it when i am so so super sacarstic and stuff lah.
im just playful.

contemp was great :D
minus the fact that i could end up on the other side of the canteen by miracle.
and banging into jingjie 3 times?
still...
proud proud! jiayou!

hiphop....umm...i cant dance hip hop for nuts but still.
PASSION FOR DANCE. -quoted from my laopo huiting.
i shall try out next year.but still, u like hip hop i like contemp :/

then went to eat.
was super bored with baby playing lan.
twinn died to somewhere.
ying had rehearsals and performance.
tian could not be contacted.
michelle was working.
jo had birthday party.

so went w aaron to lot1 for dont know what.
waste time? then mrt-ed to westmall to get my ipod stuff.
and had to RUN home from the bus stop.
cause it started raining.
and mummy will kill me if i got drenched and sick before i go taiwan.

rotted at home.
went to friendster.
added almost all the OGLS who had friendster.
this shows how bored i am.
then wrote testimonials for alot of ppl.
which means im REALLY bored.
and then now im blogging.

GOSH, i so wanna study.
but once i see books, i feel like sleeping :/

OH AND I'VE GOT THREE DIFFERENT TWINS OKAY?

firstly my longest twin i ever had!
YING! :D
my LOOKALIKE twinn.

PROOF: 1) her dad mistook me for her.
2) friends thought that we were the same person on different days until we turned up TOGETHER x) it was super funny okay?
3) even her school friends mistook me for her.

and my second is my siamese twin! ELAINE :D
though we just got to know each other, but we are inseparatable right? HEH.
same OG and blahblah. my dance mate too!

and finally my dearest TWINN (:
hahah.i dont like you anymore. think of it of what i told you over th ph keh?
but still, my dearest.HAHAHA!
i dont even know if i will be meeting you before i leave for taiwan.
and i still want the clothes ):

-irony.her dance is at *******.wth.
damn freaking irony and freaking bad luck.
daaaamn.u dont deserve all this.what's more using the auditorium.go away.-
Time: 5:12 PM

blaaah.
woke up 8plus.
clem came over at 9plus?
watch posiedon or smth.
dont know how to spell lah.

and twinn called :D
made my day.
after that baby called too.
budden he said he wanted to go back to sleep.
so he's calling me tonight.

raaah.cooked lunch for clement.
if i let him cook, think the whole kitchen will be burnt down.
then watched abit of the bone collector.
he was almost sleeping.

went bowling.
all three rounds i won :D
happy me! hahah.
i know it's not a HUGE accomplishment but i managed to get over 100 okay? (:
then went home and he got his stuff then go his grandma's house.

and suddenly bobin msg me asking for my address?
o.O
abit weird lah.
so long never talk to him.HAHA. he said he was gonna hang pig's head.
raaah. if he does that, i will do the same.
i know his add too :D:D
TWINN! next week okayokay?
be happy i help you find the dvd! heh.
raaah, tmr need to go to school for OGL.
bleeeh.im lazy.
and my sunburn still hurts damn badly.
): very very pain okay?
only at my shoulders though.

and of course PHOTOS! :D


NOW LYNETTE SAYS SHE DOESNT WANT THEM COVERED -_-


haha.dont ask what im doing. cause i have no idea too :/


I DONT LIKE GETTING STUNG IN THE SEA!


COLLAGE OF THE OUTING :D
Time: 5:16 PM

i woke up late.
suppose to reach school at 8.15am.
went only at 9am.
raaah.super sleepy can?

tsktsk.then OGL stuff.captain's ball was fun!
yeah.then cheers and lunch.
i've got my siamese twin! and we are even in charge of the SAME OG group.
TWO ROCKS RIGHT RIGHT? im sure jingjie he will agree with me :D

raaah.then lunch and dance dance dance.im like so so happy.
cause hip hop i was like HUH?
then CONTEMP! ohmy.im like so happy.
FINALLY my love! <3

then after that kept dancing.and made me happy.
OH DID YOU KNOW ---- AGREED TO GO OUT WITH ME!
hahah.im like so so surprised can? ohmy. HE ACTUALLY AGREED LEH!
okay, random.

then then after that took bus to ps.
sat on the high high wall while waiting for ying.
baby said i was ahlian.pfft.
he sprained his ankle. poor baby!
i got stunged can? hahaha.

then ying came, went to eat.
and tried to find her friends.
then finally to cinema.

OMG. in the cinema is damn funny lah.
cause on my right is ying, then on my left is 4 seats left empty for ying's teacher and her friends.
then two aknioscjnwo people just sat there like no one's business.
so i leaned over and said excuse me?
-ignored me.
EXCUSE ME!
-ignored me.
I GOT SO FED UP I WAVED MY HANDS AT THAT GUY AND ALMOST SHOUTED EXCUSE ME!
-ignored me like he couldnt see me waving at him.

wth? damn.but after the movie, i ran out.
sorry ying, im in a rush.
ran to mrt station.
was so orientated on which train to take home till ******* called me and made me messed up.
AND I NEARLY GOT ONTO THE WRONG TRAIN.
wth.but still, yeah.

reached home.and askdjnakic mum thinks im wearing coloured contact lens.
wth.
shitty lah.
im gna sleep.super tired.tmr will have photos.

i was suppose to meet twinn today too!
and he could come for the movie.
but STILL ):
bleeeh.
Time: 10:56 PM

DIE! suppose to meet jiayi in like half an hour's time but i haven't got ready yet!

heh.and i still wanted to the photo collage.damnnn.should i WALK to westmall? o.O
twenty minutes.AHHH.heck take bus :D
SENTOOOOSAAAA (i hope).
still JIAAAYIIIII! (i wonder if she's even awake now.hmm)

till laters.

(:

okay, so it ended up that both jiayi and i were late.
but still reached earlier keh?
hahah.then westmall, as usual, wasnt open.
and as usual, we forgot that we can buy from harbour front.
until i remembered :D

then mrt-ed to harbour front.
i was super sleepy okay? sorry jiayi love.
hahah.just really really tired that i couldnt talk nonsense with you.

then met my classmates at harbour front while jia met hers.
then went to buy water together.
and blahblah. jia and i got lost in vivo lah.
WHAT IS JIAYI'S CHINESE NAME? beams.

hahahah.then bus-ed to siloso.
they played volley and bball.
and we tried digging deep holes to get water.
and i was the only one who swam.
best part i din have extra shorts.
but still, i swam thrice.
thanks sam for your shorts.

got stung by smth in the sea.
got one on my arm, my leg and my thigh.
i wasnt the only one.
some acjc guy whom i talked to also got stung too.
ohwells. im still alive, so i think nothing serious lah.

then just stoned.i seriously am REALLY sleepy.
i dont know.just really sleepy.that's why i kept going to the sea.
it's like the water's really refreshing.
i just wished my swimming is much much better.
so i wont worry about going to the deep part of the sea ):

and horrible cheok.pfft.throw sand balls at me with amanda and lakshmi?
bully me lah.
i was in the water.and they start bombing me with sand balls from shore.
until i found a way to counter attack.
when they throw, i go underwater x)

after that had a heavy downpour.
stayed under shelter playing cards.
laksmi and i were figuring out songs for a moment.
i dont know.i know i was really sleepy by then.

rain stopped, bus-ed back to interchange.
went to harbour front center.
they ate 'light' snacks.
bought chocolates for everyone.
they are my fav chocs(:

and then left at around 6.50pm?
sorry din join u ppl for dinner.
i could, until smth popped up last minute.
so yeah, sorry.

mrt-ed to bedok.
did stuff.i had to cook my own dinner lah.
wth.
but still kinda okay.
took taxi home.
and im so glad im alive.

taxi driver was speeding hell alot.
120km/h EVEN when he is NOT on the highway!
then red light SCREEEECH! and SCREEEECH!
i was like omg, if i am still alive, it must be a miracle.
was damn scared that i din even ask him to send me all the wat home.
told him to stop at the taxi stand and i walked home.
and it was like cheaper lah.

last time i took from kembangan was 18 plus.
today only 16.20 (:
anw, not my money.hahah.so yeah.thanks for the money!
not going to say what i did in bedok.
those who know, dont say either.just wanna keep it a secret.

yeah, really tired.
and i got OGL whole day tmr.
and movie after that.
wth, im dying.
i really really need to revise my work! ):

photos of yesterday, today and tomorrow will be posted on friday.
damn sleepy.

Time: 7:24 AM

thanks lynette dear for everyth today(: looove.
and even taking neos and many photos w/me cause you know they make me happy!
but im too tired to the collage today. and i will be too tired to do tmr too.sentosa!
and thur im out the whole day too.
so i will do all the collage on fri. before clem comes to my house.

basically i managed to wake up at 7am okay?even tho i slept after 12am!
but still, i went back to sleep.HEH.
when i woke up again, i thought the time din move.
cause the long hand wa still at 12!
but it was 8am alr.
so i was like shit! woke up, rush, and im out of the house.

but still, im earlier than lynette :D
she was still on her bed when i left the house.tsk.
then we met at hougang.
lynette say hougang very fun!
but like no fun.so we walked like 3 rounds around the bus interchange and took mrt to plaza sing.
took neos. check out spotlight for stuff.
wanted to watch dejavu. guess what? it's not out yet.and we went all the way to cine then realised. -____-

after that, walked to cine.
i think my feet seriously grew.
damn heels. too small already. i was limping by the end of the day.
serious.
i need some nice shoes to go with skirts lah.
cant keep wearing slippers.


AND SOME IDIOT THEIF WHO LIVES IN BT PANJANG STOLE THE SHOES I DESIGNED AND PAINSTAKINGLY PAINTED AND SEWED OKAY?

wth. it has blood (from sewing) and so much effort and even my NAME on it! damnn.if i see anyone wearing on the streets, that person is SO screwed. take

note: it is bright green and has skeleton pictures on it.and the outlines are not PAINTED but SEWED!

okay, im just super pissed.not ur fault tho, ying. its been a LONG time since shoe stealers appeared.but damn it.im gonna hunt that person down really bad.ESP if i see the shoes.

back to today.umm.bought tickets to watch the prestige.
was at 4.30pm.had like 4 hours to kill?
ate at pastamania.
LYNETTE! dont be anoroxic can?tsk.
went to taka.shopped.lynette, rmb no med without water.
no good.shakes head(:

then we realised we still had like 2hours to kill?
i dont know!
i know we had alot of time to kill.
so decided to go back cine and hit the arcade.
watched SJI guys play pool.
awhile later they got chased away cause they were wearing school uni?
and i think they are under 16.hmm.

wanted to dance parapara.
but another group was there.
a CHUBBY guy was dancing.
i shant be mean to say what i think of it lah.
'he looks like he's fighting wushu or smth' - quoted from two girls who walked past us.

yeah, so that's it lah.then they left and i danced.
after that, i just sat there and watch this guy play ------ (i cant rmb the name)
got shooting one lah.
then he was playing then he turned around and look at me.
suddenly lynette said 'he kept looking at you'
i was like huh? but it's the first time he turned around what.
she said, 'he's been looking at you since u started danicing'
O.O i quickly left the arcade.hahahah.

then we just stoned? outside the cinema?
i think so.
hahah.omg, u just have to see this photo we took in the lift.
LOOKS DAMN WRONG LAH!



sheesh.DAMN WRONG!ahha.then finally movie!
and yeah. it was damn nice.
after the movie, i couldnt walk straight lah.
it always happen.after movies, i will sway here sway there and bang into walls.

then left to take mrt with lynette.btw, grace couldnt make it cause she's sick.
maybe next week okay? (: take care babe!
and twinn was suppose to come my house this evening.
then i was suppose to meet him at bugis.
then i was suppose to go vivo laugh at him.
HAHAHAH.but all these unaccomplish.
so yeah.

tired me.should i do the photos? naaah.wanna sleep.
meeting dear jia at 7.45am.
to go sentosa tmr. love.
twinnn! i wanna go out w you! gosh. im going to show u smth REALLY funny when i meet up with you.

Time: 9:16 PM

okay, after practically 30 hours, i got to see my ipod.
and im really touched lah.
mummy remembers that since young, i always wanted presents to be wrapped up.
im seriously touched.and i wanna say thankyou to daddy.
but i dont know how to.

here's the pic.



and suddenly i thought of this.
PRESENT ---- WRAPPED UP ---- ******* ---- DADA ---- sitting on the sofa in my room.
i turned and looked.
dada wasnt there anymore.
and i just started crying.i dont know okay!
i just cried.for god knows what reason.

then i saw dada on my cupboard in a bag.
mummy must have thought that it was collecting dust thus she kept it.
i think, that's better.
i never had the heart to keep dada away. never.
i guess dada means kinda smth to me.
not the person who gave it to me. that's over.
but somehow, something.

im sorry clement for umm, being so fierce to you over the phone.
and um, for 'shouting' at you. really sorry.
i think this is the first time i ever did that? sorry ):
Time: 9:07 PM

[/edited]

hmm. last night i slept BEFORE 12am for once okay?

ohmy, accomplishment hor! actually slept so early.
was suppose to wait for baby to call.but i decided not to.
sorry baby! hahah.mummy still sleeps lesser than you :D

then i woke up at 7plus.bathed and went to school.
for OGL meeting.then i kept calling twinn.
he was still sleeping -___-
cause we were suppose to meet for brunch.
budden he din pick up.
so called baby.

HAHAHA.ohmy.baby is damn funny when he just wakes up lah.
can herdly hear him over the ph.
cause it sounds smth like---- 'mmmhahoooo.......mm...tahyauht...'
basically he's not saying anyth that makes sense.
and u can hardly hear him.pfft.

BUT STILL! i woke him up and went to have brunch w him.
thankyou baby!
hahah.planned to meet at lot1 first but i missed 67.
so he said he will go over to westmall.
went kfc (gosh, this better be the last time in this month im gna eat that!) and ate.
omg! im so sorry baby.
HAHAHA.i dont know why but it's so fun teasing you and everyth! :D:D
and eat ur veggies! good for you okay?

we basically just crapped as usual and everything.
hahah.then walked about westmall for awhile.
when i reached the mrt station, twinn FINALLY woke up.
hahah.then baby was gna meet his gf at clementi.
and twinn could meet me there too.
so both of us went.
ohmy.IT'S SUPER FUNNY OKAY!

baby and i were walking TOWARDS the escalator while his gf was walking FROM the escalator.
then his gf called him AND HE DIN REALISE SHE JUST WALKED PAST HIM!
i never seen her before but i've seen her pic and i saw!
she saw too and both of us laughed -_____-

HIM:-talking to his gf- ehh.i think i just saw your friends.


tsktsk.he sucks laaaah.HAHAHAHAHA.then after he left i met twinn.
just for awhile.

ying and i are gonna watch happy feet on thur night.yepp.
first time we go out at night leh! :D:D
HAPPY ME!

i wanted to go running so badly.
those who know me well enough will know how weird it is for me to WANT to go running.
and those who know me EVEN better.will know WHY i would wanna go running for.
blaaah.but it's raining): im super duper ultra -------------------------------.

AND KORKOR!
STUDY FOR YOUR SMU EXAMS LAH.HAHAHA!
READ MY BLOG FOR WHAT! TSK. JIAYOU LAH!
I STILL WANT TO GO PLAY BADMINTON WITH YOU CAN!
AND CYCLING. I DONT CARE! hahah.
GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR EXAMS (:
(see you at home tonight.hahahah!)

Time: 2:12 PM

[/EDITED]

I HAVENT SEEN MY IPOD NANO SINCE THEY CAME HOME UNTIL NOW!
omg, i rotted the whole day at home.
gero love, we must go out tgt and get the same cover. lovelove.
baby is going to call me later! ohmy.
i miss you meh? hahah.i think u miss me more lah! HOHO!

mummy said she got me an ipod nano?
and i think it's daddy who got it for me.
but i dont understand lah.
as in, he just shouted at me to get out of the house yesterday?

it's not going to be easy talking to him lah.
almost a few weeks already.
i never talk to him.

anw, i love the songs on my blog.
think they are damn nice :D
ohwells.
loving someone is so hard i guess.

im alone at home :/
bored out of my wits lah.
watching kids central.
i miss cartoon network ):
Time: 11:33 AM

im a good girl who decided to come home early and study(:
met lakshmi at orchard. and we went to eat cause she was starving.
first time i ate fried food in a long long time.hmm.
then we took neos.
and walked to somerset.
geroro dear.i got ur stuff alr. MONEY!
im really broke okay?heh.

then we walked to plaza sing.
under the blazing hot sun.
and we were wearing black.
rahh.then just went into shops blahblah.
we talked about alot alot of stuff.
HEH.keep to our promise okay? :D

SAVEEEE! (: so we can spend!

i was planning to meet twinn after lakshmi went back to hostel.
but din felt like.
firstly, i was SUPER sleepy.
secondly, i was REALLY sleepy.
thirdly, i am STILL sleepy.
lastly, i doubt he can come out. so yeah.

love you loads lakshmi(:
do take care keh?
contemp and hiphop!
HAHAHA.omg what fun lah.
june hols! and we must work hard tgt!
jiayou!


im having a bad hair day lah.wth.sleepiness.rahh.
i wonder if baby is still alive or did he die of fatigue during training.hmm.





Time: 5:57 PM

I PUT UP NEW SONGS! haha.if u wanna skip and listen to others, HAHA.
too bad, u've gotta wait for the other songs to finish first :D

OH MY OH MY! im so so sorry jeff!
AAAH! ):
feel damn bad lah. i was suppose to wake up at 6.45am to go play bball at 7am.
then i overslept! oh no! until 7.50am.
then jeff couldnt get back and he went back to sleep.
OHNO! FIRST TIME i overslept for bball with him!
SORRY SORRY! tmr keh? tmr if you can, i SURE wake up.promise promise.

AIYAH. i overslept cause i slept at like 4.15am? poof.
i was doing stretching and everythin (time to shake lazy bones off).
gotta get my flexibility back by hook or by crook.
my split is looking ugly so is my backarche.
and ive gotta work on abs muscles.so i can do a nice cartwheel?
:/

hmm.geroro love finally called me last night.
but her ph nearly went dead.
awww.geroro hurt me lah.poof.but still, i love you.
see im so nice right? HEH.

then after that, did stretching plus im doin smth secretive.
SHHH! hehheh.

ohmy,baby and mummy talked from 1.30am to 4.05am?
haha.baby got training at 9am today.
wanted to meet him for lunch but im going out w lakshmi so yah.
oh, our conv was damn crap.till i had to self entertain.
haha.we sang songs, made animal sounds, laughed like shit.
tsk.best part is making up new lyrics.
haha.i modified his lah.his char siew bao not THAT interesting.but still funny.
but mine's better.
ENJOY!

(to the tune : NDP- home)
ARNOLD'S SAD LIFE :(

Whenever arnold takes the train,
He will go down to penny lane.
There are so many things to buy there,
Especially cheap underwear.
There are many colours and sizes,
Patterns and fragrance too!
And arnold wears his underwears,
just like his hero super man.

This, is, ar--nold chen,
Who thinks that just by wearing,
Underwear on the outside,
Will make him just like SUPERMAN!
He is such, an idiot,
Who thinks that he is handsome,
But actually, he looks super retarded
And he is just, ARNOLD CHEN ____ ______

haha, baby, dont get angry when u see this keh?
HAHAHA, mummy loves you so much she feels like bullying YOU.
HEH, jokingjoking.we still need to think of another song!:D


rahh.post when im back later.ohmy,orchard phobia!
mon i went w jer.
tue i went w dee.
wed stayed at home(i think cause i cant rmb where i went)
thur i went w jnrs and snrs.
fri i went w baby and twinn.
today i need to go orchard collect sm stuff.
RAAAAH!
Time: 8:06 AM

okayokay! im super super happy today!

-photo taken down on baby's request.pfft.-

REALLY! (:
first things first.
blahblahblah.
jeff called me and talked to me for almost an hour?
or was it half an hour?
but still! he talked until i couldn't go bathe!

after he hung up, baby called.
telling me to meet earlier -___-
then he also dont want put down to let me bathe!heh.
so i rushed (baby, be honoured!) and went to meet him.
HAHAHA.omg it was damn funny okay?

okay, it's the first time i met him.
and before he met me he was like 'im scared'
then he met me he was like -looks at me, gimme the oh no look and turned away-
I STARTED LAUGHING AND LAUGHING and i think people at the mrt station thought i was mad.
but seriously damn funny.
he tried to open his mouth but when he does, i laugh and laugh again.
I AM SORRY BABY BUT YOU ARE SO COMICAL.
HEH. i dont know lah.

kept laughing and making fun of him.omg.
and we took pictures!
my hot sexy baby (he self proclaim)
nahahah.its super super funny lah.

he din talk much to me at first but i kept laughin at him and talking crap.
then he finally open his mouth to talk shit w me.
NAHAHA.and ur butt damn fat lah u rugger!
cause i kept making fun of me and i was sitting beside him.
so when he got jacked by me, he will go HMMPH and use his big fat butt to push me.
wth -____-

anw, we went to ps and walk walk.cause i needed to wait for twinn's reply on whether he wanna watch movie w us. twinn just came back okay! i think? are you back twinn? :/
oh oh,then we kept fighting.super hilarious.
and i told him the ghost story.
the one which i told in class and alot of ppl screamed.

OMG! i told that to baby and i tricked him saying it was a wit's game.
then when i scared him, he LITERALLY JUMPED AND RAN AWAY AS FAST AS HE COULD.

he really ran mind you.
i was like omg.first time got ppl RUN away.and i kept laughin and laughin.
and he was really really scared.then i kept spooking him out.
ohmy,i cant stop laughin.

and we just kept teasing each other.
and we both bought the same badges lah.
i buy one okay? poof.so nonsense.
and it's super hilarious.
i think we were a pair of idiots lah.

and we went to dont know what shop and tried sunglasses.
YOU DONT LOOK HOT IN THEM BABY!
oh oh oh! and and he dont know what alot of things are!
and he run like he's in rugby! hohoho.
and and and he was wearing a shirt which says 'i'm a slow learner'
NAHAHAHA.

anw, twinn met us at ps and we train-ed down to orchard and walked to lido to catch 'step up'
the whole theater was laughing.
and i felt really happy okay? really really happy everything was sorted out.
thankyou so much (:
oh oh oh.and u know! both twinn and baby are scared of tickles.
so through the movie, i got bored and attacked both of them randomly.
OHMY! fun fun. but baby kept sms-ing his gf.pooof.
YOU WASTING MONEY LAH!
heh.and my my it was nice. both bullying them and everyth lah.
i was so so happy okay?

then after that, BABY ps me go meet his gf.wth.
I DONT CARE! next fri when i go out w you, u cant ps me hor!
so twinn and i just went take blahblahblah.
heh.then we went our seperate ways.

OH! my ph went flat DURING the movie.
i dont know why! ):
i only managed to on it a few times only for a short while each time.
and twinn and i din manage to take photos.
nehmind.
TOMORROW I BRING CAM JUST IN CASE KEH? :D

then then then, i was in the train leaning on the pole thing there when this woman boarded it.
then then then, she go hold the pole where my shoulder was.
and i got there first so too bad.
then then then she not happy.she kept trying to push my shoulder away.
i refused to budge and pressed on her fingers.
BITCH! u have only ur knuckles strength when i can use my full body weight lah.
use ur damn brain.
guesss what she did. SHE TRIED SCRATCHING ME that f bitch.

but too bad.was wearing a jacket so i cant feel it.
but she got it from me.
i pretended to sleep and when the train was moving i kept slamming on her fingers.
TOO BAD WOMAN! and she got pissed off she hit my shoulder alot of times.
trust me, i was about to flare up lah. nearly shouted at her.
i was ready to say aloud infront of everyone
EH MADAM, MAY I KNOW WHY DO YOU KEEP SCRATCHING AND HITTING MY SHOULDER FOR?
damnn.

then she TSK super loudly but i couldnt care less.
not my fault.
if u're on the train BEFORE me and i slam ur fingers, im in the wrong.
but WOMAN, get this right.
i got on it first and i have more priority to stick to the pole then u.
pole snatcher.TSK.

then she got a seat and sat down.
and i PURPOSELY made sure she was looking at me, and i did a sweeping action with my hand.
like she dirtied the jacket and im sweeping the dirt away.i did that super obviously okay?

okayokay, then i ran home.and reached at 7.cause i needed to meet jeff for dinner before he went for tuition. and i know he tried calling me but no batt!
so i rushed home.charged my ph, called him and only charging my ph for 5mins, i went out of the house again.
then passed by bball court and saw jiahong and jiaheng playing bball.
itchy fingers lah!

pfft.then had dinner.
and jeff was ridiculed by a 7 year old boy.omg damn cute.
i laughed till i couldnt eat.
as in, i ate only 3/4?
and i din eat breakfast nor lunch.so yah.
till now, im still damn full lah.

and after that i went to bball court while jeff went for tuition.
HAHAH.got one cute guy there okay?
as in really cute.
hahah.but forget it. im not interested.
he is just pleasing to the eye :D

okay.im done w today.
cant wait til tmr.going out w lakshmi dear (finally!)
and maybe meeting dolt head darling and sk and MAYBE twinn (for dinner).
Time: 8:17 PM

twinn no longer exists.
actually he still does.but i just dont want him to exist.
not now, maybe not next time either.
i just realised he's not coming back.
maybe until next year or smth.MAYBE.he will come back.
and be my twinn again.

after talking to rachel. wanted to talk to someone else somemore.
called baby and he was sleeping (surprisingly) and he was mumbling mumbling.blaah.
couldnt get tian.ohwells.

i literally cried myself to sleep.
din off the lights.din set timer for the aircon.
till my mum suddenly barge into my room and switched off my aircon at 6plus.
and she realised the lights and everyth are on.scolded me.
told me that if it happens again, she's taking away my ph.

was suppose to play bball at 7 today.
but i cancelled it before i cried myself to sleep.
no mood to play lah.

everything's so mumbo jumbo jumbled up in my head.
i cant wait to go taiwan.
least i can relax myself and kinda shut myself up from the outside world.
i miss someone but im not saying who.
it's a HIM.
nope, not clem.someone else.

emo shit might be gettin into me again.
thank god im going out w baby later.
takes my mind of things.
i guess.he's knows im super super upset lah.
but he msg me this morning saying 'Hahaha cheer up! Dun show me a gloomy face later. Smile! So i'll meet you around -?'
pfft.told him i wont lah. -sticks a fake smile on my face.

raaah.doubt he can stay w me for dinner lah.
i dont wanna go home.
day time i can be super high and everyth.
comes to night time i feel emo shit creeping into me.

RAHH.wanna goout w baby NOW!
dont wanna think of stuff.but blaaah! he's golfing.wth.
i told him that if he can golf i'll laugh and laugh and laugh.poof.

i will post about going out with baby later.yepp.


the way we are now, i can tell you that nothing good will come out of it.
trust me on this,even if u dont trust ME, trust my sixth sense.
things will get uglier than it is now.
but if u really want me to let go, i can.
however it doesnt mean that we've gotta be in this state.
we can continue where we left off.
im serious.something i never told u last night.
if we continue where we left off, i can let go more easily.
if u do it this way, im sorry.
i cant help but hate you.
strong word to use but yes.i WILL stop and let go.
but it carries a word HATE.

okayokay, im suddenly happy.do you know why?
PHOTOS! heh.like i said.photos always make me happy :D
just done putting all the photos tgt.so yah.
im kinda in a better mood after seeing photos lah(:



Time: 10:20 AM

i officially claim at this time.
12 midnight.
im crying myself to sleep.
only i cant get to sleep.

i hardly talk about my past on my blog already right?
i guess the rest knows why and where i talk about them.
but now, i shall just talk.cause i cant stop crying.

guys i love, can never be the ones to love me back and have a lasting relationship with me.
guys i treasure as friends can never do the same to me.
okay, maybe not only guys, friends also.

i have 2 drawers in my room.
one is locked, one is not.
both contain precious memories.
i want to prevent them from getting full know?
cause i want something that lasts.
not something to become memories.

i had such a temptation to open the locked one just now.
read thru my diaries at a certain period of time.
when i just cried. dont know.
cried and cried.
memories broke the gate holding them back.
and they came flooding in.
one by one.day by day.memory by memory.

sweet ones, nasty ones, happy ones, painful ones.
the feeling of separation really weakens me ALOT.
people say im strong, i tell them im not.
people say i can pick myself up again, but i tell them i cant.

my ex-boyfriends always say,
im really really nice and i really make them feel loved.
something they never felt before.

im asking myself now. ever ********************** have i loved someone else PROPERLY?
sometimes, im loving someone for the sake of loving.
yes, i loved two other guys after ******************************.
but still, turns out ---- seperation.

people say i flirt, well maybe?
define flirt.
i know what i am okay?
i don't flirt.
just that i force myself to like someone in order to forget someone else.
that's what ive been doing over these few years.
i know it's stupid.
but please lah.im not strong emotionally okay?
hurt, pain, tears, everyth just pulls me down.

right now, as im typing.
tears are just flowing like a tap left open.
i dont know why.
i just wanna stop.
i sometimes wonder, why am i still living here?
why indeed.

emo shit is getting into me.
f lah.dont like the feeling coming back to me.
the fear of rejection.
and the pain of seperation.




dont tell me you love me anymore.
cause i know it can never be true.
or maybe, i just dont wanna trust you already.
Time: 12:00 AM

something's just not right.

okay,today went to orchard.
had to leave the house super early cause clem was going to renew his passport.
and he wanted me to go with him.
so had to rush and bathe and everything.
then met him.

he's sick and having bad flu.
tried to avoid standing close to him cause i din wna fall sick at this time.
or else no going to taiwan.
but still, raaah. i seriously dont want anyth to happen now.
i just wanna think things through okay?

then got off at cityhall and changed train.
then reached orchard at around 11am?
went taka to shop.
bought a really nice pair of sunglasses.
but pity they ran out of black.
so i bought blue.but still really nice (:
which made me happy!

budden after that, i realised i spent alot of money already.
like 30 over?
then went back to orchard mrt to meet sam and wait for our juniors.
and we went to taka to have lunch.
i just bought 3 mini slices of bread (in sandwich form) with cheese and ham.

i din like it lah.
firstly, i hate bread.
secondly, i dont eat ham.
thirdly, the cheese tasted weird.
so basically, i din like the mini sandwich at all.
but i still ate two.last one i kept for dinner.

sat there eating my sandwich and laughin about everyth.
something made me super super upset but i wont say who and why.
then we left for cine where we met gero and bee.
and i saw francis and his 'gf'
and i saw sofi and his gf.
-_________-

dont know lah.we watched casino royale.
and after that i was in a super bad mood.
gero knew.
cause i was jumping up and down and fanning my eyes.
so as not to cry.
then luckily i had my sunglasses.then i just wore them.
but gero said no use cause my nose was red.RAHH.

but still, i told myself i can do it.
if i could do it for years, i can do it for a day.
so i did lah. as to doin what, some will know, some will not.
so yeah.after movie, 07 guys and bee,sam,ting and me went to eat at vila-ge.
i din eat though.and the smell was super tempting and everyth.
but i din.

after we left, i ate my last piece of bread but threw halfaway cause i was sick of it.bleh.
then we (adrian, hongyew and i) cabbed to JE to bowl.
3 of us bowled two games.the third game only adrian and i.
and 2 of my fingernails broke.
damn badly.
one was bleeding.so yeah.
never have long fingernails when u bowl lah ):

and after bowling was alr 9plus? so took bus home.and yeah.
saw renny, teck, kenneth, jianwei, ah di that whole grp of bengs AGAIN.
saw them ytd.then today see them again.
i felt super sad ): cause ive not been a good god sis to them lah.
anw,pictures tmr.too moody now.

now im just feeling sad and confused.
i dont know.
i saw things im not suppose to see.
i said things im not suppose to say.
i dont know.
this sucks big time. just wanna cry.


sorry gero i couldnt talk to you.
i really wanted to tell u some stuff.
tmr night okay? love.
ohwells.shall wait for rachel to call me later.
hope she does.
or i'll just cry myself to sleep tonight
Time: 10:55 PM

DENNIS IS MY BOYFRIEND OKAY? :D

hehh.damn nonsense lah deeeee. rahh.
but but but, im really not used to talking about blahblah w you!
: / it feeels super super weird and i dont wna be a bitch about it.
but still I LOVE YOU!
im actually glad everyth between us is so so GOOOOD.
i really love you okay? (: i still wanna go out with you, pok head.

anyw, suppose to have conf last night but GERORO fell asleep.
awww darling, how come u ps your boyfriend.scandal ah?
HAHAHA.joking joking.
but anw, she said she will call me tonight so yea.

so i talked to rach instead.
then blahblah.then she wanted to go sleep cause she has dance rehearsals tmr.
poor rach.-pats ur head.
i miss prank calling you in class lah, tho u sit right infront of me.
HEH.

after that marcus called me.it's been nearly a year and a half since i talked to him?
i was just looking thru my ph and saw his name so i msg.
then he called me after rach put down.
rahh.he said after so long i still never change.
and he claims he knows me very well.
so i asked what's my fave colour and drink.
and he doesnt know.tsktsk.

but yeah, after awhile i hung up.
firstly, i dont like talking to him over the ph.
secondly, my brain was dead.
i've been sleeping just 6 hours everyday.

stupid body alarm clock works only in holidays and not school days.dammnnn.
im going orchard soon.ohwells.till then!
Time: 8:23 AM

today's so screwed.
im trying so hard not to think of stuff im suppose to think about.
cause sometimes just thinking of it, makes me cry, adds more burden.

like what anh said, i should take a break off everything.
rahhh.this sucks lah.dont feel like talking to anyone unless someone calls me.

so i went out with mummy.
at first she dampened my mood.
but when we went to buy winter clothings, i got happy.
cause i tried out everything.
from jackets to hats to scarf to gloves to everythin!
it was super fun.

mummy said i cant buy them cause it's for the winter in like paris.
i told her i wanna go and she said ask my korkor.
KORKOR! i know ure reading my blog!
can we go paris? PLEEEEASE?

then after that went home, stone.
and went out again to have dinner with qingyan kor.
thankyou for treating me!
omg i feel so bad but ure really really nice!
we talked about everyth and yeah.it's great to catch up w you again!

okay, my mood is abit better but still not good.
i dont know.i wanna cry.
but there'll be nobody's shoulder there for me to lean on.
Time: 7:48 PM

everything's haywire.
and i have a feeling that when twinn comes back, things will get worse.
anyone wanna bet?

i can be a philosopher.

to someone: seriously lah, will u only wake up when i scold you? must i scold u everyday?
told u that this is not the kind of life i lead. if u want me to change so much, go find someone else.


IM NOT YOUR PUPPET

photos as usual cheers me up (: yepp.
oh, and i changed the song of my blog already :D

Blink 182 - Dammit Lyrics

It's alright

to tell me

what you think

about me

I won't try

to argue

or hold it

against you

I know that

you're leaving

you must have

your reasons

The season

is calling

your pictures

are falling down



The steps that

I retrace

the sad look

on your face

The timing

and structure

did you hear

he fucked her?

A day late

a buck short

I'm writing

the report

On losing

and failing

when I move

I'm flailing now



And it's happened once again

I'll turn to a friend

Someone that understands

Sees through the master plan



But everybody's gone

And I've been here for too long

To face this on my own

Well I guess this is growing up



Well I guess this is growing up



And maybe

I'll see you

at a movie

sneak preview

You'll show up

and walk by

on the arm

of that guy

And I'll smile

and you'll wave

we'll pretend

it's okay

The charade

it won't last

when he's gone

I won't come back



And it'll happen once again

You'll turn to a friend

Someone that understands

And sees through the master plan



But everybody's gone

And you've been there for too long

To face this on your own

Well I guess this is growing up



Well, I guess this is growing up [4x]

Well, I guess this is growing up                   

Time: 12:14 AM

[/EDITED]

poof.i had a bad dream.
and i woke up at 7.10am?

last night he msg me saying that he needed me to think thru stuff.
HELLO? ive been thinking thru since like 6months ago?!
dumb lah.and so i replied yea, talk after his exams and it's not gonna be nice stuff.
ohwells.

will go to sch w him later and see how.
i shant say anyth YET. his final paper on wed.
and i dont know if he can play badminton w me after that.

im kinda really happy lah.
more time to spend w my friends (:

and really really thankyou anh! for not finding me a bother and having THOUSANDS of BRB.
heh.OHOH, i bought nail polish and repainted my nails AGAIN.
im no longer black and white so anh, im no longer a PANDA :D:D:D


now now let's see my schedule:



after this date i cant remember alr.pfft.
i so wanna go shopping. TEMPTATION.
OHOH.ytd was really really funny lah.
jer and i went into alot alot of sports shop and he copied my words.
cause i told him JEREMY! I like this demin jacket that is 99bucks. and x'mas is coming.HINT HINT :D

then he followed me and copied my words.and we were like saying across the sports shops in a kinda loud voice with all the HINT HINTS. hehhhehehehehehehehe.
anw, im bored lah.wth.

okay, so basically i went to IMM with my mum.
and i got into a bad mood cause of pocket money.
wth. so i had a black face all the way.

AND DONT GO GIANT BUY CLOTHES!
mummy brought me there to buy jeans.
then buy alr, i passed baleno.
and there the jeans was 1.90 less than GIANT.pfft.

after that, i refused to eat.told her i will go sch and eat.but obviously i din.
i din eat breakfast.unless u wanna count one small chicken wing (:
so left for school and called denise.
cause i dont know why im going to sch for when clement doesnt even wanna see me!

pooof.so i had to wait for denise to get ready and everyth.
and since i din wna go orchard alone and wait for her there.
i just stoned for around an hour outside my school's side gate.

STONE STONE STONE.
alot of clement's classmates saw me so i just waved to them and talked.raaahhh.

then finally denise was done and i had to wait for the bus again cause i missed 4?
and i thought i will be later than her but still, i was earlier.yepp.
then we just wander in orchard.talked and everyth :D
somehow it's weird when we talk about sean.
i dont know babe! sean was like 2 years ago? i cant rmb much about him!



AWWW! I LOVE YOU DEEEE! (:

yah, then i bought present for AHEM.heh.super cute keh?
oh, i only had 10 bucks left after buyin the present and i wanted to go cut hair.
till my mum told me to buy my own dinner.
so i cant cut today ):

clem's in a bad mood cause his test was shit.
hurhur.refused to meet me and everyth.
till i told him to WAIT at yewtee cause i was otw there.
surprisingly, both our trains arrived at yewtee at the same time.
hmm.then yeah, ohwells.

i dont know.
even he knows that a few days later, we're bound to quarrel over smth again.
i know that too.
im so sick of quarrelling for nuts lah.
pfft.i dont know if i wanna go out with him.so nonsense.

BE PROUD!

i just ate my dinner.
a packet of hokkien mee.not bad keh?
i wasnt even feeling hungry :/

I MISS TWINN LAH.
sorry for the randomness but yeah.i do miss twinn ):
Time: 7:47 AM

[/EDITED]

thanks to anh, gero, rach, jer and lynette for being there talking to me ytd when i was in emo shit.
it means alot to me. thankyou.

pfft.but im stil not eating. mummy bought dumpling for me.
i thought i could eat it.then after drinking a cup of warm water, i felt full.
so i din eat.

3 more hours to meeting jer.
im glad i could revise phy last night.though it wasnt for long.
cause i revised at 1plus.then i felt sleepy.

photos make me happy.i dont know why.
cause in photos there are smiles. and it's nice seeing smiles.
i finally got the photos from rach's cam.
and made another collage.
not really a COLLAGE tho, but still, smth like that.
i cant be bothered to do it properly cause internet is screwed up.

i dont wanna eat lah.
3 class outings to go.someone save me lah!

this was the first one i made which does not consist of all the photos.


this is the second one which consists of almost all the photos rach sent me.


right, just came back not long ago after going to have lunch with jer.
it's like i cut only 6 nails leaving the other four long.
reasons: wearing contacts, playing guitar and piano and cause it's special to have some long some short.

alright, its weird but yeah.i went to sleep cause it was raining and it was far from 2pm.
woke up at 1.30pm? i was like shit and jer told me he was on his way.
and i found out power tripped in my house.poof.
at least i wasnt THAT late lah huh? then we took bus to centre pt.

jer forced me to eat.
i ordered the meal which consists of coke, soup and one small pan pizza (4 pieces)
i can drink drinks but i din feel like eating.he made me eat three slices.
he took the last one. but i dont think i will be eating dinner.
dont feel like eating dinner le.

then went to see his tennis rackets.isit spelt like that or with a q?
hmm.anyways, yeah. then walked to herren.then walked to cine.
then walked to taka.
poof.damn nonsense.

JER CANT BE AND ACTOR AND I CAN MAKE YOU LAUGH.
MY BOYFRIENDS ARE FROM IMH BUT YOUR GIRLFRIENDS ARE FROM THE GRAVEYARD.
I AM RETARDED BUT YOU ARE AS RETARDED AS ME CAUSE YOU SAID SACARSISM WHEN THERE IS NO SUCH WORD, JUST LIKE ME! :D

okay, damn crap. we talked alot lah.
with alot of insults flying and stuff.but yeah, its fun (:

JUST ATE ONE BIG BOWL OF NOODLES.
mummy forced me to eat them.
im feeling super bloated and fat lah.
omg, so full!
Time: 11:35 AM

/emo shit.

i dont want to eat okay?
NO NO NO!
mummy wants me to finish my fruits.
cause i din eat dinner nor breakfast.
only lunch.


BUT I DONT WANNA EAT!
emo shit emo shit.
Time: 9:23 PM

[EDITED]

poof. last night was fun.
told gero to call me, then told me to call me, then conf.
then after that hongyew called. and conf again.
OMG.it's so fun lah.except both gero and bee got really tired.

bee is really really blur lah.ohmy.
gero changed her voice and bee couldnt recognise.GOSH.
and alot of other stuff which i cant rmb.
and bee's proud that hongyew is the ONLY person that's scared of her -___-

bee hung up at around 11plus? but gero talked to me till about 12plus?
sitting on the floor.and scaring her mum.
awww, my dear gero, i love you :D
then she hung up too cause she has canoeing today!

so hongyew talked to me till 3plus.
and it happened AGAIN.
it happened once when i was talking to twinn.
really really tired then my mind cant conc on what he is saying.
and poor twinn.hahah.omg.
then it happened when i was talking to hongyew!

im so sorry! i told u i cant lie down on my bed.
i will go bonkers. HOHO.
but i still managed to catch what u said okay?
be honoured x)

OH! i was drawing my timetable for this two months just now.
AND I REALISED IM GOING OUT W BABY ARNOLD ON FRI.
AND IM ALSO GOING OUT W HONGYEW, GERO, AND ADRIAN ON THE SAME DAY.

pooof.how? anw, im goin to study now.
REALLY HARD.hols are gna pass damn fast.trust me.
esp when im in taiwan ):

MY INTERNET IS SO SCREWED.
and since im not talking to me, i only can wait till my bro comes home from chalet.
mummy's irritating.i just woke up from my nap and she accuses me of smth.
but least she finally will apologise for once cause i told her that i dont care if we cant talk to each other.

that's what is happening to me and my dad now. if he apologises, i will. cause i din say the first wrong word (in fact i din say ANYTH wrong). so yeah, i think im going to taiwan w/o talking to him still.

mummy thinks im gonna starve myself till i become sick.
not my fault im eating so little now.
and though i wake up damn early, i will skip breakfast and lunch.
except for the fact that she will scream at me to eat lunch :/
pfft.dont ask me why. i just dont feel like eating anyth these few days.

and mummy saw the dress i bought in my neo.
NAGGED about it.but in the end she agreed to let me wear lah.
pfft.as long as it's DECENT.gaaaah!

mum forced me to eat porridge now.she says ive been eating really really little this few days.
raaah.i wish i was in school lah.can skip breakfast and lunch. and just go home have dinner.
): dont know! she keeps suspecting jer and i have smth going on.
WTH?

anyw, im looking forward to going out w jer tmr.
it's like the first time im going out w my friend in 2 days?
IM SORRY.but holidays to me is going out EVERYDAY! :D
Time: 9:08 AM

YAY! i just came back from my aunt's house. HEH.
AND I SAW MY NIECE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN LIKE SO LONG!
her name's celest and she's very cute and she likes sitting on my lap :D
omg, i cant carry toddlers smaller than5yrs old! older than 5 i can.
but she is just 1 yr plus. but i still managed anyway (: awww. i love her!

see the pictures of her and u'll know she's so so cute :D:D


double chinnie!


told u she likes sitting on my lap :D


huuuuur. who's taking my pic? o.O


MMMM! food time!


SHE POSED FOR THIS PIC KEH? i told her to hug bunny!

my uncle and aunt says she likes me! cause normally she wont go so close to people she is seeing for the first time.awwww. i love you celest (:

and i got my winter clothing from my cousin alr. damn nice.and im bringing a SUPER big luggage.uncle thought it is shared between my mum. then i was like no! it's for me only.
then he asked why. and i said cause i was going to buy ALOT ALOT of stuff from there.
and also to hide clothes from my mum which i bought from taiwan lah.
i think korkor and i will be sharing a room so it's okay. he wont tell mummy that i bought clothes secretly (:
Time: 4:43 PM

okay, im up super early today, dont ask me why.
after i finish typing this post i've gotta go plan and finalise the details for the junior senior outing.
this post will be about ytd.

rach met me at bukit batok at 1.30pm and we took train down to orchard.
AT JURONG EAST HOWEVER -cackles with evil laughter.
the wind howled and blew. rain splashed onto the platform.
and rachel's skirt FLEW.hahah.
rach was wearing the kind of skirt that...i forgot that word.but yeah.
it was short and it flew.so badly she had to sit down.that wasnt all.

this chee ko pek sitting by the side kept staring at her legs.
i was super irritated by him.pooof.
rachel's MY girl keh? wth.so i got so pissed off that he kept staring at her i sat BESIDE rach.
trying to hold her skirt down and blockin his view.

best part was when the train come.she still souldnt control her skirt!
i had to stand behind her and when the train doors open, she ran inside.
HEH.super funny lah. and inside the train the chee ko pek kept looking at us and i felt like murdering him.pooof.HEH.luckily the hem of my dress has elastic.so no matter what, it won't FLY! :D

so yeah, that's the story.then we reached orchard and our, or rather my shopping begun.
SHUJUN IS NOT GOING SHOPPING ANYMORE UNTIL SHE GOES TAIWAN OR SOMEONE ELSE AGREES TO PAY FOR HER CLOTHES. i think im poorer byyy..45bucks ):
bought one off-shoulder, and two tank tops. poof.in the photos later, u will see one photo with rach and i in new clothes. I SO DAMN FREAKINGLY LIKE THE SKIRT AND THAT SHIRT!
but both of them can add up to more than 50 bucks la ): so i cant buy.

then we kept shopping and shopping. and i so so love the demin jacket okay?
RACHEL! x'mas is coming! -hint hint.
it cost 100 minus 1 buck can? pfft. but i'll see if taiwan got sell.
i have a feeling korkor and i are goin to taiwan with 1 luggage and coming back with 5 each.
HEH.

anw, we walked around taka, till we decided that it's time we went to herren.
and so we went.and more shopping.that's where i got my third and LAST piece of shirt.
pfft.i was telling rachel, no more shopping! im going addicted.

OHOH! and im so super addicted to stripes! and i saw alot alot of nice nice stripes! love.im so so in love w/stripes.MY STRIPES!

after that we took neos and decided that it was time to leave.and so we did. and it was raining but SHUJUN AND RACHEL TO THE RESCUE! we brought umbrellas so we crossed over to cine. and bought movies tickets to watch THE COVENENT! it's really really nice.i cant watch horror shows for nuts lah.cause i wil freak myself out in the end.but it's not THAT horror.only scary thing was those sudden parts where the hideous spirit of the dead boy will pop up.

raaah.but it's so nice and sweeet.awww.i love it okay! thankyou rachel for DRAGGING me to go watch.haha.

after that we went to eat dinner at BK around 7plus.and so we continued more shopping. this time rach tried out the clothes.cause i am NOT going to me TEMPTED to buy more.HEH. and then we went to take train home.yepp. it's nice lah.thanks rachel (:

hahah.but still! our sentosa my dear! and overnight.pfft. should i ignore twinn? hmm. i dont know.but still im happy. and im going to do class stuff now :D







THIS IS THE JACKET WHICH RACHEL LOVED SO MUCH AND THE SHIRT AND SKIRT I LOVED!
Time: 8:51 AM

[/EDITED]

mummy's naggy. telling me to go talk to my dad and ask him to go shooting and archery with me -.-
no thank you. anw, i told her i wanna join bowling.cause hongyew said he wanna join too.and since im bored, i shall. omg, what if i can win sean khua in bowling in a few year's time? o.o
HMMM.denise, would that be a miracle or what? HEH.


it seems weird lah.like suddenly my twinn is gone. no one to talk to me at night. THEN POOF!
hongyew started talking to me.anw, he's my junior! hahah.then after hongyew put down, which was before midnight (i find it early keh), then my baby arnold called!
*note: all are ACS(I) o.o

HAHAHA.i know dark secrets about my baby okay?
HE HAS GOT A GF AND HE HAS BEEN HIDING FROM ME FOR NEARLY 5MONTHS.
pffft.stupid lah.hahahah, but i cant say who it is. pooof. it's a secret and im gna keep it.
but still, ARNOLD CHEN! YOU LIED TO ME.damn you.HEH.

oh, and i dont know lah, hong yew and i talked about njc stuff? that's why we ended up agreeing to go bowling together :D hahah.but still, ohwells. i dont know. but i always wanted to learn bowling. least i can win my bro and dad. EH, i did win my dad before okay.but stilll....pffft.

then baby and i talked rubbish.cracked stupid jokes (as expected) and i kept suan-ing him x)
cause his classmate or school mate told me that my baby sucked and he blahblah alot of bad things lah huh? then i told him.and baby said his self-esteem dropped to zero.HAHAHAH!
like it will ever drop to that state.his ego so big! and and and, it was really funny when he told me he got gf.

BABY: ehh, wo you mi mi yao gao su ni (i've got a secret to tell u).
ME: hmm.yah?
BABY: wo you nu peng you le (i've got a gf already)
ME: haha.okay, since when?
BABY: since june.
ME: WAH! thanks alot lah! been lying to me all these months huh?
BABY: hehhehhehhehehehhe.

anw, he promised to treat me movie and im supppose to treat him KFC -.-
we're going out on the 17th.nahahahaha.
AND BABY YOU BETTER REMEMBER WHAT YOU SAID.
hahah, if i cry it's all your fault hor!
heh, i told him that if he kept suan-ing me, i will cry infront of him.
so he promised that i will be happy :D

pfft.going out w/rachel later. rachie rachie.HOHO.
i dont care alr. im going to buy new clothes later!
cant take it! i've got no nice clothes to wear out before i go taiwan):
and in taiwan im going to buy lots and lots of nice clothes! yayyy!

gero = bestf (:
heartbreakers = ehhh, byebye lah.

OKAY I AM BACK! :D
omg im just so tired that i dont know what to type.
can i type tmr? yes, shujun says can. and tmr there will be photos!
rach and i took damn lots okay?<3
im sleeepy.HELP!
Time: 8:31 AM

[/edited]

OKAY! I AM CONFRIMED AN OGL! and THAT means. I HAVE GOTTA START STUDYING TODAY!

promised mr eng that i wont let my grades drop way bottom anymore. so im going to work super hard.and once clem finishes his A, i think i will spend the days left before i go Taiwan to study.he's coming over to teach me so yeah.then after i come back from taiwan i think i will go out and also have days to study.yeah.i feel damn mugger lah. but it was a really good feeling when i saw that this semester's GPA wwas 3.04 though i havent reached 3.5 but yeah. im happy (:

OGL! yay! hahah.i think it's really really fun. :D:D
ESP MASS DANCE! huiting! can u be my partner again? it was so fun.
except that during dance night i couldnt find u and u couldnt find me ):

anyway to OH SIXERS who read my blog. WARNING! deadline is tomorrow!
pfft.i have a feeling tmr evening i need to call up alot of people.RAAAH.

let's see.im going on holiday for a week.then after that i've got OGL camp.pfft.
class outing class outing class outing.
I AM ORGANISING THREE! heh.

one for junior senior. i feel like crashing their movie thing lah.
one for seniors ONLY. :D
one for 6/1 which i seriously have no idea how to go on.( i shall ring up all of them soon)

twinn is GONE. he went to camp. pfft.lousy.
i wana go too.but my mum will never allow.raaah.
KOALA! bring back a KOALA for me :D
hohoho.

im suppose to go my aunt's house to get winter clothes.but mummy said celest (my baby COUSIN i think) is there so she wont be free.raaah.winter clothes! yay!
twinn says he can lend me all his thick thick winter clothes.but i dont think my luggage bag will have enough space HEH.

not fair, i dont get to go out today ):
another day to rot at home.pooof.

I MISS TWINN ): really really! how?poof.lousy.
was talking to hong yew on the ph just now! :D
super funny. i feel like making all my juniors call me every night to talk.
evil me.

ohwells, im going out with rach tmr.pooof, YOUR CAMERA BABE!
goodnight world.
and i HATE annon taggers.damn.no courage to type ur name then dont post.
Time: 10:06 AM